Fighting For It

by A. Aubry

  “Someone is feelin’ better,” Jackson laughed as he brought the blankets back up for us and I took off my towel.

  “Yep, the doctor’s orders were met, and I feel fantastic,” I grinned and gave Jackson a deep kiss.

  His tongue massaged mine and I wrapped my arms around his neck. When he climbed back on top of me, I knew not much sleep was going to be had just yet and I wasn’t complaining. Not one bit.

  Chapter Eight

  “So uh…Shelby, there’s something I need to talk to you about.”

  Shelby and I were sitting at the kitchen island eating lunch. It was her last day here with us as she would be heading to the airport just before Jackson and his team were going to tomorrow. Yesterday was a rough day for me because I couldn’t bring myself to talk to her about the whole moaning situation that I had heard on Friday night. Now I was honestly curious about if she had a boy in her room that was not Brian. I didn’t consider Shelby to be that type of girl, but then again, I had only known her for a week.

  Jackson was at his game and wouldn’t be home until well after dinner time. He was a sweetheart and took me out for breakfast this morning and it reminded me of our first date all over again. He even said that we would make that part of our routine when he was home unless Josie got her way and put him on a no-dating clause. If that happened, he said he would just make me breakfast.

  “Sure, Maddie. What’s up?”

  We pushed our empty plates away from us and she turned to face me. Great, I was hoping she’d still be eating or something to distract her from looking at me.

  “Did you, um, have a boy in your room on Friday?” I asked hesitantly.

  “Why would you ask that?”

  Oh lord, how was I going to put this? I sort of sounded like a mother asking a daughter about her sex life. Was this how my mother felt when she asked me about my sex life?

  “When I went to close mine and Jackson’s door…I thought I heard moaning coming from your room and I know Brian wasn’t in town. I’m not judging you in any way, but I just wanted to kind of ask about it because it has been weighing on my mind.”

  Her cheeks went bright red, “Oh, yeah…no, I didn’t have a guy in my room. But you were correct about the moanin’.”

  My eyebrows shot up in surprise, “I’m sorry that I brought this up, I didn’t mean to make things awkward for us…”

  Shelby laughed, a very carefree laugh that I had gotten to know pretty well, “Madeline, it’s totally fine. What was happenin’ was very natural, but I probably should have kept it down.”

  “What were you doing exactly?”

  “I was masturbatin’?” She shook her head at my question.

  Oh…Ohhh. I mean, I had only ever done that with Jackson’s lead. Even prior to meeting Jackson I had never done it alone.

  “Oh, got it.”

  “Now you are gettin’ awkward. Have you never done that?” She moved to the edge of her chair and crossed her legs.

  “Not by myself? I’ve only ever done it for—um—for your brother. When we FaceTimed while he was away it would get sexual in that aspect, but he would lead me.”

  God, I was really feeling awkward now.

  “Oh, I was FaceTimin’ with Brian on Friday night after his game. So technically I was doin’ it for him, but I also do it for myself. He apparently loves when I use toys to spice it up.”

  I swallowed hard, “T—Toys?”

  Shelby giggled, “Please don’t tell me you were a virgin before you met my brother.”

  “No, no I was nowhere near that status as bad as that sounds. I mean, I’ve heard of people using them, but I don’t know exactly what is meant by what they are.”

  She got up and grabbed our plates, taking them over to the sink, “Okay, put on your shoes. We are findin’ the nearest sex shop and I am schoolin’ you in sex toys.”

  I held up my hands, “No, that’s totally fine Shelby. I wouldn’t even know what to do with those things.”

  “Trust me, I know if Jackson saw you usin’ them…it would turn him on.”

  “That sounds terrible that you know what would turn on your brother.”

  “Woah, yeah that does sound gross. I mean, I’ve dated several men and, in my experience, they all loved when I used toys when they weren’t there. Anythin’ to get me off, and boy do they do exactly that until I can get my hands on my man.”

  I pursed my lips, “I don’t know…we are supposed to be watching Jackson’s game which will be starting soon.”

  She rolled her eyes, “It’s called the internet, Maddie. We can keep tabs on it at the store until we get back here.”

  Maybe I did need to be a little more adventurous. Sometimes my friends called me a prude. One of my step-sisters called me that when I turned eighteen and she took me to a porn store for the first time just because I was ‘sweet and innocent’. It wasn’t like I hadn’t ever been in one, so I knew what to expect in a sense. I just wasn’t so sure that Jackson would really find that hot. Oh well, no time to experiment like the present.

  “Okay…maybe I do need to expand my horizons. Spice things up with Jackson a little bit?” I chewed on my bottom lip as I stood up from my chair.

  “Exactly!” She squealed as we walked into the foyer and slipped on our sandals.

  Grabbing our purses and my car keys, Shelby looked up the nearest store on her phone as we got into my car and soon we were on our way. Finding a parking space was easy and I really felt out of place, but Shelby told me it was fine. I did clarify with her that I wasn’t looking for anything to use with Jackson when he was home with me. He satisfied me well enough that I didn’t need anything to aid that. If I did buy anything it would be to aid me when he wasn’t around. She nodded excitedly as we walked inside and told me she completely understood.

  When I looked around me, I knew I was completely out of my element. Shelby grabbed my hand and led me through the store like she knew the place. We ended up in a section that I never thought I would actually seriously consider buying something out of. The one time I went to this type of store with my step-sister, I knew I wasn’t going to buy anything. This time, Shelby grabbed me a basket and was ready to load it.

  “Hmm, so tell me about what toys you know about,” Shelby smiled as she tapped her chin, deciding where to start.

  “That’s a trick question, right? I mean I’ve heard of vibrators but that’s about it,” I said quietly, making sure my voice didn’t get too loud.

  A creepy looking guy came over to where we were standing. An uneasy feeling crept over me as he smiled at us.

  “Hello, ladies. Are you shopping for something you two can use in the bedroom together?” He cocked an eyebrow and smirked.

  Shelby laughed, but I couldn’t even bring myself to chuckle, “No, actually, my friend here is lookin’ for somethin’ to help herself out when her boyfriend is out of town. He travels a lot and she just needs somethin’ for that extra kick when they FaceTime.”

  Great, let’s just say that I get sexually lonely when my boyfriend was out of town to a complete stranger. The man, with the name tag stating that his name was Ted, began to go off on a tangent about the differences between vibrators. I just stood there with a blank look on my face before Shelby finally got the clue that I was feeling a little awkward about this. She dismissed him and thanked him for his help.

  “Have you considered a dildo?” She asked as we walked further into the section.

  “A dil-what-o?”

  She giggled, “A dildo. You know, it’s a cock that’s not attached to a guy’s body. I have one that I bought that works amazin’. It’s about the same size as Brian and when I used it when we FaceTimed, he nearly came on the spot.”

  “What did you do to it that he almost came?”

  “If you angle your camera just right, you can make it look like you’re givin’ him a blowjob, so he can jack off while watchin’ you. He loved that. After, I used it to fuck myself and just talked dirty like it was his cock in me. Wor
ks like a charm every time.”

  My cheeks flushed as I looked down, “Do you think Jackson would like that?”

  “Madeline, if he’s anythin’ like the boyfriends I had…and trust me, he’s a guy, so he is. He will love it.”

  “Then maybe I should get one…”

  “Perfect. How big is he? We will get it in his size.”

  Yep, this now got even more awkward.

  We had spent an hour in that fucking store. After picking out a dildo that was the same size as Jackson, which really kept my cheeks burning pink, Shelby insisted on a vibrator. She ended up picking out three different kinds. One, she called a bullet vibrator…I didn’t understand why it was called that, but she said it was supposed to be used on my clit. The second was a long penis-shaped one with a little thing that came up off of it. I asked her what the hell that was and she said it was for both penetration and clit stimulation. The final one was what she called a g-spot vibrator and I was lost in any idea of how the hell I was supposed to find that. My basket was filled with all those and probably an overabundance of lubricant. According to Shelby, it was a necessity.

  When we got back to Jackson’s house, Shelby said she had to call one of her friends to verify she was picking her up from the airport. I went up to Jackson’s room and turned on the game. They were only in their second inning with the two teams tied currently at 0-0. Closing the door and locking it behind me, I crawled up on the bed that Jackson and I had been sharing and dumped my purchases out of my bag. I pushed the bottles of lubricant to the side and studied the boxes of the vibrators. Jackson’s team was announced as the next up to bat and I thought maybe I could try out the toys when Jackson was up to bat. The boxes of each of the vibrators said that they needed batteries. I checked which kinds and how many and went in search of the batteries. Luckily, Jackson had a whole drawer full of all different kinds, so I didn’t have to look for too long.

  Gathering the types and kinds that I needed, I charged back up to his room and locked the door once more. I opened the bullet vibrator, put in the batteries, and slipped out of my shorts and panties. I reclined back against the pillows and spread my legs, turning on the little bullet that began to vibrate in my hand. My hand moved and pressed the bullet against my clit and I jumped. Biting my lip, I pressed it against my clit again and this time I didn’t jump, just letting the feeling flow through me.

  “Oh…okay…yeah, that does feel good,” I mumbled to myself.

  I rolled the bullet around my clit exactly how Jackson would tease me if he were here and I moaned. Two outs were announced on the television and I opened my eyes to see Jackson making his way to the plate with a bat. I turned off the bullet and pulled out the vibrator that was for penetration and clit stimulation. I quickly put in the batteries and looked at the box that said this one had several settings. My eyebrows furrowed, and I turned it on, clicking it to the first setting. Grabbing a bottle of lubricant, I squirted a little onto top and rubbed it over it before inserting it into me, the clit stimulation add-on doing its job.

  Jackson got in position as the pitcher nodded at his choice in pitch. I studied Jackson’s face as I slowly moved the vibrator in and out of me. God, he looked hot even when he concentrated on the ball. I clicked the settings up and a more intense vibration began as the first pitch was declared a ball. I grabbed onto the blanket underneath me as another moan escaped. Jackson got back in position and my mouth went slack as I began to thrust the vibrator faster. Another ball was called. There was a momentary pause as Jackson walked away from the plate, tapping his bat against his shoes before lifting his hand and patting two fingers against his hip, our signal that he was thinking about me. Oh baby, I am definitely thinking about you right now.

  “Jackson,” I moaned as my orgasm was racing up to the top.

  Moan after moan was flowing from my lips as I watched him walk back to the plate. My eyes closed as my release pounded into me just as the sound of a baseball bat against the ball came from the television.

  “Home run for Jackson Ryder!” The announcer yelled into his microphone.

  “Yes!” I screamed as I came hard, my body shaking as it released its endorphins.

  My limbs finally decided to work just as Jackson rounded to home plate, a large smile on his face. I was pretty sure that same smile was on my face. I switched off the vibrator and pulled it out of me as Jackson ran to home plate. He pressed his index finger to his temple before pointing it at the camera, his lips forming the words ‘for you’. That was our second signal that he came up with for us. He was such a sweetheart when it came to signals. As he celebrated with his team, I went into the bathroom and cleaned myself up. After I was clean, and my panties and shorts were back in place, I cleaned up my toys that I had used and stashed them back into the bag. I hid them in the bottom of my bag I had used to bring all my stuff over to Jackson’s and went to open the door again.

  Shelby yelled from her room, “Were you cheerin’ for Jackson’s home run or somethin’ else?”

  I could hear her laugh at her question.

  “Both!” I yelled back, “Thank you, Shelby!”

  “What are friends for?!” She called back.

  Smiling, I went back to Jackson’s bed and watched the rest of Jackson’s game. It was going to kill me when he left tomorrow because all we had left was tonight. Even though now I had toys to aid in helping me reach a climax that Jackson could give me…they were never going to take the place of the real thing. I laid down and watched as the next player on Jackson’s team was up to bat.

  A warm sensation was pressing to my cheek which caused my eyes to open. Jackson sat on the edge of the bed smiling at me. Oh, shit. I must have fallen asleep while I was watching the game.

  “When did you get home?” I asked, my voice laced with sleep.

  “Just a few minutes ago. Don’t worry, you haven’t wasted any time with me.”

  I smiled and sat up, wrapping my arms around his neck before hugging him close to me, “I’m so proud of you, Jackson. That was an amazing home run.”

  I hadn’t necessarily seen the hit because I was a little too busy coming…but I saw the replays which was just as good.

  “Thank you, baby. You were on my mind as I did that.”

  “I know, I saw your signal right before you made the hit and as you ran to home plate.”

  “I’m happy you picked up on those. Now, what did you two girls do all day that wore you out enough to take a nap?”

  My cheeks instantly flushed, “We went shopping.”

  Jackson narrowed his eyes, “Shoppin’ wouldn’t make you blush like that. Did you buy lingerie?”

  “No, I didn’t buy any of that. I bought…other things.”

  “Other things as in…”

  I pursed my lips, “Things to spice up our FaceTime dates while you are gone?”

  Jackson looked up as he really considered what in the world I would buy to do that.

  “What would spice those up?”

  “Uh…something for me to use?”

  His eyes went wide as he brought his gaze back down to me, “You bought sex toys?”

  I nodded slowly as my cheeks went bright red.

  “Fuck me…what did you buy?” He licked his lips.

  Nervously I lifted my lips to his ear and told him exactly what I bought. His breath caught in his throat each time I said a new item. When I leaned back to look at him after I said my last item, his eyes were wide, and they burned with lust.

  “Have you tried any out?”

  I nodded again and twirled the soft fabric of his shirt around my finger.

  “Which ones?”

  “Two of the vibrators…I may or may not have been using them when you were up to bat right before your home run…”

  “Holy fuck.”

  “Is that good or bad?” I bit my lip.

  “That is so fuckin’ hot, Madeline.”

  “It is?” I breathed.

  He nodded and smirked, “Show me how
you use them…”

  My eyes nearly bugged out of my head, “Jackson…they are supposed to be used only when you are out of town.”

  He kissed my lips with a hunger I had never felt before from him. I groaned against his lips as he laid us back onto the bed and he laid between my legs. He kissed down to my neck, just below my ear.

  “I want to watch you use them. Consider it a practice round,” he whispered softly against my skin.

  When he kissed the sensitive spot right below my earlobe, I nearly came apart. After that, I would do anything for this man.

  “Okay…”

  His teeth closed against my earlobe before he tugged gently, “Then let’s begin.”

  Holy. Shit.

  Chapter Nine

  I was miserable. It had been a long week not only because of work, but because of the fact that I still had to be without Jackson. While Jackson was back home, my writing in our down time was going really well. Now all I did was hit a fucking roadblock because of how much I missed him. He had only been gone for five days and I still had five more days without him.

  “God, you look like death,” Alexandria said as she sat on my desk while I stared blankly at my computer screen.

  “Gee, thanks friend. Really boosted my self-esteem,” I rolled my eyes as I twirled my chair to face her.

  My hair was up in a messy bun, my makeup was nowhere near being done, and I had large bags under my eyes from lack of sleep. For some reason, I had barely been able to sleep without Jackson around. Hell, even my bed felt foreign to me because I was so used to his.

  “No, I mean you just look unhappy. Is everything okay with Jackson?” She honestly looked concerned.

  “We are great. Well, as great as we can be with him being gone for ten days.”

  “What day are you guys on?”

  I pointed to my calendar which I had been slowly ticking off the days, “Day five of ten.”

  “That’s rough. You two have been talking though, right?”

  “Almost all the time. We FaceTime every night after his games, we text each other in between that, he calls me when he wakes up. But it’s not the same, you know? I mean, I’m not taking it for granted in any way, shape, or form, but I would give anything to just…be with him.”