by Chrissy J
“What the fuck happen to your face?” he asked grabbing my face gentle I jumped just from his touch; I looked at him like he was crazy. I moved his hand from my face, Tammy asked again who done that to my face. I looked Eddie right in the eye,
“Why don’t you ask your son?” I said then went on to tell her everything that Eddie done to me that fateful day. I told his mother that he was the one that did this to my face and he raped me. She looked at both me and Eddie shaking her head; she walked over to Eddie smacking the shit out of him.
“I didn’t do that shit, Goddess who did this to you?” he asked
“You did this shit to me you fucking faggot, you think I would make some crazy shit up? Why you think I left? You beat me up and then raped me after I begged you to stop” I yelled running up to my room I locked the door and laid on my bed, Eddie stayed in the living room all night.
The next couple of days me and my father went shopping for Christmas, he helped me put the tree up. Eddie stayed in the room while my father was there. Christmas came both me and Eddie put on a front for everybody that came to the house to drop off Fantasy and Lil man Christmas gifts. Kevin out did himself with gifts for his Lil Princess; Christmas Eve I took Fantasy over to Kevin house so she can spend her first Christmas with her father and sister. I didn’t want people in my business. and Eddie ass didn’t think to question me on where I was with my child. Tammy kept asking if everything was fine I told her we were alright. New Year’s came bringing us into a New Year, three days after the New Year Eddie was due in court.
“Goddess are you coming to court with me?” Eddie asked walking into the room to get dressed.
“Yea I’m going with you” I said getting off the bed, I jumped in the shower. I put on some blue faded Seven jeans with a pair of blue knee high Uggs boots and a baby blue Baby Phat shirt, I put my hair up into a ponytail. Eddie put on some slacks and a Polo shirt and we was on our way, Tammy met us there with Ashley and Teddy. We sat in the front while the judge listened to everything that the DA was saying, we took an hour lunch break then the judge gave his verdict. He gave Eddie a year and made it his point to let Eddie know he had until midnight to turn himself in. we walked out the court room; Tammy was already crying and being the drama queen she is. I didn’t know why she was carrying on like that for, I was the one with the babies I was the one that had to tell Lil man and Fantasy that their daddy wasn’t coming home. Even if Eddie wasn’t Fantasy father nobody had proof but me and Kevin. The drive home was quit until Eddie broke the silence
“Goddess are you going to hold me down?” He turned and asked me I stopped at a red light and looked at him trying to read his ass but he sat there with a straight face.
“What happen to your girl Asia?” I asked
“Goddess I told you I don’t fuck with her, that’s in the past. I love you Goddess only you.” he said I drove home with a smile on my face. I gave him a quickie against my better judgment, the whole day we spent as a family my father brought the kids home for the night. Tammy brought food she cooked everybody sat in the living room drinking smoking and eating, around ten Lil man and Fantasy was knocked out. Eddie helped me put them in their rooms in their cribs and he just stood there staring at them. I knew Eddie didn’t want to leave me or the twins, he was going to miss out on a whole year with them growing. Deep down inside I knew Eddie loved Fantasy he just had a problem with listening and believing outsiders so he stayed away from her to avoid shit. Hershey came around at 11:30, she came with me to drop Eddie off while Teddy and Tammy stayed in the house. It was hard to see Eddie turn himself in, I guess I was so used to sleeping next to him and hearing him snore that made me realize I really was going to miss my boo. Even after getting my ass beat I still had love for him, me and Hershey drove back to the crib so Tammy could leave Teddy stayed with us for an hour then he went to take care of business. My father came to the house the next day to get the kids leaving me in the house by myself. I spoke to Kendu twice since New Year’s I wasn’t really sweating it. Major and Trill came up to spend the week with me and Hershey and boy did we do it up, we not once stayed in the crib. Kevin and I were working on our friendship I blocked all my feelings for him and cut him out of my life as far as being in a relationship with him I was wrong for that. I was being selfish and I didn’t want to be bothered with him. I kept Eddie’s books good he didn’t have to worry about money or anything he got a $300 money order in the mail every week, I answered his calls and went to visit him every time he had a visit.
February came fast, I noticed my period was missing in action since January, I made a doctor’s appointment because I knew if I was pregnant it was only one dudes baby and that was Kendu, boy was I in shock when Dr. Bacon inform me that I was going on two months. I drove home in a blur. Valentine’s Day was in two days and Eddie wasn’t here to spend it with me. I got home and laid on the bed I was drain my body was killing me from running around and getting my father’s business in order, my papa wanted me to still be a part of the business so they had me overseeing the workers and making sure the money was right. I fell into a deep sleep only to be waken up by my cell phone ringing.
“Hello” I said sleepy
“When I’m going to see my Shawty?” Kendu asked on the other end
“I thought you were busy? Where are you?” I asked sitting up in the bed
“I’m in Harlem on 145th and St Nick, I’m coming to scoop you up” he told me we hung up and I got up from the bed I was nervous to see him; I went into the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth. I brushed my hair down and threw on my sneakers and my Ed Hardy hat then packed an overnight bag. I walked down stairs making sure everything was turned off; I heard my phone ring, knowing it was Ken I picked up asking if he was outside he told me yea while hanging up. I checked my Gucci bag to make sure I had the sonogram picture and the papers that confirm that I gotten pregnant in the middle of December, I locked the house door and got inside his car. I leaned over in my seat and gave him a sloppy kiss.
“I missed you Pretty girl” Kendu said kissing me back and pulling off
“I missed you too baby, I got something important to tell you” I said turning to face him
“What you have to tell me?” he asked pulling up at the fish spot in Harlem, I went inside my bag pulling out the papers and sonogram picture.
“Here you tell me” I said giving him the stuff, he looked at the papers reading them carefully then looked at the sonogram picture. He turned to me with a Kool Aid smile on his handsome face.
“How far are we?” he asked putting his hand on my stomach
“Two months, what you want me to do?” I asked looking at him
“What kind of question is that? I want you to keep it. You got a Lil me inside you Pretty Girl” he said rubbing my stomach with that said I was on cloud nine I always told Hershey Kendu was my baby daddy and that shit finally came true. I knew this baby didn’t belong to Eddie due to us rarely having sex and the fact that I made sure we used a condom. Ken asked me what I wanted to eat and I told him to get me some Shrimp with fries. He got out the car walking in the fish spot. I looked up from playing with my phone to see my cousin Mel and his wife JaJa walking towards the spot I got out the car. I yelled out to them ‘Y’all don’t live in Harlem no more so why y’all always out here’ joking with them while I hugged Jaja then Mel. Mel had to have a stupid come up; he said that Harlem was his stomping grounds. Mel asked how Eddie was holding up, I told him Eddie was doing well and I went to see him last week. Mel nodded his head telling me he hope I was taking care of myself and the babies, I smiled telling him we all were good. Mel being the nosey and overprotective cousin asked who I was over on that side with, like I didn’t know Harlem like the back of my hand.
“Damn Jamel you nosy, you know she is grown right? What’s cracking Diva?” she asked hugging me again. I loved me some JaJa, she was so down to earth and such a free spirit. But don’t get that shit twisted, she was a straight savage when her hand
was called. That’s why her and my cousin clicked so well, they both were bat shit crazy.
“Thanks, Ja I’m over here with my homeboy, and I’m doing good Ja. How’s baby J?” I asked referring to her and Mel five month old son who looked like Mel spit his Lil behind out.
“He’s good, he’s trying to sit up now” she laughed looking me over her eyebrow went up in a questioning matter once she zoomed her eyes over my Lil stomach. I wasn’t showing yet that much but I had a Lil bump that was hard.
“He moving out the way” I joked
“Hell no he ain’t we just getting that Lil nigga to sleep a whole night without waking up for her tittie, what homeboy you over here with?” Mel asked me again he looked around until his eyes landed on Kendu Maserati Quattroporte GTS parked. I didn’t even get the chance to tell his ass anything before he was rushing to get in the Fish spot.
“Alright Princess you be careful I wouldn’t want to have to go to jail for killing somebody if they fucked with you the wrong way, let me go holla at my nigga Kendu” he said hugging me I almost choked, before he could walk to the spot Ken was walking towards us.
“Melly Mel what’s good nigga? Shawty I got you some crab legs to” he said to me shaking Mel’s hand, Mel looked at both of us with a confused look and JaJa was standing there smiling.
“Ken my nigga, how you know my Lil cousin?” Mel asked I didn’t know who was worst between Trill and Mel they both was over protective of me and acted more like my older brother then cousins. I told Mel I was with Ken then hugged Ja telling her I was going to call her sometime in the week so we can hang out. I told Ken I was going to go wait for him in the car until he rapped with my cousin.
“Princess I know you grown but I want you to be careful” he said hugging me again
“I got you Mel” I told him getting inside the car, five minutes passed when Kendu got inside the car and pulled off. Getting on the Robert Kennedy high way going into Queens I was rolling the window down some I started feeling car sick.
“You alright Pretty Girl?” he asked
“Yea I’m good, just got car sick” I let him know, Ken pulled up at his Mansion in no time. We walked inside and I took off running to the bathroom, I was bent over the toilet when Kendu walked in the bathroom and wet a rag. He wiped my face.
“My Shawty carrying my seed, I can’t be happier. Come on Pretty girl” he said picking me up I laid my head on his chest while he carried me up to his room, he sat me on his bed then walked to his dresser to get a t-shirt out.
“Baby can you lay with me?” I asked removing my sneakers; he helped me out my clothes and put the shirt on me. before getting on the bed with me and pulling me into his arms.
“My aunt called and told me she had a dream about fish, she said me or Ha gotten somebody pregnant” he said, I smiled at him and he kissed my forehead I went into a deep sleep.
Valentine’s Day came; Kendu did it up big he had his room covered with pink, red and white candles all around the room. The floor tub was full of the same color rose pedals, he sent me to the spa that morning, when I got back to his crib he led me to his room where he undressed me and himself. We sat in the tub my back was against his chest, as he fed me chocolate covered strawberries and Mango’s dipped in chocolate.
“Here open this” he said handing me a long jewelry box, inside was a purple diamond chain with my name in Pink diamonds. Then he handed me another box with a pink and purple ankle bracelet, He also brought me a big heart and a big teddy bear and to top it off he got a heart shaped red velvet cake
“Thanks Bae, you outdid yourself. Why you didn’t let me get you anything? I feel so bad” I whined poking my lip out.
“Don’t feel bad Pretty girl you gave me my gift already right in there, all I ask is you love me and my princess” he said rubbing my stomach, I wiped the tears that was rolling down my cheeks.
“What’s wrong?” he asked
“Ken I already love you and our princess, I just don’t want to be hurt in the end. I don’t want to be pushed to back if you decide to get back with your baby mother. I know y’all have history together and I knew what it was before we got serious just don’t play me” I said looking at him
“I won’t never try to play you Pretty girl, what me and Raya have is done, been done. I want you in my life and I see you as my future I love you Shawty” he said kissing me.
Chapter 12
SLAP IN THE FACE
Two months passed we was in the middle of April, I was back and forth from my house and Kendu’s. I had Lil Man and Fantasy with me most of the time Kendu wanted to meet them and both my babies were comfortable around him which was good. Fantasy was the apple of his eye; Ken couldn’t get enough of her whatever she did put a smile on his face. Hershey was having the time of her life with Ha he treated her better than Teddy ever did. She didn’t go through half the bullshit she went through with Teddy; I just walked in the house from taking Lil man to the doctors for a checkup when I got the phone call that would change my life.
“Diva this Ha”
“What’s up Ha? Everything ok where Hershey?” I asked getting nervous
“Hershey coming to you, Kendu been shot” he said I dropped the phone and grabbed my small belly; I wasn’t big for four months I was carrying small. I picked the phone up from the floor to hear Ha tell me that they were in Kings County, I asked Ha was Ken going to make it while holding my breath waiting for him to answer. “They just finished surgery, they got him in a medically induce coma. But he did ask for you before he passed out” he said
“Okay Ha, I’m going to wait for Hershey and then I’m on my way” I said hanging up I sent a text to my father for him to come pick Fantasy and Lil man up, he replied and said he was already on his way to get them because my mother wanted them. I was so grateful for both my parents and Kevin for helping me out with the twins. Hershey must’ve read my mind when I said she needed to hurry up because she rung the bell, when I open the door I damn near passed out in her arms.
“Hershey he can’t die” I cried
“Chica he is strong, he isn’t going nowhere. Not while his Shawty carrying his seed” she mocked him causing me to smile, my father came ten minutes after Hershey came he scooped the twins up and made fun about me being fat then left. After he left me and Hershey got inside my Benz and drove to Brooklyn. I looked down at my outfit knowing I should’ve changed, Hershey said I looked fine and for me to stop worrying her damn godchild. The weather wasn’t cold we was getting some warm days in the middle of April so I had on a dark blue baby doll shirt from H&M with some blue spandex’s and my blue Gucci flat shoes with the ankle bracelet Ken brought me, my hair was flat iron straight with a part in the middle. We got to the hospital and Hershey called Ha to tell him we was in the parking lot, we got out the car, I fixed my Gucci spring jacket while we waited for Ha to come get us. The look on his face let me know something was wrong, he came and told us Soraya Kendu baby mother just got to the hospital. I told him okay, I wasn’t scared of her or anything I just wasn’t in the mood to deal with bullshit while my man was laying up in the hospital fighting for his life. Ha informed me that their aunt Tasha was up there in the waiting area with both Ha and Ken twin sisters. I met their Aunt and sisters when they came up to New York two weeks ago we hit it off lovely. Ha told me Mel was up there as well, he said he didn’t want me stressing myself out because Ken would kill him if something happen to me or his baby. I smiled nodding my head. I asked him how many times Ken was shot while we walked inside the hospital, Ha told both Hershey and I that Ken was shot twice in the chest and once in the stomach. We got to the ICU floor and we walked to the waiting area the first person I saw was Mel, he was the only one besides Hershey that knew about Ken and me, it wasn’t like we was hiding our relationship, we just liked our privacy. Mel was standing there talking to his right-hand man Teddy, when he seen me he walked up to me hugging me. He said he was fucked up behind Ken getting shot and he needed to know how I was holding up
, I told him I was doing fine under the circumstances. I walked over to Kendu Aunt, when she looked up from her phone she stood up and hugged me, aunt Tasha asked how I was holding up? I could see worry lines form on her forehead and I could tell she was stressed out and scared of losing her nephew. I told her I was trying to remain strong not only for myself but for Ken and the baby as well, I asked them who was in the room with him while hugging both his sisters.
“Raya and her home girl Brie in there now” Jamriah said
“Okay, I can wait until they leave” I said sitting down, now was not the time nor place to have a showdown with this chick over a man that just beat death.
“No, you can’t wait, you have the right to be in that room with him and if you don’t go in there she’ll never come out” Army said rolling her eyes, that was her nickname, Ha walked up to us and told her shut up then he took my hand and we walked to the back where Kendu room was. We got to the glass door and Ha pushed the door open, Soraya was sitting near Kendu bed holding his hand. She looked up at both me and Ha.
“Who is she?” she asked Ha pointing to me, I bit my tongue so I wouldn’t go off on her ass, the fact that she was holding my man hand was not sitting right with me. I didn’t give a fuck about what kind of history they had.
“This Diva, she came to see how Sin was doing. She know him from uptown and she is also Mel cousin” Ha said I looked at him like he was crazy, but I knew where he was coming from he had to look out for me and if he would’ve told her I was the new leading lady in Kendu life it would’ve turn ugly. I laughed at Ha on the inside, Raya stood up.
“I’m Raya his wife, it’s good to know he have a lot of people who love him” she said shaking my hand
“I’m just happy to see that he is alive and doing well, it was nice meeting you” I said looking at Kendu laying in the bed with a tube down his nose, when Raya said she was his wife my blood started boiling.