Matt is my ex boyfriend: last summer I was really into him but first I caught him making out with Ella behind the public bathrooms by the beach and then he kissed Clary (ok it was more of a peck) because he lost a bet.
He must have just arrived because I hadn’t seen him before tonight, even though Ella has been talking about him.
Both boys notice me and come over to wish me a happy birthday: Matt is tall and very skinny, with brown hair and moss green eyes: he sports a piercing on his eyebrow this year, I like it.
Brooklyn looks like a slightly younger version of Austin but his colouring is closer to Xander’s: he’s got blue eyes rather than that turquoise green that Clary loves so much in her boyfriend and chocolate brown hair. He’s as tall as Austin but built a bit more like Logan.
‘Hey, pretty girl...’
Greets me Matt wrapping me in a hug. Last year we didn’t even break up, the day after I caught him kissing Ella and run away crying, he just left camp and we haven’t talked since.
‘How have you been?’
I don’t really know how to behave, I guess I should probably be friendly but not too much? It’s weird, one minute we were dating and then nothing.
‘I’m well, thanks. How have you been?’
He says something about school and skateboarding which has always been his obsession but I am not paying too much attention because Brooklyn is smiling at me and I had noticed that he is handsome before but I had never paid too much attention to how gorgeous he is and he’s really, really staring at me.
We sit down and chit chat for a few minutes: it’s dark now and some people are dancing, others are talking in small groups, Logan and Hazel are getting seconds of the cake and I can’t see Justin anywhere.
I decide to go find him and get this matter over and done with: I am wearing sexy red underwear and by the end of tonight, he will be dating me exclusively.
At the bonfire he said that I was one of the prettiest girls he’d been with and that I am a great kisser but that unless I had sex with him, things couldn’t get serious because he would never date exclusively someone who doesn’t put out, to quote him exactly.
I leave my own birthday party asking Logan and Hazel to bring all my presents to my room: Hazel knows what I am planning and keeps looking at me with huge scared eyes but I am sick of discussing my sex life with my BFFs, my decision is made, too bad they don’t agree with it.
I walk towards the staff cabins and knock on Justin’s door.
There’s no answer but the door is unlocked so I let myself in: I hear some muffled noises coming from Justin’s bedroom and I think that maybe he is watching a movie while he waits for me, since we had agreed to spend the night together.
I knock again on his bedroom door but again there’s no answer so I push down the handle and I gasp at the scene I witness:
Justin is lying on the bed and Lucy is riding him, her naked body glistening with a sheen of sweat while Ella is laying naked by his side and is kissing his mouth while he fondles her boobs.
‘Justin...’
The sound I make sounds strangled and for a second I think they haven’t heard me because they get on with what they are doing and I am frozen at the threshold, unable to say anything else and unable to move.
How could he do this to me? On my birthday of all nights! He knew I wanted to spend the night with him and I had told him that I had a surprise for him.
After a moment Lucy turns her head, still connected to Justin, still moving on top of him.
‘What do you want? Are you going to join us? If not, get lost!’
I’m about to say something when Justin says, slurring his speech only slightly:
‘No, she’s just a little girl. Go home, Brie, you can blow me tomorrow, I’m busy right now...’
I slam the door and run outside in the quiet, warm, starry night.
I can’t see where I’m going when I bump into someone: I trip and I would take a fall if two strong arms didn’t keep me upright.
I stare into a pair of blue eyes, everything is blurry through my tears.
‘Brie are you all right?’
‘No...’
I reply crying harder and Brooklyn hugs me tight trying to soothe me, I follow him downhill towards my room.
***
Clary
I wake up with my head on Xander’s naked chest and the first thing I see is the turquoise of his eyes: he’s watching me sleep and when he sees me staring back, he smiles.
‘Good morning, baby... Did you sleep well?’
‘Yes, I did. You creep!’
I laugh hiding my face in his chest.
‘Why are you staring at me sleeping? It’s weird!’
He laughs and his chest moves making my head move with it.
‘What’s weird in watching my girlfriend sleep when she looks like an angel? I just woke up in all honesty and you looked so peaceful that I was trying to stay still to let you sleep...’
I slide up so my face is closer to his and place a soft kiss on his lips.
‘By the way, yes I slept wonderfully. Sleeping with you is my new favourite thing...’
Xander smirks, his eyes twinkling in the morning light:
‘Is that because of the sleeping or because of the stuff that happened right before we slept?’
I blush, recalling what happened last night:
***
Last night
“I wasn’t in a great mood when we left the party: first the confrontation with Austin, seeing Xander and Logan arguing and then Xander had behaved oddly all evening, culminating in his declaration that he would “fuck me all night long”.
He had dragged me away and when we got to his cabin, I demanded an explanation.
‘I’m so sorry, Clary. I know that I’ve been clingy and impossible all night but there’s a reason.’
‘Ok, I’m glad I wasn’t just reacting out of tune to a normal behaviour, even if this was our first public date... What’s the matter?’
And then he tells me that he was helping out Joel and Mrs Taffar to set up for the party and when he came back to his room to shower and change for our date, he saw Rob and Justin drinking beer on the porch of the cabin next door and he overheard their conversation.
‘Clary those two have a bet going on how many girls they sleep with this summer and it’s double points if it’s a girl’s first time. Apparently Rob is winning after he’s...’
‘Hazel?’
He nods.
‘So that bastard knew that it was Hazel’s first time?’
He looks sad.
‘Yes, he did. The thing is, Clary, Justin was bragging about doing it with Brie tonight and then Rob said that you would be the tie breaker. Whoever got to be the first to sleep with you, would have a real head start in winning the bet...’
He sounds disgusted.
‘I got really worried, Clary, especially after the way Justin has been behaving towards you. And even though I have Logan to help me make sure you aren’t alone too much and I can ask Joel too, I am under no illusion that we can follow you everywhere 24/7. After what Rob has done, I wouldn’t put it past them to try and force themselves on you, baby. So I talked to Joel and we came up with a plan: I would make it clear to everybody that you and I are a couple and then I would make sure that they overheard me talking about having sex with you, so they would lose interest in you, thinking that you weren’t a virgin and so no double points for you... I’m sorry, I know I acted like a total idiot all evening and I hope you can forgive me for how I talked to you a few moments ago at the party: it was only so they would think that we are having sex...’
I had shaken my head to try and make sense of everything and asked Xander:
‘What about Logan? He looked so mad...’
‘I know, I don’t blame him, if roles had been reversed, I would have been fuming too... But while you were dancing with Austin, I explained the situation and he’s fine. He agreed with the plan. I’m sorry, Clary, I re
ally wanted to tell you but I thought that if you didn’t know, you’d have worried less. I am sorry I ended up freaking you out...’
I smiled at him.
‘It looked like you were marking your territory...’
He cupped my jaw and nipped at my lips and then he smirked:
‘I like to think about you as my territory... But I know I sound like a dumb caveman by saying that. And I guess it’s in part a physical thing but I am just as interested in you heart being my territory...’
I hugged his neck and kissed along his jaw: a light bit of stubble was starting to appear, teasing my lips with a pleasant tingle.
‘Well, if you’d like to know, you did take my heart by storm, Xander. And it’s yours in ways I can’t even start to explain...’
He kissed me deeply, his tongue caressing mine, his lips soft, his teeth grazing my bottom lip gently.
After my afternoon encounter with Austin and the amount of frustration I had to deal with, it didn’t take long for my heart rate to increase and for my knees starting to feel wobbly because of the excitement.
I hugged Xander tighter and rubbed myself against him a bit, feeling his body respond immediately to my closeness.
He moaned and lifted me up in his arms.
‘Let’s go to my room, baby.’
He closed the door behind us and then jumped on the bed with me still in his arms, landing in a mess of clothes and limbs.
He started kissing the part of my cleavage exposed by my dress and I closed my eyes enjoying the warmth of his lips and his breath, the gentle and yet firm touch of his hands...
I reached towards him, to get him to take his shirt off and he obliged revealing his sexy, sculpted chest.
Only looking at Xander was enough to do all sorts of things to my body, my eyes drinking up his handsome form and my hands eager to strip all of his clothes off: we’d never seen each other completely naked and I thought that sooner or later, I’d have to get over the embarrassment so no time like the present.
He stopped kissing me for a moment and asked:
‘A penny for your thoughts, sexy mermaid?’
I debated if opening the can of worms of the situation with Austin but I had no secrets with Xander, not anymore. I really did trust him with my heart and definitely when it came to my body because he’d shown me that he loved me and respected me.
So I told him about that dance and especially I told him about that encounter in my room earlier that afternoon.
‘Did he leave you like that? After he started to touch you? I didn’t know Austin could be such an asshole...’
He commented, stroking my cheek softly, his eyes intense.
‘Well, if anything, I got a glimpse of what I put you and Logan through... Yes, at first my body was left wanting more when we stopped but it wasn’t until that night with you in the tower that it really started to physically hurt. And earlier on, I... I thought I was going to explode. Joel found me trying to even out my breathing and...’
I told him about Joel’s offer to help and Xander’s hand which had been caressing up and down my outer leg and thigh stopped abruptly.
‘I think Joel and I need to have a serious conversation about what I expect as your boyfriend when it comes to you...’
‘Are you mad at him?’
‘I’m not mad, Clary. I just want him to be straight with all of us, baby. If he wants to be just friends, he can’t offer to get you off. If he wants to be more than friends, then he has to man up and quit his bullshit, the sleeping around, the selfishness... Trust me, I can only imagine the kind of hell he’s been through but when it comes to you, I know you don’t need my protection but I will protect you all the same. And your heart is the first thing I will protect, this is why I need to talk to both Joel and my cousin. There’s one thing I would like to know from you, though: were you tempted to take Joel up on his offer?’
I thought about it for a second because I didn’t want to lie to Xander.
‘I need you to understand that there was an ambivalence there: my body just wanted relief. Austin had got me so excited... I...’
He started running his hand up and down my leg again.
‘You don’t have to explain, baby. I am not blaming you after all until the night of the storm, this is how I felt every time you and I spent some time alone...’
‘So, I would have let Austin... I told him that I love him Xander. There’s something in him that reaches deep into my soul, a bit like you do...’
He kissed my forehead, my cheekbone, my jaw.
‘You don’t have to explain, I think I understand. And I love Austin too, I know he’s an amazing person. Even if right know he’s being a real douche bag.’
‘Well, going back to Joel... I was tempted for just a second, mostly because of the physical need but no. I don’t like the way he’s been acting, once I got to hang around him more this year that was actually a huge disappointment and anyway, I would never have acted that way before talking to you and Logan first. In reality, regardless of how things might go with him, I want to get to know him as a friend. I know I had this massive crush but it’s changed...’
Xander looked at me with a smile:
‘Let me talk to those two... But now, I think we can take care of you after this afternoon... If you want me to...’
He whispered it in my ear, his breath warm on my neck, his hand starting to play with the zipper of my dress.
I nodded and he opened the zipper slowly and then he slid the dress off of me, my skin feeling the colder air in the room and breaking out in goosebumps.
‘Are you cold, baby?’
‘It’s a mixture of temperature change and excitement because you are near me...’
I placed my hand on his bicep and pushed him partially on top of me, closing my eyes and searching for his lips with mine: I was rewarded with a deep kiss, with some really soft bites to my bottom lip and neck.
Having Xander so close and his lips and hands on my body, reignited that fire that Austin had lit in the afternoon, that had been just festering under the surface.
I felt already wet and throbbing for him but I didn’t want to rush things, I wanted to see what he would do, trusting that he would take care of all my needs.
His lips had begun descending again towards my boobs, clad in a lacy black bra, this one a lot thicker than the one I had on the first night we spent together, Xander’s hand found the clasp on my back but before attempting to open it, he asked:
‘Is this ok?’
‘Yes...’
I breathed a bit anxious about him seeing my boobs. Actually this would be the most naked I’d ever been in front of a guy: before when my bikini top had come off with Logan, the hot tub water was covering me, and on Xander’s couch, when we got interrupted, my boobs were smashed against his chest.
He lifted the bra away from my skin and his eyes darkened: for a second he took in the view without touching me or speaking.
I tried to stay still and keep from squirming, but I started to feel heat spreading on my cheeks and neck.
Xander placed a kiss on my collarbone with a slow smile, his eyes shining with desire.
‘You have the most gorgeous boobs I have ever seen in my entire life...’
I was about to comment on how many he could have possibly seen but he probably read my mind because his smile widened.
‘I promise you I have seen quite a few, Clary. And yours are absolutely perfect and if I don’t touch them and kiss them I might really die...’
‘We don’t want that...’
I assured him and he lowered his head towards my nipples which had started hardening under his scrutiny and his hand followed, cupping me gently while he grazed with his teeth and soothed with his tongue: the feeling was so exquisite that I let out a deep moan. He kept kissing and biting, gentle and yet with the right amount of roughness, his kiss hot and only slightly wet, in a perfect way.
Under his touch, I felt beautiful and confident, love
d and excited and that made me daring, so when I felt him hardening against my leg, I started undoing his jeans and he let me, continuing his kissing and touching.
I always marvelled at how perfect Xander’s body was and his adoration for me was so evident that when I was with him, I never worried about all the things I would have liked to change in my own body.
Somehow Xander’s kisses had started trailing down off my breasts and towards my stomach, teasing the delicate skin under my belly button.
He got to the edge of my panties and then lifted his head, looking into my eyes with his gorgeous turquoise gaze.
‘May I?’
He asked hooking a finger at each side of my panties on my hips and tugging the fabric down very slowly, to signal his intention to remove them.
I held my breath for a second: did I want him to take them off me? I had never been completely naked in front of a boy and also, was I ready for whatever he wanted to do that needed me to be naked?
The answer was yes to both questions: I trusted him and I loved him and I knew he wouldn’t hurt me and if needed I could stop him at any time.
Once my underwear was all off, he again paused to take in the view but after a moment his eyes travelled back up to mine and he whispered:
‘You are so beautiful, Clary...’
His face came back up to mine for a kiss while his hand travelled down to my naked thighs and stopped on my centre: he touched me there gently and I closed my eyes enjoying that feeling and that familiar heat starting to build in my core.
His mouth was trailing kisses downwards and I didn’t realise how much until I felt his warm breath where his hand was touching and I opened my eyes.
He lifted his gaze for just a moment, looking straight into my eyes before lowering his face on my skin and removing his finger from where he had been touching to place a soft kiss there.
His lips felt warm and incredibly soft, that tiny bit of stubble on his chin tickling me pleasantly.
Things started to move pretty quickly because after the first shallow kiss, he licked at the little ball of nerves in my centre, the one that he had been touching and rubbing before, giving me that blinding pleasure.
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