Helios

by Anja Fuerst

  He looked back at me and leaned against the window frame to keep talking.

  - Tanya has always been very spoiled. She believes she can have anything you want, including the world and that's why I do not believe my sister accepted the end of their marriage. She's ... It's all so difficult. I do not understand, honey. I know you're in love, but ... He let the air choked with his own memories.

  - But? - I realized he was not much to keep talking, still could not avoid the question. Paul seemed reluctant, however he continued.

  - Honey, it's all very complicated. Robert and Tanya entered a dangerous game that's been going on too. From what I know of my sister and from what I heard from Robert, will not end anytime soon. In fact ... - he looked at me speculative. - I do not believe that one day come to an end. - Another look insecure. - What do you expect? I mean ... Robert might not be what you want, and there are so many other guys crazy to be what you need, why just him? Not on his mind that this may never end? - My eyes and jumped again denounced the beep me. - Calm down, for God's sake!

  -. Since I think about it every day - revealed not caring at how my body reacted to that conversation.

  I closed my eyes and let me lead. Paul was not charging me anything, but I was his sister's husband's lover and even not having to talk about it, I felt compelled to do so.

  - You may not believe, but the truth is that I never imagined myself living a situation like this. If you asked me that three months ago I would say with all pride, something like this would never happen. And it would have never happened if Robert had not come into my life and forced entry at all costs. I can not blame him. I wanted from the first moment I saw him. It was stronger than my principles. Still is. I mean, not that I can not, I can not stand so many secrets and so many fears, however, he just look at me, for all my confusion disappears. I'm stuck in it and can not find a way out.

  - I do not want to leave - Robert's voice filled the whole environment as well as their presence.

  My boss could be imposed even when it was not what he wanted. I opened my eyes and I saw him standing at the door. Only then I realized that my tears kept falling. He looked at me carefully looking shaken by what I had said. But from that point heard? Since when I was there?

  - Robert - Paul stiffened with arms crossed at chest height. Typical military position. It was so his face.

  - Paul - greeted the friend without breaking our gaze. - Honey. How are you feeling? - Was affectionate without bothering with the presence of Paul.

  - Well - he said sheepishly. - I am fine.

  - Great! I found your doctor in the hallway - approached. - Looks like you'll get high. He has asked the nurse to remove the whey - only then noticed the needle stuck my hand. Damn it! I hate needles. - I'll take you back to the hotel - touched lightly on my fingers. - Excuse me! - She murmured.

  My heart raced and my mouth went dry. Robert had never shown such weakness. Or his expression was only the reflection of a tough day? He was tired, I knew, and part of that fatigue was attributed to me. I felt the strong beats in my chest. I looked at Paul, still a little insecure.

  - I think I'll wait for them at the reception - Paul has said leaving the room. Robert looked at him and grinned.

  - Whereby? - I asked as soon as Paul came out.

  - Why not have been with you. I did not want to call the attention of Adam and Frank and also could not not attend the meeting today. But I called several times - his eyes assessed me all the time.

  - All right - I was cold.

  I understood that he could not stay, but did not understand many things, and he refused to tell me. Everything was even more confused. Paul knew and agreed. Robert was punishing Tanya and I had no idea what was my role in that story. In fact, I could swear that I was the punishment. Oh, shit!

  - I'll take you to the hotel and take care of you the rest of the day - his gaze was hot and I made a huge effort to pull away from him.

  - It's all right.

  We left the hospital with the sun still present. Robert did not touch me, but stood by my side all the time, like I could fall at any time and he needed to be around to save me. What he did not know was that I needed to be saved in another way. Exactly what he refused to do.

  I got to my room and Adam already waiting for me, almost rolled my eyes, but my educated side prevailed.

  - Honey! Wow! You look better - even smiled a little apprehensive.

  - Thank you, Adam.

  - Can I do anything for you?

  - May - Robert intruded. I rolled my eyes, it was stronger than me. - Let her rest. Miss. Simon went through a tricky time, must rest. Let her go and do it.

  - But she can not be alone - Adam said quickly already positioning themselves to join us. - And if it falls again and have no one to help her?

  - It will not happen - I rushed to respond with fear of a major conflict. - I'm fine and, as Mr. Carter spoke, I just need to rest a little. You can be carefree - I smiled politely.

  I walked toward the door and went, knowing that soon Robert would be there. I went to the room and locked myself in the bathroom. I wanted time alone to think. I could not live under that pressure. My body was already showing signs that would not support.

  I turned on the shower and almost threw me in it. The cold water was very welcome. I let this take all my tiredness and revigorasse me. I needed to be strong to face it and get it out of my life. But how? Robert was locked on me. I had mastered not only my body but my mind and even my soul.

  He had placed the ring on my finger when I got back my stuff before leaving the hospital, but to me, it meant nothing. Paul said that the game was far from over. I needed to know more. No more could let him continue using me as punishment and revenge for his sordid history with his wife.

  I leaned my forehead against the cool tile. It hurt me the idea of having to leave it. When did I let myself get so deep? Why not have avoided that Robert dominate me? God, why did I fall in love with the only person who could not?

  When my skin was quite fresh, and my thoughts had already punished me enough, I decided to leave the bathroom. As expected, Robert was already in my room. In my bed. Waiting for me. Heaven! He was even too beautiful to be ignored. I nodded expelling improper thoughts.

  - Honey - gave me quizzical look. One that warmed me from the inside out.

  - Robert - tried to keep me impassive, but my legs were already wobbly.

  - Go stand there? - He raised an eyebrow and tilted his head slightly to the side in a fun way. - Do not go to bed? I understand the doctor told him to rest - his smile made it clear what it really meant. I needed to be able to keep him away.

  - In fact, I think I'll order something to eat. I'm hungry.

  I left the room without waiting for her reaction. I was actually running away. I came to the room and picked up the phone. Robert was right behind. He took the phone from my hand.

  - I have arranged - put the phone on the base.

  I looked into the dining room and actually had food on the table. It took me so long? I turned to look at him and then realized that Robert had showered. He wore jeans, basic shirt, white, wet hair was disheveled and he was barefoot. As the will. So beautiful! Oh damn!

  - Will you tell me what's going on? - I looked at my hands without courage to face him.

  - I'm hungry - I went to the dining room.

  Robert asked a soup and appearance was wonderful. I poured a little and sat avoiding his eyes. He waited while I fed without touching the food. He was silent, I also and the silence between us was embarrassing.

  When I'm tired of pretending I put the spoon next to the plate and stared at the napkin in my lap. Robert sighed heavily and then put his elbows on the table holding his chin in his hands.

  - Honey, what's happening? For the first time since we got to Dubai, we got time for both of us, with the certainty that no one will hinder us, and you run away from me? - Okay! It was time.

  - I had a nervous breakdown - he nodded and continued watchin
g me. - Robert, I can not continue - let once. It was the best thing to do. - I do not know what's going on between you and Tanya. I do not know what their reasons, but I know that ignoring is not doing me good. My body is beginning to take the pressure that I have been suffering and have no more able to continue in the eye of this hurricane - Robert listened to me attentively. All my courage was fading away and soon I was mumbling. - Anyway, it's what I have to say.

  - It is? You're giving up? - He asked quietly. His coolness amazed me. - What you need? - He looked very tired. I did not know what to say. - Tell me? What you need, Melissa?

  - I need you to solve your situation with Tanya. Put an end to their history or else let's put an end to our.

  My words came out weak. Robert got up from the table, visibly nervous and walked toward the other room. I did not dare to follow him. I sat there, looking at my bowl of soup. He returned carrying with him a glass of whiskey. I was quite changed, but struggled visibly to be able to remain calm.

  - Melissa, we've talked about this several times. I think it is the appropriate time to begin a conversation like this. Like you said, had a nervous breakdown, I do not feel guilty for another - a deep breath. - I have already explained that there is a lot of dirt in this story and do not want to wrap it.

  - But Paul wanted to get involved? - Robert buried his face in his hands.

  - I was forced to engage Paul. I do not want anyone else knowing the things I know, and now he also knows. I swore I would take with me to the grave, but had no choice, or I would tell Paul, or ...

  - You lose your According to Tanya. It is not? - Robert looked at me startled. - Not what you would say? I got tired - got angry.

  I went toward the other room, but Robert grabbed me before I could pass him holding me on her lap while I struggled. I felt so angry. He was just a big liar and I was just a tool he used to punish Tanya

  - Calm, Honey! You can not be angry - spoke loud enough to scare me.

  - I do not want Robert - let the words escapulirem angry, letting my tears fall.

  - I have to give you up. That's what she would say.

  Holy shit! I stopped to debate me, panting in his arms. Robert was frightened, but not as much as me.

  - Stop this nonsense, Honey. I'm crazy for you.

  One hand was on my neck, holding my head, the other held my arm before pushing him away and who was paralyzed after the revelation. His mouth was very close to mine.

  - I'm crazy about you, Honey. I'm crazy to miss - his hand left my arm and went caressing me with intensity. The hand was on my neck pulled me closer. I was fully involved and could not stand. I had to keep him away.

  - No, Robert - I did nothing to disentangle myself. My body did not obey me. Damn it!

  - Because? - He rubbed his nose in my neck. Shit! I could not let it distract me. Not while I was trying to finish everything between us. - I want you love.

  I felt my muscles turned to jelly. Oh shit! He could not let it overwhelm me. Her lips tightened on my skin and tongue lightly touched my neck. Gemi. During those days all begged for moments like we were living. How to prevent from happening?

  - Robert ...

  - Honey ...

  He moaned my name and almost gave up fighting, however, was much more than important to make clear what I felt and what were my needs in that troubled relationship. I could not stand not knowing the truth, or feel the way I felt so insecure and distrustful.

  Robert rose from his chair and carried me on his lap. I was confused.

  - What are you doing? - My head was spinning and I desperately looked for something to help me stop it.

  - I'm taking you to my bed - he had already reached the door that separated our rooms. - It's bigger than yours.

  Continued course, as if there had been no conflict between us. A large part of my brain reasoned on this information, showing me in gigantic graphics, everything we could do on a bed that size. However there was still a small portion of my mind working madly to keep me firm in my purpose. Robert could not convince me to stay with him just because sex between us was more than pleasurable. It was simply the best. Magnificent. I had to force myself.

  "But he said he wants to marry you" a part of my mind screamed for me to set me free and let that finally the pleasure to dominate me.

  "To say that is crazy about you is not the same as saying he will leave his wife," the other party tried to keep me focused. I felt between the angel and the devil, confused by the battle of the two to help me decide. Needed to breathe. Needed space.

  Robert lay in bed and quickly opened my robe leaving me only panties. I saw their hungry eyes and warm me evaluated and, once again, the war between my angel and my devil escalated. "You also want, honey. How many times in the last days you begged for an orgasm? Let it happen. He's the one you want. "

  I closed my eyes feeling his lips again on my skin between my breasts. "Do not let it overwhelm her in this way. Robert will never appreciate it. Every time he wins, Honey. Is that what you want? Just be a doll in his hands to do whatever he wants? "My heart was pounding.

  No. I did not. I wanted more, and Robert would never give me.

  - No - my voice came out strong enough to stop him.

  Robert looked at me surprised at my reaction, took a deep breath and rolled off me, but kept looking in my eyes. He looked confused and above all angry.

  - You do not want? - Serious and continued for a fraction of a second, I was tempted to go back. It was logical that I wanted. Crazily. And wanted madly not want.

  - No - instantly regretted. But Robert had reacted to my words.

  - All right, Melissa - up from the bed showing impatience with the situation. It was cold and very close to what it was before, when it was just Miss. Simon and Mr. Carter. - We've talked about this issue, and frankly, I'm tired of trying to convince her. I did everything that was needed and promised to I could not. I will not fight against you or against their will. We do not need another nervous breakdown - walked over to his closet and came back with a shirt in his hand. - Thomas - handed me. - Rest a little. I need to analyze the contracts. With all this confusion was unable to focus right in the meetings and had to rely on the decisions of Adam and Frank. - Robert walked to the door of the room and without looking at me said: - I'll be in the next room. Anything just call me - and left.

  I can not describe exactly what I felt at his words. I was sad, very sad, after all, Robert was making it clear that he had grown tired of me and my internal struggles against what we lived. But sadness could not overcome the other feelings that affected me at the time.

  It should not, but he had been mortally wounded with his quick acceptance to my refusal. Inwardly I accustomed myself to obey him and to yield to their wishes and it always bothered me. When he finally accepts my decision to revolt by their was mistreating me. There was also a huge anger for him I have passed through so many things and then take that shaped posture.

  No. It would not be that easy, Mr. Carter. Not without hearing all I have to say. I put on the shirt he had left. It was great and hide my nakedness. Got out of bed with all the words choking me, dying to tell you some truths, but at the time it was leaving the room, my eyes caught sight of something and a whole plan was made in my head.

  I walked in silence in the room where Robert was. He did not notice my presence, or pretended not to notice. I evaluated what he could do. My boss kept his eyes down looking at the papers. I was totally in the CEO, so sitting in a perfect chair for your office and more than perfect for my plans. Before proceeding forward unbuttoned a few buttons of his shirt I wore, giving you a broad view of the area between my breasts to my navel.

  Left side of the small box that Robert forgotten in the corner of the room the night before after taking the necessary for my plan. I went back to walk toward her. That's when he showed notice my presence. He looked at me without reaction, but I could see in his eyes that the desire was still there. Great!

  - Robert ...

 
I pronounced his name with innocence. I wanted to show repentance. My lover gave a small smile and his eyes showed what he felt. He enjoyed his victory over me. That was the way found to make me give in again, only took advantage of my feelings for him, making me fear losing it, to be able to keep me at his side. Little fool! This finding only fueled my anger.

  - Honey - spoke almost formally, just to respond to my call.

  As I imagined, my boss did not move. His attitude was really someone who had all the cards in their hands. Slowly walked over to him. I kept my eyes downcast afraid to deliver what they intended to do. I bit my lower lip so that he thought he was uncertain. Robert followed my footsteps.

  As a good girl sorry, I sat on his lap and viewed the extra glint in his eyes. A light and winning smile formed on her lips. He remained in the same position, with arms extended to the rest of the chair. Each arm in place, without touching me. I looked at him and without breaking our eye contact, approached me as much as possible seeking her lips. He did not flinch. And it was at this very moment, I acted.

  In each hand I carried a handcuff, perfectly positioned at the time I saw him sing his victory, caught each one of his wrists, pinning him to the chair. My lover walked away looking at me scared.

  - Melissa, what are you doing? - He had not yet understood. Robert looked at her hands and forced them, but remained a prisoner. - Stop it, Melissa, release me - said visibly nervous.

  - Because? I always thought you loved this toy - smiled at him without fear and kissed the corner of his lips.

  - Melissa! - He warned, but I soon realized I was giving. - What you want? - He closed his eyes as I gave her a lot of kisses down his neck.