Down and Out (Hawks MC: Caroline Springs Charter Book 3)

by Lila Rose

  It was more than I imagined, and I’d done a lot of imagining.

  He pulled back, his forehead against mine. “Fuck.” He growled the word before his mouth took mine once again.

  We were moving. He walked until my back hit a soft mattress. He’d kept my attention since we’d entered, so I hadn’t realised we were in a bedroom. Still, I didn’t care where we were as long as he stayed in my arms.

  My hands clawed at his tee. I wanted so much more from him but was too nervous still to ask for it.

  I tipped back my head when he trailed his lips down my neck. I gasped for breath as he bit, licked, and sucked. “Let me touch. Fuck, sunshine, just a small touch until we get home. Need something to tide me over,” he mumbled against my skin. I didn’t understand what he was asking for, but at that moment, I was ready to give him anything he asked for. So I nodded and then moaned, “Yes,” when he bit hard on my collarbone.

  His hand slid from my hair, down my shoulder, my arm, and then it went to my waist all while I lost myself in his scent, his touch, and body against me, surrounding me. My chest heaved in excitement when I felt his fingers at the button of my shorts. He undid it and lowered the zipper.

  Maybe I should have stopped him. Maybe I should have thought about his brothers and the women in the other room. However, Kalen consumed my mind. His fingers danced slowly along the top of my panties, and his mouth glided back up my neck to kiss me like I was the last woman on earth.

  When his fingers dipped in and touched my clit, I moaned against his mouth. His hips thrust into my side, and I felt, felt how turned on he was from just touching me. His fingers slid down further and circled around my entrance, only to drag my wetness back up to my clit.

  “Fina-fuckin’-lly, I get to touch your sweet, bare pussy,” he groaned. My legs spread further, giving him better access. My hand gripped his tee tightly.

  “Kalen.” I breathed an annoyed mew against his lips when his fingers suddenly stopped and rested against my mound.

  “What do you need, sunshine?”

  “Please,” I begged, my eyes searching his heated and amused ones.

  “Tell me what you want, Mena.”

  Glaring, I ordered, “Fucking touch me.”

  The annoying man chuckled, kissed my lips, and said, “My woman has a dirty mouth when she’s horny.”

  My woman.

  He’d said my woman.

  I was his.

  He was claiming me.

  That was what all that meant in the other room.

  Digging my heels into the bed, I thrust my hips up and snapped, “Touch me, Kalen. Make me come if I’m your woman.”

  His eyes darkened. A snarl rumbled up out of his chest. “Gladly.” Two fingers swept straight into me. I moaned loudly, my hips swivelled up and down, riding his fingers. “Yeah, sunshine. Fuck yourself on me.” I was so wet, so close. I was lost in all what Kalen was doing to me.

  His mouth trailed down again as I rode his fingers in and out of me. It wasn’t until I felt his teeth take my nipple into his mouth over my tee did I yell, “Fuck, yes.” Then he bit down and thrust his fingers hard into me. When his thumb touched my clit, my orgasm came over me quickly. I grabbed his wrist and helped his hand enter in and out of me while my walls convulsed around his fingers.

  As soon as I came down, my whole body sagged into the mattress. My legs flattened to the bed and with tired eyes, I looked up at Kalen and smiled. His fingers slid out of me. My body jolted at the loss, and then he brought his fingers to his mouth and licked my juices off them.

  “Christ,” he hissed. “Can’t wait to eat you out, Mena. You gonna open up and give me your cunt to devour?”

  Oh. My. God.

  My clit pulsated. If he kept talking like that, I would probably come again.

  He smiled and said roughly, “Yeah, my woman likes the thought of her man’s mouth on her wet pussy.”

  The orgasm fog cleared, and I asked in a quiet voice, “So, this means we’re, um, together?”

  He threw his head back and roared with laughter. Then he leaned his forehead into my shoulder while he chuckled some more.

  Pulling back, he said with a smile. “Yeah, sunshine. We’re together.”

  Forgetting my annoyance at him laughing at me, I grinned widely and whispered, “Awesome.”

  His hand came to my cheek, and he whispered back, after a small kiss on my lips, “Yeah, awesome.” His next move was to sit up a bit, do up my shorts, and then he said words no woman would want to hear after coming so hard. “Still, we have to talk.”

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Dive

  While she was in a happy state, I thought it best to share some shit with her. Even if all I wanted to do was bury my aching cock inside her sweet tasting tight hole, I held back. She had to know all of me before choosing to take it all on.

  “Um,” which was her standard reply while she got what she wanted to say in her head in order. “Okay,” she said hesitantly, sitting up next to me.

  Smiling, I reassured her, “Nothin’ too bad. At least I think, but I wanna tell you everything before you jump on board with us.”

  “Hit me.” She nodded, all ready to jump right in.

  “Fuck, you’re gorgeous.” I threaded my fingers tight in her hair and planted my lips on hers. My tongue demanded entrance, and she gave it to me right away. Then, I broke apart and stood. “Shit,” I hissed. “I can’t keep kissing you or we won’t get outta this room. And if things go right after we talk, I wanna get Koda and get the fuck home to put him to bed. ‘Cause all I can think of right now is you spread out on my bed naked.”

  Jesus. She rubbed her thighs together. She loved that plan.

  “Right.” I stared down at her with my hands on my hips. “Stop looking so fuckable, dammit.”

  She giggled. My cock jerked behind my jeans. “I’ll get right on that.” She smiled.

  “Smart-arse.” I laughed. “All right. Has Low said anything to you about what happened to her?”

  Mena

  I knew what he was talking about. Low’s family had been terrible. All of them users in one way. I was shocked when she’d told me her cousin tried to sell her. Again, I’d heard some things like that happening in the world. I never imagined it would be in Australia.

  “Yes, some of it.”

  “The thing is, the man who was meant to buy her is still causing shit. He’s got a problem with Hawks, and by Hawks, it’s with whoever is a member. We’re being careful. We’re on a hunt for the fucktard, and he will pay for the shit he’s doing and by pay, I mean in blood.” My eyes widened. He got to his knees in front of me and took my hands in his. “Sunshine, I need you to understand when getting into it with me, I’ve done shit the cops would lock me up for, but all of it was for a reason. All of it was deserved because they were scum and had fucked with Hawks. We don’t go to the cops with our troubles. We deal with issues ourselves.” He stopped and studied me.

  What I was hearing, I got. How could I not? Kalen had done more for me in the time I’d known him than anyone. Not only him, but his brothers came and helped without a question. What Kalen had was a family, and they had each other’s back no matter the cost. They fought and made sure nothing could harm anyone in their family.

  Family came first.

  Before anything else.

  I could understand that.

  “Mena, sunshine. It means more shit could still come our way. But I want you to know I’ll protect you and Koda with everything I have. Nothing will harm you if I have anything to do with it. And that’s the thing with Hawks. You not only have my protection, but you also have my brothers’ as well. That dick will not lay a finger on either of you. Do you trust that?”

  Shaking my hands out of his, I reached up and cupped his face. His beard tickled my fingers, but I liked it, and I was looking forward to feeling it between my legs. “You have a big heart, Kalen Brooks. I trust anything you say. Well, as long as you aren’t in a mood.”

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bsp; He smiled. “If I get in a mood and say shit to you, tell me to fuck off.” A blush hit my cheeks. He laughed. “I forgot you only get a dirty mouth when you’re horny.” My hands slid to his chest and my forehead hit his shoulder so I could hide. His hand held the back of my neck. “Seriously, Mena. Don’t take my shit.”

  “I won’t,” I whispered. He needed a strong woman in a relationship, and I would be one. I would stand up to him if it were something important to me. “As long as you know what you’re asking for. I can be a tyrant when I want to be.”

  He snorted. “I’ll believe it when I see it.”

  Leaning back, I asked, “Speaking of not taking your, um, doo-doo, not that it’s really about that, but… whose room is this and will your brothers know what we just did? Also, from this day forward, I would like to try and keep our frolicking between just us.”

  Oh, God. I said frolicking.

  Closing my eyes, I waited for it, and it didn’t take long. Kalen’s booming laughter filled the room. Only, my eyes flashed open in the next second because I didn’t expect my whole body to be lifted and planted on Kalen’s lap.

  He cradled my head into the crook of his shoulder while his laughter wained. “Not sure what I did, but I’d fuckin’ do it again and again if it was my luck that brought you into my life.” My body stiffened while my heart sighed a big happy sigh on the inside. He felt lucky I’d come into his life. How was that possible when I was the lucky one? His hand slipped down from the back of my head to my lower back. There he circled his hand around and said, “Regret a lot of things. A top one would be the way I treated you when you first came into my life. I was a goddamn prick, sunshine. Sorry.”

  Leaning back to meet his eyes, I told him, “Honestly, I’m glad you weren’t nice because if you were as you are now, I probably would have left. You would have made me flustered too much.”

  His smile was bright. “For the first time, I’ll thank fuck for my arsehollery.” He kissed me once and quickly before he added, “Back to your questions. This is my room in the compound. No one else uses it, and well, shit, yeah, they probably know something went down between us. Especially when you walk out there with those eyes, which are telling me you were well pleased.” I scoffed and hit him in the chest. He grabbed my hand chuckling. “But you need to learn not to give a fuck about what other people think.” He watched his hand as he slid it to the side of my neck, and then with his thumb, he reached around and ran it along my bottom lip. “No one should matter but you, me, and Koda. Love my brothers, sunshine, but it’s us three who come first. So fuck ‘em. Hold your head up high and walk out there with no care in the world. They may give us shit, but don’t let it get to you. Seeing you come hard and sweet like that, with your filthy mouth and all. It was bloody worth any shit we get. It was something special. It was our special. And nothin’ or no one can tarnish it by stupid words in jest.”

  My nerves were rattled, but he was right. What mattered, what counted more than anything was the three of us. Who cared what they thought? Who cared they knew we were getting active in the bedroom? I didn’t. I couldn’t, not when it meant so much to me. Not when it had to do with Kalen claiming me as his woman and dang it, I was claiming him as my man.

  “No matter what, all I care about is having you and Koda around me. It’s the two of you who make me happy. It’s the two of you who have brought me something worth living for.” Biting my bottom lip, I watched his eyes warm and lower at my words. “It’s not just the orgasm talking.” Humour lit his eyes, and his mouth twitched. Still, I went on, “I’ve been feeling special, lucky, for a while now, but I was scared to do or say anything. I’m scared of losing either of you because you both mean so much to me.”

  “I can’t promise things will be all rainbows and shit between us, but I can promise you ain’t losing me or Koda. We’re in this and even when we argue, know that I won’t walk out the door leaving you thinking we’re over.”

  “Even if you tried, now I know you want to give us a go, I’d drag you back inside and lock you up until you saw reason.”

  “Sounds perfect to me.”

  “So glad I came today.” I smiled.

  “In more ways than one.” Kalen chuckled.

  Rolling my eyes, I laughed. “I suppose you could say that.”

  “If I’d known bringing you home would have given me the chance to have my hand in your pants, I would have done it a long time ago. A fuckin’ long time ago.”

  “If I would have known jealousy would have—”

  “Don’t even say it,” he said with a growl.

  Laughing, I patted his chest and said, “Don’t worry, I’m usually too shy around people, but you need to look out. My shyness is fading with you.”

  “Glad for it.” He grinned. “Though, I’m sure I can get your cheeks to heat anytime I want.”

  Biting my bottom lip, I shook my head and then said, “I doubt that.”

  “Really?” he smirked.

  “Yes.” I nodded, knowing full well he could, but I wanted to see what he came up with to get me all embarrassed.

  “Babe, are you missing a certain pair of panties?” My eyes widened. His smirk was cocky. “I’ll give them to you tonight. For a week or so, I’ve been using them to wank over because the thought of your pussy is a temptation I couldn’t resist. I needed something that was pressed close against it. Fuck, just thinkin’ about it gets me hard. So hard, I’m thinking of layin’ you back on the bed and slamming my cock into you. I know you’d like it. My woman with a dirty mouth would like a bit of dirty play.”

  Yes, my cheeks reddened. Only it wasn’t really from embarrassment; it was because lust, red-hot and needy, pooled low in my belly, riding me hard and tempting me to take him up on his offer.

  He ran the back of his fingers over my cheek. “Told you I could. Fuckin’ love the fact, it’s from you being turned on. Let’s get back to Koda so we can get the fuck outta here soon?”

  “Y-yes.” I was more than ready. Standing from Kalen’s lap, he took my hand, kissed me deep and hard and then stalked to the door, down the hall and out into the large room where a party was still happening. More cheers sounded. There were also slaps on the back for Kalen, and if some were brave, they even risked hugging me. But it was Dallas who whispered, “Good to have our smiling brother back. Thank you.”

  Tears threatened, but I held them back and nodded into his shoulder. It was then Kalen brought me close and placed his arm around my shoulders. He walked us the rest of the way to the office like that.

  As soon as Kalen opened the office door, we stopped.

  “He’s just started,” Low whispered as she came to our side. Dodge followed and tagged his woman with a hand to the back of the neck, bringing her to his front while we all stood back and watched Koda.

  He was standing. With his hands on the office chair, he moved his feet up and down. He knew what he wanted to do. As if sensing his audience, he looked over and smiled. “Dada, Nena,” he cried. My hand flew to cover my mouth. Kalen’s arm around my shoulders tightened, and we watched in awe as Koda took his first steps towards us, only to fall to his bottom after three.

  The room erupted in claps. I rushed to him and picked him up, twirling him, kissing him, and telling him what an amazing boy he was.

  Kalen met my gaze with warm eyes and a soft smile on his lips. Then he spent the next hour talking with Dodge while Low and I got Koda to walk as much as he wanted to, before he cracked it from having enough.

  Because we knew there was no rush for us. We had a lot of time on our hands, and we wanted to cherish every one of Koda’s steps in life.

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  Dive

  Proud to see my son’s first steps. Ecstatic my woman was with me when it happened, but now I was just horny as fuck. What didn’t help was the whole drive home, while Mena talked and praised Koda, her hand rubbed my thigh unconsciously.

  As we came into Halls Gap, I laid my hand over hers and asked,
“What did Dodge say to you as we were leaving?” While Low was trying to keep my attention, my brother had pulled my woman aside and said something to her. Mena had smiled and nodded before she had quickly hugged my brother.

  “Um,” she started, looking from Koda in the back to me. Out the corner of my eyes, I saw her nod to herself. “He said for a long time he was worried about you. But he knows he doesn’t have to now.”

  Shit. My brother. Always had my back. Always worried. Fuck, I was the same with him. With all my brothers.

  Picking up her hand, I kissed the back of it and said, “He’s right. He’s got nothing to worry about now. I’m happy.”

  “I’m glad I can bring that for you.”

  “So am I, sunshine.” I smiled over at her. “We never made it to our house. We’ll have to go back another weekend to get shit sorted.”

  “I’m all for it, and maybe Low and Dodge could mind Koda for a while.” She winked. Fuck yeah, I liked the sound of that. And even though the house brought memories of Simone, it was time to start with new memories that would be just as good, if not better. But first, I was gettin’ a new bed for me to share with my woman.

  Like I’d said, Simone would always hold a part of my heart, but it was time to start living again.

  Living with the woman who’d stolen the rest of my heart along with my boy.

  When we arrived home, it was already late. We’d eaten takeaway on the way, so all we had to do was get Koda washed and into bed, which didn’t take long. He’d worn himself out with all the walking he’d done. So by the time I laid him in his crib, he was already half asleep.

  Walking back out into the living room, I found Mena sitting on the couch. Her hand fidgeted with the hem of her shorts. She was nervous, and I couldn’t help but smile.

  “Mena.” I aimed for a gentle tone, but it came out gruff. When her head snapped up, and her eyes met mine, I ordered, “Come here.” She got up and took the steps needed to stop in front of me. My hands went to her waist, and I forced her close so our bodies touched. “Not sure why you’re nervous, sunshine. I’m a sure thing tonight.”