Black Hart

by L. J. Swartz

  I drag our bags into our hotel room and sit them on the end of the bed. It's a bit ridiculous that I feel at home here. Maybe I should get my own place when we go back home. I'm always at Carmen's. I should have just moved in with her. Half my shit is there anyway. I go to my room to get clothes and that's about it. I even help pay for shit at her place. I want to since I'm there so much. I shouldn't have let my fear hold me back. Now Luke is there. I doubt he'll leave now. "Dalton?" I look to her. "You ok? I asked three times what you wanted for dinner. You just kind of stayed all zoned off there." I walk to her resting my hands on her hips. "Sorry babe I was just thinking. Uh whatever you want is fine." I press my lips to hers then start to pull away. She catches my neck holding me to her. I smile then slip my tongue into her mouth. She bites on it then sucks it lightly. I sigh then dip my tongue over and over into her mouth tasting her. She is so damn hard to resist. I guess I don't have to ever again if I don't want. I push on her hips backing her to the bed. She smiles against my lips then presses on my chest. I sigh as she takes her lips from mine. "Dalton...." I press my finger tips to her lips. "I'm not angry or upset. I just want to be with you." She smiles then drops to the bed laughing. "In that case get on me." She opens her legs motioning me to her with her fingers. I smile then move to the bed as my phone rings in my pocket. I growl then stand and pull it out. It's Helen. "Helen hey what's up?" I swallow hard as she tells me dad opened his eyes. It didn't last long but they think it's a good sign that he's coming to. She asks me to come back since they feel me being there is what's bringing him out of it. I look to Carmen. She nods her head yes. She doesn't even know what's going on. I love her. I nod then tell Helen we're on our way back. I hang up and look to Carmen. "Sorry baby." She shrugs and slides from the bed. "I always want you. It will just be ten times better later when you finally get to be inside me." She whispers then presses a kiss to my neck. I swallow hard. She can get me worked up so easily. "Ok let's go before I decide to just throw you to this bed and fuck you." She steps in front of me with a raised eye brow. "Just how fast do you think you could get it done?" I look down her body. "Oh I could be done it probably ten seconds but that won't be any fun for you." I tell her stone serious. She giggles then pushes on my chest making me sit on the end of the bed. "Just knowing you want me that much makes me not care if I get off." She straddles my hips. I clench my jaw as she reaches down for my pants. I grab her hands stopping her. She gets serious. "Sorry this is kind of a bad time for this huh?" She starts to move from my lap. I wrap one arm around her keeping her on my lap. "Baby calm down. I want you. But not when I won't have the time to make you tremble under me as I make you cum." She swallows hard. "Oh." I smile then press my lips to hers. She kisses me back fiercely then takes her lips from mine moving quickly from my lap. I think about just doing it really quickly, but I need to get back to dad. I stand and adjust myself making her giggle. We leave the hotel and head back to the hospital.

  "Hey." I stop short as his weak voice hits my ears. Dad is awake. I look to Helen then back to him. She smiles. "I'm sorry he woke up a minute ago." I shake my head back and forth then walk to the side of the bed dropping to my knees taking his hand in mine. "Hey son." He touches my head with his other hand. I look up meeting his gaze. "You're ok?" He nods. "Yeah I just guess I needed a little scare to get my shit together." I don't know what he means by that. "He was told to change his diet and life style a few months ago or this could happen. He didn't listen. But he will now." The tone of her voice suggest she'll she to it. I look to him then nod at Helen. "She's bad ass." He nods getting a huge smile on his face. "I'm glad you're here." I huff shaking my head in disbelief. "Where else would I be?" He gets tears in his eyes as he states, "You hate cars." I nod then shrug. "Not anymore. It wasn't so bad." I stand keeping a hold of his hand. "How do you feel?" He nods then lays back. I release his hand letting him get comfortable. Carmen steps next to me sliding her hand into to mine. Geez I almost forgot she was here. When he said hey I just kind of zoned in on him. I look down at her squeezing her hand. She smiles up at me then reaches out touching dad's knee. "Hey Kevin. Glad you're awake." He smiles at her. "Thank you Carmen. And thanks for bringing him here. Was it really as ok as he made it sound?" He looks to her like he doesn't believe it. I chuckle. She smiles. "He did great actually. He kept his eyes shut a lot, but no freak outs or anything." He nods then looks to Helen holding his hand out to her. She takes it then looks to me. "Why don't you like cars? Kevin never told me." I swallow hard then look to dad quickly wishing he had told her before looking back to her. "I killed my ex girlfriend in a car wreck and ran. I left her there to burn to death." She gasps clasping her free hand over her mouth. "I'm so sorry." I shrug. Carmen hisses, "Jesus Dalton." I look to her. She shakes her head annoyed. "It wasn't exactly like that. He tried to save her, but the car was on top of her. It burst into flames. There was nothing he could do." I look to her shaking my head. She doesn't have to sugar coat it for me. It is what it is. I'm not proud of it, but it happened. Helen takes her hand from her mouth. "I'm so sorry I brought it up." I shrug then smile at her. She smiles weakly then looks to Carmen. Carmen huffs then takes her hand from mine before walking from the room. I look to Dad. He nods toward the door. "You should maybe go after her." I shake my head back and forth. Letting her have a minute to herself is the best thing for us both. "She'll be fine." Helen reaches across the bed touching my arm. "I didn't mean to cause trouble." I hold my hands up. "Seriously guys this is not even important, ok!? Dad, you being ok and awake is." I sit back down. "So what happens now?"

  We walk into the hotel room. Carmen hasn't said a word to me since I blurted what happened to Helen. I know I made it sound bad, but it was. It was the most horrific day of my life, and I will never fully forgive myself for leaving her there. A better man would have ran into those flames and died himself trying to save her. Not ran off into the trees like a scared pussy and let her burn to death. I shake my head as I sit on the bed. Carmen went straight to the shower. I need to figure out why she is so angry with me. I stand and walk to the bathroom. I check the door quietly. It's unlocked. She isn't that mad, or she would have locked it. I open it slowly trying not to announce my presence yet. "I can hear you." She calls out. I huff and shut the door. "You want company?" I reach out for the shower curtain. "Nope." I stop, wondering if I should just let her alone. "Dalton, I'm sorry ok." Now I'm confused. Why is she sorry? This sounds like it may end up working in my favor. We've only ever had one really serious fight, and I lost bad. She handed my ass to me over Abby calling at like 3 a.m. one morning. I answered. That was where I fucked up. She told me she gets that I can't control who calls me but answering made me seem like I cared. I will never again answer a call from a number I don't know for sure. I pull the curtain back just a bit. My dick jumps in my pants. She looks incredible with water running down her sexy little body. I lick my lips. She raises her eye brow. "Stop looking at me that way. I don't like when you make yourself sound like such a monster. You've made yourself suffer in pain for years now. I'm sorry for how I reacted though. It's your story, and if you want to just blurt it out like that, that's your choice." I step closer trailing my eyes up and down her body for like the hundredth time since I pulled this damn curtain back. "You're forgiven." I tell her as I step into the shower with her. She busts up laughing. "You're still dressed. What are you doing?" I wrap my arms around her lifting her up my body. "Getting closer to you." I press my lips to hers. She slides her hands into my hair as she wraps her legs tightly around my waist. I turn us pressing her to the wall of the shower. She moans into my mouth then plunges her tongue in over and over again. I need to be inside her. She takes her lips from mine. I search her face. "Take me to bed Dalton." I nod then turn and step from the shower holding her to me. She giggles. "Dalton wait the water." I huff then sit her down so she can go and turn it off. She steps back in front of me. "Ok continue." I lift her back up, then walk into the room trailing kisses up her neck. I'm about to lay her back when
she unwraps her legs from my waist standing. I give her a questioning look. "Dalton I love you, and I know when you're with me you're different." She searches my face then swallows hard. "You hold back." I raise my eye brow. Where is she going with this? I stand upright crossing my arms over my chest. "I do some.... yeah." I admit since she's looking at me like I need to confirm her assumptions. She starts to smile then pulls my arms apart wrapping them around her. I smile at how fucking adorable she is. "I want you to fuck me like you would one of the bar girls." Ok now this feels like a trap. I start to shake my head. She grabs my face looking me square in the eyes. "Yes." I swallow hard. I was rough and inconsiderate and down right mean to most of those girls. I just fucked the shit out of them to get off. Hell Abby and I did some crazy shit with pain and pleasure. I shake my head not letting her stop me this time. "I was angry and damaged when I fucked those women. I won't do that with you." I step back taking my arms from her. She looks really hurt. "What?" I hiss confused why she would even ask this of me. "I like it rough. Like really rough and honestly I came for the tattoo, but also in hopes that I would be one of your wild conquests. Why do you think I was at the bar that night? Anyway after our kiss at Mabel's I realized I wanted more. I've been a bit ashamed to tell you." I widen my eyes unable to believe my ears. She is THE perfect girl for me. I get serious. "Get on the bed." I demand. She starts to smile, but licks her lips keeping it away. I raise my eye brow. "NOW." I bark then motion to the bed. She moves to the bed on all fours. I groan as I get the best view of her. She looks over her shoulder. "Don't go easy on me." I close my eyes calming myself down. This is fucking too much for a man like me. I step up behind her running my hands along her fine little ass. I watch as her breathing picks up. I pull my hand back smacking the right cheek of her ass. She looks at me over her shoulder. Hot damn she fucking likes it. I give the other side the same treatment. She moans loudly this time. I swallow hard. I don't know if I can do this. I'm so affected by her. I move my fingers along the seam of her ass. Do I really treat her like I would everyone else? I run my finger tip up, then back down again. She doesn't tighten like she's worried I'm back here. I swallow hard then press my thumb to her. She moans pushing back against my finger forcing it in further. I close my eyes looking to the ceiling as I pump it in and out of her ass. She's really moving. I take my thumb from her. "Dalton." She protests. I smile then undo my pants pushing them from my hips. She looks over he shoulder at me. I wink at her then step up behind her probing her with my tip. She closes her eyes but keeps her head turned so I can see her face. I slowly enter her. I have to pull back out. God damn she's tight. I almost lost it already. I take a deep breath then push back into her. I turn my head to the side as she clenches around me. "God damn it." I hiss. She pushes herself to me taking me in further. I bend forward involuntarily. Fuck me. I reach up cupping her breasts in my hands and tweak her nipples as I start to move in and out of her slowly. I will not be as rough with her as I have been in the past. I would never want to hurt her. She starts to move with me. "Fuck Carmen." She slams herself against me. I grab her tits hard. She moans loudly. Damn it. I can't take it anymore. I stand up resting my hands on her hips. She moves her hips. I pull up on them slamming into her. "GOD YES." She calls out looking over her shoulder at me. I reach out covering her mouth, then do it again. She bites down on my middle finger. It intensifies my pleasure. I flex my fingers against her face and do it again. She bites down harder. It's fucking awesome. I hold her to me pumping into her hard and fast. I can't take much more of this. She takes her teeth from me calling out, "FUCKING YES." Thank god. I slam into her once more letting myself go. She holds herself to me as I pulse in her. I take a deep breath, then pull from her slowly. She groans then lays flat on her stomach. I lay on my back looking to her. She looks to me. "God damn I knew it would be good, but fuck." She comments then starts to giggle a bit deviously. I reach out touching her face unable to keep myself from laughing. "Have you, uh...." I motion to her ass. She nods. "Yeah but the guy was scared to do it." She looks off. I get the feeling I maybe shouldn't ask this. "Was it Luke? You guys dated didn't you?" She meets my gaze. She doesn't even need to say it. Fuck. That pisses me off more than I want it to. She clears her throat. I look to her. "So your ex is living with you?" She searches my face cautiously. I raise my eye brow getting more pissed by the second. "Yes but it's been over for longer than it lasted." I nod clenching my jaw. I don't know why I feel so betrayed by this. I guess with everything I've told her about me..... I figured she'd slip that little bit of info in somewhere. I sit up and walk to the bathroom without another word. I'm not sure I won't say something I may regret, so I think it's best not to talk at all. I hear her moving around the room. I should really let her in here after what we did. I know she needs it. I open the door and step into the room. She's sitting on the side of the bed with her head in her hands. "You better, uh get in there and get cleaned up." I walk pass her to where I left my shoes. "Dalton where are you going?" I look to her. She looks worried. "I just need a minute babe. I'm gonna go call dad." I pull my phone from my pocket and hold it up. She nods then turns and walks into the bathroom. I let out a breath then open the door. I walk around the parking lot. Dad is doing great and is just planning on resting the rest of the night. I told him we'd be by in the morning. I keep walking even after we hang up. I keep trying to talk myself into going back in, but instead I just make another lap and another lap. I don't know what I'm supposed to say when I go back in. I'm not sorry for getting angry. I'm just getting more angry that she thought it was ok to move in with him and not mention that they dated at one point. I make a few more laps before the door to our room opens. I look up. Our room is on the second floor of a cheap ass horror movie style hotel. She steps to the railing and waves at me. I nod up at her. She leans on the railing watching me. Well now I have to deal with this. I start for the steps. "You don't have to come in. I just had to see that you were ok." She calls out to me. I sigh as I jog up the steps. She turns to me as I walk toward her. I don't know what to say. I stop and just look at her. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you. It was a long time ago, and we're really JUST friends now. I guess I never thought it would be an issue." I look down sliding my hands into my pockets. "Talk to me Dalton, please." She asked for it. I look to her. "I'm hurt that after everything I've told you, you kept this from me. I mean, come on. It seems shady Car. Why wouldn't you just tell me? Especially when you brought up him moving in with you?" She drops her head forward. I feel bad. I want to make her feel better, but I need her to answer me. "I knew it would spook you away. I was already barely getting to you. I couldn't risk it then." She looks to me. I don't know what to say. It's nothing but an excuse and a shitty one really. I'm a grown man. I point at her telling her, "That's piss poor, and you know it." I turn to walk away. "Ok fine. FUCK. I just broke it off with him. We had hardly been anything. I told him when I came here I'd give him a chance. Then I met you. I told him I liked you and not to make a big deal out of it. I begged him not to. And because he loves me, he agreed. I'm an asshole ok. I wanted a roommate, and honestly I didn't know if we'd even still be together. I figured you'd have cheated by now." The betrayal I feel almost knocks the breath from me. I nod then jog down the steps. I don't have a clue where I'm going, but I know I cannot be here right now.