Pocket Change

by E. M. Leya

  Jess swallowed hard, emotion swelling inside him. How long had he wanted someone to just want him the way he was? Truth was, Andy had always accepted him for who he was. He laughed at him, cried with him, celebrated with him. He never once felt ashamed to talk to Andy about things because he knew, even though he might not understand, he'd listen. "Is it too weird to say I love you?"

  Andy's brows shot up, but then he smiled. "No, because I love you too. We might not have ever said it before, but I've loved you for years as my best friend. This love is different, but it's an easy progression because I've already cared about you for so long." He leaned in and kissed Jess softly. "I love you too."

  Jess kept his forehead against Andy's. "I guess I need to cancel all my clients now, don't I?"

  "Not unless you want to." Andy pulled back and stared into his eyes. "I don't mind that you do that. I'm not jealous of them. I might be jealous if they were there with you, but it kind of turns me on knowing you do those video sessions. I'd like to watch some. Have you act like you're performing for them when you're really doing it for me just behind the camera. It's totally up to you if you stop or not, but don't do it because of me. The money is good, and just because we're together doesn't mean your financial status is going to change right away. I'd like to talk about moving in together to save us both money, but for now, you do what you need to."

  Jess didn't expect that. He was sure he'd have to choose either Andy or the money. He'd choose Andy without hesitation, but to have permission to choose both, that was more than he could hope for. "The truth is, it turns me on to be watched. Maybe I can get us both so worked up doing the videos that once the camera is off, we can do more alone."

  "I'm game for that. Wrong or right, it turns me on to have others watch you. I love when Al watches us." Andy shrugged. "I think it's common to watch others in the circles he used to be in. These parties he talked about when we met, he said sometimes there were thirty to fifty people watching a scene."

  "Do you want to do that?" Jess asked, excited, but nervous to have this conversation. He'd read the books, researched online, and he liked what he read, but he was scared he wouldn't be enough for Andy. He liked the pain, loved submitting to Andy, but how much could he take. Would he fail and let Andy down? He didn't think he could take the pain he'd seen some in those videos take.

  "I think it would be fun, but not without you. If you don't want to do it, this conversation ends here. I won't push you into anything you're not comfortable with. This can be something we do alone here at home without an audience, I don't care. We don't have to do it at all. It's up to you." Andy set his food down. "Our relationship isn't contingent on you being a sub. I love you with or without it. So whatever we decide, it's up to you."

  Jess was relieved to hear that, but nervous because he did want to learn more, do more. He loved the peace that came when all control was taken from him. Hell, he had hardly dipped his toe in the water so to speak and he was hooked. "I want to do more. I want to learn. I don't know that I want to go as far as some. Those caning videos aren't for me, but I love what we've done so far and I'd like to try to take it to another level, but I don't want to bleed. I don't want scars."

  "Fair enough. There is plenty we can do to explore this and find a comfortable level for you. But promise me, if you ever want to stop, you tell me. We can be happy with a vanilla sex life. We don't need more to keep us happy." Andy gripped Jess's thigh. "You're always in charge."

  "Thanks." That helped calm a bit of his fear. "You mentioned you met a sub. That girl you talked to. Do you think she'd talk to me? Maybe teach me what she does and how all this works?"

  "I think she'd be happy to meet with you. Maybe we can go over to her place and watch a scene. Whatever works for you. We can go see her on your next day off if you want or call and set something up. You let me know when you're ready."

  "I'm ready now. We can go next weekend and talk to her if she's working. If not, we'll set something up." Jess glanced at Andy. "I like the idea of kneeling before you."

  "I like that idea too. But even more, I like the idea of making love to you. I've thought about nothing but that since last night. You'll be my first. Hopefully, my only. I'm scared I'll get it wrong and hurt you."

  Jess laughed. "Remember, I like pain?" He gripped Andy's hand. "You won't hurt me. I like rough anal sex. The harder, the better. That's why Keith and I decided not to date. We're both bottoms. We could never make it work. I need someone who is willing to take me hard."

  "You've topped before. You told me you had." Andy looked confused.

  "I have, but I don't always want to. I prefer if given a choice, to bottom."

  "But you'll take me from time to time? I want to know. I need to feel what you feel. It doesn't have to be often. Hell, I might not like it at all, but I want to try it sometime."

  "Of course. With you, for you, I'll do that." All the talk about sex had Jess hard. "How about we put this stuff away and head to the bedroom? I want to do this with you, and I don't want to wait." He prayed that Andy wouldn't say no. Until they did this, he would worry about what would happen if he hated being with a man. After all they'd done, the chance was slim, but it was still there. Maybe he needed the softness of a woman to get off. Could Jess satisfy him the way he needed to be?

  "I don't want to wait either. I've wanted you for a while now. Having my fingers in your ass last night was almost too much. I want my cock inside you." Andy started to close the Chinese takeout boxes.

  Jess helped, the two of them carried everything into the kitchen and put it away. He was surprised when Andy pushed him up against the counter and crowded him with his body.

  "Do you have condoms? I do, but in the truck. I meant to put one in my wallet, but forgot."

  "I have everything we need." Jess gripped Andy's hips and held him there. "I've never been with anyone without one. I want that with you. Would you be okay getting tested so we don't have to use them anymore?"

  "I'd love that. I've never been with anyone without one either, but I want that for us too. I'll make an appointment tomorrow." Andy trailed his mouth down Jess's neck.

  "So will I." Jess arched his neck and thrust his hips out, gasping as his hard cock brushed against Andy's.

  "Good. Now, let's lock up and turn off the lights because once I have you in that bed, I'm not sure I'll ever let you out."

  "I'm yours until six in the morning. I have class at seven-thirty."

  "I think that might be enough time." Andy grinned. "You lock the door. I'll get the lights."

  Jess rushed to lock up, then met Andy in the hallway. Hand in hand, they walked into the bedroom together. "Nervous?"

  Andy shook his head. "Not really. I just hope I make it good for you."

  "It's going to be amazing for both of us. Just remember, you can't hurt me. I've had Mr. Purple, and no offense, but I know you're not close to that thick. And you can take me as fast or slow as you want. I like both, but hard, rough sex always makes me come harder. So don't be one of these nervous guys who thinks just because I feel tight that you have to go easy on me. I can take whatever you have to give me." God, it felt good to be so open and honest with a lover. He'd never felt brave enough with anyone else.

  "Tell me what you want. If you want it harder, say so. I am learning your body right now. I want to know what feels good, what doesn't." Andy led them to the bed. "Let me watch you get undressed."

  Jess wasn't wearing socks or shoes, so he lifted the shirt from his body slowly, his gaze locked with Andy's as he lifted it over his head, then set it aside. The shorts were next. He hadn't bothered with underwear, so he turned, giving Andy a look at his backside as he slid the shorts down his legs and stepped out of them. He straightened slowly and turned around, letting Andy see just how hard and aroused he was thinking about what they were about to do.

  "You are so perfect. I don't know how I didn't see it years ago." Andy ran his hand over the bulging crotch of his jeans. "I feel like we've waste
d so many years."

  "I don't see it that way." Jess moved closer and slid his hands under Andy's shirt. He slowly lifted it from his body. "We wouldn't work as well if we didn't know each other the way we do. We've built the friendship first. Gotten to know each other so well that it makes it easier. There aren't the normal questions of if we're compatible. We know we are. We know what each other likes and hates, what to do, or not do around each other. That will make us stronger. Make our relationship more secure." Jess's hands worked the button on Andy's jeans and lowered the zipper.

  Andy gasped as Jess's pushed his hand down and inside his boxers to grasp his length. "Don't tease me, Jess. I'm fighting for control as it is. It won't take much tonight to push me over. Later, after our first time is done, I'll last longer, but I'm afraid tonight, it's going to be quick. I want this too badly to have much control."

  "I like you out of control." Jess grinned, but stepped back. "Then get undressed, because if I undress you, I'm going to play as I do it."

  Andy kicked off his shoes and then tore off his socks before sliding his jeans and boxers down in a single push. He stepped from them and tossed them aside. He stood, his cock thick and ready as it pressed to his lower stomach. He was big, just the way Jess loved them.

  "I want to do so much with you. Things I've never asked another to try with me, I feel I can ask you. Not tonight, but soon, we're going to try everything." Jess walked over to the bed and eased up on it. He relaxed back against the pillows. "Come make love to me."

  Andy took a heavy breath, gripped the base of his cock, then released it. He closed the distance between them as he climbed up on the bed. He bent, teasing Jess's mouth with his own as he brushed his fingers down Jess's body. "I want to know every inch of you. Want to know what every inch of skin on you tastes like." He trailed his mouth down Jess's jaw, then down his neck. He kept going until he came to his nipples. With a flick of his tongue, he drew a loud gasp of pleasure from Jess.

  Jess ran his fingers through Andy's hair. "My nipples are so sensitive. It's why I love the clamps."

  Andy sucked one into his mouth as he pinched the other one.

  "Fuck, please." Jess arched off of the bed.

  "Please what, Baby?"

  "Touch me. More. I need more." Jess had never felt such desire. A lot of men had touched him, but not a single one sent the pulse of electricity through him the way Andy's touch did. He couldn't get enough. Feared he never would.

  "I plan to do more than touch you." Andy shifted so he could kiss Jess again. As he did, he leaned close, causing their cocks to brush against each other.

  It was the first time they'd ever had contact that way and Jess moaned with the pleasure of it. He wrapped his legs around Andy, keeping him there as Jess moved his body so their cocks pressed together over and over again.

  "Easy, you're going to make me come. I want inside you for that, but before I do that, I want to taste you." Andy eased Jess's legs from around him, then bent as he moved down Jess's body. He trailed his tongue over his stomach, then nipped at his hip. "Can I do that? Can I take you in my mouth?"

  "Please," Jess cried.

  "I might not be any good. I've never done this before." Andy trailed his fingers up the inside of Jess's thighs.

  Jess opened his legs wider, needing Andy's touch anywhere he could get it.

  "Practice makes perfect." Jess arched as Andy's fingers brushed over his balls. "Oh… More of that. Tease them. Play with them."

  "Like this?" Andy rolled the sacs over his fingers, the gripped them tightly and released. "Or like this?" He ducked his head and licked over Jess's balls, lavishing them with wetness.

  "That… More of that." Jess fisted his hands in the blankets beneath him.

  Andy didn't let him down. He ran his tongue over his balls, then sucked on them. Each swipe of his tongue, rush of breath, or suck of his mouth had Jess crying out in pleasure. His cock ached and precum dripped from the head. He fought to hold still, wanting to guide Andy to where he needed him most, but wanting to let Andy explore and find his own way.

  "I love how much precum you drip." Andy flicked his tongue over the head of Jess's cock. "You taste amazing." He used his tongue again, then without warning, he lowered his mouth over Jess's cock.

  Jess reached out, tangling his fingers in Andy's hair, encouraging him to continue. His mouth was wet and hot, and his lips were tight and firm around him. As he moved his mouth up and down Jess's shaft, he did it perfectly, showing no signs that this was his first time. Even the slight scrape of teeth from time to time was more of a tease than pain.

  The sight of his cock sliding in and out of Andy's mouth was almost more erotic than the feeling. God, Jess couldn't believe this was happening. What had he done to deserve Andy's love? Nothing had ever felt more perfect, more right.

  "I'm going to come soon. If you don't want me in your mouth, you need to stop." Jess could barely get the words out.

  Andy just kept going, ignoring the warning as his fingers played over Jess's balls and Andy worked to see just how deep into his throat he could take Jess. Fire lit in Jess's balls, flames licked up his shaft, and lightning shot up his spine. He was so close. He was going to lose all control and fill Andy's mouth with his come, and it was that exact thought that pushed him over the edge. Crying out, he lifted his hips, thrusting enough that Andy gagged for a second, but he recovered quickly, pulling back just enough that he could take every drop of what Jess was giving him. He swallowed around Jess's cock, sucking, and swallowing as Jess's release shot from him. It seemed to go on forever, but when it ended, he went limp, his body spent as he watched Andy lick him clean.

  "You do that perfectly." Jess stared down his body at Andy.

  "I love how you respond to my mouth." Andy licked his lips. "But I'm about to lose my mind. I need to get inside you if we're going to do this. I'm so close to coming that I'm probably going to come the moment I get inside you."

  Jess reached over and opened the top drawer of the nightstand, pulling out a condom and a small bottle of lube. "Then take me. How do you want to do this? On my back, on my knees?"

  "On your knees." Andy took the condom in a shaky hand and ripped it open.

  Jess rolled to his stomach, then went up on all fours. He was still trembling from his own orgasm, but the thought of what they were about to do had his cock already trying to come to life again.

  "Tell me if I hurt you." Andy rolled the condom on, then opened the lube. He dripped some down Jess's crack, then used his fingers to rub it around. "I could play with your ass for hours." He pressed a finger against the hole, pushing it in.

  "You can play anytime you want, but I won't need a lot of prep. I play enough with toys that I'm stretched. You won't hurt me." Jess rocked against Andy's finger, loving more the fact of whose finger it was inside him than the fact there was one in him.

  "When I have more control, I'm going to taste you here. I'm going to lick and suck on your ass, just the way I did your cock." Another finger pushed inside.

  "Oh, God." Just the thought of Jess's mouth on him that way had him trembling.

  "This is my ass now, isn't it? All mine." Andy scissored his fingers, stretching him.

  "I'm all yours. Every part of me." Jess fucked himself against the fingers, wanting more. He needed the burn of being stretched open, the pain of intrusion. He wanted to be one with Andy. Bring their bodies together and work together as one entity to bring them both pleasure.

  "I can't wait any longer." Andy pulled his fingers out, then moved closer. He slapped his cock over Jess's ass twice, then pressed the head of it against his hole. "Ready?"

  "God, yes." Jess took a breath, preparing for the burn.

  Andy pressed forward, slowly easing in. He was thick and despite all his play, Jess felt every inch of him push inside. He wished he could see it. Know what Andy looked like.

  "Fuck, so tight." Andy gripped Jess's hips. "I could stay like this forever."

  "Any time you want m
e, I'm yours." Jess tightened his muscles, squeezing against Andy's cock. "Now fuck me before I start begging."

  Andy laughed. "I love the idea of you begging for me, but not tonight. Tonight I want this too much." He started to move. Slow at first as if getting used to the feeling, then faster.

  It was amazing, and the harder Andy thrust, the more turned on Jess became, his cock starting to thicken again. He reached between his legs, stroking himself, wanting another orgasm while Andy was inside him.

  They moved together with ease as if they'd done this a million times. The slap of skin, the sound of wetness, the moans, and gasps all added to Jess's arousal. He closed his eyes, moving with Andy, meeting him thrust for thrust. It was a haze of pleasure as Andy's cock stroked inside him, hitting him perfectly where he needed him.

  "I can't hold back, Jess. I'm going to come." Andy's grip bit into his skin as his thrusts came even harder and he lost his rhythm.

  Andy's cry as he came had Jess right there with him. His cock pulsed as Andy stilled inside him. Jess felt the pulse of Andy's cock as he came, and he imagined what it would be like to be filled without a condom and feel the heat of his cum inside him.

  "Fuck, fuck, fuck!" Jess cried as he came all over his hand and the bed.

  Andy sagged against his back, kissing his spine. Sweat covered them both, but Jess didn't care. He loved this. If this was his future, he happily accepted it.

  "I love you so much." Andy's voice was soft and tender.

  "I love you too. That was amazing. I can't believe how good." He reached back, caressing Andy's arm.

  "Need to hold you." Andy pushed up, eased out of Jess, then stood. He pulled the condom off and dropped it in the trash before climbing back in bed.