You were lying
I felt safe with you
Immortality
Is the key
To understanding
If I live forever in you
Maybe then
I will see
Why you
Denied me
And lied to me
And took all I ever had
But when I imagine
Your happiness without me
I don't feel so bad
I want you
To be truly happy
But what is this
Doin to me
I can't be
Happy myself
My God,
Why have you
Forsaken me
You've crippled me
You stole my soul
For selfishness
For ignorance
For false illusions
From Now Til Forever
I don't wanna be
Anything
You don't want me to be
I can't say everything
I wanna say
Anyway, Baby
I don't care enough
For you, you think
So why would
Ya wanna stay
Every day is a pain
I can't explain
That much
Of how I feel
Without losin it
All this time
I've known I can't make
You mine again
I gave up my right
To be lovin you
Cuz I was abusin it
I don't want you to leave
But you won't believe
A word from me
Could we ever be
Not in misery
And live our lives
Happily, Baby
I just want
All you can give
Please give it to me
Give in to me
You are my lady
Am I supposed to
Spend all my life
Missin you
Wishin you
Would let me
Ever see
Us together
Is it anything
You could begin to consider
Or will we be
Parting ways
From now
Til forever
I don't mean
To treat you like I have
And never allow
My love to be seen
Or really give you
Anything
I know you
Wanna break
Completely clean
It's clear to me
You'll no longer
Be here for me
Always in between us
There was
Everything
But anything we needed
It didn't help
That I begged and pleaded
I want you to find
Your happiness
Wherever that may be
You will never find it
As long as you're here with me
Am I supposed to
Spend all my life
Missin you
Wishin you
Would let me
Ever see
Us together
Is it anything
You could begin to consider
Or will we be
Parting ways
From now
Til forever
Someday,
Whenever
You decide
You want it all back
I don't think
That I could
Let you come back
Am I supposed to
Spend all my life
Missin you
Wishin you
Would let me
Ever see
Us together
Is it anything
You could begin to consider
Or will we be
Parting ways
From now
Til forever
Decisions
How do you
Make decisions
When it's so hard
To choose
You know you
Could win it all
Or you might lose
How do you decide
To stay or to go
How can you
Make a decision
To just say
I don't know
I’ll Never Forget
I have loved
In my life
And lost
Including you
And before
Though sometimes
I felt better instantly
Now now...
Cuz you're still here
Physically
You say you
Can't love me anymore
I can't love you anymore
Than I already do!
I'll never forget
How much I love you!
Syko
I kept tellin you
I never
Wanted someone new
You couldn't seem
To get that
I had planned
To always be your man
I wanted only you
And you weren't
Number two!
That why I
Took your hand
You just couldn't
Get past any of it!
I thought it would last
And now,
You've gone and done it!
You've awoken
The dark part of me
Made from being broken
And from bad memories
You better watch out!
He's out to get you!
Be careful now!
He won't let you
Do this to me!
He gets revenge for me
He sees through me!
All you had to do
Was let me
Keep lovin you
But no, you couldn't do it
You wanted to make me
Be on my own
And live my life alone
I thought this would happen
I guess I knew it
I'm hurting so bad!
You've made me mad!
You think I'm fucked up?!
Yeah, I know you're right
But I've tried
With all my might
To overcome it,
But you've pushed me to it!
You've awoken
The dark part of me
Made from being broken
And from bad memories
You better watch out!
He's out to get you!
Be careful now!
He won't let you
Do this to me!
He gets revenge for me
He sees through me!
Didn't I fill your life
With fun
I'm not always aware
Of what I've done
But whoever made you see
I was not
What you need
Yeah, that was
Probably me!
Forever forgetful
Eternally regretful
While unknowing
Sometimes I see
Why you're going!
You've awoken
The dark part of me
Made from being broken
And from bad memories
You better watch out!
He's out to get you!
Be careful now!
He won't let you
Do this to me!
He gets revenge for me
He sees through me!
You should get out now!
Before I do
Somethin else,
Somethin that you
Won't survive!!!!
Goodbye
I don't think
I could ever tell you
Goodbye
Every time
I imagine it
I want to cry
From now
Until the day I die
I'll wish
You could've stayed
And that's why...
I'll never say goodbye
Goodbye means accepting
That you're parting ways
And can't let yourselves
Ever try
And that is why
I will never say goodbye!
No Matter
Lovin you
Isn't easy to do
You came
Without instructions
And with lots of troubles
That I never knew
No matter
What I say or do
It won't change a thing
And no matter
Where we'll be
I can't let go
Of the good memories
No matter the fact
That you and me
Are through
I might move on
But I won't let it be true
That I ever
Gave up on you!
No matter
How you might feel right now
I still love you
More than love should allow!
No matter
The consequences
Of what I have done
I'll never look back
To find the truth
Cuz I know in my heart
Time can't erase
What I think of you!
Regret won't exist
There'll be absolutely none
No matter everything
That you've done to me
I hope
You can always
Let yourself be
The person I
Know you could've been
No matter
That we'll probably
Never see each other again!
It's all no matter!
Baby, it don't matter!
Cuz I don't matter to you!
I want you to be happy
Even if the happiness
Can't be with me!
I want you to find
Your piece of mind
I want you to
Finally be free!
No matter
How you might feel right now
I still love you
More than love should allow!
No matter
The consequences
Of what I have done
I'll never look back
To find the truth
Cuz I know in my heart
Time can't erase
What I think of you!
C’mon, Baby, Just Go!
I've said some things
I didn't mean
Haven't you ever done that
You're blamin me
Like our problems
Were all my fault
Sorry if I
Can't be a doormat
And my heart
Is a vault
With walls surroundin it
Where you can't get in
But I've been
Tearin those walls down
And I can't begin
To apologize enough
To make it up to you
But I guess...
That givin you
All I can give
Will just never do!
If you think you have to
If there's no way around it
C'mon, Baby, just go!
If you don't know
If you love me
And any trust we had
We've drowned it
C'mon, Baby, just go!
There's probably
No chance to reconcile
No way to ever be
Half as happy as we were
Years ago
Half of the soul is you
Half of it is me
I knew one of us'd go
But if half is missin
The sould can never be
What it should be
Nowhere near together
Torn apart at the seams
A broken man you're leavin
Where do you stand
Are you broken at all
I always thought you were
The girl of my dreams!
And you made the call
Ya know
This is killin me!
If you think you have to
If there's no way around it
C'mon, Baby, just go!
If you don't know
If you love me
And any trust we had
We've drowned it
C'mon, Baby, just go!
What were you
Expectin me to do
I was tryin so hard
To prove my love to you!
I'm not nearly a man
Anymore,
Only a boy inside
I don't know how to deal
With what I feel
But I usually can hide
Everything!
If you think you have to
If there's no way around it
C'mon, Baby, just go!
If you don't know
If you love me
And any trust we had
We've drowned it
C'mon, Baby, just go!
I know you need to,
So, Baby, just go!
That Can Never Be
Heartache...
That says it all!
Please make...
Me a promise right now
You'll move on
And forget me somehow
I obviously made
You unhappy
You thought my love for you
Was dead
The stress in my life
Always went
To my head
Neglect...
The word I despise
But I see you
Know it well
From the look in your eyes
Maybe you will
Forgive me some day
The apologies
Aren't enough to say
A very big part of me
Is hoping
You'll come back to me
But I know
You don't care
And that can never be
You have to walk away
From all you've known
For so long
Sayin goodbye
Would feel so wrong
How do you express
The feelings you feel
There is too much
Emotion in me
But I wanna believe
It's all a dream,
That none of this is real!
Did I make you
Hate me so much
Will I ever
Get you back
The pain is such
A torment I can't take
But I try not to lie
And I'll tell you
The promise I'll make
Somewhere in my heart,
Baby, I'll always love you!
Maybe you will
Forgive me some day
The apologies
Aren't enough to say
A very big part of me
Is hoping
You'll come back to me
But I know
You don't care
And that can never be
I swear
Down to the depths
Of my soul
I never cheated
And I don't think
You did either
I believe you!
But what did happen
It stole
Such a large
Piece of my heart
And crumbled it
So much of it died
But I thought that we
Could work it all out
You know I tried!
Maybe you will
Forgive me some day
The apologies
Aren't enough to say
A very big part of me
Is hoping
You'll come back to me
But I know
You don't care
And that can never be
It'll never be
As long as you don't love me
I Wish You’d Always Be Mine
Please let me know
I'm just dreaming
Give me the chance
To do it all over again
Inside of me,
I can't stop screaming
I'm supposed to
Start everything new
And move on
Without you
I don't have any clue
Where to begin
Tell me I'm just crazy
And I'm imagining
All of this
You said
You don't love me
Anymore
Let me make one wish
I wish you'd stay
Here with me
I wish that
We could have
Another moment to be
All we were
And all we should be
If I could wish one thing
I'd wish
You would stay
For all of time
I wish
You'd always be mine
If I'm not
Losin my mind yet
I know I will
Cuz I can't forget
Everything we had
I can't believe
After how much I loved you
And all I did for you
You could be so mad
Why do you
Need to leave
I can't understand
Your reasons
What happened to you
Not bein able to live
Without me
What didn't I sacrifice
Tell me,
And I'll do it twice
I wish you'd stay
Here with me
I wish that
We could have
Another moment to be
All we were
And all we should be
If I could wish one thing
I'd wish
You would stay
For all of time
I wish
You'd always be mine
What do you need
From me
For you not to go
Please tell me now
Cuz I just don't know
I don't know what to do
This kind of love,
Never again will I find
Baby,
I wish
You'd always be mine
I wish you'd stay
Here with me
I wish that
We could have
Another moment to be
All we were
And all we should be
If I could wish one thing
I'd wish
You would stay
For all of time
I wish
You'd always be mine
Dying
I'll keep hangin on
I won't let myself
Be a victim anymore
I don't care
If you forgive me
You can cause me pain
At most, my blood will stain
And scab, and it will heal
You can't kill me!
I don't really wanna live!
But I keep on living
You stone me
You can crush my
Heart and bones
You try
To write my ending
But from now on,
When you push,
I'm gonna push back
I'm so tired of giving
I am no longer the man
You thought
That you could stand
I'm changing
I know I'm winning!
The blood
Might drip
From my veins!
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