Vivid Dream Reality 1

by Savannah Maun

  She smiled at us. “Pleased to meet you, I prefer Janice.” She shook our hands and we introduced ourselves. “What interesting eyes you have Andi. Are they contacts?”

  “No. They are part of the reason why we need a doctor.” I then gestured for Roni to continue the conversation.

  “Yes. Janice, we need your help and it is mainly regarding these two.”

  “How can I help? You suggested strongly that it would help out the transgender community.”

  “I wasn't lying. These two had an accident, that may be repeatable and the result is changes that may interest you. We don't want to go into the accident itself, but the result of it and its potential applications could be astounding. What we need you for, is to measure those changes and legally document them for us.”

  “Umm...this is sounding very vague. I'm going to need more than that. I am very busy and fitting something else into my schedule will be tough as it is.”

  “We will tell you more, but I will be honest, not everything. Our last doctor broke confidentiality and we have been advised to keep the nature of the accident a secret. I will tell you what I can. I am presuming that we are now under your confidentiality regulations. We are paying you for your time here, I believe.”

  “Andi and Veronica are my potential patients that I have been paid a generous, thank you, by the way, fee for consulting with. Yes, I am now bound by medical confidentiality. You know, breaking the law is not covered by confidentiality, don't you?”

  “We are not breaking the law,” Roni confirmed.

  “I have never and will never break faith with my patients. Please feel free to discuss anything, non-criminal that is, and I will keep it to myself.”

  “What do you know of VDR?” Roni asked.

  “I have never indulged myself, mainly because it is so expensive, but I have been told about it by my patients.”

  “Have they talked about how they present in the games?” Roni continued.

  “They may have done.”

  “Relax. We are not testing you. I, myself, as you may have noticed, am transgender. In VDR my body image shows me as male since I have not had the operation. In theory, if I have SRS, my body image will change, and I will show as a female. Looks don't change, illnesses don't change. What you are, and how you look, is how you present in VDR. With me so far? This should be similar to what you have heard,” Roni explained.

  “Yes and yes.”

  “The accident that Andi and Veronica had, changed their body image. When they log on, they look completely different from how they are now. The question we need you to answer, is if the body image is changed, does the body change to match? We know the reverse is true, but no one, until Andi and Vee, have had a body image different to their physical bodies.”

  “I err... don't know.”

  “Nor would we expect you, or for that matter, anybody, to know. This has become an experiment. What I can tell you, is that some changes have already occurred. We want to know, and detail legally these and any further changes,” Roni continued.

  “What changes have occurred? And why would this be important to the transgender community?”

  “You noted Andi's eye colour. Originally, Andi's eyes were brown, but his body image has lavender eyes.” I noticed Vee tense a little when Roni referred to me as he, and I think Roni noted it too. “I say his mind because that is what it was before the accident. Now his body image is a very female figure and everyone who meets him realizes that his mind is now female, so really it is her mind, despite a male physical body.”

  “So you are saying that if his eyes have changed colour...”

  “Her eyes,” Vee said firmly.

  “Sorry. If her eyes have changed colour, and her mind-body is female, it may change to match?”

  “That is what we need to find out, and that is what we need you to measure and observe,” Roni pointed out.

  “That would be incredible. I mean a natural gender change without surgery. It is almost unbelievable. And are you say this is repeatable?”

  “Potentially. We are a little off being able to try and repeat it. There may be two more new patients for you to observe shortly. We were thinking a demonstration would be in order. We have set up a VDR lounge where we can all spend one day on holiday. Seeing Andi and Vee's body images would give you an idea of what changes to look for and in 15 minutes real time, we can have a day to relax and discuss everything. Is that OK?”

  “Can I add a little experiment?” Janice asked.

  “What do you have in mind?”

  “Just before we go in VDR, I whisper something to Andi, then if a female character in the game knows what I have whispered, I will know it is her.”

  “Sure, but I can show you all the physical connections. It can't be anybody else. Still, that would be easy to do.”

  We all went to the lounge. I had been hoping we could resume the holiday that we had started. I wanted to see if Roni and Janice would appear in the adjoining rooms of the hotel I had chosen. It would make me more confident that the same would happen in Lagbit's world. Still, since Janice was unsure, it would probably be best if we all appear together in the plane landing at the airport like last time.

  Janice whispered in my ear. “To be or not to be, that is the question.”

  I nodded to say I had heard her. We both strapped on our helmet and woke up on the plane landing in Koh Samui again. As soon as I could, I went up to Janice and repeated her line. She nodded. “The lavender eyes do give it away. It couldn't be anyone else, despite how different you look.”

  This time we stayed together as a group. We could answer some of Roni and Janice's questions. It was strange to see Roni in a man's suit with a chest pushing out the front. I guessed she would be uncomfortable about it and ignored it as much as possible. Janice wanted to see us in our bikinis so that she would have the full view. We told her that we had taken an artist into VDR with us, who was drawing some pictures and had someone with a good memory record some measurements.

  After having a good look at us, we separated. I spent time with Vee, which I can never get enough of. Roni and Janice had their own discussions. We didn't see them again until we woke up in the VDR lounge.

  Chapter 24

  I woke up from the VDR and took the helmet off. I felt like there was something I was forgetting, but couldn't quite remember what it was. Vee was looking at me funny.

  “What?” I asked her.

  “How are you feeling?”

  Then it came to me. I usually felt so wrong when I woke up. I concentrated on my body. That sense of wrongness wasn't there. Because I was focussing I think I worked out what was different. Normally, I could feel my male bits. You become so used to feeling them that you ignore the sensation. When you put your mind to it, you can feel their presence. Pressure sensation from your thighs gently squeezing your testicles and your underwear touching your penis. Right now, nothing.

  “Alright. I need to go to the bathroom.” I needed to check this out. Before this had all happened, I think I would have been horrified. Right now, I felt a kind of elation. I rushed off to the bathroom and went into one of the stalls. I pulled down my trousers and pants and felt myself. Or at least I tried to. Completely numb, no sensation at all. Looking at them carefully they looked pretty withered. Smaller than I remembered and pale. I needed to speak to Vee about this and maybe the doctor as well.

  When I exited Vee was waiting for me. “What is it? No crying this time, that has to be good, right.”

  “I think so. Did Janice take on the job?”

  “Yes. She is going to come in tomorrow morning before her sessions start at her practice. I think we need to be here at 7.30am.”

  “Has she left yet? I think I need to speak to her.”

  Vee pulled out her phone and called Roni. After a quick conversation, Janice was on her way out but was now diverted back up to Roni's office and we headed there too.

  “Can you tell me what this is about?” Vee asked.
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  “Absolutely, but I would like to do it with Janice there as well.”

  “OK, I guess I can wait a few minutes.”

  We got to Roni's office before Janice had returned and I asked if there was a room where she could examine me tonight.

  “We haven't set anything up. She was going to give us a list of required equipment tomorrow. Why don't you talk to her in the meeting room and see what she says.”

  So we left Roni in her office and Janice, Vee and I met in the meeting room.

  “I'm sorry to delay you, doctor, but I noticed something when I came out of VDR and thought I better tell you and get your opinion.”

  “OK. What did you notice?”

  “This is a little embarrassing. Err... I've lost all sensation to my privates.”

  “OK, that does qualify as an emergency. I guess it could be very good or very bad.” She looked around. “This is not the best place for an examination. Let me just speak to Roni.” She left us to speak to Roni.

  “Wow. Are you freaked out? Are you scared?”

  “Vee, I feel strangely good about it. I suppose I really need to see a psychologist, but I think my mind just isn't male any more. The idea of not having any male bits is not an unpleasant one.”

  “I wonder if we can get Roni to find a transgender psychologist who specialises on gender issues. Can't hurt to ask.”

  Janice and Roni came back in and led us to a small room with no windows. A security guy met us there and was going to wait outside the door and make sure there would be no interruptions. There were a few computer banks in the room otherwise it was bare. Roni left us and Janice asked me if I wanted Vee present, which I did. Then she asked me to strip. I thought she would only want the bottom half off, so I took that off first, but she gestured with her hands to continue.

  Once I was completely naked, she walked around me carefully. Then palpated my breasts. I didn't think I had any, but she managed to gather a bit of tissue and kindly called them that. Then she got me to look at Vee over my shoulder and let her know when I felt her touching me, by a tap on her shoulder. She then touched me all over, but I couldn't see when she was going to. I presume she touched my privates, but if she did, I didn't know about it.

  “Not just numb, they look as though the blood supply has either been severely reduced or completely cut off. This leaves us in a difficult position. If we do nothing, they are likely to be permanently damaged. Please put your clothes back on.”

  I did as she asked. “Let's compare it to frostbite. If we leave things as they are, you are likely to lose both your testicles and your penis. I'm not sure what can be done to repair the damage and I am also unsure whether we should even try. What we really need to know is if there are any other changes that are not visible. And we need to know as soon as possible,” Janice continued.

  “Yesterday morning I had an MRI. I know we have retrieved the data, but I think it needs special software.”

  “Even with the software, we really need a radiologist. I look at MRIs and are trained in viewing them, but I don't look at them every day, so I rely on a radiologist report.”

  “Maybe we need to speak to Wren,” Vee said. “Weren't we told there could have been a radiologist report in amongst all that stuff that Dr Sinclair was forced to give us.”

  “Vee, why don't you see if you can do that, while I speak to the doctor.” The doctor had told us that she could not be privy to illegal activities and I am pretty sure what Wren had done was very illegal. By the way, Vee had spoken, I knew Vee had come to the same conclusion.

  While Vee was out of the room I quizzed Janice about other options.

  “Ideally, we want images from now. Roni told me that she had a radiologist she was interviewing tomorrow.”

  “How long do these radiology departments stay open to?”

  “In hospitals, they are open all night. There is a hospital near my clinic that I have a good relationship with. For the right money, I'm sure we could get to use their MRI machine. I'm not sure how trustworthy their radiologist is though,” Janice added.

  “Why don't we speak to Roni and see what she says,” I said, and when I didn't get any dissent, pulled out my phone and called Roni. Rather than talk on the phone, she came down. I explained where Vee was and our conversation. Roni got the details from Janice about the hospital and phoned them. Once they agreed in principle, she phoned Cathy Ferguson, her intended radiologist. She also had to involve a lawyer so Cathy could sign a non-disclosure agreement. Vee returned with Wren, who was going to accompany us to the hospital. She wanted to make sure any images were not stored elsewhere. and she would bring the raw data from the previous MRI and see if the software they had would allow us to see the previous images as well. Her team was still sieving through the data from Dr Sinclair and they didn't need her help for that.

  Janice's clinic and the hospital were a good hour away. We phoned Katie to let her know that we would be late and not to worry. Then we were off. We were also accompanied by the security guy, who sat in the front with the driver. Janice was the most concerned, Vee was picking up that vibe and was a little worried. I, on the other hand, felt great. Finally, my body was sorting itself out.

  We entered the hospital and followed the directions for the radiology department. We were then directed to the MRI machine. Cathy was waiting for us. Quite quickly I was in the machine waiting patiently. I knew that Wren would be on the computer security issue, Cathy and Janice would be consulting over the images and Vee would be chewing her nails.

  Once the images were done, I was allowed to get dressed and then waited with Vee in a small consulting room. We were joined a little while later by Janice. Cathy and Wren were doing other stuff.

  “We managed to view the previous MRIs and the new ones from today. There are quite a few images and it will take a long time to go over them completely. Cathy will need to be told a bit more to make more sense out of them. Right now, I think she is a very confused lady. The important thing is what do we need to do right now.”

  “Enough with the suspense. Please tell us,” Vee pleaded.

  “The previous MRI images appear to show the beginnings of a female reproductive system developing. The ones from today show an almost complete system, however, there are some unusual aspects. Don't ask about that, we need to look over them longer to answer any questions. Your penis and testicles appear to be dead tissue. There is no repairing them, so we are left with two options. We could surgically remove them or leave them. If we leave them, they could become infected, but there is no evidence of that at the moment. In my professional opinion, we should leave them, however, we should closely monitor them. Any signs at all and we need to know about it. I suspect they will just fall off at some point.”

  “Yes!” I said. Vee and Janice chuckled at me. I shrugged my shoulders. The heart wants what the heart wants.

  Chapter 25

  When we got back to the penthouse it was almost 11pm. Katie, bless her, was waiting up for us watching tele. Of course, she wanted to know all about it. I didn't really want to talk about my dangly bits so instead, I talked about the almost complete female reproductive system. The thing is she asked more and better questions than I had at the time. In the end, I had to admit my ignorance and promise to ask more questions tomorrow.

  I convinced Vee and Katie that I could log on for longer periods now. I didn't want to go for a two hours session since it was so late and we were going to have to get up so early. I thought a forty-five minute, three day game time session would be fine and then we would only need one more session before we reached Amilyf. Vee agreed and Katie insisted on staying up to see how I reacted after returning.

  Three days in Lagbit's world was a delight. The ability to be intimate with Vee was probably the most important aspect that I missed in the real world. I mean it was great to catch up with Myra, Holly, Ash and Kara, but nothing was as special as having nothing to do for hours except invent ways of pleasuring each other.

 
Myra had asked if we wanted to take Taigoa to the next level and we both were interested. So now one of our original team, Holly, Ash or Kara would partner up with us after our morning form and take it to the next level. What this meant was they would do a very slow attack and we would do the correct block followed by the next move in the sequence which was usually a strike. Over time the speed increased and the attacks varied. They told us it needed to be muscle memory, without thought.

  But all good things come to an end. At least I knew I would be back soon and for a longer stay. I lay next to my love and relaxed allowing sleep to come. I wasn't fighting it like I had previously, knowing the body I was returning to was almost complete.

  I woke up to the real world, released my headset and turned to look at Vee with a smile on my face. Next, I turned to face Katie who was dutifully watching from the doorway. I smiled at her and gave a thumbs up. I needed another snack to assuage my hunger and then we got ready for bed. We set an alarm for six am and drifted off in each other's arms, just like on Lagbit's world.