by Sarah Bailey
“See what?”
“How much you want me.”
I didn’t look away from him.
“So?”
“So, you don’t have to do anything you’re not ready to. I’m willing to wait as long as it takes.”
Why did that only make me want him more? His consideration of my feelings and needs took my breath away at times. It’s not as if it would be some casual thing. I still loved Cole. Not sure I knew how to stop even though he’d hurt me.
“What if I am ready?”
He reached over and brushed his fingers down the side of my face. The simple touch set all my nerve endings on fire.
“I want you, Meredith, I won’t deny that. However, I don’t want to screw up or have you regretting the second chance you’ve given me.”
The sincerity in his eyes made my heart melt.
“I would never use that against you when it’s my decision. All you’ve ever done is given me choices. It’s never been about force or coercion. Trust me, Cole, when I let you back into my bed, it’s because I want it to happen. It’s on me.”
He didn’t respond as the waiter came over with our drinks, but I caught the relief in his eyes before he dropped his hand and thanked the man.
I’d learnt a strong lesson from our breakup. One about responsibility and making sure you accepted your part in things. It was my decision to lie to Jonah, which had almost guaranteed the failure of my relationship with Cole in the first place. I was fully aware of how protective Jonah was over me. I was his baby sister. The one he’d taken care of when our father died and our mother had decided we could fend for ourselves. Whilst Cole had walked away from us, I played a huge part in our ending. My actions were the catalyst. I couldn’t place all the blame on him for our demise because it simply wasn’t all his fault.
That’s why in that restaurant, on our second first date, I silently vowed to myself I would always take responsibility for my own actions.
And that’s the moment I forgave Cole for hurting me two years ago when everything fell apart between us.
Chapter Thirty Two
My date with Meredith honestly couldn’t have gone better. We talked, laughed and enjoyed each other’s company. It almost felt as if no time had passed and we were a couple again. It wasn’t quite the same as we’d both grown up in the last two years. Things had inevitably changed. We were still Cole and Meredith though, two people who shared a connection. Who cared and deep down wanted each other for life.
Meredith turned to me at her front door, her green eyes shining and my heart lurched in my chest.
“Want to come in?”
I rubbed the back of my neck with my free hand as the other clutched my helmet. I had intended to drop her home and leave regardless of what she’d said at the restaurant.
“You sure I should?”
I had a feeling I knew what would happen if I did go in with her.
“Would I invite you in if I wasn’t?”
“Meredith, I told you, there’s no rush.”
She unlocked the door and took my hand, pulling me in with her. I didn’t protest any further, following her upstairs to her room. I wouldn’t lie and say I didn’t want to strip her down and fuck her. The thought of it made my cock harden. I’d missed everything about her. The time at her house party wasn’t enough. Having to spend the night next to her on Friday hadn’t helped matters either. She was so fucking tempting. I only had so much patience and restraint.
She popped the helmets down on her desk after taking mine from me. Then she tugged off the jacket I’d bought her. I didn’t want her getting cold when I took her out on the Ducati. Her hands were on mine next, unzipping it and making me shrug out of it. She set those on her desk chair and stepped towards me.
“Cole,” she murmured, reaching for my waist. “I want you to take control like you did at the party.”
I swallowed hard, staring down at her. Fuck, I was so scared of messing everything up. Allowing that fear to hold me back would only end up in disaster. I had to trust this was what she wanted. The way her eyes darkened with heat and longing decided it for me. Turning her down would be fucking stupid.
Reaching up, I held onto her pink braid. I tugged her closer and tipped her face up to me. She let out a gasp as if not expecting me to be rough in my handling of her.
“You liked that, did you?”
“Yes.”
Leaning closer, I brushed my mouth over hers.
“You want me to fuck you with no mercy?”
She squirmed against me, biting her lip.
“Answer the question.”
“Yes… please,” she whispered.
My fingers itched in anticipation, not to mention my dick. I was sure she could feel it now, how much I craved her. I had done for as long as I’d known her. The craving had differed when I was younger, but it was still there. The need for her in my life. I couldn’t imagine a world where she didn’t exist.
I’m never going to love anyone the way I love you, Meredith Pope. You are my first thought in the morning and my last at night. You are my one.
“Since you asked so nicely.”
Who the fuck was I kidding? Even if she hadn’t said please, I would give it to her anyway.
I forced her to step backwards until her legs hit the bed, then my mouth was on hers, tongue delving between her lips and tasting her. Meredith moaned in my mouth, her hands tightening around my waist. The sound encouraged me. My hands drifted down, tugging at her jumper. She raised her arms to allow me to pull it off, followed by her t-shirt and bra. My hand closed around her breast as I kissed down her neck. I swiped a thumb over her nipple, only eliciting another moan from her.
I needed her bare for me. My fingers were unbuttoning her jeans and tugging them off as she arched into me. Her knickers came next, followed by her socks and shoes so I could get everything else off. I pulled back to stare down at her. Her pale skin was luminescent in the low light. It’d been so long since I’d seen her like this. But here she was. The girl of my fucking dreams. And she wanted me.
“Kneel for me.”
Meredith lowered herself, watching me with wide eyes. My hand curled around her braid again, forcing her head up.
“I think you know what I want you to do.”
“Tell me.”
She wants to be told. Fuck, that’s so hot.
“Take my dick out and wrap your lips around it.”
Meredith reached for me, tugging open my fly and digging her hands into my boxers. I let out a grunt when she wrapped her fingers around my hard cock, pulling it out. She leant closer and ran her tongue up the shaft. I still had a hold of her braid so I tugged on it.
“Don’t make me wait.”
Her hot, wet mouth enclosed around the head of my dick and I was in fucking heaven. I watched her take more with rapt attention. All my focus was on her. Her beautiful, naked body and the way she wrapped her fist around the base of my dick. Her eyes flicked up to mine whilst she sucked, giving me full access to her emotions. They just about fucking killed me. Those green eyes burning with all her pent up need for me. I didn’t know how the fuck I could last with her staring at me like that. And I didn’t want to. Her mouth around me was amazing.
I hadn’t been lying to her when I said it wouldn’t have bothered me if she’d been with other people. Knowing I’d been the only one who gave her this only made me harder. I wanted to keep her for life this time around. Make her mine completely. In heart. In body. And in name.
It might be too soon to thinking those things, but hell, I wanted everything with her. Absolutely everything.
“That’s it, show me how much you want it, little queen. Make me spill in your hot little mouth.”
Meredith didn’t let up. She worked me faster and took me a little deeper. I held back from groaning as my fist tightened around her braid. I could feel it building. My mouth parted and my body tensed. This time I let a groan esc
ape as I erupted in her mouth. Pleasure bloomed all over my body, intensified by knowing it was her who’d given it to me. Nothing would match up to being with her.
When the pulses faded, she pulled away and swallowed without me telling her to. It’s not as if Meredith hadn’t gone down on me when we’d been together before, but something about having her kneeling for me made this experience so much hotter.
“Mmm, I think it’s time you got a reward for being a good girl.” I pointed at the bed. “Lie back for me.”
She released me and crawled on it, settling herself down in the middle.
“Spread your legs.”
A flush spread down her cheeks but she did as I asked, raising her legs up and opening them wide. I couldn’t help staring at her perfect pussy, just waiting for me to devour it. I knelt on the bed, running my hands down her legs as I leant over her. I pressed a kiss to her stomach, watching her squirm under my touch. Moving lower, I couldn’t fucking wait to feast on her.
I didn’t want to rush this, not like the last time when I’d fucked her up against the wall. That couldn’t be helped. Seeing her again had all my feelings and needs boiling over. I had to have her. And she’d needed me too even if it’d left her in a mess of emotions afterwards.
“Cole,” she cried out the moment my tongue brushed along her clit. “Oh, oh, fuck.”
My hands banded around her thighs, spreading her wider for me. I went straight for the kill, flicking my tongue over her clit in the exact way I knew she liked. I’d memorised every inch of Meredith’s body and all her tells. Most teenage boys would be too interested in getting laid to do so, but not me. I wanted to make sure I pleased her. I learnt everything I could. Knowing what buttons to press and when to make her come.
“Cole, don’t stop, oh god.”
I watched her body shake and tremble, her hands fisting in the covers. Her back arched off the bed when I slid two fingers inside her. Hooking them upwards, I found the right spot and almost smiled when the volume of her moaning increased.
“Fuck, Cole.”
Her pussy clenched around my fingers as she came. Such a fucking beautiful sight. The way she unfolded for me, her body undulating and writhing. Her eyes were squeezed shut, her mouth open and my name kept spilling from it.
She lay there when she’d come down, panting hard as her fingers uncurled from the covers. I was fucking hard as stone again. I stripped out of my clothes whilst she was still recovering, digging a condom out of my pocket. Just because I hadn’t planned on fucking her this evening, didn’t mean I’d come unprepared. Rolling it on, I slid between her legs, making her open her eyes. I took both her hands and pinned them above her head with one of mine, locking her wrists together.
“You can struggle, but I’m not letting you go,” I murmured, running my other hand down her chest and circling her nipple with my finger.
She let out a pant in response.
“You have no idea how long I’ve wanted to have you had my mercy. No matter what you say, you’re mine, Meredith. No one else will make you feel the way I do. I’m your first… your last… your everything.”
The fire in her eyes flickered. She wanted to rebel, but her mouth closed. She relinquished control. Meredith knew the truth. Forgetting what we shared would be impossible for both of us. No matter what happened in the future, this would remain. It would never be destroyed or burn out.
I ran my free hand down her stomach, watching her squirm all over again. No doubt, she knew what was coming. Gripping my cock, I guided it to her and pressed forward. Her choked moan when I slid inside made me smile. Fuck, I would never get over how tight she was.
Leaning down, I brushed my mouth against hers.
“Cole,” her moan vibrated across my lips.
“You going to show me how much you want to get fucked hard?”
“Yes.”
Her lips bucked, forcing me deeper. I kissed her, swallowing the resulting whimper. My hand around her wrists tightened as she pressed against me. I gripped her hip with my other as an anchor so I could pull back and press inside again. I wasn’t gentle. I gave it to her without restraint. She couldn’t escape me and I was high off the thrill of it. High off her submitting to me. Her whimpers in my mouth fed me. They prompted me to go faster, only making her tremble against me. She needed this. Wanted it. I gave her the freedom to let go. I made her feel alive. Kissing down her jaw, I listened to her moans and pants, the way she cried out my name with her pleasure.
“That’s it, little queen, take it.”
“Cole, please, more.”
“Oh, am I not giving you enough?”
“You are, I just… I need more.”
This position didn’t allow me the space to fuck her with the ruthlessness she was asking for. I let go of her hands and sat up. She let out a mewl of distress as if me withdrawing from her wasn’t what she wanted.
“I want you to turn over, get up on your knees and grip the headboard.”
She scrambled to obey, clearly desperate to have me back inside her. I moved closer, leaning over her so I could kiss her shoulder. I wrapped a hand around her body, locking her against me as I slid back inside her wet, warm pussy. My other hand circled around her neck, giving me the leverage I needed to go to town on her. I didn’t hold her too tight since I wasn’t into any kinky shit like restricting her airway.
“Cole, oh god,” she cried out when I began to fuck her, thrusting hard and deep without warning.
“This is what you wanted,” I told her, biting down on her earlobe. “You wanted to get fucked hard.”
“Yes, I want it, oh god, fuck.”
My arm around her body loosened so I could run my hand down her stomach and between her legs. It only made her buck and tremble when my fingers worked her clit, driving her higher with my brutal pounding. Having come in her mouth earlier, I was more able to control myself this time. The need to climax was still there, but I wanted to draw this out. To make her so needy, she didn’t know what was up or down.
The moment I felt her tipping over the edge, I released her clit. Meredith let out a hissing noise as if my denial of her orgasm pissed her off. She didn’t tell me off, just submitted to what I wanted. When she’d backed off the edge, I resumed stroking her whilst I kept slamming into her. The sounds of our skin slapping together permeated the air, mixing with her moans and pants.
“You missed this, didn’t you?” I grunted in her ear. “Missed the way I fuck you.”
“Yes.”
“You only have to say the word, Meredith, and you’ll have access to this cock whenever you want it. I’ll fuck you six ways from fucking Sunday if you ask me for it. Only you may have to beg. Beg me for my cock.”
“Oh god, Cole.”
“Mmm, does the thought of that turn you on?”
I could see her knuckles had gone white from gripping the headboard, but she didn’t move them. She was such a good girl.
“Yes, oh fuck, yes.”
“Do you want to come, little queen?”
She arched back into me.
“Yes, please let me come, Cole. Please. I want it so bad.”
I wasn’t sure she’d had enough yet and I wanted more of this. More of her. It’d been too fucking long since I’d been able to have Meredith. Her submission this evening had fed me, riling me up.
“Not yet. Patience.”
My fingers around her neck tightened a fraction, showing her who was in charge. Her breathing was erratic and I could feel her pulse hammering against her skin. I kept fucking her, sending her closer to oblivion, but not allowing her to fall away into it.
“Cole, please… god, please.”
“No.”
“God, fuck, please, I need to come so much.”
I pressed my cheek against hers, giving her everything I had.
“Do you?”
“Yes, please, Cole. I can’t take it.”
The need was building in m
e too. I couldn’t help it any longer. The sensations had me spiralling higher. And I wanted her right there with me.
“Let go,” I whispered. “Come for me.”
The moment her pussy clenched around my cock, I exploded. Spots formed in my vision with the violence of it. Her cries echoed around my skull as a guttural moan escaped my lips. There was nothing fucking for it but to give in to it all. I let the waves carry both of us under, never wanting to come up for air.
We collapsed in a heap on the bed when we came down. Meredith couldn’t hold herself up any longer. I couldn’t blame her after the brutal pounding she’d received at my hands.
“Holy shit,” she panted out. “I didn’t know that’s how you wanted to fuck me.”
I kissed her shoulder, rolling us both over so we were on our sides. I tucked her against my chest, holding her close.
“You can’t tell me you didn’t enjoy it.”
“Oh, trust me, I did, but that was intense.” She stroked her fingers along my arm. “And I want you to do it again.”
“Right now?”
She giggled.
“No, you’ve worn me out. I have to get up early for uni. I can’t really be getting fucked by you all night.”
It was my turn to laugh.
“Maybe we’ll save that for the weekend.”
“I’m going to hold you to that.”
I nuzzled her neck before kissing her skin.
“I hope so.”
She let out a sigh, wrapping her hand around my arm.
“Getting back together is a big step, Cole. I want to be sure.”
“I know. I’ll wait. I told you that.”
She nodded, her body relaxing into mine.
“Did you want to stay?”
I wished I could, but I had to go to college tomorrow as part of my apprenticeship to get my qualifications. It would be a massive pain to get there from here first thing.
“I kind of need to get back.”
“Oh… okay.”
“I want to, Meredith, but I’ve got college in the morning and it’s important.”
She turned her head towards me, her eyes full of understanding.