Trinity Broken

by Jamie Craig

  “Oh,” Josh moaned softly. Had it been months since Cam fucked him? It couldn’t have been, but it sure as hell felt like it. “How am I supposed to convince her that we all need to go straight home so you can fuck me?”

  Cam let him go and leaned back in the seat again. “You’re a smart guy. I’m sure you’ll figure something out.”

  “Maybe I’ll go with the ‘if you love us…’ strategy.” Josh rubbed the back of his neck. “Though that particular strategy never really worked before.”

  “I was always rather fond of the ‘get out of cleaning free card’ strategy, myself.” Sara stood in front of them with an amused grin. The hair that had hung down her back was gone, now ending just below her shoulders in thick, lustrous waves. “Do I want to know what you two are scheming about?”

  Josh pointed at Cam. “He kissed me. Three times. And then he said dirty things to me.” Flashing his nicest smile, he added, “So we’d like to go home now. Please.”

  She laughed, a clear, crystal sound Josh had thought he would never hear again. At his side, he felt Cam stiffen and knew it had gotten to him, too, but before either could do or say anything, Sara was standing in front of them, tugging at their hands.

  “I think I’m a little jealous,” she said. “Nobody’s tried saying dirty things to me in absolute ages.”

  Josh touched her hair briefly. “You look fantastic. It was worth the wait.”

  She twisted, showing them the back. “You don’t think it’s too short? I don’t have that queen of the jungle look going anymore.”

  “It’s not too short,” Josh assured her. “Not that I thought the queen of the jungle look was bad, either.”

  When Sara glanced back, her gaze slid to Cam. “What do you think?”

  Cam smiled and reached out a careful hand, catching a silken tendril and curling it around his finger. “I think Josh and I are the luckiest bastards in the world.”

  Her eyes shone, but she ducked her head before either man could see anything more. It was a common gesture the past few days since she and Cam had reconnected, as if she was frightened of revealing how much Cam’s displays got to her. It was one of the few things Josh didn’t worry about. Sara was still coming to grips with her conflicting reactions; the fact that she could stand in front of them and joke about dirty talk was such a huge step in the right direction that ignoring her small retreats was easy.

  “Somebody’s just sucking up so that I won’t do any shopping,” she teased, pretending to fuss with her reflection in the salon window.

  Josh wrapped his arms around her from behind. Kissing her cheek, he asked, “Is it working? Should I throw in a few passionate declarations and fervent promises?”

  “I’ll settle for getting some burgers to take home and eat.” She glanced at Cam. “I’ve got a feeling somebody’s going to be too busy with you to think about cooking dinner tonight.”

  “Burgers it is,” Josh said with a sudden stab of guilt. What did he expect her to do? Sit quietly in the corner? Hang out downstairs and watch television? “But I think Cam would be happy to make you dinner.”

  They both looked to Cam. He had been hanging back, allowing Josh the room to be her focus, but there was no mistaking the longing in his eyes. “Of course, I would. But…you can always join us, Sara.”

  She stiffened in Josh’s arms, and he fought the urge to tighten his hold on her. He knew Cam’s earlier suggestion had been optimistic. Exchanging a few kisses was entirely different from opening her whole body to them.

  There was a beat of awkward silence before Josh took the situation in hand. “Come on,” Josh said, turning her towards the exit. “We’ll compromise and have Cam make his special burgers and beer-battered fries, yeah?”

  Though she let him lead her away, there was still a tension in Sara’s body as Cam fell into step on her other side. “No, carryout is fine,” she insisted. “His burgers are good, but we both know what’s better. You two deserve some time for putting up with all my vanity today. Don’t worry about me.”

  Josh nearly announced he would spend the evening with her; they were working through the dozens of movies Cam had acquired in the past three weeks. But he looked up, catching Cam’s eye over her head, and he was right back to aching for him. There was no ambiguity about Cam’s desire, and Josh knew that look. Lust snaked through him, temporarily stealing his ability to speak.

  “You heard the girl,” Cam said. “She’s sick and tired of us hovering all the time, anyway. I distinctly remember hearing someone call someone else a helicopter under her breath last night.”

  Josh knew he was teasing Sara, but her head snapped to the side to gawp at Cam. “I did not!” she protested.

  Cam shrugged. “Okay, you didn’t.” They walked a few steps in silence. “Except you did.”

  “Helicopter, huh?” Josh asked with an exaggerated sigh. “I see how it is.”

  With a flounce of her hair, Sara pulled ahead, leaving both men to trail behind her. “It’s a good thing I’m back,” she announced. “You two have obviously been terrible influences on each other.”

  Cam chuckled. Closing the gap, he slid his hand behind Josh’s back and cupped his ass. “Ten bucks says she’s in our bed before the end of the night,” he muttered.

  Josh pretended Cam’s strong hand on his ass had no effect on him at all. Joining them would make Sara vulnerable, and he knew she couldn’t tolerate that. “I’ll take that bet.”

  Cam smirked, and Josh knew he was already counting his money. Quickening his pace, he caught up with Sara and wrapped his arm around her waist. She smiled up at him as they stepped out of the mall, her eyes catching the sun. Josh’s chest constricted, and he tightened his hold on her.

  Chapter 15

  The ride back seemed to take forever. Cam hadn’t been kidding when he’d teased about waiting months to get his hands on Josh; that’s what it genuinely felt like. He credited it to his good spirits, to the fact he and Sara were slowly reconnecting, to the fact that piece by piece, brick by brick, they were rebuilding the shambles of their lives. He felt alive, and all he wanted to do was wallow in it. And if Sara didn’t necessarily want to join in yet, then that was all right. She would eventually. Cam didn’t doubt it.

  She disappeared into the kitchen with her bag of burgers, the scent of her food wafting behind her. Before Josh followed her, Cam grabbed his hip and yanked him back against his body, sliding his hand over Josh’s groin as he ground his still-hard cock into his ass. He mouthed a wet trail along Josh’s neck, but just as Josh began to melt against him, Cam called out, “We’ll be upstairs, Sara. If you need anything, just come on up.”

  “Your bedroom is closer,” Josh pointed out.

  The tip of Cam’s tongue traced around Josh’s ear. “And stack the deck against winning the bet?” he murmured. “I don’t think so. If we’re in your room, Sara’s more likely to join in. She feels safer there.”

  “Oh. Makes sense,” Josh breathed, pulling out of Cam’s grasp. “In that case, I’ll race you up there.”

  He let Josh get halfway up the stairs before lending chase, deliberately keeping a few steps behind so he didn’t reach him until they were outside the bedroom. There, Cam grabbed his shoulder and pushed him playfully against the wall, pinning him as he attacked Josh’s neck with tongue and teeth.

  “If we hadn’t been in a public place, I would’ve been buried in your ass before that third kiss,” he said against Josh’s skin.

  Josh shivered, and his skin broke out in goose bumps beneath Cam’s tongue. Josh put both hands flat against the wall, tilting his head and moaning softly. “If we hadn’t been in a public place, I would have been begging for it.”

  Sliding a hand around Josh’s stomach, Cam pulled the shirt up until his fingertips grazed along Josh’s hot flesh. “Well, now that wasn’t very smart. Now you’re putting ideas in my head.”

  “I’m not worried,” Josh said, rotating his hips. “You don’t have the patience right now for any new i
deas.”

  “You’re the one who ran.”

  “Because if I hadn’t, you probably would have dragged me bodily up the stairs.”

  Cam popped the button of Josh’s jeans. “Something tells me you wouldn’t have minded.”

  A strangled groan escaped Josh’s throat as Cam pushed his hand down Josh’s pants, palming his hard cock. “No…no probably not.” He glanced over his shoulder. “You don’t plan to fuck me right here in the hall, do you?”

  “For someone who was ready to beg for it, you’re getting awfully picky,” Cam teased. Stretching his fingers, he caressed Josh’s balls, returning his mouth to the taut sinew of Josh’s neck. “I’m just having an appetizer. I’ll have you spread out on the bed soon enough.”

  “For the record, I wouldn’t have minded if that was your plan.” He reached behind him to grip Cam’s hip. Cam scraped his teeth across Josh’s skin, smiling as he jerked impatiently against his hand. The head of Josh’s cock rubbed against his arm, smearing hot pre-come on his skin. “I really wouldn’t.”

  Cam’s cock jumped. He’d had images of Josh laid out on the bed, legs spread while Cam licked a path from head to toe and then settled down to tongue fuck him first. But the urgent need in Josh’s voice and the hard tug on Cam’s hip drove those thoughts from his brain. All he could think of now was finally getting inside him and feeling those tight, hot walls squeezing around his cock.

  “It’s been too long.” Keeping one hand on Josh’s cock, Cam grabbed Josh’s wrist with the other and guided him to help in undoing Cam’s jeans. “Do you realize we haven’t had sex since moving in here?”

  “I realize it,” Josh said. “I try not to dwell on it too much.” As soon as the buttons were free, he gripped Cam’s shaft with strong fingers. “But I did…” He slid his thumb over the tip of his cock. “Dwell on it a little.”

  Cam groaned. Resting his forehead on Josh’s shoulder, he tried to ignore the rushing need searing his skin, abandoning Josh’s hand to push the other man’s jeans down his hips. “I’ve missed you. I fucking hate sleeping alone.”

  His pants fell to his ankles and he stepped out of them, kicking them aside. “I know. I’ve missed you, too.” In a much softer voice he added, “So fucking much.” Josh tilted his head back, searching for Cam’s mouth. “But I don’t think you’ll have to sleep alone anymore.”

  The kiss was hot and hungry, and Cam sank into it with all the need of a parched man in an oasis. For all his assurances about Sara, he wasn’t as sure as Josh about how soon things might change for her, or how much longer he was going to have to tolerate lying in his bed at night alone, knowing the two people he loved most in the world were just upstairs out of his reach. There had been one time since that incredible morning where Sara had come to him, shyly, and asked if they could sleep in shifted form that night. Cam had grabbed at it gratefully.

  But he wanted more. He wanted his lovers back, both of them. He wanted to go to sleep to the sound of their breathing, and he wanted to wake up to the touch of their bodies. They were closer now than they had been since finding Sara, yes, but they were still beyond his reach.

  He was going to take whatever he could get in the interim.

  The kiss stretched on until they both tore away, gasping for air. Josh’s breath fanned over his face, and less than an inch separated them. “Right now…Cam…I need you.”

  Releasing Josh’s cock, Cam lifted his hand to Josh’s mouth, teasing his lips until they parted. He slid two fingers inside, watching Josh’s cheeks hollow as he sucked at them. It was tempting to push Josh to his knees and watch his mouth hollow around his cock, but Cam knew that wasn’t what either of them wanted right then.

  He pulled back, pressing Josh back to face the wall, and slipped his wet fingers between the taut cheeks of Josh’s ass, tracing the hollow until he found the tight ring of muscle. Josh groaned as Cam circled it with a fingertip, spreading his legs even wider, and as Cam began nibbling at his neck, he slowly sank his index finger into the hot depths.

  Josh sucked his breath in sharply, holding it as Cam began to pump his wrist. But he was only silent until Cam’s middle finger joined his first finger, and then he started gasping Cam’s name, over and over. Cam thrust forward, curling his fingers to brush against Josh’s prostate, and Josh stiffened, his breath turning to a whimper.

  “What do you want, Josh?” Cam breathed.

  “Fuck me, Cam. I need to feel you. I need to feel…I need you….please.”

  The ache in Josh’s voice as much as the way he trembled against Cam’s body prompted him to pull his fingers out, grabbing his cock and smearing the pre-come around the head. He angled his hips away, nudging between Josh’s cheeks, and when he found the waiting pucker, Cam slowly pressed forward, moaning as his cock breached the tight outer ring.

  “Oh, fuck…” he muttered. Taking Josh’s hand, Cam intertwined their fingers before bracing them against the wall, using the leverage to push a little harder. Without lube, he wanted to take it slow, but the searing vise of Josh’s ass was making it very hard to control his pace. All he wanted was to plough into Josh’s hot depths and remind him how much Cam needed this.

  For Josh’s part, he didn’t seem the least concerned about the lack of lube. He moved with a sort of desperation—not like it was their first time in weeks, but their last time. Cam wrapped his other arm around Josh, holding him tighter with each thrust. Each time Cam moved a little faster, thrust forward a little harder, Josh offered soft words of encouragement. “Yes…like that…God, Cam…God…more…love you…”

  Cam started trembling long before he felt his balls start to tighten. It was more than hearing how much Josh wanted it, or the heat surrounding him on every stroke. It was the relief at having him close, the knowledge there was an end in sight to all the misery of the past two years. And he knew it was all because of Josh, because of his dogged determination to find Sara. Josh was the reason they were going to be whole again. Cam had never loved him more than in that moment.

  His hand slipped to find Josh’s cock, anxious to have him come as well. As his fingers curled around the long shaft, however, a feather touch on his forearm made him start, and he jerked in his thrusts to see Sara standing next to them.

  Her eyes were large and dark, and through the thin material of her blouse, Cam saw the tight points of her nipples. “Can I?” she asked.

  Josh froze, the tendons on his neck standing out. He watched silently, his mouth half-open, his eyes wide, as Sara stood with her back against the wall, her leg easing between Josh’s. She slid her hand beneath Cam’s, gripping Josh’s slick shaft.

  “Sara,” Josh murmured, like a benediction, before tilting his head to kiss her.

  Cam held there, quivering, watching their mouths come together. Sara was hesitant, just as she had been with him, and Josh was equally gentle, the caress as slow and tender as the kiss Cam and Josh had shared had been hungry. A small part of Cam wished he could be a part of it, but he knew in time, his turn would come. She had come to them, after all. And Josh deserved this, for being the one to bring them back together.

  He didn’t start moving again until he felt Sara’s hand begin pumping along Josh’s cock. It was even better knowing she was just on the other side.

  “Love you,” Josh said against her lips but Cam knew he wasn’t just talking to her. He let Josh set the rhythm, pushing against Cam, thrusting into Sara’s hand. He moved slower now, and Cam didn’t blame him for wanting to prolong and savor it. But just having Sara that near was almost enough to make him come, and Josh was making the softest, hungriest sound in his throat, and clenching around Cam’s cock with each thrust.

  Josh buckled without warning, his long moan caught by Sara’s lips.

  Cam’s head wasn’t clear enough to know for sure whether or not Josh had come, but the sudden collapse of Josh’s body made Cam react on instinct, his arm clamping around him to hold him up. The jerk back against his chest slammed his cock in deeper than i
t had been going before, and Cameron came with a guttural cry, his body spasming as his hot come coated Josh’s ass.

  They both slumped forward, leaning heavily against the wall. Sara still held Josh, her other hand gripping his shoulder. Josh turned his head slowly, his mouth brushing against Cam’s. His lips were salty and below that, Cam recognized Sara’s familiar taste. The kiss was over far too quickly as Josh turned his attention back to Sara.

  “Let’s go to bed,” Josh said, his voice ragged.

  Cam held his breath while he waited for Sara to respond. It was easier than trying to get his lungs to work properly.

  Sara licked her lips. “I’m not sure that’s such a good idea yet.”

  He could feel the disappointment in Josh’s body, but Cam wasn’t ready to give up yet. “Why not?” he challenged. “We love you, Sara. Let us show you.”

  She didn’t answer, instead sliding her liquid eyes to Josh.

  “Sara…I…I really want to be with you tonight. I’ll understand if you’re not ready, but I want to be with you.”

  Her mouth softened, the barest hint of a smile curving its fullness. “Still greedy, I see.”

  “It’s not something I’ve outgrown,” Josh admitted.

  Long seconds ticked by. Sara was the first to move, lifting her hand to Josh’s face and tracing over the planes of his cheek.

  “This is all I’ve wanted for the past two years,” she said.

  Josh mimicked her, cupping her face delicately. “Me, too.” He looked over his shoulder, and Cam noticed his eyes were soft. “Both of us.”

  * * * *

  Her knees were shaky as Josh led her into the bedroom, her heart pounding so hard it felt like it was trying to break out of the prison of her rib cage. She wanted this so badly, and if it had been only Josh making the request, she wouldn’t even have considered saying no. But seeing Cam over his shoulder had made her pause. Things were better between them—almost impossibly so—but there were still moments when Sara had to stop herself from turning on her heel and running, or from lashing out if he came up on her unexpectedly.