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by Elizabeth Bishop

Starlight,LaConga, allthedance-halls

  intheblockofhonkey-tonks,

  cavitiesinourwaningmoon,

  strungwithbottlesandbluelights

  andsilveredcoconutsandconches.

  Aseasilyasthemusicfalls,

  thenickelsfallintotheslots,

  thedrinkslikelonelywater-falls

  innightdescendtheseparatethroats,

  andthehandsfallononeanother

  darkerdarknessunder

  tablecloths&alldescends,

  descends,falls,—muchasweenvision

  thehelplessearthwardfalloflove

  descendingfromtheheadandeye

  downtothehands,andheart,anddown.

  Themusicpretendstolaughandweep

  whileitdescendstodrinkandmurder.

  Theburningboxcankeepthemeasure

  strict,always,andthedown-beat.

  Poesaidthatpoetrywas exact.

  Butpleasuresaremechanical

  andknowbeforehandwhattheywant

  andknowexactlywhattheywant.

  &theyobtainthatsingleeffect

  thatcanbecalculatedlikealcohol

  orliketheresponsetothenickel.

  —howlongdoesthemusicburn?

  likepoetry,orallyourhorror

  halfasexactashorrorhere?

  1940s(Vassar75.b,p.239);publishedin EdgarAllanPoe&TheJuke-Box.

  TheSoldierandtheSlot-Machine

  Iwillnotplaytheslot-machine.

  Don’tforcethenickelinmyhand.

  Iwillnotplaytheslot-machine

  Forallthenickelsintheland.

  Iwillnotaskforchangeagain.

  Thebarkeepercanseemedead

  BeforeI’lltrytomeetthoseeyes

  Thatmovelikemoneyinhishead.

  Theslot-machineisallembossed

  Withhornsofplentydoneingilt;

  Andoutofthemalldownitsfront

  Streamdummycoinssupposedlyspilt,

  Likemedalsforitscleverness,

  Asiftheslot-machinecouldcough

  Innickelsdownitstunic,but

  Onecannotpickthedummiesoff.

  Theyaresymbolicofthewhole

  Itseemstome,andIshouldknow

  Sincehundredsoftimes,thousandsoftimes,

  I’veaddedmineontothatrow

  Movingalonghereinthisgroove

  Towardsthatholetheyallfallthrough.

  Theslot-machineiswhoisdrunk

  Andyou’readirtynickel,too…

  Itsnotionsallarepreconceived.

  Ittemptsonemuchtotearapart

  Themetalframe,toinvestigate

  Theworkingsofitsmetalheart,

  Thegrindingsofitsmetalbrain,

  Thebiteofitsdecisiveteeth.

  Ohyes,theydecoratethetop

  Butnottheawfulunderneath.

  Theslot-machineisfullof——.

  Theslot-machine’smateriel

  Andifyousquintyoureyesitlooks

  Alittlelikeageneral.

  Andevenifgenerouslyinclined

  Itsmoneyallwillmelt,I’msure,

  Andflowlikemercurythroughthecracks

  Andmakeapoolbeneaththefloor…

  Itshouldbeflungintothesea.

  Itshouldbebrokenupforjunk

  Andallitsnickelstakenaway.

  Theslot-machineiswhoisdrunk.

  Iwillnotplaytheslot-machine.

  ItspleasuresIcannotafford.

  WhoevergottheTwinJack-Pot?

  WhoeverwontheGoldAward?

  c.1942(Vassar64.7);publishedin EdgarAllanPoe&TheJuke-Box. Inline46,

  “its”hasbeenreadfor“it’s”.

  “Ihadabaddream…”

  Ihadabaddream,

  towardmorning,aboutyou.

  Youlayunconscious

  Itwastobe

  for“24hrs.”

  Wrappedinalongblanket

  IfeltImustholdyou

  eventhougha“loadofguests”

  mightcomeinfromthegarden

  /at/aminute

  &seeuslying

  withmyarmsaroundyou

  &mycheekonyours.

  Itwaswarm—butIhadto

  preventyou

  fromslippingaway

  fromyourbodyyourcheek

  fromthewound-roundblanket—

  gravedarkmorning

  Thinkingofyou

  athousandmilesaway,

  howItriedtoholdyou

  withthenumbarmsofadreamer

  inthedeepofthemorning

  thedaycoming

  thatlonelinesslikefallingon

  thesidewalkinacrowd

  thatfillssomeslow,elaborateshame.

  thesidewalkrisesrises

  likeabsolutedespair

  n.d.(Vassar75.3b,p.167);publishedin EdgarAllanPoe&TheJuke-Box. The wordatthestartofline10maybe“at,”asinthephrase“ataminute’snotice.”

  TheOwl’sJourney

  Somewheretheowlrodeontherabbit’sback

  downalongslope,overthelong,driedgrasses,

  throughahalf-moonlightignitingeverything

  withspecksoffaintestgreen&blue.

  Theymadenosound,noshriek,no Whoo!

  —offonalong-forgottenjourney.

  —Theadventure’sminiatureandancient:

  collaborationthoughtupbyachild.

  Buttheyobliged,andofftheywenttogether.

  Theowl’sclawslockdeepintherabbit’sfur,

  andtheowlseated

  alittlesideways,hismindonsomethingelse;

  therabbit’searsareback,hiseyesintent.

  —Butthedreamhasnevergotanyfurther.

  c.1949–50(Vassar,64.10);publishedin EdgarAllanPoe&TheJuke-Box.

  AShort,SlowLife

  WelivedinapocketofTime.

  Itwasclose,itwaswarm.

  Alongthedarkseamoftheriver

  thehouses,thebarns,thetwochurches,

  hidlikewhitecrumbs

  inafluffofgraywillows&elms,

  tillTimemadeoneofhisgestures;

  hisnailsscratchedtheshingledroof.

  Roughlyhishandreachedin,

  andtumbledusout.

  1950s(Vassar74.10);publishedin EdgarAllanPoe&TheJuke-Box.

  SuicideofaModerateDictator

  forCarlosLacerda

  Thisisadaywhentruthswillout,perhaps;—

  leakfromthedanglingtelephoneear-phones

  sappingthefestoonedswitchboards’strength;

  fallfromthewindows,blowfromoffthesills,

  —thevague,slightunremarkablecontents

  ofemptyingash-trays;ruboffonourfingers

  likeinkfromtheun-proof-readnewspapers,

  crockingthewaytheunfocusedphotographs

  ofcrookedfacesdothatsoilourcoats,

  ourtropical-weightcoats,likeslapped-atmoths.

  Today’sadaywhenthosewhowork

  areidling.Thosewhoplayedmustwork

  andhurry,too,togetitdone,

  withlittledignityornone.

  Thenewspapersaresold;thekioskshutters

  crashdown.Butanyway,inthenight

  theheadlineswrotethemselves,see,onthestreets

  andsidewalkseverywhere;asediment’ssplashed

  eventothefirstfloorsofapartmenthouses.

  Thisisadaythat’sbeautifulaswell,

  andwarmandclear.Atseveno’clockIsaw

  thedogsbeingwalkedalongthefamousbeach


  asusual,inashinygray-greendawn,

  leavingtheirpaw-printsdraininginthewet.

  Thelineofbreakerswassteadyandthepinkish,

  segmentedrainbowsteadilyhungaboveit.

  Ateighttwolittleboyswereflyingkites.

  c. 1954 or after, following the suicide of Getúlio Vargas on August 24, 1954

  (Vassar67.14);publishedin EdgarAllanPoe&TheJuke-Box.

  “Dear,mycompass…”

  Dear,mycompass

  stillpointsnorth

  towoodenhouses

  andblueeyes,

  fairy-taleswhere

  flaxen-headed

  youngersons

  bringhomethegoose,

  loveinhay-lofts,

  Protestants,and

  heavydrinkers…

  Springsarebackward,

  butcrab-apples

  ripentorubies,

  cranberries

  todropsofblood,

  andswanscanpaddle

  icywater,

  sohottheblood

  inthosewebbedfeet.

  —Coldasitis,we’d

  gotobed,dear,

  early,butnever

  tokeepwarm.

  c.1965(privatecollection;photographcourtesyofCarmenOliveira,withthanks toBarbaraPageandLloydSchwartz).Asecond,typedversionorganizesallthe stanzasintoquatrains,andwaspublishedin EdgarAllanPoe&TheJuke-Box.

  ADrunkard

  WhenIwasthree,IwatchedtheSalemfire.

  Itburnedallnight(orthenIthoughtitdid)

  andIstoodinmycrib&watcheditburn.

  Theskywasbrightred;everythingwasred:

  outonthelawn,mymother’swhitedresslooked

  rose-red;mywhiteenammelledcribwasred.

  andmyhandsholdingtoitsrods—

  thebrassknobsheldspecksoffire

  itsbrassknobsholdingspecksoffire—

  Ifeltamazementnotfear

  butamazementmaybe

  myinfancy’smainemotion—chief

  Peoplewereplayinghosesontheroofs

  ofthesummercottagesinMarbleheadonMarbleheadneck

  theredskywasfilledwithflyingmoats,

  cindersandcoals,andbiggerthings,scorchedblackburnt

  Thewaterglowedlikefire,too,butflat

  Iwatchedsomeboatsarrivingonourbeach

  fullofescapingpeople(Ididn’tknowthat)

  Onedory,silhouettedblack(andlaterI

  thoughtofthisashavinglookedlike

  WashingtonCrossingtheDelaware,allblack—

  insilhouette—

  Iwasterriblythirstybutmamadidn’thear

  mecallingher.Outonthelawn

  sheandsomeneighborsweregivingcoffee

  orfoodorsomethingtothepeoplelandingintheboats—

  IglimpsedheronceinawhileIcaughtaglimpseofher

  andcalledandcalled—noonepaidanyattention—

  Inthemorningacrossthebaybrilliantmorning

  thefirestillwenton,butinthesunlight

  wesawnomoreglare,justthecloudsofsmoke

  Thebeachwasstrewnwithcinders,darkwithash—

  strangeobjectsseemedtohaveblownacrossthewater

  liftedbythatterribleheat,throughtheredsky?

  Blackenedboards,shinyblacklikeblackfeathers—

  piecesoffurniture,partsofboats,andclothes—

  Ipickedupawoman’slongblackcotton

  stocking.Curiosity.Mymothersaidsharply

  Putthatdown! Irememberclearly,clearly—

  Butsincethatday,thatreprimand

  thatnightthatdaythatreprimand—

  Ihavehadasufferedfromabnormalthirst—

  Iswearit’strue—andbytheage

  oftwentyortwenty-oneIhadbegun

  todrink,&drink—Ican’tgetenough

  and,asyoumusthavenoticed,

  I’mhalf-drunknow…

  AndallI’mtellingyoumaybealie…

  c. 1970–1971 (Vassar 64.22); published in Edgar Allan Poe & The Juke-Box.

  Spellingiscorrectedandwordsseparatedthroughout.

  [LineswritteninacopyofFannieFarmer’s BostonCookingSchoolCookBook,

  giventoFrankBidart]

  Youwon’tbecomea gourmet*cook

  BystudyingourFannie’sbook—

  HerthoughtsonFood&KeepingHouse

  ArescarcelythoseofLevi-Strauss.

  Nevertheless,you’llfind,Frankdear,

  The basicelements**arehere.

  Andifaproblemshouldarise:

  TheSouffléfallbeforeyoureyes,

  OrstrangethingshappentotheRice

  —YouknowI lovetogiveadvice.

  Elizabeth

  Christmas,1971

  P.S.Fannieshouldnotbeunderrated;

  Shehasbecomesophisticated.

  She’spickedupmany gourmet*tricks

  Sincetheeditionof’96.

  1971 (Houghton bMS Am 2036); published in Elizabeth Bishop and Her Art (1983), edited by Lloyd Schwartz and Sybil P. Estess, and in The Complete

  Poems, 1927–1979. Schwartz asked Bishop’s permission to publish the inscription. She replied, “I suppose it is all right to print the Fanny Farmer dedication—butperhapsitshd.say,in()’s, ApresenttoFrankBidart—orelsea longertitle,alaWordsworth— ‘LineswritteninacopyofFF’sBostonCooking School Cook Book, given to Frank Bidart’…?” (EB to Lloyd Schwartz, dated

  “August23rd(Ithink)1977,”CollectionofLloydSchwartz.)

  VaguePoem( Vaguelylovepoem)

  Thetripwest—

  —IthinkI dreamedthattrip.

  Theytalkedalotof“RoseRocks”

  ormaybe“RockRoses”

  —I’mnotsurenow,butsomeonetriedtogetmesome.

  (Andtwoorthreestudentshad.)

  Shesaidshehadsomeatherhouse.

  Theywerebythebackdoor,shesaid.

  —Aramshacklehouse.

  AnArmyhouse?—No,“a Navyhouse.”Yes,

  thatfarinland.

  Therewasnothingbythebackdoorbutdirt

  orthatsamedrymonochrome,sepiastrawI’dseeneverywhere.

  Ohshesaidthedoghascarriedthemoff.

  (Abigblackdog,female,wasdancingaroundus.)

  Later,aswedrankteafrommugs,shefoundone,

  “asortofone”.“Thisoneisjustbeginning.See—

  youcanseehere,it’sbeginningtolooklikearose.

  It’s—well,acrystal,crystalsform–

  Idon’tknowanygeologymyself…”

  (NeitherdidI.)

  Faintly,Icouldmakeout—perhaps—inthedull,

  rose-redlumpof,apparently,soil,

  arose-likeshape;faintglitters…Yes,perhaps

  therewasasecret,powerfulcrystalatworkinside.

  I almostsawit:turningintoarose

  withoutanyoftheintervening

  roots,stem,buds,andsoon;just

  earthtoroseandbackagain.

  Crystalographyanditslaws:

  somethingIIoncewantedbadlytostudy,

  untilIlearnedthatitwouldinvolvealotofarithmetic,thatis,mathematics.

  Justnow,whenIsawyounakedagain,

  Ithoughtthesamewords:rose-rock;rock-rose…

  Rose,trying,workingtoshowitself,

  forming,foldingover,

  unimaginableconnections,unseen,shiningedges.

  Rose-rock,unformed,fleshbeginning,crystalbycr
ystal,

  clearpinkbreastsanddarker,crystallinenipples,

  rose-rock,rose-quartz,roses,roses,roses,

  exactingrosesfromthebody,

  andtheevendarker,accurate,roseofsex—

  c.1973?(Vassar,67.23);publishedin EdgarAllanPoe&TheJuke-Box.

  BreakfastSong

  Mylove,mysavinggrace,

  youreyesareawfullyblue.

  Ikissyourfunnyface,

  yourcoffee-flavoredmouth.

  LastnightIsleptwithyou.

  TodayIloveyouso

  howcanIbeartogo

  (assoonImust,Iknow)

  tobedwithuglydeath

  inthatcold,filthyplace,

  tosleeptherewithoutyou,

  withouttheeasybreath

  andnightlong,limblongwarmth

  I’vegrownaccustomedto?

  —Nobodywantstodie;

  tellmeitisalie!

  Butno,Iknowit’strue.

  It’sjustthecommoncase;

  there’snothingonecando.

  Mylove,mysavinggrace,

  youreyesareawfullyblue

  early&instantblue

  c. 1973–1974. Collection of Lloyd Schwartz; published in Edgar Allan Poe &

  The Juke-Box. The manuscript is in Lloyd Schwartz’s hand, copied from Bishop’s notebook on or around January 3, 1974. The notebook does not survive, but a surviving typescript draft of a poem entitled “Simple-Minded MorningSong,”consistingoftwolines—“Mylove,mysavinggrace,/youreyes areveryblue.”—isinBishop’spapers(Vassar64.24).

  ForGrandfather

  Howfarnorthareyoubynow?

  —ButI’malmostcloseenoughtoseeyou:

  undertheNorthStar,

  stocky,broadbacked&determined,

  trudgingonsplayingsnowshoes

  overthesnow’shard,brilliant,curdledcrust…

  AuroraBorealisburnsinsilence.

  Streamersofred,ofpurple,

  fleckwithcoloryourbaldhead.

  Whereisyoursealskincapwithear-lugs?

  Thatoldfurcoatwiththeblackfrogs?

  You’llcatchyourdeathagain.

  IfIshouldovertakeyou,kissyourcheek,

  itssilverstubblewouldfeellikehoar-frost

  andyourold-fashioned,walrusmoustaches

  behungwithicicles.

 

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