I agree with him and I can’t say that I see sleeping with Clary like a sacrifice, even if I am still a bit nervous about becoming more intimate with her.
‘Ok, dude, I have to ask you! What happened last night? You look like you are about to break into song any second... Did you and Clary...?’
He tells me that they didn’t do what I am imagining but that he doesn’t know if Clary would get mad at him if he told me.
‘No, she won’t. She and I talked about it and she said that since we are both dating her, it seems normal that we share information with each other. I don’t want the detailed story, just tell me what you guys did, please and if there’s anything there that can help me. I am still worried about hurting her...’
He tells me what they did and for a short moment I really, really want to punch him and wipe that smile off his face. It isn’t Xander’s fault, he’s just happy, he isn’t trying to make me feel like Clary likes him more than she likes me but I am mad at myself for being too shy with her.
Also, we always get interrupted, every time something is about to happen between us.
I sigh and add:
‘What if she doesn’t feel as attracted to me as she is to you?’
Xander gives me a playful slap on the back of my neck while he’s driving and scolds me.
‘Don’t be a complete asshat now. I have seen the way she looks at you. Even before I ever kissed her, when she thought she hated me and you two were always holding hands... I was so jealous, I wanted to kill you. And Clary told me about the hot tub, that isn’t a girl who isn’t attracted to you, Logan. You just have to get out of your own head and let things happen. And above all, you need to enjoy being with her. I guarantee you that if she wants you to stop, she’ll say so. But dude, looking at her beautiful face and hearing her scream your name when she... I can’t even think about it without getting worked up and I’ll spare you that, since we are alone, in the car, in the woods...’
He gives me his best cocky grin and I can’t help but laugh; I think Xander is right, I’m overthinking this and if Clary didn’t love me or feel attracted to me, she would have made a choice and would be dating only Xander or Austin.
‘One last thing, dude... What’s this Joel business? Clary told me that she was crushing on him for ages, a bit like how I was with her. He never even talked to her and now all of a sudden...’
‘Joel’s in love with her too, Logan. I don’t think he even realises it yet. He said he’s liked her for a while but at first he thought she was too young and then he got caught into all this sleeping around and he didn’t feel worthy of her. I told him clearly that if he does anything to hurt Clary, I will totally forget that he’s for all intents and purposes more than a brother to me and will kick his ass. Look, he needs to get to know Clary and he needs to decide who he is and quit this self destructing journey he’s been on. Then we’ll see what happens. If Clary wanted him the way she wants us, I would be open to it. I know it’s easier for me to say because I grew up with him and we shared cots and everything you can think of since we were babies but I promise you that he’s an amazing guy and he would bring so much happiness to Clary. And our girlfriend is no pushover: she told him if they want to be even friends, he better be nice to you. But Logan, give Joel a chance. You won’t be sorry.’
When we arrive back at camp, I have a lot on my mind but I put it all aside, excited about spending time with my beautiful girlfriend.
We find her sitting on her porch, laughing with Joel and Jemma. I don’t think I’ve ever seen Joel laugh the way he is right now: eyes bright and genuine smile. Clary brings that out in him and while the dude has really been nothing but rude to me, I vow to give him a chance to at least be friends with me.
We all go eat something together and then Xander goes in search of Austin, while Joel takes me aside.
‘Hey man, Jemma is spending the night in my cabin and Hazel agreed to share with Brie. So you guys have Clary’s room and won’t have any interruptions. Don’t worry about curfew, Xander and I got you. Just make sure you don’t leave Clary alone and to have the main door locked: we don’t know who attacked Leah and Clary got another one of those notes... So make sure you are by her side until morning and either I or Xander will meet you for breakfast.’
‘Thanks. It’s not like being with Clary is a chore. But I appreciate your help.’
We shake hands and I go near Clary who’s giggling with Jemma.
I take my girlfriend’s hand and we slowly walk to her cabin.
‘So, what do you feel like doing for our date?’
I ask her.
‘Hmm, I was thinking about finishing that movie, if we can stop for your iPad and if you have some gummy bears...’
She smiles.
‘I always have gummy bears...’
We stop by my room and when we go in we hear a squeal and see Brie and Brooklyn hurriedly separate: he is shirtless and she is covering herself in her bra and mini skirt.
Brooklyn is blushing, Brie gives me a smile:
‘I thought you’d be in our cabin?’
I tell her we are going while Clary is glowering at her, I will ask her later what this is all about.
Once we have all our supplies, we get to her cabin and sit on her porch to watch the movie outside and take advantage of the cool evening air.
At first, we sit next to each other on the porch swing, the iPad propped on a little table and we eat some gummy bears and laugh at the movie.
I let Clary have the last gummy bear and if this isn’t love you tell me what is.
‘My fingers are covered in sour sprinkling dust from the bottom of the bag’
She smiles looking at her fingers and I grab them.
‘You had the last candy but I’m going to enjoy the sour dust...’
I put one of her fingers in my mouth and lick the white granules off, sucking a bit on her finger at the end.
She squeals laughing.
‘Oh my god, Logan, that tickles!’
‘You are so ticklish, my gorgeous...’
I pull her onto my lap and she settles happily in my arms, her grey/green eyes full of mischief.
‘Let’s see if there’s any more candy dust anywhere else for me...’
I say zeroing in on her lips and taking a nibble on her luscious bottom lip, teasing it with my tongue at the same time.
She stops squirming and wraps her arms around my neck, deepening our kiss.
She smells like flowers and honey and I stroke her long beautiful auburn hair while I savour her kiss and the softness of her body against mine.
We jump in surprise when we hear a rustling noise from some of the bushes at the base of the porch and Clary gets up and drags me inside with her.
‘Maybe sitting outside wasn’t a great idea... Someone has been taking photos of us and I don’t know, maybe it’s better to go inside...’
We lock the main door behind us and walk into her room where she goes to draw all the blinds down.
‘One of the latest photos on those nasty notes was taken when I was in here...’
I go to her and hug her tight.
‘I think I should talk to the guys and see if we can try and find out who is following us. This is getting stupid.’
She sighs.
‘As long as you guys are careful. We don’t know who this is, it might be someone from outside camp... At least the attacks.’
‘Don’t worry, beautiful. As long as you are safe. Even if I can’t say that I am sorry about getting to sleep in your room to protect you...’
She rests her head on my chest and smiles.
‘That’s the only good thing...’
I kiss her again and while I know that I want so much more, I could happily settle for her kisses forever instead of anything else, if that would mean that I would have her love forever.
We sit on her bed, her arms around my neck and my hands on her hips while our lips are fused together and our kisses become hotter and all con
suming.
I guide her gently down until we are lying on the soft mattress and I am hovering over her, careful not to squash her.
I pause the kissing to take a good look at her and run my fingers along her jaw and neck.
‘I love you, Logan...’
She whispers and I place my lips on hers again, my hand searching for her skin under her silky top.
I trace her ribs slowly, my lips on her neck, nibbling and sucking at her gorgeous skin.
She’s breathing faster and her hands sneak under my t-shirt lifting it off me and over my head.
Her hands start massaging gently the muscles of my back leaving this tingling feeling behind that is starting travelling down my body.
I think she can feel how excited I am because she grinds into me causing a moan to escape my lips.
‘Is this Ok?’
I ask lifting the soft material of her top and she helps me take it off her and at the same time, she wiggles out of her denim skirt, revealing a bubble gum pink lace underwear set.
If I said that it’s the most gorgeous thing I have ever seen in my life, I wouldn’t give her justice: she’s just so sexy that I want to rip that underwear off and I don’t want to ever remove it at the same time.
‘Logan...?’
I think she wants to ask me to stop and I almost stop caressing her shoulders and neck when she surprises me:
‘Take your shorts off, please? There’s too many clothes between us.’
I don’t know what she wants to do, how far she wants to go: I know she has done way more with Xander but I don’t think that means that she has to do anything with me just because of that.
I don’t tell her that, she knows I would never demand anything so I just do what she asks and strip down to my black boxer briefs, my excitement now even more obvious.
I kiss the swell of her breasts, making her breathe faster, making myself go harder against her hip.
She grabs my ass and pushes me down against her for a blindingly delicious moment: this is the most daring she has ever been and I really like to see that fire in her, I love that I spark that in her.
‘Clary...’
I moan lifting her bra and covering one of her boobs with my hand, squeezing the soft but firm flesh gently.
‘Yes?’
She asks lifting one of her legs and wrapping it against my hip to give us more contact and making my breathing more laboured.
‘If... If you want to stop...’
She pushes me down, flipping us over and straddling my waist, her lips descend to kiss mine, her long wavy hair a red curtain secluding us from the rest of the world.
She takes her bra off, grabs one of my hands and places it on one of her beautiful boobs, her lips now increasing the pressure on mine, her tongue prying my lips open.
Her nipples are hard and so am I, I don’t think I’ve ever been more excited in my whole life.
My fingers play slowly with her nipples, she closes her eyes and tips her head back, enjoying my touch.
When she opens her eyes, we are staring at each other, both breathing hard, one of my hands travels behind her to cup her ass: it’s firm and beautiful, clad in pink lace.
‘I don’t want to stop, Logan. I want to take care of you tonight, please let me...’
I swallow looking at her: I know being so daring is costing her because she has blushed and that makes her look more innocent.
‘I... Of course I want to do whatever you wish, just know that it’s only if you want to, there’s nothing you “have” to do...’
One of her hands cups my cheek and she smiles softly, her eyes glowing.
‘I want to, Logan. If I had to simply follow my heart, there’s nothing I wouldn’t do with you but I am not in a rush, as long as there’s no more dead puppies. You are so handsome, Logan. Like a Norse god...’
She kisses me again, her boobs rubbing against my chest, the feeling of our skin touching almost too good to bear.
She breaks the kiss and tugs my underwear down and before I realise that I am completely naked in front of my Clary, she takes my length in her hand as if assessing me, her eyes dilated in surprise.
She gives me one slow stroke downwards and then she gets into a steady speed, slow at first and then picking up pace with my breathing rate.
Her hand feels so small wrapped around me but her touch is amazing, gentle and yet firm.
We are now facing each other lying down sideways while she touches me, her head near my shoulder, her hair tickling my chest.
‘Clary...’
I moan feeling the pressure becoming too much and knowing that I won’t last much longer.
She keeps touching me, her thumb teasing the soft skin right under the tip and that proves too good for me because I explode with a groan, looking in her green eyes and she doesn’t stop touching me until my breathing evens out.
She comes closer to me and hugs me, surrounding my waist with her arms when I realise that I made a little mess and got her pink underwear too.
I motion to leave the bed to get her cleaned up but she stops me.
‘I don’t care about getting cleaned up, I’m totally fine with your mess.’
And she hugs me tighter, kissing my lips slowly and softly.
‘Clary that was just...’
‘Don’t tease me please. I know I have a lot to learn, I am no match for the kind of girls you have been with before me...’
Now it’s my turn to be surprised, I had no idea she felt this way.
‘Clary, no. You don’t know what you are saying. If I didn’t know what you told me about this stuff being new to you, I would never suspect it is...’
‘Well, you will once you realise that you have just seen all that I know.’
‘Ok then, we will learn things about each other. Different people like different things and I don’t care about pleasing any other girl, I care about you.’
Saying that, I kiss her and feel her boobs against my chest again, god that never gets old. I start to get hard again but now I want to take care of her, I need to know that I can do that.
She kisses me with more abandon than before, clearly excited by what we just shared and I almost don’t think when I take her panties off.
Then I see that she got a Brazilian wax and it’s all gorgeously smooth, beautiful skin.
‘You are so beautiful that I almost can’t breath... Can I... I want to make you feel good...’
She hugs me tighter and whispers:
‘I’m yours, Logan...’
I start trailing kisses down her body, paying special attention to her boobs, my hands descending down to her thighs.
I hear her breathing faster and I stroke her centre softly with one of my fingers, my tongue following and licking her delicate skin.
I feel her becoming increasingly more wet and while I kiss her, I trail my finger around her opening.
I hear her hold her breath and I pause my kissing, saying with my lips still on her soft skin:
‘You are so wet, Clary...’
And she pants:
‘It’s what you do to me...’
Hearing her say that makes me so excited that I almost don’t think when one of my fingers enters her slowly but quite easily, helped by her slickness.
She gasps and I realise that I might have done something she wasn’t ready for, so I ask her if she’s ok.
‘I’m yours, Logan...
She pants and I slowly move my finger in and out of her, marvelling at how snug it feels in there while I keep teasing her sensitive skin with my tongue until I find that spot full of nerve endings and that makes her moan and ultimately scream as I feel her clenching around my finger.
When she stops moaning, I take my finger out and take her in my arms, enjoying having her so close to me, kissing her jaw and the spot under her ear.
‘What I did, Clary... I don’t know, I hope it didn’t hurt...’
She gives me a slow smile and strokes my chest lightly with her
hand.
‘No, it didn’t. It was strange at first, it’s difficult to explain: I’ve never had anything in there, I don’t even use tampons... I bought that special underwear... Anyway it felt... Great once I got used to the feeling.’
‘You know that if I ever do anything that doesn’t feel good or you don’t feel ready for, you have to tell me, right?’
‘I know, Logan. Can I tell you something?’
‘Anything, my love.’
‘That was one finger inside me and it felt so big, I felt so full... How will I ever have you inside there? You are big, Logan...’
‘I...I don’t...’
‘And please don’t get offended, I don’t know how much you and Xander talk about what happens with me behind closed doors but Xander isn’t smaller than you. You guys are big in different ways but I am not going to go into a detailed comparison here...’
I sigh, kissing her forehead.
‘Well, Xander is right that we have to go slowly and get you used to the feeling of what will eventually happen. How about we’ll get you used to one finger, maybe then try two... But it’s no rush, my love. We’ll make sure that you are taken care of and one day, we’ll be making love all night.’
‘I can’t wait for that. But I am worried about after camp... We certainly won’t be able to spend the whole night together...’
‘We’ll see each other a lot, Clary. Xander and I are planning for it... Do you trust us?’
‘You know I do.’
‘Then for now don’t worry too much about it and let’s enjoy the rest of the summer. I need to go shower though, I really did make a mess...’
She smirks.
‘You can only use my shower if I am invited...’
I laugh, my heart full of love for my beautiful girlfriend and my mind a bit calmer after I saw that I can give her the same bliss that Xander made her feel.’
‘You are always invited in my shower...’
***
Xander
When I return from town, I set out looking for Austin: I really need to sit down with the asshole and get him to stop upsetting Clary.
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