Helios

by Anja Fuerst

  - What's that on your arm? - he got scared. I looked at trying to identify the reason for your reaction. My wrists.

  - Ah! I hurt yesterday trying to get rid of the shackles - my lover ran a hand through his hair looking at me intently.

  - Why did not you wait for me? Melissa you think I would let her prey until when? For the love of God! Look what you did.

  - It's all right. All right - repeat still confused with so much information at the same time.

  - No, it's not.

  - Robert? - I called your attention. - Let me see my gift - he looked at my hand as if he had completely forgotten about the ring. - It's beautiful!

  - It does not change anything - spoke without paying attention to what I was saying.

  - You're right - I was overcome by a great sadness. - Do not change anything - my feelings were a mess. I spent the full happiness to depression.

  - No, honey. Do not think like that. I was not referring to that. I...

  - It's all right. Thanks for this - he sighed heavily.

  - I'll never get to be enough for you - I looked at him and realized that telling the truth.

  - I think that...

  - No - he spoke urgently taking in my hand being careful not to cause me pain. - Honey, we need to talk about something - I aware of what he was saying. Robert seemed to struggle against what they wanted to talk. His eyes fixed nothing. - Honey, yesterday I had a serious talk with Paul, or rather ... He had a conversation with me - paused, struggling to not reveal more than you would like.

  - Robert? - Interrupted him. - Would not it be easier to tell me at once all that really happens between you and Tanya? - His eyes widened.

  - I can not - his voice was almost a whisper.

  - Why not? - My head turned away and walked toward the glass wall.

  - Why not, honey. Please do not ask for it - took a deep breath containing my anger. It would not be that way I'd get something from him.

  - Just I think if you told me I would feel more secure about you.

  - Only my word is needed.

  - How do I know you're not kidding me? There were so many lovers. How will I know if I am no longer one in your life, Robert?

  - I just asked her to marry him.

  - You can not ask me to marry him because he is already married - snapped. He was silent just watching me. His eyes were serious. I knew I would not say anything. - And you did not ask me to marry him, he asked for forgiveness - tried to soften the tension between us. He smiled, but his smile did not reach his eyes. Robert was sad and it hurt me in a special way. - Will you tell me what is the problem between you and Paul?

  - I will. But before ... - he walked towards me and hugged me tightly holding me in his arms. - I'm dead to miss you.

  - How can you miss? Here with me - I played.

  - I am sexually dead miss you, Miss. Draw for me - I laughed in his arms.

  - Other problems, is not it? - I stroked his face and he leaned toward affection. Then I lay on my shoulder digging into my hair. I played with her, passing her confidence. Robert sighed heavily.

  - You do not even know about. I'm putting everything to lose. In almost three years I never thought that someday feel will back - smiles. I did not know if he was talking about me, of us or anything, but I wanted to embrace his words as if they were especially for me.

  - Can I help you in any way? - He narrowed further his arms around me.

  - I can not, and I ask you nothing, Melissa. It would be very selfish of me to - Robert left me making me feel abandoned. As if no one else was able to reach me.

  - Robert? - I called him feeling an immense void get hold of me. - Comes? - I raised my hand to him calling him back. He raised an eyebrow without understanding what I was wanting. - Come to my room. Make love to me and forget everything else - my lover smiled and his eyes twinkled. It was lovely to see him that way.

  - It will be a pleasure - advanced towards me taking me in his arms and led me back to the room.

  His lips were urgent and hands fought an intense recognition of our bodies. He lifted me off the ground and laid me on the bed joining me. Robert pulled my skirt, trying to reach my thighs as I struggled with his coat while trying to loosen his tie. We had not made great advances when the bell of my room rang. My boss protested with an angry moan.

  - I do not believe! - He said through gritted teeth. - This can only be a joke in very bad taste.

  I closed my eyes and tried to calm my body panted begging for more. Robert had managed to open a few buttons of my shirt using only the teeth that left me even more excited. I needed him. I needed sex and needed sex with him or it would explode in the middle of the meeting.

  - Do not stop, Robert. Whoever is out there will give up in a few minutes - almost forced him to continue, but again the clang us hurt.

  - It should be Adam Simpson. He knows that you have not left. Certainly he is standing guard at her door, the idiot.

  - Heaven! That's not fair - whimpered and Robert laughed at my reaction.

  - Not really - kissed my neck causing goose bumps on my skin.

  - If I do not have an orgasm in a few minutes my mind will explode - he moved making me realize his excitement. God, how I wanted! - This is serious - teased.

  - Very serious - he went down with the tongue between my breasts.

  - I'm going to fix this, Mr. Carter.

  - Please, Miss. Secretary fucking hot - spent the teeth on my skin and I groaned.

  Again the bell. What the fuck!

  - Enough, Mel! - Robert got out of bed in one leap. - Take that puppy from your door or I'll go there and end up with him.

  - That's what i do? - I hastened to sit in bed and recover my clothes.

  - I do not know. Invent anything. Tell me you're sick ... No. He will solve stay to look after you. Say ... Shit! Do not say anything. Go down with him.

  - What? - I was livid. - Do not want to go down with him. I want to stay and finish what we started. You want me crazy? - Almost I screamed in protest and Robert laughed.

  - We'll finish this, Mel. Go down with the dog and arrange an excuse to meet me at the front bathroom.

  - You got to be kidding - it was not.

  - No one will catch us. It is discreet and, moreover, people prefer the bathrooms of restaurants.

  - I can not do that - I was too cowardly to accept an adventure like this.

  - That or only at night. You choose - stared at him without being able to say anything. - In fifteen minutes. I'll be waiting.

  I ran to the door, but before leaving the canister removed the ring that Robert gave me and put on my finger. It was too beautiful to be forgotten. I opened the door and Adam was there. I felt like hitting him, but could not, so I forced a smile and left the room, closing the door.

  - Good morning, Adam! - I made sure to leave soon. - Go to breakfast? - I walked hurriedly toward the elevator.

  - Honey? Are you alright? - He looked at me carefully. - It's red and hurried. Some problem? - My face ruined everything always. I tried to smile, but I'm sure that only worsened things.

  - Just hungry - even suspicious Adam did not contest.

  We went down to the restaurant. I could spend ten minutes there. No plausible excuse crossed my mind to get rid of his presence in five minutes. I was shaking and sweating. The heat was hellish, even with the air-conditioned environment.

  Frank sat at the table and smiled as we approached. Where was Paul? Adam sat leaving the chair to his free hand to me. I wanted to roll his eyes and run away to the bathroom, but I had to keep up appearances.

  - Honey? Are you feeling good? - Frank also realized. Holy shit! Today was the day of "do Mel burn inside of desire by the head"? Why do not they leave me alone? I smiled politely.

  - I'm hungry.

  - Ah! - He seemed stunned. - You're a little pale - pale? Adam said it was red. Ah! Nevermind.

  I looked around looking for something to give me some idea and saw Paul coming. Beside him was a waiter
with a tray containing some glasses. That was it.

  Sitting waited until the waiter came to put something on the table and ... Beauty! Shot down two glasses of juice on me. I pretended to be frightened and Adam soon ran with a cloth napkin to help me, but Paul reached me first.

  He held my hand and lifted me to make sure everything was fine. I just noticed what he was doing when I needed my hand and realized he was still holding. Paul looked intently at my ring. When understood I also watched him, dumped me.

  - I think I need to go to the bathroom to clean this mess - I ran to the place that Robert had indicated me.

  Thank God none of them followed me. Robert had to tell Paul's reaction to seeing the ring. I went into the bathroom and no one was really aware of what I was doing. Soon I felt hands pulling me into a door and closed it quickly. I knew it was Robert. I could smell his cologne. The expectation overcame me and nothing else mattered.

  - Good Girl - spoke in my neck turning to him and lifting up my skirt. - Shhhhhhh! - He whispered in my lips. - We can not make noise - signaled that he understood and turned to kiss me.

  I was so excited I did not care if we forgot the clothes and we were straight to what mattered. Apparently Robert also because in seconds I felt him moving me. I bit my lips preventing a groan escaped. Heaven! It was so good felt it invading and filling me.

  - Honey! - Robert groaned controlling his voice not to be caught. I felt very teen dating the school bathroom. Of course at the time it was not exactly like that, but surely dreamed of doing.

  Robert picked up a bit his advances, I was soon in aliviaríamos finally. I forced myself to stop being just a spectator, because of the enormous need that had to satisfy me and started to participate. Rebolei feeling his hands holding my hips while keeping me suspended and attached to the wall.

  - Robert!

  My blood ran cold. Paul was in the bathroom calling by Robert and looked furious. Holy shit! I do not believe. Again? What was missing most happening?

  Robert looked at me in panic. Instinctively I went down my legs getting crouched over the toilet. Robert moved out of me. My whole body protested. Unfortunately it was necessary. It was that or we would be caught by Tanya's brother. I felt my heart almost exploding chest and my legs were shaking so much that I was afraid of them dismount. Robert motioned with his hand for me to be quiet. I nodded. Of course! I happened to be crazy to move a strand of my hair was a time like that?

  - Paul? - My boss said feigning surprise. - Some problem? - He indicated with his hand that would leave the cabin and that I should stay there until the time we could get out too.

  - Get out, you miserable - Robert took a deep breath and opened the door closing it immediately. What was I going? - You son of a bitch! - Paul cursed, but controlled voice. - What do you think you're doing?

  - Paul, what are you talking about? - My lover was trying to keep control.

  - From Melissa, your ordinary. Do not give me this ridiculous talk that there is nothing between you. His whole conversation yesterday, Robert - I was with the air trapped in the lungs. Paul knew. My God! I felt the tears forming.

  - Paul you do not know what you're talking about.

  - I saw the ring, Robert. You think I'm stupid? Do you think Tanya is stupid? What are you doing? This has gone too far. Tanya is my sister - shouted.

  - Paul is not what you're thinking. You do not know the truth.

  - I know enough to know that you are nothing but a scoundrel.

  - Paul - Robert shouted causing it to shut up. - You do not know anything. What I said yesterday is true. Me and Tanya are separating, so you can confirm with her, though I believe you go miserable my life for telling.

  - And because of that you think the right to bring your lover on this trip? You think you have the right to put your lover within our company? I am also a shareholder. Shit! Tanya is also. This is fair? I knew you were going through a difficult phase since ...

  - Do not talk - Robert interrupted him - I do not want to talk about this.

  - Hell, Robert - Paul exploded. - You've been punishing Tanya all these years for something that was not her fault, or anyone.

  - You do not know. What. It is. Happening. - Robert shouted punctuating the words. I shuddered.

  What was being said shook me deeply. Be exposed like that was destroying me inside. Something had happened in the past of Robert and Tanya had made him not want more. It was what caused their separation. But what?

  - The only thing that everyone knows is what they saw, but do not know everything. I do not know what really happened before or what is happening after all that misfortune. You'll never understand. It is too blind to realize it's all a big lie - Robert suffered and I suffered with him.

  - You lie your case with Melissa?

  -. It's not - admitted defeated voice. Holy shit!

  - I knew - Paul almost spat the words.

  - Paul - Robert breathed audibly. - It is time to talk - his voice was serious. He was knocking down a huge wall and I knew how much it hurt him. - But not here. Come on - he moved away from the door where I was. - Let's talk.

  I hear their increasingly distant steps and finally silence. I made a huge effort to force my legs to go down the toilet. I was shaking uncontrollably. My head and my stomach ached. I was so disoriented that needed several minutes to give me that was still in the men's room and needed to get out as quickly as possible.

  With slow steps opened the cabin and snuck out. Head down snuck into the ladies room that lay just ahead. I ran feeling my body turn gelatin. I used the sink for support to keep me upright.

  I took some water and wet my forehead then poured some on my neck. The heat was unbearable and my head would not stop hurting. Nothing seemed to make sense I could find strength or courage to leave. Dizziness was intense and one minute to the next, I could no longer distinguish what actually was and what was imagination.

  I heard Robert embittered talking about what happened in the past and Paul screaming that he was trying to punish Tanya. I was just punishing her? It was all a vengeance? And as the day got through so fast leaving everything dark?

  - Honey? - I heard Adam's voice far away. I kept in the dark. When the sun went away? - Honey, can you hear me? - I could not answer. My arms and legs decided not obey me.

  - What happened? - Frank was also there in the dark with me. Robert would not like any of it. - Right. Let's take it. Tell Robert - where they were going to take me?

  - I called several times and it does not answer the damn phone - Adam looked nervous. - She's very pale.

  - Robert! - I heard Frank speaking. He spoke with Robert. At where? - We have a problem. We are taking Melissa to the hospital - and the darkness took me completely by taking me instead of everything and everyone.

  CHAPTER 34

  The clarity of the room a little bothered my views, even still standing between dream and reality. The atmosphere was warm and I could feel the attempt to acclimate the place. I opened my eyes, the first thing I saw was a bouquet of flowers and a card with my name. Robert recognized the letter and also the return of formality between us. It was written "Miss. Simon ".

  I took a deep breath. It was the right thing to do.

  When I understand that by accepting my lover condition, would also need to accept the formality between us when we were in public. I raised my hand to pick up the card and noticed that my bracelets were no longer there, or the bandage. My wounds were exposed. I was embarrassed automatically.

  - Robert had to attend the meeting - Paul spoke from somewhere. My eyes wandered around the room making me understand that I was in a hospital or some place like that. - I made a commitment to stay with you until he gets back.

  Before I could see it my body reacted to information. What Paul would do to me? He knew everything. My heart raced and an annoying beep began to sound. I was connected to devices that monitored my body and denounced my despair.

  - Calm down, honey. Are you feeling anything? Shall I call
the doctor?

  - I ... - I bit my lips and a tear ran down my face.

  I could not avoid the shame of being so exposed. At that time I preferred that Adam was there instead Paul. He walked to the side of my bed and picked up the Robert card handing me for me to read.

  - He left you - picked up the card, even against my will, and began to read.

  "MS. Simon esteem improvement. Unfortunately I can not track your progress this afternoon, but I will be present at the appropriate time. Paul is in charge of making the necessary to your well being.

  Att.

  Robert Carter "

  I did not expect anything other than written. Robert would not let anyone else find out about us, but I trust Paul was strange. Only ... My heart was once again accelerated, this time I was not embarrassed. Paul was there to make sure that nothing would happen. Could only be.

  He certainly demanded Robert, who, for fear of being handed over to Tanya, agreed to let me. I let my tears fall with more intensity. I should be prepared for that, but was not.

  - Honey! Why are you crying? You must tell me what you're feeling - Paul looked worried, however, there was no anger or accusation in his voice. He looked so embarrassed as I was. What was happening?

  - I'm scared - I managed to say. - What happened? - He seemed more relaxed and scratched his eyebrow recapping the events.

  - I do not know. How do you know ... - was even more bland. And me too. He knew I was in the bathroom. - I left the hotel to talk to Robert. We received a call from Frank, saying he was bringing you to the hospital. Robert went crazy ... - Paul paused reliving his memories and managed to calm down a bit my heart. - We arrived just after you. Apparently you had a nervous breakdown, something related to the absurd heat you're doing. Robert think you're stressed - smirked as my boss did. I definitely do not understand anything.

  - You do not ... - deep breath taking courage to speak. - You're not annoyed by ...

  - Very - he responded promptly, while I conclude the question, but his words did not show his irritation. - But now I know the truth ... I can not charge anything for Robert, and even being so complicated until you ... Understand it - Paul walked over to a small window that was close to the bed and watched the scenery there out. - I had no idea what was going on. I ... Tanya's my sister. I can not just agree, but due to circumstances ... Robert hopes to resolve soon. Honestly, I do not think much of it. Tanya ... I do not know what to say.