Conflicted

by Heather Dahlgren

  “Would you like to take a walk around the lake?” She agrees and we get up. We make it about halfway around the lake, and by then, the sun is beating down on us, making it really hot. I look at the lake then her. I grab her around her waist and lift her up. She yells and laughs.

  “What the hell are you doing?” I move to the edge of the lake and she screams playfully. “Don’t you dare.”

  “Did someone say dare?” I climb to the top of one of the boulders and tighten my grip on her. “I don’t back down from a dare,” I whisper in her ear and jump. We hit the water, and it is cold, but it feels so good. I let go of her, so we can both swim to the surface. We both come up at the same time.

  “You crazy son of a bitch. It’s freezing.” I laugh and swim closer to her.

  “It feels good.” Right before I reach her, she starts splashing me. Holy shit, she could almost drown me with the amount of water she is able to hit me in the face with. I go under the water and grab her legs, pulling her under. I swim back up and laugh as soon as I hit the surface. She comes up right after me, wiping her face to remove her hair and water. She looks at me and laughs.

  “Asshole.” I chuckle and swim closer with a bit of caution since I’m not sure if she’s going to try to drown me again. Once I reach her, I pull her toward me. She wraps her arms and legs around me. I’m kicking my feet and using one hand to hold us both afloat. With the other hand, I remove her wet hair and kiss her cold lips. We smile at each other. The mood shifts suddenly from playful to heated. I feel my cock getting hard already. I kiss her, and as always, when our tongues meet, it is fucking electric. She starts rubbing against me. Between that and the movement of the water, it is too much. I need to swim closer to shore. I break the kiss and slowly swim up to the shallows. Once I can stand, I attack her neck, and she runs her hands into my hair. I can feel her tits pushing against me because she is breathing so heavily. She turns her head to the side, giving me better access, and I kiss a path to her ear.

  “Mel, I can’t get enough of you. You’re in my arms, and it doesn’t feel close enough.” I hear her sharp intake of breath at my confession.

  “I feel the same way, Keith, it’s unreal.” I trudge through the water even closer to shore, and when we make it near the edge, I lie her down and situate myself on top of her. We are nothing but sloppy kisses and exploring hands. The water lapping on us just heightens the situation. I am kissing her neck and fondling her tits when she arches her back. “Fuck, this feels so good. Please, Keith, I need more.” Damn, when she begs me like that, it takes all my will power to not slam right into her. I squeeze her tits harder and bite her neck. “Fuck. Damnit, Keith, I need you to fuck me. Right here in the water.” My cock is in total agreement.

  “Sweetheart, I can’t. The only condom I have is in my backpack on the blanket.” She rolls her hips, causing me to slam forward it feels so fucking good.

  “I’m on the pill, you don’t need it. Just please stop making me beg.” I lift my face to look at hers. She is completely flushed with desire. Watching the water lap against her, droplets running down her angelic face, it’s overwhelming.

  “Are you sure?” She lifts her head up slightly, and her green eyes tell me just how serious she is.

  “Look, I don’t know what’s going to happen with us. I know you can’t stay forever, but I sure as hell know what I want and that is you. I want to experience this intimate moment with you, here at your spot, so please stop making me beg. I want to feel you.” Before she is even finished talking, I begin to unbutton her soaking wet jean shorts. I try to slowly pull them off, but damn, wet jeans are hard to remove. She helps, and her panties come off right along with the shorts. I toss them onto shore and quickly get my shorts and boxers off, adding them to the growing pile of clothes. I remove my shirt as well as hers. The only thing left is her bra, which I remove, and it lands on top of our wet clothes. I take in her wet body, watching the water roll over her pebbled nipples. I reach out and tweak them, provoking a moan out of her.

  “Fuck, Mel. Seeing your flawless body soaking wet is an image I’ll never forget.” I climb on top of her and smile down at her. “We’ll figure this out, you and I. Right now, let’s just enjoy this.” Before she can respond, I slowly push inside her tight heat. Holy fuck, it feels amazing. Not having the barrier of the condom, feeling her wrapped around me, is almost my undoing.

  “Oh shit. I feel your piercing so much more this way.” Her eyes are closed, but I smile anyway, knowing she likes it as much as I do. I put my hands in the sand on either side of her head and start to move. I can feel her tightening on me already, so I pick up the pace. She is meeting me thrust for thrust, making my eyes roll back in my head. She grabs onto my ass, trying to tell me she wants it harder.

  “Sweetheart, tell me what you want. I want to hear you say it.” She opens her eyes, and the desire I see is unfathomable.

  “Fuck me, Keith, hard.” Holy shit. I grab her hands and pin them above her head while staring at her. I use one hand to hold them there and the other I bring down to her tit. I bite onto one nipple and pinch the other while I slam into her. “Oh fuck.” She throws her head back, hitting our hands. I do this over and over, causing her to scream at one point. I feel her pussy tighten on me, and know she’s going to come. I slam into her, causing water to splash all around us, making this so much hotter. I reach down and rub tiny circles on her clit. “Shit. Oh my God, it feels so good, I’m going to come.” I nip her ear lobe and lick the sting away.

  “That’s right, sweetheart, come on me. I want to feel your juices all over my cock.” She lets out a scream, and I feel her clench her hands.

  “Oh, Keith!” she moans, and I start pumping into her even harder, making her orgasm go on and on. That’s one of the best parts of this cock ring, pleasing her over and over. I feel my balls tightening and my body going rigid. I’m going to come, and I get nervous and pull out, shooting my load all over her stomach and tits. I throw my head back and groan out her name.

  After we both recover and begin to breathe normally, I kiss her sweetly to let her know how fucking amazing this was. I let go of her hands, and she wraps her arms around my waist, rubbing my back. She breaks the kiss and searches my eyes.

  “What’s wrong? Did I hurt you?” She smiles and brushes some water off my face.

  “Not at all. It was fucking . . . wow.” I chuckle but she begins searching my eyes again. “Why did you pull out?” I take a deep breath and move her hair off her wet face.

  “I just got nervous. I’ve only done it one other time without a condom. I don’t want to get you pregnant.” Even though I can tell she appreciates my honesty, I see the confusion. “Sweetheart, don’t let your mind wonder. No, I never got anyone pregnant, but I don’t want to either, not until I’m married. I don’t want to be one of those guys who only gets to see his kid on the court-ordered days. She smiles then shifts her body a bit. I furrow my brow and look at her, and she laughs.

  “Yea, this sand is starting to get in places.” I laugh and sit up. She starts to also, but I shake my head. I take handfuls of water, dumping it on her stomach, to clean off my mess. Once I’m satisfied I got it all, I take her hand and help her to stand up with me. We wrap our arms around each other and hold on for longer than one should, being that we are both naked in broad daylight.

  “Let’s go get dressed.” She pulls back, and we make our way out of the water. I pull on my boxers and start handing her clothes to her. We laugh because everything is still soaking wet.

  “That’s called indecent exposure.” I spin around and see a guy standing there. I pull Mel to stand behind me and keep an arm wrapped around her from behind.

  “Get the fuck out of here.”

  He laughs and crosses his arms. “Thompson, you know better than to break any laws around here. Should I charge you both and bring you downtown like this?” He laughs harder, and I see fucking red.

  “Who the fuck are you?” He raises his eyebrows and gives me the
smuggest grin I’ve ever seen.

  “You don’t know who I am? Well, some cop you are.” I pick up my T-shirt and spin around, pulling it over Mel’s head, then stomp over to this prick and get right in his face.

  “You don’t know shit about me. Now take your ass out of here, because I assure you, you don’t want to see me pissed off.” He’s breathing heavily with anger, and I smirk at him.

  “Keith, come on. Let’s just go.” I look back at Mel and see the look of defeat on her face. That’s when it hits me. This is Jenson, that fucking asshole cop. I look back at him and his smug ass smile.

  “Listen to her, Keith. You don’t want anything ruining that NYPD reputation.” What a jealous little fuck. If I didn’t think he’d press charges, I’d punch him right in the mouth. Instead, I just continue to stare him down. He starts to feel uncomfortable and looks over at Mel.

  “Don’t look at my girl.” He snaps his head to me and laughs.

  “Your girl? What kinda joke is that? You live in New York City, and Mel, sweet Mel, lives here. Here with me.” I grab his shirt, and he laughs again. “I see you’re the jealous type.” I’m breathing heavily in his face, trying to get my temper under control. Fucking prick is trying to get a rise out of me, and I’m letting him. I let go and push him away.

  “Get the fuck out of here so MY girl and I can have some privacy.” I turn my back on him and make my way over to Mel. She has tears running down her face, so I pull her to me, and she cries on my bare chest.

  “Mel, you fuck many guys in this lake, because after your boy toy goes home I’m more than game.” I pull away from her, ready to fucking kill this prick. She grabs my arm, digging her nails in. I turn my head and look into her pleading eyes.

  “Please don’t. It’s not worth it.” I continue to search her face, and when I see more tears escape, it’s my undoing. I look back at Jenson, and he’s smiling.

  “She’s right. You may be some big city cop, but here you’re just some asshole’s son. My family runs this town, so I’d think twice before you do anything. I’ll let you off the hook on the indecent exposure, but keep that shit in the bedroom.” He starts walking away, and I say it before I can stop myself.

  “I don’t give a fuck who you or your family are. If you ever talk to my girl like that again, you’ll be choking on my fist. And if you harass her at work about this or anything else, I assure you, you will see what a complete asshole I can be.” He just smiles and walks away. I turn back to Mel, and she is shaking her head and crying.

  “You have no idea what you just did. He wants me gone, and now that’s going to happen. I love what I do, and he’s going to take that away now. Why couldn’t you just shut up?” I’m shocked and pissed.

  “Mel, why the fuck do you let him get to you? He’s nobody. I don’t give a shit who his father is, he’s no one.” She doesn’t say anything. She takes off my shirt and throws it at me. I catch it and watch her struggle to get her wet clothes back on. As she is trying to get her shorts up, she looks up at me with fire in her eyes.

  “What?”

  I sigh and shake my head. I throw my shirt on and grab my shorts. “Don’t you realize that if he knew we had sex in the lake that means he was watching? He was watching us, Mel! He saw you naked, he heard you scream out your orgasm, and he watched our intimate moment.” She is crying hysterically now.

  “You think I don’t know that? You think I don’t feel disgusting knowing he saw me and he has ruined one of the most amazing moments of my life? But the fact is, you’re going to leave, and I’m not. I can’t afford to make enemies. Don’t you get that?” She’s yelling at me but crying at the same time. I blow out a defeated breath and pull her to me. She wraps her arms tightly around me, and I kiss her temple.

  “Alright, sweetheart, I’m sorry. I’ll take care of it.” I’ll talk to that son of a bitch and make nice, but only for her to make sure she’s happy.

  We pack everything up and head home to shower off the sand and get out of these wet clothes. Neither of us says much on the ride, both lost in thought. I’m disgusted that this fucker ruined our memory at the lake, but I’m more upset that Mel reacted the way she did. I need to do some digging on this prick before I go meet up with him. I want to make sure I have the upper hand. We pull up to her and Connie’s, and I get out to open her door. I help her out, rub my thumbs on her cheeks and stare into her sad eyes. “Don’t be sad, sweetheart. I’m going to fix it. I promise you.” She gives me a forced smile, and I tilt my head. “That’s all you got?” She shakes her head and laughs.

  “I’m sorry. I do appreciate you standing up for me. I’m just terrified of the repercussions.” I place my finger over her lips, and she smiles.

  “Don’t apologize. I told you I would take care of it, and I will.” We hold onto one another, and I whisper in her ear, “I told you I worry about those I care about; well, I also take care of them.” She gives me a tight squeeze, and I smile. Yep, no doubt about it, I love this girl.

  It’s been almost two months since Jeff and I started dating. I have to admit it is by far the best relationship I’ve ever had. I think both of us being lawyers have a lot to do with it. He’s sweet, sensitive, and loving. We have an amazing bond that I’ve never felt with anyone else. He makes me feel beautiful. And lucky for me, my friends like him. I was so nervous after everything with Dick that our friends wouldn’t accept someone else in my life, but they did, and I don’t know why I ever doubted them.

  Jeff and I are at the bar waiting for the others. I look around and smile, so Jeff squeezes my hand. I look over at him, and he has his head tilted with that amazing smile of his. “You’re in deep thought.” I smile and kiss his cheek.

  “I was just thinking, while looking around this bar, that this is where everything started. Kenz, Maddie, and I met the guys here. This is where we all became friends. Now, Campbell and Kenz are engaged, and it is such a beautiful thing. I’m so incredibly happy for them, and I love that it all started right here.” I feel myself choking up, and I try to blink back the tears. Jeff wipes away a tear that escaped and smiles at me.

  “You all have an unbreakable bond. They love you just as much as you love them. They are all just amazing. You know how nervous I was meeting them, thinking they would want to kick my ass because I wasn’t Dick.” We both laugh because he really was nervous. I had to beg him to come have a drink and meet them. Once he did, he realized just how great they are, even Young. “That being said, I wanted to tell you something, and I think here at the bar is the perfect place.” I give him a questioning look, but he continues to give me that smile. He grabs both of my hands and kisses my palms. “Rebecca Sinclair, I am completely and hopelessly in love with you.” I can’t stop the tears this time. Here in this bar where all the great beginnings started, I finally get mine. I lean forward and press my lips, salty from my tears, to his. He wraps his arms around me, and we deepen the kiss. I pull away breathless and smile at him.

  “I love you too, so much.” He wipes my tears and kisses my lips once more. He pulls me to him and holds me tight.

  “I promise I will always make you happy,” he whispers in my ear, and I have absolutely no doubt that it is true.

  “Just in time for the show, fuck yea.” We pull away from each other and see Maddie and Young standing there. “Don’t stop now, I was getting all hot and bothered.” Jeff and I just laugh, especially when Maddie hits him in the stomach. They sit down with their drinks, and I can’t get the smile off my face.

  “You’re glowing.” I look over at Maddie and just nod my head. I want to shout it out, but for now, I’m going to just keep our moment, our moment.

  “Just having a good night. Where are Campbell and Kenz?” I sip my Appletini and feel Jeff’s hand on my thigh. I look over at him, and he winks.

  “Probably having sex. They said earlier they had to make some phone calls and went into Kenz’s room. I yelled to them we were leaving, and I’m pretty sure I heard Kenz say fuck me.” We all l
augh, but I’m sure it’s true. Even after all this time, those two still can’t keep their hands off each other. Not that Maddie and Young are any better. I walked in the door the other day and walked right back out when I saw Young in-between Maddie’s legs on the couch. I’m just not a public person like that. I would never do anything on the couch, but that’s not how they are. They will go to the bathroom here and have sex.

  “Good thing I gave it to Maddie in the shower before we came.” Maddie laughs, and I shake my head. No filter on that boy.

  “Do you think that they’ve finally picked a date for the wedding and that’s why they needed to make phone calls?” They want a short engagement; they said there was no reason to wait. I love that about them. I, of course, couldn’t do that, but again, that’s how they are. It will be a beautiful wedding, I’m sure of it.

  “Maybe.” Maddie was so happy for Campbell and Kenz, but she did say that she’s not sure she will ever be able to get married. Young, of course, told her he would change her mind, and I have a feeling he might just do that. He may be an idiot, but he loves Maddie with his whole heart.

  “So Jeff, you and Becca do the deed yet?” I look at him with wide eyes, and Jeff chuckles.

  “Damn, Young. Shut up.” He laughs at me and turns back to Jeff.

  “I’m just wondering. Becca doesn’t like to talk about stuff like that, and I figured what the fuck, I’ll just ask you.” Maddie must kick him because he snaps his head to her. “Fuck, that hurt.” Thankfully, it was the distraction he needed, and I silently thank Maddie for that. Of course, Jeff and I have had sex, but that is private. I’m old-fashioned, and you’d think by now, Young would know that.

  “I’m going to grab another beer, anyone else need a refill?” We all do, and Jeff goes off to grab them. Young leans back in the chair and winks at me.

  “Becca, does he eat you out, or do you guys not like that kind of thing?” Maddie spits her drink out, and I cover my face.