I didn’t want to get hurt again. I didn’t know if my heart could handle being broken by Shawn, because the truth was I cared about and liked Shawn more than I was willing to admit to anyone. Even Damon.
Yet, the sexual energy between us was far too strong, and I had a feeling I was going to do something I’d regret. Maybe it was better that I stopped right there. I wondered if it was better if we just remained friends, but as Shawn started kissing my neck, I knew it’d be impossible to resist him any longer.
21
Shawn
Present Day
The curtains were drawn closed, and a sliver of sunlight shone onto the bed. God damn, did Liam look handsome as fuck on the California-king bed.
We were fifty stories up in a penthouse hotel suite, but I could still hear the crazy New York traffic below. For some reason, being out of town made it easier to show affection to Liam.
It was like when we were eighteen and went to my parents’ house out of the city. Being away from the city made things less scary, and I wondered if Liam was feeling the same way too.
I sucked on his nipple again, loving how sensitive they were. Liam arched his back and I felt his nipple sharpen to a hard peak. I ran my hand along the curve of his back, feeling his thick muscles.
I looked up into his lusty eyes. “What do you want to do?”
He looked nervous like he did when we were taking off on my private jet. “I don’t know,” he said.
I smiled. “I appreciate your honesty. We don’t have to do anything if you don’t want to. I’m more than happy just remaining friends with you, but your body just drives me wild. I think it’s because you were my first sexual experience with another man, so when I’m touching you like I’m doing right now, I feel things I haven’t felt in a long time.”
I reached for his hand, and placed it on my heart, to show him how fast it was beating, to show him that it was okay for him to be nervous because I sure as hell was.
Liam leaned forward to kiss me and I met him halfway.
“Let’s do it,” he said against my lips. “I think I’m ready for it.”
“You think?” I repeated. “I want you to be sure.”
“I want it,” he said more confidently.
“That’s what I want to hear.”
I moved my hand down his lower back to his ass, feeling his beautiful, thick, plump cheeks. I shuddered at how full they felt in my palm, how badly I wanted to make love to Liam.
“After all these years, you’ve still maintained such a nice body,” I said.
“You know how much I enjoy working out. It calms me down, but now that I have Hayden, it’s harder for me to go.”
“Well, I’m liking this new dad bod then,” I said, with a smile.
Liam punched me playfully in the chest.
“I always remembered you liked to be a bit rough,” I said. “We used to play fight and wrestle all the time.”
“I only ever did that with you. Damon and I never play fought like you and I did. I think it was our way to let out our sexual energy in a way that didn’t make us seem like we liked each other.”
“I think you’re right, but we don’t have to do that anymore. We can... you know... actually have sex.”
Liam raised his brows. “Do you want to fuck me?”
I nodded. “I’ve been wanting to for twenty-seven years. Sometimes late at night during those years when we weren’t talking, I’d be thinking about you, and I’d want to reach out, but I never did.”
“Why didn’t you ever contact me?” Liam asked.
“I was scared. Terrified you hated me because of what happened. Terrified that you wouldn’t feel the same way. Terrified that my teammates and the media would judge me for it. Then, I found out you’d got married, and I thought I’d lost my chance forever.”
Liam furrowed his brows. “I wish things had turned out differently. I wish we’d met each other when we were more mature. Maybe our lives would be different now.”
“But that would mean you wouldn’t have Hayden,” I said.
“Maybe I want some things to be different, but not others. I can’t see what my life would be like if I didn’t have Hayden. He changed my life for the better.”
“It’s funny how life works out sometimes,” I said. “Maybe we don’t need to change or fix the past. Maybe we can just make things better for now and the future.”
I grabbed the hem of Liam’s shirt and pulled it off.
The sliver of light coming in from the window shone on his body. I bit my lip and undid the knot on his sweatpants. I wasn’t sure if it was my hands that were trembling or if Liam’s body was. Maybe it was a bit of both.
I pulled down his sweatpants along with his briefs. His cock shot out and he was already leaking precome. His precome had a sweet smell to it.
I looked at his naked body, amazed that I still remembered some of the beauty marks he had. There was one on his thigh that resembled a heart, and I leaned down to kiss it.
Liam sat up on the bed, and helped me undress, taking off my shirt first. I took my pants and my briefs off, tossing them on the bed beside me.
I flipped him over slowly and admired his beautiful ass. He wasn’t quite as smooth as he was when he was eighteen. He had blond peach fuzz on his cheeks, which I loved more than if he had been completely smooth.
When I heard footsteps coming toward the door, Liam and I stopped what we were doing and directed our attention toward it.
“I think Damon and Jesse are here,” Liam whispered.
I gulped. I was so focused on Liam that I’d forgotten if I’d even locked the door.
“Liam? Shawn?” Damon called out, followed by a knock on the door.
“I’m in here,” Liam said. “Don’t worry.”
“Oh,” Damon said from the other side of the door. “Okay, just checking.”
I heard him walk back down the hallway, and Liam and I breathed a sigh of relief.
“He definitely knows,” I said. “Especially since we were in the bedroom in the private jet.”
Liam nodded. “I know he knows. I sort of told him already.”
“What? You did? When?”
“One meeting at the Single Dads Club, we were talking about relationships, and Damon was grilling me about my love life, and so I had to tell him. I hope you’re not mad because of it.”
“I’m not mad,” I said, shaking my head. “I’m a bit relieved actually that you did. Now, I don’t have to tell him.”
“Were you ever going to?” Liam asked.
“I’ve been thinking about it. I’ve known Damon for as long as I’ve known you, and I think he deserves to know, especially now because he’s in a relationship with Jesse.”
“I think he deserved to know too,” I said. “When Damon came out to me, I wanted to tell him about what you and I did in college, but it didn’t feel like the right time.”
“What was his reaction when you finally told him?” I asked.
“He claimed that he knew all along. I guess we weren’t doing a really good job of hiding our affection for each other when we were in college.”
I laughed. “Now that I think about it, we were probably horrible at it. Fuck, you slept in my twin-sized bed almost every single night.”
Liam’s laugh filled the room and what I’d always loved most about him was how genuine his laugh sounded.
I turned Liam over again, getting back to where we left off. I spread his ass open and looked at his beautiful pink hole. He still looked as tight as he did at eighteen. I buried my face in it, and licked his hole, drawing circles with my tongue. He tasted so sweet. Liam moaned softly into the pillow, grabbing the headboard with both his hands.
“Don’t stop,” Liam said. “Please don’t stop.”
I flicked my tongue against his hole even faster, then pushed my tongue inside him, feeling how tight he was. I could feel Liam’s body tense up when I did that.
I lifted my face out of his ass. “Has anyone ever
fucked you before?”
Liam looked at me over his shoulder, and blood filled his cheeks. “No, never,” he said. “Even we never got that far before.”
“You saved it for me?” I asked jokingly.
“I didn’t save it for anyone. I never thought I’d ever give it up to anyone.”
“That’s going to change today,” I said.
I spread his cheeks open, and spat on his hole, watching the spit drip down to his balls. My cock ached underneath me, and I remembered I had a pack of condoms in my bag, but no lube.
“Do you have lube?” I asked.
Liam shook his head.
“I don’t think I can fuck you without lube,” I said.
“You definitely can’t,” Liam said.
I spat on my hand and rubbed my spit between my fingers before putting my middle finger against Liam’s opening. “What are we going to do without lube?”
Liam moaned as my finger breached his hole. “I don’t know.”
I could feel the muscles in his ass clench tightly around my digit. I needed to put my cock inside Liam to experience what it would feel like to have sex with a man. Not just any man, but the only man I ever wanted to fuck.
“Baby oil,” Liam said. “I have it in the diaper bag.”
I smiled. “You’re a genius.”
I slowly took my finger out of Liam’s ass, and he got off the bed, then headed toward the diaper bag which he’d left by the bedroom door. He pulled out a bottle of baby oil. I went into my bag and pulled out a condom.
We both went back to the bed, and I ripped the condom wrapper open, then rolled it over my cock. I was so hard that the magnum-sized condom felt even tighter than usual. I opened the bottle of baby oil and squeezed some on my cock.
Liam looked at my cock, and I could see him tremble. “I don’t know if I can take you. You’re so big. It’s going to hurt too much.”
“I’ll go slow,” I said. “I promise, if it hurts, we can stop.”
“I can’t believe I’m going to get fucked for the first time. I’m really starting to have second thoughts about it.”
I was really hoping Liam wouldn’t back out now, but at the same time, I understood. I sat down on the bed next to him and leaned against the headboard.
“As I said earlier, we don’t have to,” I said. “We don’t have to do any of this if you don’t want to.”
I leaned in to kiss Liam and ran my hands up and down his sides. Despite what he said, his cock was still throbbing hard like mine was.
Liam pulled back and looked at me. “I just feel like if you fuck me, I’ll be less of a man. I know I shouldn’t think like that, but it’s something I remember my dad saying when I was younger.”
I shook my head. “If anything, having sex will make you more of a man. To be fucked takes a lot of trust and courage.”
Liam took a deep breath. “Okay. Let’s try it.”
He sounded surer and I moved over the top of him, then kissed his lips.
I pushed Liam’s legs toward his chest, and felt his hole with my finger. As I continued to kiss him, I positioned my cock against his opening.
I could feel Liam tremble underneath me, so I tried to be as slow and gentle as I could.
As I moved my hips forward, I felt my cock enter inside another man for the very first time. I groaned at the wonderful sensation and felt a rush of goosebumps on my arms and legs.
My heart started beating faster and beads of sweat rolled down my forehead.
“Fuck me,” Liam whispered.
I pushed inside him further. The deeper I went, the tighter he felt.
“Is it too much?” I asked.
Liam was wincing as he shook his head. “It hurts a bit, but I can take it.”
I remembered there was a spot inside him that made him feel good. After doing some research, I’d learned it was the prostate. I thrust inside him with the hopes of finding the magic place, and when Liam moaned and I felt his body soften, I knew I had found it.
Liam circled his hands around my neck, pulling me closer to him. “Right there,” Liam said.
I moved my hips in circles with my cock halfway in his ass, and watched as precome dribbled out of his cock.
“That’s your prostate,” I said. “My dick is hitting it, which is why you’re leaking precome.”
Liam looked down with wide eyes. “How do you know that? And why does it feel so fucking good?”
“I looked it up when we were in college. Before there was the internet, there was something called an encyclopedia. You remember that?”
Liam smiled and nodded.
I kissed him hard and thrust deep inside him. I fucked him faster and faster, feeling his cock between our bodies and his precome leaking all over.
“Fuck,” I said. “If we go on like this, I’m going to come.”
“Let’s try to come together,” Liam said.
He stroked himself, as I fucked him without holding back. His moans filled the room.
As Liam jacked his cock, I felt the muscles in his ass begin to spasm, and the wonderful sensation sent me over the edge. My muscles tightened, and euphoria coursed throughout my body. I released my load inside Liam and watched him come all over his chest.
I collapsed on top of him, feeling his warm come coat my body.
“I can’t believe we just did that,” I said.
“I can’t believe it either,” Liam whispered.
Even though I’d just come, my cock was still throbbing relentlessly inside Liam’s tight hole.
“You... did put on a condom, right?” he asked.
I furrowed my brows. “Yeah, of course. You watched me.”
“I’m just wondering, because I thought I felt your come inside me. There was a warm feeling in my ass when you came.”
I got off Liam, and looked down, holding the base of the condom as I slid out of him. As I pulled out, I could see a huge tear in the condom, then my come dripping out of Liam’s hole.
“Fuck,” I said.
22
Liam
Twenty-seven years ago
I’d just gotten back to my dorm room from morning class, and sat down on the edge of Shawn’s bed, wondering where Shawn and Damon were that day.
I knew neither of them had classes on Tuesday mornings. Maybe they went to lunch, but even that would be odd because they usually waited for me. My stomach grumbled and I wondered if I should just go to the dining hall by myself.
The door opened and Shawn walked in, wearing his usual workout sweats. I smiled when I saw him, but when he looked at me, I could see a sadness in his eyes.
“How was class?” Shawn asked.
“It’s always hard trying to stay awake during a morning Economics lecture, but I got through it and even managed to take some notes.”
I noticed Shawn was holding an envelope in his hand. He set his gym bag in the closet and sat down next to me.
“Is everything alright?” I asked.
Shawn let out a deep sigh.
I smoothed my hand over his back, but he moved away from me like he didn’t want my affection. I was taken aback by it.
“We need to talk,” Shawn said.
“Is it something serious?” I asked.
“Well, no one’s dying, but I think it’s pretty serious.”
My heart started beating faster in my chest and I wiped my palms on my pants. I’d never seen Shawn so distraught before. Usually, he was so calm and happy. He was still holding onto the white envelope.
“Do you remember the last basketball game we had, and someone from the bleachers pulled me aside after the game?” he asked.
I nodded. “I was wondering what that was about. We didn’t really talk about it after we celebrated our win. What was it about?”
“They were scouts for an NBA team. Turns out they’ve been to the last few games to watch me play.”
“That’s great news,” I said, raising my brows and smiling, but I noticed Shawn didn’t seem as excited.
“Isn’t playing professionally what you always wanted?”
“Yeah, it is. I just didn’t know it would be this soon. I haven’t even finished my first semester of college. I was hoping to graduate before I tried out for the NBA draft.”
“Oh,” I said, finally realizing why he was so sad about this. “Does that mean you have to stop school?”
He nodded. “I just got off the phone with my dad to get his advice. He reminded me it was a once in a lifetime opportunity and to take advantage of the fact that I’m young...” He held his envelope up. “...but now that it’s right in front of me, I don’t know if I’m ready.”
“Which team were the scouts from?”
“The LA Lakers.”
“Does that mean...”
“I’m moving to LA?” he finished my question for me. “If I decide to do it. Yes. It means I have to move to LA.”
I smiled tightly, but my heart sank to my stomach when I realized Shawn was going to be moving.
“How soon is all this happening?” I asked. My body started trembling and I took a deep breath to try and calm myself down.
“They want me there as soon as possible after I sign the contract. Their boot camp is starting next week and they don’t want me to miss it. If I’m as good as they think I am, I’ll be playing in the upcoming NBA season.”
“Damn, that’s incredible Shawn. I’m so... happy for you.”
Shawn turned to me and looked me in my eyes. “You really are?”
“Well, yeah. I know how hard you’ve worked for this. Maybe you didn’t expect it to happen so soon, but it was going to happen eventually. You’ve poured all your energy into playing the best you can. You’re by far the best player on the team.”
“How do you feel about me moving out?” he asked.
“I’m not going to be happy about it,” I said. “I’m going to miss the hell out of you, but I’ll still have Damon around.”
Shawn pinched the bridge of his nose and furrowed his brows. “Fuck, I don’t know if I can do this without you guys by my side. I’ve never been to Los Angeles before, I have no idea what it’s going to be like, I’m going to be around all these people I’ve looked up to for years, and it’s going to be so intimidating.”
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