“Hello.”
“Damn a nigga finally answered.” Fuck, I should have looked at the caller. I wasn’t ready to talk to Sosa ass yet. I knew he was feeling this drought I put him on, but I wasn’t threw proving my point.
“What’s up Sosa. I’m kind of busy.”
“I just want to know if you can swing by and holla at me?” thinking it over, I agreed to see what the nigga had to say.
“I’ll be there in a minute.” Hanging up, I went in and talked to my banker. Leaving out, I had a new card and joint account with my baby. My life was going great and I decided to give Sosa the connect. It didn’t make sense for me to be holding on to that shit anymore. I had Auri and our life was great. He could have the shit, unless the nigga started talking reckless again. Pulling up, I ran in the trap because I had no intentions on being here longer than five minutes.
“What’s up cuz.” He was extra friendly, but I gave him a head nod. “I just want to apologize for what happened the last time. I was high and I was talking out of my body. The shit won’t happen again.” Not saying anything for a minute, I stood there looking at him. I wanted to make his ass sweat.
“It’s all good, the connect will be calling you tomorrow. Stay out of trouble and get money.” As I turned to walk out the door, he yelled after me.
“How Auri doing?” Clenching my mouth together, I had to catch myself before I gave this nigga a fade.
“She is doing great. I’ll tell her you asked about her.”
“Aight bet.” Getting the fuck out of there, I damn near didn’t want to give him the connect for the bull shit he just pulled, but I’m over the shit. I got what I wanted and the extra money coming in won’t hurt. Even though I got more money than I could count, it was always room for more. Running the rest of my errands, I stopped at the mall to get Auri a gift set from Tiffany’s. As I looked through the glass case, I heard a familiar voice.
“Long time no see.” Turning around Hannah was standing there looking as good as ever.
“Hey, how have you been?”
“I’ve been good considering.” Knowing she was referring to me, I felt like shit.
“I’m guessing you and your girl doing good, you in here picking out jewelry.”
“We’re doing great actually.” Seeing the look on her face when I said that, I tried to change the subject.
“What’s been going on in your life?”
“Nothing same shit different day. When you’re done here how about we catch up over lunch.” Not wanting to hurt her feelings again, I tried to be gentle with my words.
“I don’t think that would be a good idea. If my girl saw us, it would be world war three for me, but it was really nice seeing you.” Turning my head to look at the jewelry, I couldn’t stand to see the hurt look on her face. At the end of the day, I really didn’t give a fuck. You would never catch me doing some shit I didn’t want my girl to do. I wasn’t that type of nigga. Picking the set that I wanted, I had him gift wrap it for me. I wrote on the card ‘Just because I love you.’ Heading out the mall I jumped back in my whip and headed home so I could spend some time with my girl, but when I got there she was gone. Picking up my phone, I called her but she didn’t answer. As soon as worry started to kick in, she called me back.
“Hey baby, what’s up?”
“Hey baby girl, where are you?”
“I’m at the gym. I started a membership because I didn’t like all the weight I was picking up.” Laughing, I wanted to tell her what weight. Auri was thick as hell in all the right spots.
“Oka baby girl whatever makes you happy. I have something for you when you get home.” Hanging up, I started cleaning up and prepared to cook her dinner. My life was going perfect and I couldn’t believe how good shit was going. Remembering what I told Sosa, I picked up the phone and called my back up connect. After explaining everything to him, I gave him Sosa number and told him to hit him up tomorrow. Hanging up the phone, I continued cooking my future wife dinner.
CHAPTER 28- SOSA
I couldn’t believe how easy it was for me to get Auri to go with me that day. She wouldn’t have sex with me, but I convinced her to snort a line with me for old time sake to celebrate her birthday. She was scared as shit at first.
“I can’t do this. I went through too much to get myself clean. Deleon will kill me if he even knew I was sitting here around it.”
“Damn, is this nigga your daddy or your man? I already told you coke is different from heroin. As long as you use it here and there you will be fine. Ain’t shit gone happen to your ass. You used to trust me. I guess I ain’t shit to your ass no more. After all the shit I did for you, now you too good and shit.”
“I didn’t say that. I’ll do it, but just one line and only because it’s my birthday.” Smiling, I knew I had her ass. All it took is one line and she would definitely be back. After she hit the line, I tried rubbing on her and she stopped me dead in my tracks.
“Now that we won’t do. I’m not going to cheat on him, he doesn’t deserve that.”
“It’s all good shorty, nothing beats a failure but a try right?” Taking her phone, I stored my number in. “Hit me up whenever, I still love you and I always will.” Leaning over, I slid my tongue in her mouth and she let me. Grabbing her by her head, I kissed her with so much passion, letting her know how much I missed her ass.
“I’m sorry, I have to go.” Just like that, she was gone.
She has been over here with me every day since then, but she still won’t give me none. I don’t even give a fuck about fucking shorty, it’s all about getting her on my team. I need her back and I was slowly doing it. Each time, she would stay longer and smoke a little more. Don’t get me wrong, besides her losing a little weight, she still looked damn good and was functioning properly. I needed to figure out a way to change that. I needed her dependent on me completely. It’s been a few months now and her ass wasn’t strung out yet. I knew I could never get her to use the pipe again, but I was going to do something drastic in a minute. Me and Jess had been messing around none stop since her and Delow broke up, but she was still nagging in my fucking ear about Auri every fucking day. I was over her ass and now that I’m slowly winning Auri back she can kick rocks. She didn’t do shit anyway, she was supposed to help me find Auri, instead all the fuck she did was complain about her. The sex was off the chain, but other than that, I couldn’t stand to be around her ass. Sitting in the front of the trap, my phone rung. Not recognizing the number, I almost didn’t answer.
“Who is this?”
“There will be a trailer coming in tomorrow at 4:30 in Indiana, be at this address to get it.” After he said the address he hung up. Wondering who the fuck was playing on my phone, I remembered D said the connect would call me today. Everything was back on track and going as planned. I was about to walk back in the house when Jess pulled up. What the fuck is she doing here. What if I was here with Auri, she could have fucked some shit up. She better be lucky Delow ass wasn’t here or he would have dragged her ass to kingdom come.
“What the fuck are you doing here?”
“Now I can’t be seen with you because of your precious Auri? Fuck her. I can go where the fuck I want and I can come see my man whenever I want. I needed to talk to you anyways.” Rubbing my temples, I calmed down so I wouldn’t beat this bitch ass.
“What’s up?”
“I’m pregnant and I’m done playing second. I am now carrying your baby and everybody just gone have to accept it.”
“Bitch if you don’t go get your ass on a table and let them suck that baby out, I’ll fuck you up myself.” I didn’t even believe in abortions, but I couldn’t allow her to fuck my plan up.
“You ain’t gone do shit, but raise this fucking baby. I’m tired of this shit and I’m not doing it anymore. Time to man up because you no longer have a choice.” This bitch called herself bossing up on me. Thinking of a more effective way, I calmed my voice.
“Come in the house baby. It’s
all good. I’m sorry, you just caught me by surprise.” Smiling like she had won, she switched her ass in the house. Once she sat down, I told her I’ll be back I had to piss. Walking in the back room, I grabbed a needle and fixed up a shot of dope for her ass. Walking into the bathroom, I mixed some rat poison in with the dope. Filling the needle up, I walked back in the front room.
“Baby this is going to be so exciting. I’m about to make a post on face book announcing us and the baby. Come here and take a picture.” Walking behind her like I was about to take the pic, I stabbed her ass in the neck and pushed all of the mixture in. Watching her body jerk and foam come out of her mouth, I stood there until it stopped. Knowing she was gone, I called Delow and told him I need for him to come help me. Grabbing a rubber band, I tied it around her arm, and stuck the needle in her arm making it seem like she over dosed. When he finally got there, I turned the fake shit on as if I was really distraught.
“What the fuck happened to her?” Delow was losing it and crying hysterically.
“She said she needed to take a hit because she was depressed about you breaking up with her. I don’t even know where she got the shit from bro. I thought she was gone do a line of coke and I went to the back to get it. When I came out she was like this.” He was going crazy saying it was his fault and he should have never left her. Whole time, I just wanted this nigga to help me take her to the car, so we could go dump her ass. Grabbing the needle out of her arm, wiped it off and dumped the shit.
“Come on bro, we have to get her out of here before somebody comes and see her.” Getting his self together, we carried her outside and put her in the car. The drive to the lake was quiet as hell. He still had tears running down his cheek and I wanted to curse his ass out for crying over a hoe, but I let him have his moment. The niggas around me were weak. My cousin was ready to kill my ass over a crack head and this nigga on suicide watch over community pussy. Tossing her body in, I gave her ass a fake funeral so this nigga could shut the fuck up. Jumping back in the whip, I hurried up and dropped his ass off. There was no way I was going to sit here and listen to this nigga cry all fucking day. As soon as I got back to the trap, I hit Auri up. She told me she will be here in thirty minutes. I couldn’t wait until her ass got here. She was gone have to choose soon. It was time to pull out the big guns. With a new connect, I didn’t have to keep going to Wisconsin getting this bullshit ass drugs I been having. D wasn’t lying, when he cut me off, I felt that shit, but now he opened the door not only for my business, but to get Auri back as well. She only been doing good because the drugs weren’t strong, but once she got ahold of this good shit, it wouldn’t be long before I had my claws back in her ass. With Jess gone, I was gone need her to start giving up the pussy. A nigga too old to be jacking off his dick. Auri finally pulled up and I was ready to profess my love for her. Laughing at myself, I got my shit together before she walked in the house. After all the shit this girl done been through, I can’t believe she still this damn weak and gullible. Luckily for me, a zebra never changed his spots or however that dumb ass saying goes.
CHAPTER 29- AURI
I know if Deleon ever found out what I was up to he would kill my ass. He worked so hard for me to get and stay clean, but this was different. I was in control of it this time. As long as I stayed away from the heroin, it would be good. For months now I have been hanging out with Sosa and getting high. He keeps trying to fuck me, but I have yet to cross that line. Trust me, it is hard, but I’m already fucking up. When he found that baggie I almost died, but thinking quick on my feet, I dodged that bullet. Ever since then, I have been more careful. When I started noticing the weight loss, I had to pretend I was in the gym getting that shit down. The best thing he could have done was add me on his account. Now I didn’t have to keep stealing from him and selling shit. Since Deleon was out and about in the city today, me and Sosa agreed to meet at a hotel. Everything in me was screaming don’t go, but the drugs always won. Pulling up, I gave the valet my keys and headed upstairs. The only thing on my mind was this hit I was about to get. Knocking on the room number he told me, the door opened. When I walked in, it was dark. Feeling something hit me over my head, I blacked out.
As soon as I opened my eyes, I knew that heroin was in my system. It gave me a feeling like no other. The minute that shit hit your veins, you immediately want another hit. The calming that goes over you will have your ass nodding out. Feeling my clit vibrate, I looked down and Sosa was eating me out. My mind was screaming stop, but nothing was coming out of my mouth. All I could think about was how disappointed Deleon was going to be with me. That thought didn’t last long when I felt myself about to orgasm. That mixed with the high, had me saying fuck anything and everybody. Ironically, that’s when I found my voice.
“Damn baby don’t stop.” My mouth went against me. Closing my eyes, I allowed the high to flow through my body. Before I could protest, he had already slid inside of me. My body caught fire and next thing you know I was throwing it back as if I was the pitcher for the cubs. Rubbing his finger against my clit as he slammed into me, had me going crazy. When he pulled out to change positions, I should have stopped then. Instead, I raised my ass in the air and arched my back as far as I could, granting him full access. Grabbing my ass, he pounded inside of me. As great as Deleon is in bed, Sosa gave me a different feeling. It was always as if my insides were burning. Grabbing me by my neck, he used that as leverage to go as deep as he could inside of me. Feeling my orgasm rising, I could no longer control myself. Being so caught up in releasing, I didn’t feel him shaking until it was too late.
“What the fuck. Why did you cum in me?” Instead of apologizing, he smiled at me.
“Because it’s mine and it always will be.” Something about the way he said that caused my mind to start thinking. How the fuck did I end up in the bed with heroin in my system. Before I could try and figure it out, he handed me a plate. Once I saw the line of coke, I completely forgot what I was thinking about.
We had been getting high and fucking for hours. I was so out if it, but my body was craving more. This shit he was giving me was so potent, all I wanted to do was keep it in my system. I never wanted to feel what life was like without it. Just as quick as I thought it, he brought me down to reality.
“We out of drugs and I don’t have any more money. You know we went through a drought.” Panicking, I sat up trying to figure out how we would get more.
“How much is it?”
“About twenty thousand for a brick.” Fuck, I couldn’t pull out that much. Deleon would def know something was wrong if I did that.
“I can’t come up with that much. He would notice.”
“He will take your car as collateral if you willing to give it up.” Thinking about it, I realized Deleon would know something was up if I came back without a car.
“There is no way I could walk in my house without my car.”
“Tell him someone stole it, all he is going to do is file a claim. They will give you a new car and you will have a supply for the whole month. It all works out.” Without thinking twice, I gave him the keys.
“Do it, but tell him to hurry his ass up. I have to leave.” The man took another two hours before he brought the stuff and I couldn’t be happier when he came. My wet spot was about t as dry as a nigga scalp caked in dandruff. He had fucked me until there were no more juices inside me except his. Grabbing my coke, I went downstairs and called an Uber. When I made it home, Deleon was in the front room pacing back and forth.
“Where the fuck have you been?” I didn’t understand why this nigga was so mad.
“Why are you so upset. Calm down.”
“Do you see what fucking time it is? It’s four in the morning and your ass left out of here talking about you were going to the gym. That was at seven. Now, I’m going to ask you again. Where the fuck have you been?” Making sure to throw on the water works, I had to make him believe me.
“You sitting here yelling at me and I was somewher
e knocked out and robbed. When I woke up, my car was gone and I was on the side of the road. I called an Uber and came home.” Running to look out the window, he saw that my car wasn’t there.
“Baby girl, I am so sorry. Are you okay? Why didn’t you call me?”
“My battery was dead. I just want to shower and go to bed. I want this day to be over. On tomorrow, I’ll call the insurance company and file a claim. Right now, all I want to do is sleep.” He walked over to me and kissed me on the lips.
“I’m sorry baby girl. I’m glad you are okay. If I find out who did this, they gone regret it.” Even though I never saw him as a street nigga, his tone made me realize I may not know him as well as I thought I did. Jumping in the shower, I felt relieved. This water was taking the swelling down. My pussy felt like it was run over by a truck. When I got in the bed, I felt like shit when Deleon got behind me and held me tight. What scared me the most was, the only thing on my mind was how I couldn’t’ wait to smoke my shit.
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When I woke up the next morning, I was ready to leave so I could go smoke and I remembered I didn’t have my car. Shit. now I have to wait until Deleon decided to leave. My body was hurting and I had the shakes. Trying to hide it, I grabbed a sweater and put it on. When I walked out to the front room, I was thinking of an excuse to send him outside. Hearing him snap off, I wondered what the hell was going on.
“There is no way over sixty thousand dollars is missing out of my account.” How in the fuck did I spend that much in months? I hadn’t even realized I was pulling out that much. He looked over to me and told whoever he was on the line with he would call them back. Rubbing his hand over his face, he tried to calm down before he spoke to me.
“Auriana.” Noticing he used my full name, I knew it was bad. “How in the fuck did you spend that much money in months and what the fuck did you spend it on?” Thinking quick on my feet, I came up with the perfect lie.
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