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by Rainer Maria Rilke


  not even the boy with the brown squinting eyes:

  I’ll still remain. For one can always watch.

  Am I not right? You, to whom life would taste

  so bitter, Father, when you tasted mine,

  that turbid first infusion of my Must,

  you kept on tasting as I kept on growing,

  and, still arrested by the after-taste

  of such queer future, tried my clouded gaze—

  you, who so often, since you died, my Father,

  have been afraid within my inmost hope,

  surrendering realms of that serenity

  the dead are lords of for my bit of fate—

  am I not right? And you, am I not right—

  you that would love me for that small beginning

  of love for you I always turned away from,

  because the space within your faces changed,

  even while I loved it, into cosmic space

  where you no longer were … when I feel like it,

  to wait before the puppet stage—no, rather

  gaze so intensely on it that at last

  a counterpoising angel has to come

  and play a part there, snatching up the husks?

  Angel and doll! Then there’s at last a play.

  Then there unites what we continually

  part by our mere existence. Then at last

  emerges from our seasons here the cycle

  of the whole process. Over and above us,

  then, there’s the angel playing. Look, the dying—

  surely they must suspect how full of pretext

  is all that we accomplish here, where nothing

  is what it really is. O hours of childhood,

  hours when behind the figures there was more

  than the mere past, and when what lay before us

  was not the future! True, we were growing, and sometimes

  made haste to be grown up, half for the sake

  of those who’d nothing left but their grown-upness.

  Yet, when alone, we entertained ourselves

  with everlastingness: there we would stand,

  within the gap left between world and toy,

  upon a spot which, from the first beginning,

  had been established for a pure event.

  Who’ll show a child just as it is? Who’ll place it

  within its constellation, with the measure

  of distance in its hand? Who’ll make its death

  from gray bread, that grows hard—or leave it there,

  within the round mouth, like the seeded core

  of a nice apple?…Minds of murderers

  can easily be fathomed. This, though: death,

  the whole of death, before life’s start, to hold it

  so gently and so free from all resentment,

  transcends description.

  THE EIGHTH ELEGY

  Dedicated to Rudolf Kassner

  With all its eyes the creature-world beholds

  the open. But our eyes, as though reversed,

  encircle it on every side, like traps

  set round its unobstructed path to freedom.

  What is outside, we know from the brute’s face

  alone; for while a child’s quite small we take it

  and turn it round and force it to look backwards

  at conformation, not that openness

  so deep within the brute’s face. Free from death.

  We alone see that; the free animal

  has its decease perpetually behind it

  and God in front, and when it moves, it moves

  within eternity, like running springs.

  We’ve never, no, not for a single day,

  pure space before us, such as that which flowers

  endlessly open into: always world,

  and never nowhere without no: that pure,

  unsuperintended element one breathes,

  endlessly knows, and never craves. A child

  sometimes gets quietly lost there, to be always

  jogged back again. Or someone dies and is it.

  For, nearing death, one perceives death no longer,

  and stares ahead—perhaps with large brute gaze.

  Lovers—were not the other present, always

  blocking the view!—draw near to it and wonder …

  Behind the other, as though through oversight,

  the thing’s revealed … But no one gets beyond

  the other, and so world returns once more.

  Always facing Creation, we perceive there

  only a mirroring of the free and open,

  dimmed by our breath. Or that a dumb brute’s calmly

  raising its head to look us through and through.

  For this is Destiny: being opposite,

  and nothing else, and always opposite.

  Did consciousness such as we have exist

  in the sure animal that moves towards us

  upon a different course, the brute would drag us

  round in its wake. But its own being for it

  is infinite, inapprehensible,

  unintrospective, pure, like its outgazing.

  Where we see Future, it sees Everything,

  itself in Everything, for ever healed.

  And yet, within the wakefully-warm beast

  there lies the weight and care of a great sadness.

  For that which often overwhelms us clings

  to him as well—a kind of memory

  that what one’s pressing after now was once

  nearer and truer and attached to us

  with infinite tenderness. Here all is distance,

  there it was breath. Compared with that first home

  the second seems ambiguous and fickle.

  Oh, bliss of tiny creatures that remain

  for ever in the womb that brought them forth!

  Joy of the gnat, that can still leap within,

  even on its wedding-day: for womb is all!

  Look at the half-assurance of the bird,

  through origin almost aware of both,

  like one of those Etruscan souls, escaped

  from a dead man enclosed within a space

  on which his resting figure forms a lid.

  And how dismayed is any womb-born thing

  that has to fly! As though it were afraid

  of its own self, it zigzags through the air

  like crack through cup. The way a bat’s track runs

  rendingly through the evening’s porcelain.

  And we, spectators always, everywhere,

  looking at, never out of, everything!

  It fills us. We arrange it. It collapses.

  We re-arrange it, and collapse ourselves.

  Who’s turned us round like this, so that we always,

  do what we may, retain the attitude

  of someone who’s departing? Just as he,

  on the last hill, that shows him all his valley

  for the last time, will turn and stop and linger,

  we live our lives, for ever taking leave.

  THE NINTH ELEGY

  Why, when this span of life might be fleeted away

  as laurel, a little darker than all

  the surrounding green, with tiny waves on the border

  of every leaf (like the smile of a wind)—oh, why

  have to be human, and, shunning Destiny,

  long for Destiny? …

  Not because happiness really

  exists, that precipitate profit of imminent loss.

  Not out of curiosity, not just to practice the heart,

  that could still be there in laurel…

  But because being here is much, and because all this

  that’s here, so fleeting, seems to require us and strangely

  concerns us. Us the most fleeting of all. Just once,

  everything, only for once. Once and no more. And we, too,

  once. And never again. But this


  having been once, though only once,

  having been once on earth—can it ever be cancelled?

  And so we keep pressing on and trying to perform it,

  trying to contain it within our simple hands,

  in the more and more crowded gaze, in the speechless heart.

  Trying to become it. To give it to whom? We’d rather

  hold on to it all for ever … But into the other relation,

  what, alas! do we carry across? Not the beholding we’ve here

  slowly acquired, and no here occurrence. Not one.

  Sufferings, then. Above all, the hardness of life,

  the long experience of love; in fact,

  purely untellable things. But later,

  under the stars, what use? the more deeply untellable stars?

  Yet the wanderer too doesn’t bring from mountain to valley

  a handful of earth, of for all untellable earth, but only

  a word he has won, pure, the yellow and blue

  gentian. Are we, perhaps, here just for saying: House,

  Bridge, Fountain, Gate, Jug, Fruit tree, Window,—

  possibly: Pillar, Tower? … but for saying, remember,

  oh, for such saying as never the things themselves

  hoped so intensely to be. Is not the secret purpose

  of this sly Earth, in urging a pair of lovers,

  just to make everything leap with ecstasy in them?

  Threshold: what does it mean

  to a pair of lovers, that they should be wearing their own

  worn threshold a little, they too, after the many before,

  before the many to come … as a matter of course!

  Here is the time for the Tellable, here is its home.

  Speak and proclaim. More than ever

  things we can live with are falling away, for that

  which is oustingly taking their place is an imageless act.

  Act under crusts, that will readily split as soon

  as the doing within outgrows them and takes a new outline.

  Between the hammers lives on

  our heart, as between the teeth

  the tongue, which, in spite of all,

  still continues to praise.

  Praise this world to the Angel, not the untellable: you

  can’t impress him with the splendor you’ve felt; in the cosmos

  where he more feelingly feels you’re only a novice. So show him

  some simple thing, refashioned by age after age,

  till it lives in our hands and eyes as a part of ourselves.

  Tell him things. He’ll stand more astonished: as you did

  beside the roper in Rome or the potter in Egypt.

  Show him how happy a thing can be, how guileless and ours;

  how even the moaning of grief purely determines on form,

  serves as a thing, or dies into a thing—to escape

  to a bliss beyond the fiddle. These things that live on departure

  understand when you praise them: fleeting, they look for

  rescue through something in us, the most fleeting of all.

  Want us to change them entirely, within our invisible hearts,

  into—oh, endlessly—into ourselves! Whosoever we are.

  Earth, is it not just this that you want: to arise

  invisibly in us? Is not your dream

  to be one day invisible? Earth! invisible!

  What is your urgent command, if not transformation?

  Earth, you darling, I will! Oh, believe me, you need

  no more of your spring-times to win me over: a single one,

  ah, one, is already more than my blood can endure.

  Beyond all names I am yours, and have been for ages.

  You were always right, and your holiest inspiration

  is Death, that friendly Death.

  Look, I am living. On what? Neither childhood nor future

  are growing less…Supernumerous existence

  wells up in my heart.

  SONNETS TO ORPHEUS

  (1923)

  A GOD CAN DO IT

  A god can do it. But can a man expect

  to penetrate the narrow lyre and follow?

  His sense is discord. Temples for Apollo

  are not found where two heart-ways intersect.

  For song, as taught by you, is not desire,

  not wooing of something finally attained;

  song is existence. For the god unstrained.

  But when shall we exist? And he require

  the earth and heavens to exist for us?

  It’s more than being in love, boy, though your ringing

  voice may have flung your dumb mouth open thus:

  learn to forget those fleeting ecstasies.

  Far other is the breath of real singing.

  An aimless breath. A stirring in the God. A breeze.

  RAISE NO COMMEMORATING STONE

  Raise no commemorating stone. The roses

  shall blossom every summer for his sake.

  For this is Orpheus. His metamorphosis

  in this one and in that. We should not make

  searches for other names. Once and for all,

  it’s Orpheus when there’s song. He comes and goes.

  Is it not much if sometimes, by some small

  number of days, he shall outlive the rose?

  Could you but feel his passing’s needfulness!

  Though he himself may dread the hour drawing nigher

  Already, when his words pass earthliness,

  he passes with them far beyond your gaze.

  His hands unhindered by the trellised lyre,

  in all his over-steppings he obeys.

  PRAISING, THAT’S IT!

  Praising, that’s it! As a praiser and blesser

  he came like the ore from the taciturn mine.

  Came with his heart, oh, transient presser,

  for men, of a never-exhaustible wine.

  Voice never fails him for things lacking luster,

  sacred example will open his mouth.

  All becomes vineyard, all becomes cluster,

  warmed by his sympathy’s ripening south.

  Crypts and the moldering kings who lie there

  do not belie his praising, neither

  doubt, when a shadow obscures our days.

  He is a messenger always attendant,

  reaching far through their gates resplendent

  dishes of fruit for the dead to praise.

  MIRRORS

  Mirrors: no one has yet distilled with

  patient knowledge your fugitive

  essence. You spaces in time, that are filled with

  holes like those of a sieve.

  Squandering the empty ball-room’s pomp,

  deep as forests when twilight broods …

  And, like sixteen-pointers, the lusters romp

  through your virginal solitudes.

  Pictures crowd you at times. A few

  seem to be taken right within you,

  shyly to others you wave adieu.

  There, though, the fairest will always be,

  till through to her lips withheld continue

  Narcissus, released into lucency.

  THIS IS THE CREATURE

  This is the creature there has never been.

  They never knew it, and yet, none the less,

  they loved the way it moved, its suppleness,

  its neck, its very gaze, mild and serene.

  Not there, because they loved it, it behaved

  as though it were. They always left some space.

  And in that clear unpeopled space they saved

  it lightly reared its head, with scarce a trace

  of not being there. They fed it, not with corn,

  but only with the possibility

  of being. And that was able to confer

  such strength, its brow put forth a horn. One horn.

  Whitely it stole up to a maid—to be
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  within the silver mirror and in her.

  O FOUNTAIN MOUTH

  O fountain mouth, you mouth that can respond

  so inexhaustibly to all who ask

  with one, pure, single saying. Marble mask

  before the water’s flowing face. Beyond,

  the aqueducts’ long derivation. Past

  the tombs, from where the Apennines begin,

  they bring your saying to you, which at last,

  over the grizzled age of your dark chin,

  falls to the waiting basin, crystal-clear;

  falls to the slumbering recumbent ear,

  the marble ear, with which you will confer.

  One of earth’s ears. With her own lonely mood

  she thus converses. Let a jug intrude,

  she’ll only think you’ve interrupted her.

  STILL THE GOD REMAINS

  Still the god remains an ever-growing

  wholeness we have irritably burst.

  We are sharp, for we insist on knowing,

  he exists serenely and dispersed.

  Even gifts of purest consecration

  only find acceptance in so much

  as he turns in moveless contemplation

  to the end we do not touch.

  Only those who dwell

  out of sight can taste the spring we hear,

  when the god has silently assented.

  With its brawling we must be contented.

  And the lamb’s more silent instinct’s clear

  when it begs us for its bell.

  DANCER

  Dancer: you transmutation

  of all going-by into going: what you have wrought!

  And your finishing whirl, that tree of mere animation,

  how it took over the year you had flyingly caught!

  Did not its crown, that your swaying might settle to swarming,

  suddenly blossom with stillness? Above that, too,

  was there not sunnily, was there not summerly warming

  all the warmth that exhaled from you?

  Nay, it was able, your tree of rapture, to bear.

  Are they not, all its fruits that so peacefully shine,

  jug streaked with ripeness, vase further ripened, still there?

  And does not your mark in their paintings still meet the discerning—

  that of your eyebrows’ darker line

  swiftly inscribed on the wall of your own swift turning?

  HOW IT THRILLS US

 

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