Conflicted Love

by Hamford, Kacey

  “We will have a child’s portion of mac and cheese, I’ll have the lasagne and a glass of water please. Babe?” I looked up to see Pup smiling back at me.

  “I’ll have the lasagne too and a portion of chips as well please.”

  “Would you like a drink?” she asked placing her hand on his shoulder. He smiled politely at her.

  “Just a coffee please. Black.”

  “No problem, I’ll be back with your drinks soon.” She smiled at Pup again before she swished off.

  “Is it always like this? Will I have to fight for your attention wherever we go?”

  “You never have to fight for my attention. I’m all yours babe.” He reached across the table to grasp my hand.

  “And I’m all yours too.” I smiled at him, getting lost in his blue eyes. “Tell me something about yourself.”

  “What do you wanna know?”

  “Where’s Cooper’s mum? Did you love her?” He sat up straighter, grabbing a breadstick from the basket in the middle of the table. He broke it in half before handing it to Cooper.

  “Yeah, I thought I was in love with her. Until she told me she was having an abortion.”

  “No!” I gasped, covering my mouth with my hand.

  “Yeah.” He ran his hand over his face. “I couldn’t convince her not to go through with it, her mind was made up and then seven months later she turned up at the clubhouse, pregnant.”

  “Wow.”

  “Yeah, I was shocked to hell. But happy too, I wanted him.”

  “So you got back together?”

  “Kind of.”

  “Kind of?” I rose my eyebrow at him in question.

  “She stayed with me at the clubhouse, until Solar and Jasmine moved into their house and then I took over Solar’s apartment. We all moved in there together. Then one night, we had a phone call from the neighbour to say that Cooper was screaming down the place. We rushed over to find that she had left him there, all alone. Not heard from her since and that was over four months ago.”

  “That had to be tough on you both.” I squeezed his hand.

  “Yeah, I struggle to look after him by myself.” He carried on to tell me how he joined the Cornish Crusaders and how he felt like he was letting his brothers down.

  “Well, you’ve both got me now.”

  “I can’t expect you to look after him. You’ve got a business to run.”

  “I would rather I look after him overnight at least, then he can be in his own home. I want to be a part of both of your lives, and I wouldn’t do it if I didn’t want to. I love babies.”

  “Here we go.” The waitress waltzed back over carrying a large tray. She placed our drinks in front of us followed by the food. It smelt amazing.

  “Thank you,” I said before stabbing my fork in the mac and cheese to see how hot it was.

  “We let it cool a bit so he could eat it,” she mentioned.

  “Thanks.” Pup nodded his head and she left us to our meal. I positioned a forkful of mac and cheese in front of Cooper’s mouth and he happily took a big bite. “You eat, I can feed him.”

  “It’s a known fact that women can do two things at once.” I winked at him and he let out a booming laugh.

  “Really? I’d like to see this in person later.” The corner of his mouth twitched and I had to squeeze my legs together to stop the throbbing that had started. “I can see what you’re doing.”

  “What am I doing?” I asked, grabbing a chip from the bowl and dipping it into the cheese sauce on my lasagne.

  “You’re squeezing your legs together. I bet your pussy is getting wet as we speak.” His voice was low and gravelly and I wanted to say fuck the meal and let him fuck me instead.

  “Ty.” I moaned, wiggling in my seat. “When do you have to leave?” He glanced at his phone before looking back at me.

  “In about an hour.” My face fell. I was going to be frustrated all evening. “No touching yourself tonight. I want that pleasure when I get back.”

  “When will you be back?”

  “Probably early hours in the morning.” Our eyes were burning into each others, the arousal was thick between us until Cooper started banging his hands on the table. “Cock blocked,” he mumbled to himself as he shoved a large piece of lasagne into his mouth. I scooped up some more mac and cheese for Cooper, and Pup offered him a chip too. He grabbed one for both hands.

  “It’s not like you were getting it anyway.” I giggled.

  “Oh, I’ll be getting it. Make sure you go to bed naked tonight and I’ll wake you up in a nice way.” I felt my face flush with arousal and I had to stop myself from fanning my face.

  We ate in silence for a few more minutes, until we were finished and Cooper didn’t want anymore. Pup finished off the mac and cheese before throwing some money on the table. He plucked Cooper out of his seat and we walked out hand in hand like a proper little family.

  “Are you sure you’re going to be alright?” Pup asked me for the fifth time as he stood behind me. I was kneeling on the floor in front of the bath tub, Cooper was playing with a toy boat and splashing water.

  “We’ll be just fine. Won’t we little man?” Cooper looked up at me and gave me a big open mouthed smile. “I have your number and Cammie’s. I’ll call if I need to. Promise.”

  “Ok.” He placed a towel in my arms before pulling Cooper out of the bath. I wrapped him in the towel and held him against me. I didn’t want him getting cold.

  “You best get a nappy on him. The amount of times he’s pissed over me after getting out of the bath…”

  “You’re late,” I cut him off before strolling down the hall and into Cooper’s bedroom. I covered him in baby powder before getting him changed into a sleepsuit.

  “I’ll make up the time easy on my bike.” I passed Cooper over to Pup.

  “Say goodnight to daddy.” Cooper laid his head on Pup’s shoulder.

  “You be a good boy for Stef. Love you, buddy.” Pup kissed him on the head before passing him back to me and claiming my lips.

  “Be safe,” I mumbled, our lips still connected.

  “Always am. I’ll see you in a few hours. Remember, no clothes to bed.” I didn’t answer him, I just followed him out into the living room. He grabbed his wallet and phone, shoving them inside his leather jacket.

  “Da da,” Cooper said reaching his arms out for Pup. He took him off me and placed him on his hip.

  “Has he said that before?” I asked.

  “Yeah, only a couple of times. Lottie claimed he called her Mama. I don’t believe her.”

  “What’s her deal? Why is she so clingy?”

  “She wants to be an Old Lady. I guess I was her target.” He shrugged his shoulders, kissing Cooper once more before passing him back to me. “I gotta go. Goodnight.” He kissed me once more and I found that I had to keep the words ‘love you’ sealed behind my lips. Did I love him? Was it too soon? Would I scare him by saying it?

  Pup

  That run was a tough one, I found it difficult to concentrate. My mind was always shifting back to Stef and Cooper; what were they doing? Were they ok?

  It felt like at every junction I saw cops, I had to manage my speed, I couldn’t afford to be pulled over.

  I walked in the apartment door at two in the morning, it was all quiet and dark. I strolled through the living room and down the hall, I pushed Cooper’s bedroom door open to see that he was fast asleep. I wanted to do the same with Stef, but I knew that if she had done what I asked and went to bed naked then there was no way I would be leaving that room and I needed to shower.

  I stripped out of my clothes and threw them in the washing basket before climbing into the hot shower. I scrubbed my body and hair until I felt clean. Short stubble was covering my face but I didn’t want to waste time shaving now.

  I roughly dried my body and hair. The good thing about having short hair was that it didn’t drip down my body. I wrapped the towel around my waist and grabbed the new box of condoms that I b
ought tonight. If I got my way, Stef would be staying here more often than not and we needed to be safe.

  I quietly pushed the door to my bedroom open and laying in the middle of the bed, naked, was Stef. She was laying on her front and the duvet had been pushed down to her lower back. Her long dark hair was pushed off her shoulders. I grabbed my hardening cock in my hand and pumped it a few times. How I hadn’t already pounced on her, I didn’t know. I pulled a condom out of the box and then dropped it to the floor. I covered myself before ambling over to the bed and pulling the duvet away from her gorgeous body. Her toned arse was inviting, I loved that her back dipped and her smooth skin was creamy with a few random freckles. I climbed on the bed and straddled her legs. I rained kisses from her lower back to her neck. When she didn’t stir, I trailed kisses down her back and up again. Once I reached her neck, I lowered my body until my cock was at her entrance. I nibbled on her neck and she stirred. She gasped as I gently pushed inside of her.

  “Tyler,” she moaned. Her eyes stayed closed as she raised her hips off the bed slightly. I placed my hand in the middle of her back to keep her flat and I rocked into her over and over again. In this position, she was tight and as she started to tremble, I could feel her pussy walls forcing me back out. I pushed in harder and faster. She grabbed the pillow that her head was laying on and forced her face into it as she cried out her pleasure. I had to fight to stay inside of her. I snapped my hips faster and stilled once I was shooting my load into the condom.

  Stef moved out from under me and flipped onto her back, she grabbed the back of my head and brought me down to her lips. My hand by her head kept me from crushing her and the other one roamed over her tits, plucking her nipples.

  “More?” I asked. She bit into her lower lip and nodded her head. She widened her legs and hooked them over my hips. I tore off the condom and glanced at the floor to see where the new box was. Just as I was about to move, Stef produced a condom.

  “Where were you hiding that?”

  “Under the pillow, for easy access.” She tore it open with her teeth. She lowered her legs and leant forwards to cover me. “Now, fuck me!”

  “As you wish.” She flopped back down onto the bed which caused her tits to bounce, I groaned in the back of my throat as I grabbed my cock and lined it up with her entrance. In one movement, I was back inside of her.

  “Don’t hold back,” she panted. “Hard and fast.” I lowered over her body to invade her mouth with my tongue. After she hummed with approval, I sat back on my knees and pushed her legs closer to her chest. I slammed in and out of her a couple of times before lowering my body over hers, trapping her legs between us. My hands landed either side of her head and hers held onto my sides. I rotated my hips before I started a punishing rhythm. Every time her nails dug into my skin, I pounded harder, making her tits bounce vigorously and I couldn’t keep my eyes off of them. I could feel the tingling sensation start to climb. I moved my hips frantically hoping like hell that I wasn’t hurting her. I let myself go and moved as fast and as hard as I wanted. When I was close to losing it, I angled my hips so that I was moving over her piercing. Her nails bit into my skin once more and she held on as she tried her hardest to stay quiet. I quickly covered her mouth with mine and she moaned into it. Two strokes later and I stilled above her. Pulling my lips away from hers, I arched my back, my head dropped back and I groaned out her name.

  Stef

  “Are you sure you’re ok with looking after him again?” Pup asked as he yawned, rubbing his hand over his face. “You had him the night before last and all last night, while I did this run.”

  “Tyler, you’ve been up all night. You need to go to bed and get some sleep,” I said as I pointed towards the bedrooms. Cooper was sitting in his high chair guzzling from his bottle of milk as his empty cereal bowl laid on the table in front of me.

  “I feel bad, like I’m taking advantage of you.” Concern crossed his face and I climbed to my feet and walked into his open arms.

  “Babe, I want to do it. I love having time with just him. It’s good for us. I want to bond with him.”

  “He already loves you,” he told me, winding his arms around me tighter and kissing me on the top of my head.

  “I hope so,” I murmured.

  “What was that you said?” he asked pulling back from me slightly. I angled my head towards him and offered him my lips. He kissed me gently.

  “I said, when you’re busy with club business and runs I want him with me. Not with club whores and babysitters. I loved the fact that my mum was always around to look after us. She was always at home waiting for us when we finished school and I loved that. I want Cooper to have that life too. He’ll never want for love.”

  “You’re amazing, you know that?”

  “I do now.” I smiled. “Now go and get some sleep. We’ll be quiet until we go out.”

  “Where are you off to?”

  “Just to the garage, I have a parcel being delivered at eleven. Do you mind me taking him out?”

  “Babe, I trust you with him. He’s lucky to have you, we both are.” He always seemed to make me smile with his sweet words. I stretched up on my tiptoes, wound my arms around his neck and pressed my soft lips into his. The day old stubble scratched my chin, but I liked the roughness of it.

  “Don’t shave until tomorrow.” I winked at him.

  “Whatever you want, babe,” he said on a yawn.

  “Go and get some sleep,” I demanded, pointing towards the bedrooms.

  “I am.” He kissed me once more before strolling over to Cooper and giving him a kiss on the top of his head. Cooper stopped drinking from his bottle, threw it on the floor and held his arms out for Pup. I hurried over to the half full bottle, hoping it hadn’t spilt all over the floor. I quickly wiped up the mess with the tea towel before it spread to the carpet.

  “Come on little man, daddy’s got to go to bed,” I said to Cooper, who was jabbering away at Pup.

  “Da da da da da da.”

  “That’s right.” I pulled Cooper out of Pups arms. “Sleep well.” He kissed me once more before he ambled down the hall, yawning out loud.

  I swung Cooper onto my hip and handed him back his cleaned up bottle, he greedily drank the rest of it down as I tidied up the kitchen. It was amazing how quickly I became accustomed to working with one hand and a child on my hip. How people with twins ever got anything done was beyond me.

  “Da da da da da da.” Cooper chanted. I took the empty bottle from him and placed it on the side. Cooper was still in his onesie from bed, but I wanted to make sure Pup was asleep before I went and got him changed, hoping there would be less chance of us disturbing him.

  “Shall we play with the bricks?” I asked Cooper as I sat him on the floor and grabbed the bag with the coloured bricks in. I tipped them out and he clapped his hands together in excitement. I sat on the floor with him and began stacking the bricks up one by one, I never got any further than four before he was knocking them all down.

  After playing with various toys for nearly two hours Cooper started yawning. I glanced at the clock to see that it was nearly ten o’clock.

  “Let’s get you dressed.” I scooped him up in my arms and tiptoed down the hallway and into Cooper room. I shut the door quietly behind us before placing him in his cot so I could find him an outfit to wear. He sat quietly in his cot playing with his blue teddy. “Ah, love teddy.” I told him. He gave the teddy a hug and kissed him. “Ah good boy.” I praised.

  I pulled him out of his cot and laid him on the changing table that he was getting too big for. I quickly changed his nappy and dressed him in a pair of blue jeans, a t-shirt that had dinosaurs on the front and a black hoody that read ‘Cornish Crusaders’ on the back. I couldn’t help the giggle that left me, they were recruiting members young.

  I decided to walk to ‘Wheelz’, it was only fifteen minutes from where Pup lived and the fresh air was good for Cooper and me. I hadn’t even been walking for five minutes before C
ooper had fallen asleep. I had kept him busy this morning.

  I pushed my key into the lock on the office door and stepped inside to turn the alarm off and hit the button to open up the roller door. The weather was nice, the sun was shining and warm. I positioned Cooper’s pushchair inside the door out of the direct sun. Glancing at the clock on the wall showed that it was just before eleven. I shouldn’t have long to wait until my parcel arrived; it was a spare part for the bike I was currently working on. It came in having one thing wrong with it and I had to call the owner and make them aware of the more serious problem with it that made it unsafe to ride. They gave me the go ahead to order the part and said they weren’t in any rush for the bike back.

  My head snapped to the side when I heard the familiar rumble of a bike, I gazed out of the door to see an all black bike turn up, the rider was sporting a Cornish Crusaders patch. I went to step outside to see who it was when Cooper started crying. I hurried over to him and pulled the blanket away from him and unsnapped his straps.

  “Hey, what’s up little man?” I cooed at him. His arms stretched out for me and I picked him up, holding him against my chest.

  “Hey, Stef.” I looked to the right to see Toes standing just inside the garage doors.

  “Oh, hi. What can I do for you? I’m not actually open today.”

  “That’s cool. I just wanted to book my bike in for a service,” he smiled. “Hey little Coop. Give me a high five.” Toes held hold of Coopers hand and pushed their hands together in a high five motion, causing Cooper to giggle.

  “Oh, my delivery is here. Hold him a sec would you?” Toes opened his arms up for Cooper and he willing went to him. “I won’t be two minutes and then I’ll book your bike in.”

  “No rush, sweetheart,” he smiled.

  I hurried outside and waited for the delivery guy to climb out of his van.

  “Miss Masters?” he asked.

  “Yeah, that’s me.”

  “Sign here please.” He handed me over a small handheld device and a stylus and I scribbled my name in the box. “It’s heavy, shall I put it somewhere for you?”