“There is no other woman baby girl. I haven’t had sex with you because I want you to get tested first.” The look on her face hurt my heart. She was devastated. Jumping off the couch, she started screaming at my ass.
“What the fuck do you mean you want to have me tested? You think I’m dirty? Nigga I don’t know who the fuck you been with either, but you don’t hear me telling your ass to get tested.”
“Baby girl calm down. You are right and if it makes you feel any better, I’ll get tested with you.”
“How the fuck is that supposed to make me feel better when my nigga sitting in my face basically telling me he thinks I’m nasty. This some clown ass shit and you a clown ass nigga for this shit.”
“I’m the clown? News flash Auri, you’re a fucking junky. You shared needles and sucked dick for a fucking high. Why wouldn’t I get you tested first?” Regretting it, the moment it came out of my mouth I tried to apologize. “Fuck, baby girl I didn’t mean it.” She looked at me and cried her eyes out.
“Naw, you said exactly what you meant. I will always be a dirty ass junky to you that fucked for money. I’ll be out of your house in the morning.” When she walked off and went into the bedroom, I felt like shit. She pissed me off the way she came at me, but I should have never said that shit. Getting my words together, I walked in the room to make this right. She was sitting on the floor with her head in her knees crying her heart out. I wanted to beat my own ass for the shit I said.
“Baby girl, I promise I didn’t mean that. Your words hurt me and I lashed out to hurt you back and that wasn’t cool. If I thought you were a dirty junky I wouldn’t be here with you right now. You have to understand the stuff you were doing was not safe. You should want to know for your own sanity. I would love to have sex with you right here and now, but what if you do have something? How would you feel knowing you gave it to the one you love when all you had to do was get tested? I’m not trying to make you feel bad, I love you and I want to be together, but I need for us to do this right. Please don’t leave me.” She didn’t respond and that shit crushed my heart. Leaning my head back against the wall, I was cursing myself for fucking this up when I felt her lips on mine.
“We can go tomorrow. I understand and I’m sorry for what I said as well.” Climbing in the bed, we laid there and held each other. Tomorrow was going to be a hard day, I just hoped it went well.
****
Me and Auri were both dragging this morning, I think we both were scared of the test. I’m scared of what hers would be, I always strap up so I’m not worried. Half the night I was up looking for a clinic that did rapid testing. I couldn’t wait another two weeks, wondering what the results was going to be. Dreading it all morning, I changed my mind once we got in the car. The ride there was long and quiet. Neither of us knew exactly what to say. The only thing I could think to do was hold her hand. When we got in the doctor’s office, it was empty and I was glad. Not wanting to run into anybody I knew, I hurried up and filled out the paperwork. In five minutes, we were heading in the back. The doctor explained how it worked. It was a simple process, they would use a strip to prick us on our finger and take the blood to sample it. Once it was done, we both just kind of sat there until she spoke up.
“They all wore condoms.”
“What are you talking about baby girl?”
“You said you wasn’t sure if I could have something. If I do, it’s from the needles because the guys always wore condoms.” Relieved was an understatement, I couldn’t have been more happier to hear that.
“It’s going to be okay baby girl.” Twenty minutes later, the doctor had come back in to read the results.
“Mr. Towns your test came back negative.” Even though I figured I was, the shit was still good to hear. The way that she separated our results though had me scared about Auri’s.
“Ms. Prescott, your test came back negative as well.” I hadn’t even realized I was holding my breath, until she was done reading the results. We thanked her and headed out of the office. Knowing Auri was happy, I could tell she still felt a certain kind of way about me making her take the test. I was going to make it up to her though. The first thing I was going to do was take her to meet my mom. Wanting her to know that I was in this for the long haul, I thought that would be a good gesture.
Pulling up to my mom’s house, I still hadn’t told Auri where we were going. When I cut the car off, I looked over at her and she still looked sad.
“Baby girl, I wanted to show you that you are mine and I am in this for the long haul. I brought you over here to meet my mom.” Looking up at me her eyes lit up. Damn near jumping in my seat, she hugged me. Laughing at her excitement, we got out of the car. Using my key, we walked in the house.
“Ma, where are you?”
“I’m in the kitchen baby.” Grabbing Auri by the hand we walked in the back. Leaning down to kiss her, I introduced them both.
“Ma this is Auri, my girlfriend, Auri this is my mom Joann.” My mom reached out to hug Auri.
“It’s finally nice to meet you. He talks about you all the time.” Making Auri blush, I was glad my mom was being nice. I didn’t know how she would act with her, since she knew about Auri’s past. It was nice seeing my two girls getting along. A nigga definitely could get used to this.
After staying over my mom’s house for a couple of hours, I took her to our next destination. When she saw that we were now at her parent’s house, the tears formed in her eyes.
“Thank you for this. I know it’s going to be hard, but I miss them so much.” Nodding my head at her, we got out of the car to go see her parents. When she knocked on the door, it seemed like it took forever for someone to come. Her mother finally appeared and immediately she started crying. This did not look like the same woman I saw at graduation. She looked stressed, tired, and worn down. They say black don’t crack, but this black look like it had completely fell apart.
“Hey mama.” Snatching her in the door, she hugged her as she started screaming for her husband.
“Greg. Where are you? Come here. You have to see this. I can’t believe you are home.” Still holding her, when Auri’s dad came around the corner, he couldn’t tell it was her because her mom had her so tight. Auri finally pulled away and looked at her father.
“Hey dad.” Again, there were tears. He walked over to her and hugged her.
“Where have you been? Your mother was worried sick about you.” Looking at me, I grabbed her hand to reassure her it was going to be okay.
“Maybe we should take this in another room. You may want to sit down for this conversation.” I spoke up because Auri looked scared as hell. Once we sat down, I nodded for Auri to go ahead and tell them.
“When I left the graduation that day, I went to live with Sosa. He started me to using drugs and I was strung out bad. He had me doing all kinds of things to feed my habit and I let him. I was at my lowest point on crack and heroin and I ran back into Deleon. He took me to his home and forced me to see what I had become. After going to the hospital, he admitted me in rehab and I have been clean ever since. We are now in a relationship and he has been the best.” Her parents were horrified and it showed on their face. Her mom was crying, but her dad was pissed.
“We raised you better than that. How could you allow that thug to do that to you? You should have known better.” He was practically yelling at her and Auri started crying. I wasn’t about to let anyone make her feel like her progress wasn’t shit so I stepped in.
“Look, we have all made mistakes. Granted, some might be worse than others, but we made them. Yes, she fucked up, but she knows that. The important thing is, she did what she needed to do in order to get better. She was fighting that shit cold turkey, but I noticed how much pain she was in. Your daughter had been poisoned and almost died and you’re sitting here yelling at her instead of counting your blessings. I didn’t bring her here for that. She missed you and I know she felt like a piece of her was missing, but if I knew this was going
to happen I would have kept her away. You have no idea how hard it was for her to come here and admit her wrongs to you. I won’t let anyone, I don’t give a fuck who they are make her feel like shit. Let’s go baby girl.” This nigga had pissed me off and before I beat his old ass, it was time to go.
“I’m sorry Auriana. It’s hard for me to hear what you been through when I know how smart you are, but your boyfriend is right and you didn’t deserve that. I hope you all will stay a little while.” Respecting the fact that he apologized, I sat back down.
“For the record young man, if you ever talk to me like that again, I’ll kick your ass.” We all laughed and just like that the tension was broken. Her parents were actually pretty cool and I’m glad I brought her over. Her mom threw down in the kitchen and we ate and laughed the whole time. As much as I wanted her to stay, it was now time for us to leave. I had other plans. It was time for me to give Auri what she been asking for. We were finally about to have sex. My dick couldn’t wait.
CHAPTER 26- AURI
I have been getting more sex than I could ever imagine and it is great. I was so scared at first because this was the first time I had sex sober. He was so gentle with me, the shit had me wet before he even put it in.
Walking in the door, I was so turned on with how he stood up for me with my father. There was no way I would have ever said anything back to him. I would have just taken what he said and cried. As soon as we got in the door he started kissing all on me. Picking me up, he carried me to the shower. Undressing me, I stepped in the water and waited for him to join me. Grabbing the sponge, he washed me all over my body. After doing the same, we got out and he laid me on the bed. Grabbing the towel, he dried me off and rubbed me down with body butter. Kissing the tip of my toes, he worked his way up planting kisses all over my body. When he got to my wet spot, he looked at me and slowly began licking. That shit sent fire through my whole body. Each lick was slow and deliberate. Then he began softly sucking on my clit. I couldn’t stop my body from shaking and I didn’t want to. No longer able to hold it, I released my juices all over his face. Wiping his mouth, he leaned up and kissed me. Trying to work my way down, I had plans to make him feel as good as he made me.
“No baby, tonight is about you. I want to show you how much you mean to me.” Smiling I laid back and allowed him to do his thing. Sliding his dick up and down my clit, he finally entered me slowly. Grabbing my hands, he held them while he went in and out of me. Out of all the sex I had, none of them ever made me feel like this. Not being able to control myself, I came all over his dick. Looking me in my eyes, he kept going deeper, but it was still gentle.
“I love you baby girl.”
“I love you too.” He wiped the tears that were falling from my eyes. He could no longer hold it and he came inside of me. In that moment, I realized he was now my new addiction. I was higher than I ever been before. I was in love with this man and I never wanted to let him go.
That was a week ago and I couldn’t wait to see what he had in store for me today. It was my twenty third birthday and I couldn’t wait to celebrate it with my man. Even though he left me in the house by myself, I knew he was doing something to make me happy. It seemed like that’s all he did, everything was for me and I couldn’t get enough of him. We did everything together, our parents laughed at us and our new love. His mom would joke all the time telling us it was sickening. Smiling at the thought of him, I got dressed just in case he wanted to take me somewhere. I heard the door open and I ran to him and jumped in his arms.
“Calm your ass down baby girl, you are not getting none right now.” Punching him in the arm, I walked over to the couch to sit down. “I didn’t tell your ass to sit down. Come on.” Not knowing where we were going, I walked out behind him just happy to be with him. Then I saw the car. Looking at him, I damn near screamed my lungs out. It was a purple Lexus, with a bow tied to it.
“Oh my God baby. I can’t believe you bought me a car.” Running to it, I immediately jumped in. “Come on so I can take you for a ride.” He walked over to the window.
“Look in the arm rest.” I opened it and he had finally bought me a new phone. Happy it was an iPhone and not no android bullshit, I couldn’t stop smiling. “My number is already programmed in. You can take me for a ride when you get back. Go see your parents, they have gifts for you as well. I need to shower and get ready for tonight.” I was so happy I damn near ran him over. As soon as I pulled off, I dialed his number.
“Thank you baby. This is the best birthday ever and not just because of the car, but because you trusted me to go by myself. This means a lot.”
“You know I’ll give you anything. Go enjoy yourself and be back by eight.” Hanging up, I took the long way to my parent’s house, just so I could ride around stunting in my new whip. When I pulled up, I got out feeling like new money and then I heard his voice.
“Auri, come here for a second.” Knowing I should have run up the stairs and locked the door, I felt my legs moving in his direction. “Where you been girl, give me a hug.” When he wrapped his arms around me, I felt the juices trying to run down my legs. His scent was still intoxicating. I held him longer than I should have.
“Hey Sosa, how have you been?”
“Fucked up. My favorite girl left me without saying a word. I been sick as hell, looking all over for you. Why did you leave me?”
“I had to get my shit together and get back to the old Auri. I’m sorry that I left you and didn’t say anything.” My mind was screaming run, but my wet spot was telling me to jump in the back of his car and have a go.
“You damn sure looking good. I’m sorry for the way things turned out. You would have been okay if you hadn’t let that guy shoot that shit in your arm. Coke don’t do all of that to you. If you would have told me, I could have gotten you help. I wouldn’t have allowed that to happen to you. I fucked up and I’m sorry.”
“It’s not your fault. That was on me, I allowed him to do that. We’re good though.”
“Come take a ride with me.” I knew I could not go anywhere with this man.
“I can’t, I’m visiting my parents.”
“When you come out, I’ll be right here waiting on you.” When he licked his lips, I walked off. Damn near running, I rang my parent’s doorbell. The whole time I was inside, I was thinking about Sosa. The crazy part is, I’m in love with Deleon and I know that, but for some reason I was addicted to Sosa. He was my first and his roughness turned me on. I was so caught up in my thoughts I didn’t hear my dad talking to me.
“Auriana. I asked you what did Deleon get you for your birthday?”
“He got me a purple Lexus.” They ran to the window to look at my car.
“That man really loves you, don’t mess it up.” He must have seen Sosa standing outside and was warning me against him.
“I’m not daddy. I love my man, but I have to go he’s taking me out somewhere and I need to go get dressed.” Hugging them goodbye, I looked at the clock and it was 6:45. I had time to hang out with Sosa for a bit and still make it back to my baby in time. Walking down the stairs, I whispered to him without looking his way because I knew my daddy was watching.
“Meet me around the corner in five minutes.” Never stopping or looking his way, I jumped in my car and drove off. I knew I shouldn’t have, but I needed closure.
CHAPTER 27- DELEON
Something was off with Auri and I couldn’t put my finger on it. Wanting to trust her, I kept my thoughts to myself. We had been doing so good I didn’t want to fuck it up. When I bought her the car, I didn’t realize she would be leaving every day and staying away for hours. She said she was visiting her parents and looking for a job. Not wanting her to feel like I was locking her down, I chose to trust her. The night of her birthday, she came back in at 9:30 and she knows I told her by eight. Not wanting to ruin her day, I let the shit slide. Knowing it could be my insecurities, I try to let the shit go.
“Baby girl, have you seen my wallet?”
“No, I’ll help you look for it.” That’s another thing, I have been losing a lot of shit lately. My ass is getting old and its starting to show. She never once complained though, she would just help me look for it all night. We would finally give up and I’ll end up going to buy another one. This time I wouldn’t be able to do that though, this was my wallet. I would have to cancel bank cards and credit cards and I hated doing that shit.
“Baby girl, I’m going to put you on my accounts today. When shit like this happen, you can call and get replacements for me. You know I don’t like doing all this kind of shit.”
“Okay baby, I got you. Now let’s find your wallet.” We walked around the house and looked for hours. I went on the patio trying to see if it was out there and right on the side of the brick wall was a baggie.
“The fuck. Auri come here.” She ran outside and looked at what I was holding. For a brief second, it looked like fear in her eyes and then her expression changed.
“I’m sorry baby, I had Sheila come over here and do my hair, because I didn’t want to go to the shop and she sat out here and smoked a blunt.” Feeling relieved, I was ready to kill this girl.
“Even though weed is not that kind of drug, you can’t smoke that shit baby. Any high will make you relapse.”
“I’m not that stupid baby. I didn’t smoke any.”
“Okay, but I don’t want you around it either. Tell Sheila she has to do that shit when she leaves. We have come too far for that bullshit.
“Alright big daddy anything else?” Grabbing her in my arms, I kissed her.
“Yeah, you can help me find this damn wallet.” After a couple more hours of looking, I gave up. Calling all of my cards, I had them cut off. They were going to mail me new ones, but I was heading to the bank to get a new debit card and to put her on the accounts. “I’ll be back baby girl.” Leaving out I went to run my errands. My phone rung right as I was about to go in the bank.
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