Forever & an Engine (The Austin Series)

by C. J. Fallowfield

  ‘Have you seriously been cleaning the seats all this time? I’ve packed three bags and an outfit for the morning and put some washing in.’

  ‘Not all this time no, I had to go and get some bits.’

  ‘What?’

  ‘Mia, it’d be nice if I could actually continue this chat in person, instead of over the intercom please.’

  ‘Sorry, come on up.’ I pressed the buzzer and watched him come up the stairs with two carrier bags.

  ‘What did you buy?’

  ‘Some food to cook with and a treat for you.’

  ‘Sounds intriguing.’

  He made it to the landing and put his arm around me and kissed me and we headed into the kitchen and he emptied out an M&S bag and put the other in the fridge and smiled at me. I heard the front door go and went out to meet Lexi.

  ‘Hey,’ I said sheepishly.

  ‘Don’t you hey me. Fucking hell, what’s going on with you?’

  ‘I had a moment.’

  ‘You seem to be having a lot of those since you met him. Are you ok?’

  ‘I’m fine now. I just got upset about his past, but we’ve talked it out. He’s in the kitchen before you make any more comments.’

  ‘I need to show you something,’ she whispered.

  ‘What? Why are you whispering?’

  ‘So subtle,’ she said shaking her head. She grabbed my hand and took me to the lounge and shut the door.

  ‘Lex, what’s going on?’

  ‘You haven’t seen it then?’

  ‘Seen what?’

  ‘The You Tube clip of you.’

  ‘O no. Seriously? How could they film it? We were in a locked toilet cubicle. O shit he’s only just calmed down, he’s going to go mental,’ I groaned.

  ‘Toilet cubicle?’

  ‘Yes. I thought it was bad enough I was going to be known as the girl who fainted on day one, but a sex tape?’

  ‘It was you fucking in the toilets?’ she exclaimed.

  ‘Why are you asking me that if you’ve seen it?’ I asked confused.

  ‘I haven’t seen that. The girls who sit behind us in English were giggling about someone having crazy noisy sex in the bathroom. Seriously that was you?’

  ‘Yes,’ I giggled. ‘But if that wasn’t what you were talking about what did you need to show me?’

  ‘This.’ She pulled her phone out and fiddled with it and held it out as she pressed play. I watched and covered my mouth, horrified. It was a clip of me up on the podium at Fazeleys, I looked like a stripper, bending over in my tiny skirt shaking my arse and breasts at everyone.

  ‘O shit Lexi how did that get on there?’

  ‘Someone at the club must’ve filmed it, posted it and spread the word round campus. Milo tipped me off, you’re getting loads of comments look.’ She passed me the phone and I scrolled down to read things like “Bodacious arse”, “I’d like to smack that”, “I’d hit that.” I shut it down after seeing a comment involved bodily fluids.

  ‘Shit Lexi, Gabe will freak.’

  ‘Gabe will freak at what?’ came his voice. I turned to see he’d opened the door and was standing watching us.

  ‘Gabe do you have to sneak up like that?’ I snapped.

  ‘What will I freak at?’

  ‘I’m going to my room, I’ve a date to get ready for,’ said Lexi making a hasty beeline for the door.

  ‘Lexi really? You’re going?’ I asked.

  ‘Yes, try and keep calm about it.’ She sighed as I screamed and starting jumping up and down clapping.

  ‘O Lex I’m soooo pleased.’

  ‘This is your idea of keeping calm?’

  ‘I’m excited, what are you doing?’

  ‘He’s ditching swimming and picking me up at seven and we’re going for a meal. Don’t shit stir, either of you,’ she pointed a warning finger at each of us.

  ‘No shit stirring promise but this is momentous Lex, this is the first proper date you’ve ever been on. Do you need a hand getting ready?’

  ‘No I’ll be fine, besides you should be spending time with Gabe.’

  ‘I don’t mind Lexi, Mia can come and help you.’

  ‘No honestly, she’ll make me edgy and you’re edgy already worrying about her, then she’ll get edgy that you’re on edge and suddenly it’s an edgefest and she needs to stay calm for tomorrow, so I’m handing her over to you until the morning Gabe.’

  ‘What do you mean I’ll make you edgy?’

  ‘Please, look at you, you’re way too excited about this and I don’t need the added pressure. I love you and all but I’d rather get ready on my own and you need to go and chill out, you have a big day tomorrow. I’ll be up at seven to come with you in the morning.’

  ‘Ok,’ I sighed as I went to give her a hug. ‘I’m so pleased for you. Come and show me your outfit before you go and you don’t need to get up in the morning, you still look pale and tired, I can say goodbye tonight.’

  ‘What and leave me sitting here alone all day worrying about you? No way. I’m coming to the hospital to sit with my best friend.’ She hugged me back tightly and Gabe moved out of the way to let her out of the room.

  ‘Gabe isn’t that great they have a proper date?’

  ‘Awesome,’ he replied with a hint of sarcasm. ‘What will I freak about?’

  ‘It doesn’t matter, let’s go and cook, I’m starving, I’ve only had a banana all day.’ I went to head to the kitchen and he blocked the door with his arm.

  ‘Mia after earlier I thought you’d learned that talking to me was a good idea.’

  ‘Shit. You’re going to be mad, again, and my vagina can’t take another punishment fuck,’ I groaned.

  ‘What is it?’

  ‘I need my phone to show you something on the internet,’ I sighed.

  ‘Your You Tube clip? It’s doing pretty well,’ he nodded. I was surprised to detect an element of pride in his voice.

  ‘You knew? Since when?’ I exclaimed.

  ‘Last night, Doug let me know.’

  ‘And you’re not mad?’

  ‘What’s the point me being mad. We discussed how unhappy I was with you going out like that, it’s done and dusted, plus the guys at Uni are loving you. So when I walk into lectures and they say “Hey Gabe, you seen that hot girl shaking her arse on You Tube?” I can piss them off by saying yes actually, that’s my girlfriend.’

  ‘You drive me insane Gabe,’ I sighed. ‘You got mad at me for going out in an outfit that lots of other girls were wearing, but then fuck me senseless because you love me in it so much. You say you don’t want other guys looking at me on our first date, but then you’re happy I’m on You Tube looking like some … some … hooker. I just don’t get it.’

  ‘I was insecure about us when we started dating. I’ve been feeling a bit better since you told me you loved me, then with our weekend together you can’t get enough of me, so I guess because I feel more secure I’m ok for guys to look at you now. It turns me on to know that they want something that’s mine.’

  ‘I’m not your possession Gabe,’ I frowned with my hands on my hips, slightly offended. ‘You’re really that confident? You don’t think I’ll go off with one of these guys who are supposedly lusting after me, when say we’ve had a fight?’

  ‘Of course I’m that confident. Us fucking is as good as it gets and you already know it. Why would you need to go elsewhere?’ he stated folding his arms across his chest and raising an eyebrow.

  ‘Wow there’s the cocky arrogant guy who chased me for days. I wondered where he’d gone. Besides how do I know it’s as good as I’ll get? Huh? I’ve nothing to compare it to. Maybe I should try fucking a few more guys so I have something to benchmark you against.’

  He looked at me horrified. ‘You’d never?’

  ‘No of course not Gabe, I’m teasing you. I’m extremely satisfied with your performance, though I’m still in shock that you’re so cool about this.’

  He pulled me to him and put his arms ar
ound my waist. ‘They have videos Mia, but I’ve got the real thing. They’ll be wanking watching you on there, while I’ll have my cock inside you.’

  ‘Wow, you’ve just romanced me off my feet Gabe Austin.’

  ‘I aim to please’ he smiled, as he leaned into kiss me. ‘So, will I get a private dance once day?’

  ‘Most definitely,’ I said between kisses and was surprised when he pulled his face away and held my head steady as he studied me, with a serious look on his face.

  ‘Don’t ever cheat on me Mia, I don’t think I’d survive knowing someone else had touched you.’

  ‘Gabe, like you said why would I need to? I love you and sex with you is … indescribable. I don’t need anyone else. That rule works both ways though, don’t ever do that to me either.’

  ‘Never baby.’ He held me close to him as he kissed me softly then sighed happily. We headed back to the kitchen and he stood behind me at the worktop his arms around me as he chopped and diced and made me copy him. Every now and then he’d nose my hair or kiss it, making my hairs stand on end. You’d never have known we’d been fighting just a few hours ago. I loved that we could fight and then make up quickly without holding grudges. We heated up some oil in the wok and threw in strips of turkey, baby sweetcorn, water chestnuts, beansprouts, fresh ginger, chilli and garlic and poured in some Shoaxing cooking wine and some fresh noodles and before long we were tucking into some delicious bowls of spicy stir fry in the lounge with a chilled glass of pinot.

  ‘Wow that smells good,’ said Lexi as she came in.

  ‘Lexi. You look amazing.’

  ‘Wow Lexi, I’m impressed, you look fantastic,’ agreed Gabe.

  She was wearing a long sleeved black bodycon dress with low cut back, not quite as low as mine, but low enough. She had on patterned tights and a pair of patent black riding boots and her bright red hair was offset with smoky grey and black eyes and a lip gloss. She’d even put in earrings instead of spears and a stud in place of her nose ring. Her figure was modelesque, she really did look good.

  ‘Thank you both, well I’m going to wait downstairs. See you two at 7 a.m.’

  ‘Don’t do anything I wouldn’t,’ I called as she walked out.

  ‘Well absolutely nothing’s off limits then is it?’ she called back as she closed the door behind her. Gabe got up and insisted I lie on the sofa while he cleared up and returned with two slices of the most delicious key lime pie and two glasses of water. He lay on the sofa at a right angle to me and put his head in my lap as we watched TV and I stroked his hair.

  He disappeared at eight and I heard the bath running and could smell my relaxation bubble bath. A short while later he appeared in the nude sporting a fresh erection that made my clit pulse and took me into the bathroom, slowly and carefully undressed me examining every inch of my bare skin as he did with his eyes and fingers, making me blush and I felt myself getting wet. He climbed into the bath and helped me in and we sat down facing each other again and he started massaging my ankles.

  ‘You seem to like baths,’ I observed as I enjoyed his touch and the warmth of the water caressing the back of my neck.

  ‘Always been more of a shower man until I met you and realised that baths came with bonuses.’

  ‘What bonuses are those?’

  ‘Ones like these,’ he shuffled up closer to me, pulling me so my hips were between his thighs and my feet were behind him. ‘I can kiss you,’ he whispered, as he did just that, his tongue rolling around mine slowly and sensuously.

  ‘Hmmm, very nice, but you can do that in the shower too. What else can you do?’ I sighed as he pulled his head back, leaving my head all tingly.

  ‘I can put body wash in my hands and stroke your soft skin.’ He did each individual finger, then hand and worked his way up my arms to my shoulders before moving onto my back, stomach and then each breast making me softly moan as my skin came to life under his hands.

  ‘Still no different to the shower. Can you do anything else?’ I asked, getting more relaxed and excited by the minute.

  ‘I can clean between your legs, as I understand you were very naughty, twice, this afternoon.’

  ‘Well I don’t care that you could do that in the shower anymore. Yes I was incredibly naughty and got very dirty, three times so far today in fact. I think I need a full deluxe valet please,’ I asked as I put my arms around his neck.

  ‘Interior or Exterior?’

  ‘I think I’m in need of both, I don’t think you understand just how dirty I got.’

  ‘Very well I’m sure I can accommodate you,’ he smiled with a wink.

  ‘How much will it cost me?’

  ‘£50.00 Miss Page.’

  ‘O no, Mr Austin I’m so sorry, but I’ve no cash or cards on me. Do you accept any alternative method of payment?’

  ‘I think we can come to a mutually beneficial arrangement in lieu of payment Miss Page,’ he replied as he kissed me again and very gently slid two fingers inside me and turned them, making me sigh his name. ‘Too sore?’ he asked.

  ‘Not if you go gently,’ I moaned. He made me lie back as he climbed over me and propped himself up with his hand on the headrest next to my head, his thumb stroking my hair. He continued to work his other fingers inside me and leant down to kiss me. He was so slow and tender in comparison to the last three times we’d sex it was hard to believe it was the same guy, until I looked at his body, his face and those eyes. Those eyes that could burn right through me and make me spontaneously combust, or even come, as I did before he removed his fingers and slowly sank himself into me groaning with pleasure.

  He gently nibbled my neck as I stroked the back of his in his favourite spot. As he moved inside me, the rhythm of our hips, created a continuous wave in the water and it sloshed back and forth spilling over the sides onto the floor. I pushed my head back and closed my eyes and groaned. His long slow delicious strokes had me quivering on the edge of an orgasm, but not quite riding over the top. It was a long slow build up and I was squeaking and squealing in pleasure as caressed me inside and out.

  ‘Mia I want to see you, I want you to see me. Look into my eyes baby.’ I had to force myself to look at him and keep my eyes at least partly open, I just wanted to lie back and give into it. It also scared me when I looked into them, he looked at me like I was this unflawed beautiful creature that he couldn’t get enough of. I was still so frightened of not continuing to live up to his ideals, or worse still, of somehow letting him down one day.

  ‘Gabe please,’ I groaned. ‘Let me close them, please let me close them.’

  ‘Why?’

  ‘It’s too much, the way you look at me.’

  ‘How do I look at you?’ he panted, as he started to build up his pace and circled his hips and mine rose up and followed his lead.

  ‘Like I’m everything … to you ... O god ... please.’ I could feel my body prepared to climax again, the pull in of my stomach muscles, my breathing and the flush of my cheeks.

  ‘You are Mia … keep looking at me … you’re my everything, I love you baby,’ he groaned. He knew I was close, he could read my body so well, he always made sure we were in perfect timing.

  ‘Gabe.’ I gripped his forearms tightly. ‘Please, please … please,’ I cried out as my body arched up and my eyes started to close.

  ‘Keep them open Mia,’ he ordered. As my body started to judder I was hit again and again by waves of orgasm and I focussed all my attention on his eyes. I felt the tears welling up in my own as I looked and I saw again how deep his feelings for me ran. I knew he loved me, but I could also see his adoration, his passion, his need for me and I felt undeserving.

  ‘Miaaaa, I love you,’ he whispered again as he filled me with his seemingly never ending ejaculation and fell down into my arms. I sobbed into his neck and he kept repeating it over and over until my body slowed down and I stopped crying, my arms wrapped tightly around his neck. I slowly let go and grasped his hair and as he pulled his head up to look at m
e, I kissed him again and again between my tears. He sat back on his heels watching me as I sat up and rubbed my eyes.

  ‘What’s wrong Mia? You seem sad, was that not good for you?’ he said as he delicately ran his finger down my cheek.

  ‘It was wonderful, it’s always wonderful. You’re so amazing Gabe and I love you so much it hurts, but I’m still scared.’

  ‘Scared of what?’

  ‘That what you feel for me has an expiration date,’ I whispered.

  ‘Mia, how could you say that?’ He looked slightly hurt, which wasn’t my intention.

  ‘I’m so young, inexperienced and immature.’

  ‘And you see me as what? Old, experienced and mature? Are you confusing me with my dad again?’ he said with a smile.

  ‘Gabe, I’m trying to be serious. You keep accusing me of bailing and not talking to you and I’m trying to tell you how I feel.’

  ‘I’m sorry baby.’

  ‘I’m scared I’m not good enough for you and you’re going to wake up one morning and realise you could do better and leave me.’ He took my hands, kissed them and tilted my chin back up to look at him.

  ‘I told you Mia, I love you. I’ve no intention of ever letting you go, you’re my forever. You don’t think I’m scared that you’ll feel the same and leave me?’

  ‘You feel scared? But you’re always seem so confident, all the time.’

  ‘I am with everything but you Mia. I feel like my world unravels when I’m around you. It’s like I’m surrounded by darkness, you’re all I can see.’

  ‘See you’re so romantic you always know the right things to say, know the right things to do. How do I make it clear to you what you mean to me?’

  ‘Just be yourself Mia, I don’t need anything else. To see you smiling and laughing when you’re with me, your face when I make you come, even just letting me hold you when you sleep or cry. That tells me how you feel about me, but when you say I love you …’ he shook his head. ‘I never feel so happy as when you tell me you love me.’

  ‘But I love you doesn’t seem enough. People say it all the time and sometimes they don’t even mean it. I’d like to find some other way to express how I feel and I don’t know how to.’ I felt so frustrated at not being able to articulate my feelings for him.