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by Thomas Lux

his head and shoulders, from the rear wall of a trench.

  Maybe he was heading for Germany, therefore

  it’s a French trench. Or,

  equally likely, he was heading toward France

  and poking through the rear

  of a German trench.

  Moles live in most dirt in most places.

  Some moles have noses shaped like stars.

  This one does not.

  He’s a regular mole, a clock-puncher

  mole: wake up, dig, eat, sleep, wake up…

  This mole emerges,

  blinking. Sergeant Falkenhayn sees him,

  or Corporal Chrétien.

  The mole sees little

  because he does not need to in his dark.

  Sergeant Falkenhayn

  or Corporal Chrétien, one of them,

  pinches the mole’s shoulders,

  softly, between his thumb

  and forefinger,

  pulls the whole six inches of him free,

  turns him around,

  puts him back, nose first, in his tunnel,

  and lights a match,

  which he then turns to the mole’s stubby, muscular tail.

  The Grand Climacteric

  Stonk, stonk, stonk – mortar rounds slide

  down tubes and then fly skyward

  until they reach their arcs’, their parabolas’, peaks

  (there, for a second’s fraction,

  they neither fall nor rise) and hang

  there until…what makes them shatter

  to white-hot shrap is: explosives,

  love of death (which one cannot love

  when dead), or a deep, creaking mineshaft

  into which so many blind miners go

  to find neither gold nor coal

  and never ascend again to the surface. Sorry

  to say: Stonk, stonk, stonk, stonk.

  Sex After Funerals

  Hesiod (author of Works and Days, a solid

  book title) advised against it – counterintuitive, you’d think,

  from a poet

  second only to Homer, if Homer existed.

  (If he didn’t, second only to: so what!)

  And too, Hesiod spent years in bitter

  litigation with his brother

  over a barren hill farm and one goat.

  This advice from a poet who disliked boats.

  This from a poet who couldn’t play the harp!

  This from a man who worshiped goddesses

  but disdained women,

  this from a harvester who couldn’t keep his scythe sharp,

  this from a man

  beaten to death with a log

  and tossed in the sea,

  and whose murderers were ID’ed

  (humans refused) by his dog.

  Autobiographophobia

  I shan’t tell you about switching his wooden leg

  with her wooden leg, I shan’t confess

  my lies and the lies against me: when I said I loved X

  but really loved Y

  and was sleeping with Z

  to injure the feelings of X

  who was sleeping with Z, Y, and me.

  Whether I was there or not

  when the sky fell, how I learned

  the cure for lesions

  of the heart, if it’s true

  or not that I keep, in a coop

  on my roof, the only two extant dodo

  birds (plus one dodo egg) – my lips

  are sewn shut (might as well be!) with baling wire.

  I had many funny uncles.

  Not one ever put his hand in my pants.

  Never met a dipsomaniac

  until I left home

  and wandered all those years, in and out, through the lives of others.

  My life is one filled with blessings.

  And if I’ve been wronged,

  then for each wrong I’ve been multiblessed.

  Which is why

  I will not confide

  my serial poisoning of parakeets.

  It would be fruitless

  to ask me regarding my part

  in the extinction of sheep.

  About my childhood: not a peep.

  I sold my grandmother’s hearing aid,

  not only for cash but also to facilitate

  my screaming in her face.

  I loved my grandmother,

  whose husband I did not know.

  Because I’m telling the truth,

  there is no shame.

  Because I’m telling the truth, and I’m sure

  it actually happened

  (I was there!), because I’m telling the truth,

  it is right that I talk only of myself

  and never of you, or you, and you, or you.

  Blue Vistas Glued

  How well God measures His doses! It was yesterday

  the blue vistas were glued to the horizon, it was Tuesday

  the pale green grasses rushed to darker green, the rivers rushed

  to join another rushing – it was yesterday – river.

  There were some

  assuagements: the hangmen

  who hanged homosexuals no longer hanged

  for the same offense; more ears were sharpened,

  by fear, but sharpened; there were, oh, a million kisses;

  there was the child who grew to be human;

  there was febrifuge, sweet febrifuge!

  There was, from across the charred field,

  the smell of lilacs

  brought by a breeze. There were days, years,

  when the clock’s thinking

  did not sound like: me, me, me, me.

  There were impressive ruins.

  Sugar Spoon

  Low seven digits (1,000,006, approx.), until it’s almost as flimsy as tinfoil,

  this spoon,

  plunged into the same sugar bowl

  every morning, two, three, four times – for three-quarters

  of a century, longer?

  At night, deep in sweetness, it rests.

  And at dawn, when the battered coffee pot begins to rattle,

  it’s still sunk in the white grains,

  while outside, snow

  drifts to the eaves almost,

  or in summer, the sticky sugar hardens

  on it in little arctic ridges. On the handle: my father’s thumbprint

  exactly on top of his thumbprint, thousands and thousands…

  Between each print of his: my mother’s. It’s going

  a bruised green in the recesses

  of its engraved (viny trees,

  sheep?) handle. It cost

  a few pfennig once, with its bowl.

  It will serve and serve

  until the bottom of its shiny curve

  grows so thin

  a tiny hole opens

  and thenceforth it will leave a dusting of its cargo,

  a trail, a grainy Milky Way,

  across the maple table

  from the bowl to my father’s, my mother’s, coffee cup.

  A Clearing, a Meadow, in Deep Forest

  One lies down in the meadow, one hears the insects saw and gnaw

  in the grass, and above, one hears

  some music from childhood, sees a barn swallow diving.

  One has these thoughts,

  stricken. Clouds hang above the meadow’s – how did

  this clearing occur? – ragged

  treeline. How did it happen, its edges irregular,

  not cut for a field

  of even rye or oats? When one first breaks

  into it, the clearing,

  one thinks: not large enough for a farm,

  this fodder couldn’t feed four cows.

  One walks halfway across

  and sits down, stricken. This is the place to rest,

  one thinks, in the meadow’s middle,

  this is the place to stop

  and wait for the wind, or a star,
or a vole’s nose

  to point one on one’s way.

  FROM

  Child Made of Sand

  (2012)

  Mundo cosi, cosi.

  (Such, such is the world.)

  ANTONIO DE SOSA,

  Diálogo de los Morabutos

  Write! Comrade, Write!

  EMILY DICKINSON

  Joy, shipmate, joy!

  WALT WHITMAN

  The Moths Who Come in the

  Night to Drink Our Tears

  always leave quenched,

  though they’re drinking,

  in composition, seawater,

  which does not make them insane

  as it does parched humans when we

  drink it, even

  with our big, big bodies.

  If you knew

  a leper’s tears do not contain

  the bacillus leprae,

  would you let him weep on your chest?

  Let the moths come, let the sandwoman and -man come,

  let Morpheus and Dreamadum come

  unto me, and my beloveds,

  let the moths come

  and drink of the disburdening waters.

  You and Your Ilk

  I have thought much upon

  who might be my ilk,

  and that I am ilk myself if I have ilk.

  Is one of my ilk, or me, the barber

  who cuts the hair of the blind?

  And the man crushed by cruelties

  for which we can’t imagine sorrow,

  who would be his ilk?

  And whose ilk was it

  standing around, hands in pockets, May 1933,

  when 2,242 tons of books were burned?

  So, what makes my ilkness my

  ilkness? No answers, none obtainable.

  To be one of the ilks, that’s all

  I hoped for; to say hello to the mailman,

  nod to my neighbors, watch

  my children chmb the stairs of a big yellow bus

  that takes them to a place

  where they learn to read

  and write and eat their lunches

  from puzzle trays – all around them, amid

  the clatter and din,

  amid bananas, bread, and milk,

  all around them: them and their ilk.

  Nietzsche Throws His Arms Around the Neck of a Dray Horse

  and it signals the beginning of his final breakdown?

  An act of empathy – as if he felt how broken

  that broken horse was? He could. Or

  was it tertiary syphilis? Unlike

  many philosophers – rigid,

  tortured by the abstract – it was the concretions

  that broke Nietzsche. Were the electric drills

  of his migraines physiological,

  or did he think too hard

  and know not, well enough, how to be loved, or to love,

  like most of we?

  A Frozen Ball of Rattlesnakes

  How’d they get in a ball?

  What do you mean by a ball, how many in it,

  and do you mean stone-frozen?

  Or do you mean dormant, sluggish, half hibernating?

  Snakes can do that, right?

  Rattlesnakes live in other countries too.

  There are many species, right?

  I’d seen copperheads and cottonmouths

  in some mountains

  and a few desultory streams I knew.

  I live in a large southern metropolis now

  and my neighbors

  found a rattler (albeit a small one) in their cellar.

  Killed it with a shovel.

  They have a child, and a dog.

  In the frozen ball, do they wake up one by one?

  Are those closest to the middle

  warmer than the others?

  They’re all cold-blooded.

  Lincoln used the phrase, metaphorically, more than once.

  It’s a good metaphor, easy to read, vivid. Metaphors

  should be, and sometimes

  should terrify: A man chops

  off another man’s head, props

  the corpse sitting up against a roadside pole

  and places the man’s head in his hands,

  on his lap.

  The Queen of Truth

  If torture is the Queen of Truth

  then what is the King of Truth?

  Could it be the Black Dog, ennui,

  accidie? Can the King

  rule by the weight

  of the ink (oh, I pray

  not the pixels!) on an execution order?

  Could the King be numbed by dumdum fever?

  Could the King be a thug, theocratic or not?

  Might the King’s epiphanies be arsenic-lit?

  Can the King pass his edicts

  from behind a screen?

  Maybe not so Long Live the King!

  What kind of King passes the torture off

  on his wife? Please. Please, Your Majesty,

  step up, show us you’ve got something new!

  Something well past torture.

  Something long, and slow, and cruel.

  The King, outranking the Queen,

  who resorts to torture alone

  to obtain the truths she needs, the King

  with his funny hat and ruffled collar,

  what can the King do

  (let’s find out)

  that hasn’t already been done by the Queen?

  A Delivery of Dung

  interrupted Wordsworth as he drafted ‘Intimations of Immortality’.

  A timely wagonload

  if one considers only

  the title. An honest man knows

  there is no such thing – immortality – hints or no hints.

  I prefer Wordsworth the Younger,

  his early/mid-thirties, when the above mentioned

  was written, when he and Dorothy

  still had most of their teeth

  and before he was spoiled (milk-sopped,

  and walking like an alderman

  fed on too much turtle soup) by Dorothy (sister),

  Mary (wife), and Sara (sister-in-law), and sometimes even another

  Sarah (Coleridge’s wife, estranged).

  Wordsworth the Elder

  obtained a sinecure selling stamps,

  wrote many bad poems,

  lived a long, honorable life, and,

  truth is, he is immortal,

  or as close as a corpse can get, would be

  immortal for the first four stanzas of ‘Intimations’

  alone. Those stanzas alone.

  Anonymous – ‘Western Wind’ – achieved the same with four lines!

  No piece of art is perfect.

  All it has to do is stay around

  for two hundred, or five hundred,

  or a few thousand

  years. It (art) always changing, us;

  not so much.

  Elegy

  César Vallejo, Arago Clinic, Paris, Holy Friday, April 15, 1938

  It was you, César, they killed to the base of your forefinger, you.

  Certainly they shot Pedro Rojas too.

  No doubt Juana Vásquez was killed.

  The killers, poor also, were skilled.

  And Emilio, they shot him in the back of the neck

  after they made him kneel amid the wreck

  of his grandmother’s house – they beat

  but did not kill her. The people, their hands and feet

  (A cripple sleeps with his foot on his shoulder.

  Shall I later talk about Picasso, of all people?),

  these are the people you wrote for, César,

  though your later poems, no longer lighted by the laser

  of your homeland, of Heraldos Negros or Trilce,

  were real enough for exile but not as true, licit.

  Socialist realism, the aesthetic was called,

  poetry force-marched – to diminish, eq
ually, all.

  It was not right for your mind and betrayed your heart.

  Your countrymen and -women should bring you home, César.

  Entombed in France is good enough for some,

  but Peru should bring Peru’s great poet home.

  Every Time Someone Masturbates

  God Kills a Kitten

  Why not kill a rat? There’re lots of rats! Remember

  the time You gave some of them fleas,

  which killed them (that was good), but then the fleas jumped off

  the dead rats

  and bit humans,

  who died too, about a third of them

  on the planet? You were

  good to Poland (hardly any occurrences), which You

  made up for in following centuries.

  How about snakes? Why such vituperation?

  Little whips, You made, with such racking poison!

  How about clams? Would one clam feel the loss

  of another clam in, at least, a version of grief? I’m not sorry,

  I prefer clams to rats or snakes.

  I eat clams, but I’m willing to never

  eat a clam again – for the kittens.

  How about You,

  how about adjusting Your plan

  a little, how about a little less hard-ass?

  How about You tell Your flock it’s time to let this bill pass?

  West Shining Tree

  West, but west of where?

  How far west? Northwest, southwest?

  I need to get there, un-iambically.

  Please send coordinates.

  Longitude and latitude, please.

  Why is it shining? That affirms light, life,

  though west also associates with death,

  which also affirms life – if you’re not dead.

  What kind of tree is it? Leafy? Tall?

  Hardwood, fever tree, balsa?

  A tree of luminous fruit?

  In prose, it’s evening light through a tree,

  looking east to west.

  May it be more: an emblem,

 

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