by A'zayler
11. I’ll Always Remember Feeling Like I Was No Good
“Happy birthday to ya!” East half sang half yelled into Logan’s face as she stood next to her dancing smoothly.
Stevie Wonder’s version of the happy birthday song was playing in the lounge, and Logan was having so much fun with her friends as they all stood around singing to her. She’d been too shy to dance by herself when the deejay had called her to the middle of the floor, so, of course, her God given sister had joined her in the middle of their circle. Yeshi had rented out a couple of sections for her and invited all her co-workers and closest friends.
Even with him having already told her that he had something planned for her, she hadn’t known it was something of that magnitude. She’d never been the type to overly celebrate for her birthday, but she was definitely happy that they had put her such a cute birthday party together. The smile on her face hadn’t left since she and Yeshi walked into the lounge.
She’d been completely against hitting a club for her birthday and had given him complete hell about it, only to be made a fool of in the end. From the birthday banner to the balloons and all black dress code, everything was perfect. Yeshi being the biggest part of that perfection. He was so sexy in the tailored dress pants, shirt, and bright red bowtie. The body-hugging red dress she wore was the only other spark of color amongst her party, and it was so awesome. There was no way she could get any happier.
“It’s your day, best friend!” East grabbed her in a hug as the song switched to Usher and Zaytoven’s birthday song. “Get it bitchhhhh!”
Logan smiled as East bent over and began dancing in the middle of the floor. She was so cute with her little belly poking.
“Logan, I know you ain’t gon’ let this wild woman out do you for your birthday,” Killian yelled while smiling at East.
With her hands on her knees, she danced evenly with the beat. Totally out of character and against everything that made her who she was, Logan bent over in front of East so that they were facing each other and began to twirl her butt. She didn’t dance much, but that was never to be mistaken that she couldn’t. Hype off the energy coming from her friends and family alone, Logan was able to turn up elegantly but ratchet enough at the same time.
“Move that ass. It’s your birthday!” East smiled at her as she stood up but continued dancing with her and singing along with the music. “Fuck it up, sis.”
Logan was so thankful for East standing there hyping her up. It kept her lit enough to keep moving. She was getting it too, throwing her butt right along with the beat, and feeling good doing it.
“Go girl.” Yeshi walked up to her singing with Usher. With one hand holding a bottle of water, he used the other one to rub his hand all over her butt. “It’s your world.”
Logan thought she would die right there. He was so sexy and cool. The way he stood next to her nodding his head to the music while possessively rubbing her butt was such a turn on. When he licked his lips and grabbed her hand, Logan danced to him and finished her dance on him. She did her best to show him the fun side of her that he was always begging for. Judging by the grip he had on her body and the look in his eyes, she was doing a good job.
“I’ma eat this cake up tonight,” he whispered in her ear.
Logan shivered and grinded her body into his. She was on the edge of getting lost in him when money started flying around her. She looked up to find Killian, Onyx, and Gabrion letting money go in her direction. Killian was holding East on him as she danced while letting money slide freely out of his hand. Onyx and Gabrion were doing the same while Gabrion drank from a large bottle of liquor as well. Jaylen’s beautiful face shined bright as she danced sexily by herself. She had a cup of liquor that obviously had her feeling good as well because she looked to be in a zone. A cute one, though. Logan loved her surroundings right then.
When the song finally went off, Gyptian’s song “Turn Me On” picked up, and she along with the rest of her partiers went crazy. She loved reggae, and apparently, so did all of her friends. They’d all packed onto the dance floor and were dancing slowly. Even Jerian had found her way onto Gabrion’s lap to dance. Although Logan didn’t really care for her, she was having too much fun to stay mad.
When Jerian looked up at her, she smiled and continued dancing. Jerian’s pretty face looked exactly like East’s when she smiled back.
“Show me something, baby.” Yeshi grabbed her attention back.
Logan looked over her shoulder at him and wound her hips into her man. He looked down and danced along with her. Logan was over the moon as she enjoyed her night. After a few more songs, a few of them retired to the section. The time had come for the lounge to switch to a club, and she wanted to get out of the way.
“Look at how these people are grabbing that money.” East laughed as she pointed at the people picking up the money they’d thrown.
“That’s so tacky.” Jaylen laughed. “I wouldn’t dare.”
“Leave them alone, bourgeois, they’re young. They don’t know nothing. Just want to have fun,” Jerian chimed in.
“I don’t know. I may have to side with Jaylen on this one.” Logan sipped some pineapple juice from her cup.
“You just doing all kinds of stuff tonight, huh? Out there dancing on that man like you’re grown.” Jaylen playfully tapped Logan’s leg. “Y’all look so good together, Lo.”
“Fuck yeah they do!” East yelled dramatically.
Logan blushed as she looked at Yeshi. He was standing on the floor with the men still chilling and listening to music. He was her baby, and just because it was her birthday, she was going to thank him for all his hard work the moment they got home.
“His sexy ass,” East spoke Logan’s thoughts out loud. “Nigga, too fucking fine for his own good. Look at his punk ass.”
All the women laughed at East’s silliness.
“He is sexy ain’t he?” Logan looked at them while doing a little dance in her seat. “I might have to give in and let bae hit this tonight.”
Jaylen screamed while East stood up and high fived her. “Yes, bitch! Pussy game catching one tonight.”
“I can’t stand her.” Jerian shook her head at East.
“I don’t see how you don’t fuck him all day anyway. Yeshi is fine, bitch,” East told her again.
Logan found it so funny that East calling Yeshi fine made her feel no way at all. Maybe it was because of East’s personality or the love she knew East had for her and Killian that eased her mind.
“I’m just waiting.”
“On what?” Jerian interjected.
“She’s saved, chile. She’s waiting on the Lord.” East waved Logan off.
Jaylen and Logan couldn’t stop laughing after that. For a while longer, the girls stayed in the section just chilling and enjoying themselves.
“Excuse me, y’all. I have to pee so bad.” Jerian stepped past them and out of the section.
Logan watched her walk off until she noticed the men walking toward them. They were all smiling and making a lot of noise as they took their seats. Yeshi fell on the comfortable sofa next to her and leaned his head on her shoulder.
“Birthday girl, let me get some of them birthday kisses.”
Logan obliged, grabbing the back of his head to make it better. They kissed and sucked on each other’s tongues until Gabrion roughly grabbed Yeshi’s arm.
“Y’all quit that shit, and let’s party!”
Logan giggled while Yeshi stood up in the middle of the section with Gabrion and began dancing and vibing sexily to the music. Logan was past infatuated with him. Everything about him was so smooth and manly. Even the way he danced coolly made her happy that he was hers. From the long muscular limbs to the light twinkle in his hazel eyes, he was too good to be true. When he looked down at her and winked, she smiled and dramatically fanned herself.
His smile sent her over the edge. She had to cross her legs. The small sofa was soft, but she still had to move around a little to get
comfortable again. The hardness beneath her caught her eyes for two reasons. One because it hadn’t been there before, two because it was lighting up. When she noticed it was Yeshi’s phone, she grabbed it. She reached out and tried to tap him so he could grab it, but he was so busy dancing and cutting up with Gabrion and Killian that he hadn’t paid her any attention.
Versus flagging him down, she just set his phone on her lap and went back to chilling. She was snapping her fingers and dancing in her seat when his phone vibrated against her leg. When she picked it up, the screen lit up, and she saw two messages that made the back of her neck hot.
7045470567: Meet me in the bathroom
7045470567: No wonder you were so greedy for the pussy. I heard you’re not getting any at home… smh… that’s shameful. That dick is too good to get neglected
The rate at which Logan’s nerves went from calm to darn near shaking out of her body was unreal. She had literally been enjoying her night, and all she could think about right then was fighting. She read the messages again, already knowing who they were from. Jerian. Logan’s blood simmered even more. She’d known her spirit had been off with her from the very first time she met her. Now she saw why.
“What’s wrong, baby girl?” Jaylen’s voice got Logan’s attention.
Logan swallowed all the spit in her mouth before biting her top lip. Her leg was bouncing like crazy, and she could hardly think straight.
“Look at this shit.” Logan showed the phone to Jaylen.
“Did you just curse?”
“Just look at it.” Logan pushed the phone in Jaylen’s face.
Jaylen’s face scrunched up as her mouth fell open. Before she said anything else to Logan, she looked around the club, assumingly for Jerian, then back at East.
“East, come here real quick, boo.”
Logan’s whole body shook as she sat thinking about what she wanted to do next. When East plopped down next to her, Jaylen showed her the phone. Almost immediately, a loud sigh left her mouth. She then cursed and shook her head.
“Logan…”
“Did you know about this?” Logan snapped at her.
“I knew they had been flirting, and I told them both to stop that shit. I almost got into a fight with my sister and everything about it, but I can’t control grown people, Lo. I did all I could, I promise I did.”
Logan wanted to be angry at all of them because they probably all knew, but East was right. They were both grown and had clearly done what they’d wanted to do. So, versus, directing her anger at East, she simply nodded. Minutes passed with none of them saying anything.
“What you want to do?” Jaylen asked her.
Logan shrugged lazily while watching Yeshi. He was standing with the guys and nodding his head to the music. He had been looking all around the club but was now looking off to the side. When Logan’s eyes followed his, she found Jerian. She was looking at him too with a sly smirk on her face. East sucked her teeth, letting Logan know she saw what was going on too.
“This is about to be some shit.”
Logan heard East mumble just as she stood to her feet. In a noticeable hurry, Logan switched toward Yeshi. Once she stopped next to him, he looked at her with a smile before raising his arm so that she could walk under it. Logan pushed his arm down and turned so that she was facing Jerian.
Yeshi was on her immediately. “What’s wrong with you? Why you push my arm like that?”
Logan rolled her eyes because she’d rip it off if she could. All that whining would definitely be for a reason then.
“Shut the hell up.”
“Yoooo, what the fuck is up with you?” Yeshi’s hand was on her arm, but not for long.
She snatched it away so hard that she could have lost her balance if she wasn’t careful. Yeshi was still leaning down trying to get in her space, but she wasn’t thinking about him right then. She had skinner fish to fry.
As soon as Jerian got to the top of the stairs and tried to push past her, Logan snatched her back by her arm. She’d obviously caught Logan’s drift before getting to the stairs because she’d been avoiding eye contact and moving a lot quicker, but Logan was faster.
“Nah, don’t walk past me like you don’t know what’s up.”
Jerian snatched out of Logan’s grip just as roughly as she’d been grabbed. “Girl, you better get your damn hands off me.”
“Yooo, what’s good. What’s wrong?” Yeshi stepped between the two women but looked at Logan. “Why you wildin’?”
“Here’s your phone.” Logan extended it to him, and the look on Jerian’s face solidified it all. “I saw your messages, and you can have this nigga. You want to be on some old funny shit talking about him being neglected, so you handle that good dick from now on.”
“Stop cussing, Lo-Lo.” Gabrion had appeared from out of nowhere. “Don’t get out of character about this shit.”
“Forget them.” Logan shook her head and turned to walk away.
Yeshi was on her immediately, grabbing her arm and trying to stop her from walking off. Logan fought wildly to get him off her, but he wasn’t letting up, and the nigga was strong as an ox.
“Nah, we’re about to talk about this shit.” He roughly snatched her to him. “I don’t want that fucking girl!”
“Obviously, you did!” Logan tried to get away from him again, but he held her tighter. “Don’t try to stunt now, nigga.”
Every ounce of Dade County was about to come out of Logan. She’d always been the sweetest person in the world, but that was because she’d given her life to Christ. Yeshi and Jerian were seriously about to bring out the old her, and that was nothing any of them needed to see. She’d fought so hard not to be that person anymore, and everybody in close proximity was about to see why.
“Girl, be quiet. Wasn’t nobody even thinking about that nigga like that. You doing too much.” Jerian’s comment made Logan’s head spin.
Having never been the one to be disrespected behind a nigga, Logan hit Jerian dead in the mouth. It wasn’t a soft, almost missed hit either; she had real deal ‘bust that hoe in the face’ and was prepared to hit her again, but Onyx’s body stopped her. He’d grabbed Jerian in a bear hug and began walking backward with her, but Logan was right behind them.
“Now you leaking, hoe. You should have just shut up.” Logan’s face was serious as she yelled over Yeshi’s shoulder. “And you,” she snatched away from him. “Get your hands off me. You crossed the wrong one, my nigga.”
“What the fuck, man?” Logan heard East. “Logan is really with the shit.”
“Bitch, shut up because you probably knew.” Logan mugged East before reaching over and grabbing the front of her face and pushing her backward.
Of course, Killian was there to catch her and prevent whatever else was about to happen next.
“All y’all hoes treat me like I’m simple because I’m nice, but y’all just don’t know.” Logan chuckled while shaking her head. “I’d kill bitches like y’all.” Logan pounded her open palm with her fist with every word she spoke. “Get away from me!” she yelled at Yeshi while turning to grab her things from where she’d been sitting.
“Logan, chill out.” Killian tried to be the voice of reason while Yeshi kept walking up on her.
“Kill, for real, you my nigga, but get out my face. I really ain’t trying to hear it right now. Get your nigga, your wife, and your sister-in-law, and just move around.”
Everyone stood around watching Logan go off, completely caught off guard by her behavior, and they had every reason to be because she’d never acted like that with them. Ever since she’d met them, she’d been a daughter of the King, but they’d clearly underestimated her.
“Logan, I understand you mad, but don’t put your hands on me again.” East was standing next to her.
“East, shut up.”
Logan didn’t even bother to go there with her. East was her friend, best one at that, but she wasn’t really feeling her right then because there was absolute
ly no way her sister had slept with Yeshi and she hadn’t known. Although it was her sister, she still could have given her some sort of heads up and not have her around the girl smiling and talking to her like everything was okay.
“For real, Logan?” East actually looked like she wanted to cry.
Once they’d all gotten out of her way long enough for her to gather her things, Logan paused and looked at East.
“That baby is making you soft.” Logan snatched East in for a hug. “Just give me a minute to think. I still love you.”
“I swear I did everything I could to prevent this.” East sniffed in Logan’s ear and softened her.
As bad as Logan hadn’t wanted to cry, East had done it. The situation was already a lot to handle, but her adrenaline had been rushing so fast that she hadn’t had time to actually feel it. Now that Yeshi wasn’t on her, and she was actually being rendered some affection, her body was relaxing and making her tears rise.
“You straight.” Logan pulled away and turned so she could walk away.
Jaylen, Onyx, and Gabrion were all standing around her, while Yeshi and Killian stood directly in front of her. She wasn’t sure where Jerian had gone, and neither did she care. She wasn’t about to fight about Yeshi, but her respect was something else. Now that she was gone, she could move past the situation without cutting a complete fool in the section.
“Baby, listen to me.” Yeshi reached out and grabbed her hand, but when she pulled it away, he stepped up to her and closed the distance between them.
“I swear I didn’t fuck that girl like that.”
“Like that?” Logan gasped, trying to catch her breath from the overwhelming feeling of hearing him admit to having sex with Jerian. “I need to go.”
Logan rushed past him, but he grabbed her to him before she could get too far. The grip he had on her was just as tight as the others had been. Logan was doing everything she could to break away and hadn’t been successful in the least. She was giving it all the fight she had, but his arms being on her was making it so hard. He had grabbed her forehead from behind and pulled her head back to his chest so he could talk in her ear.