“I’m sorry baby, my dad had a bunch of hospital bills from when he was sick and they were going to take his house. I didn’t know that it would bother you since you said it was ours.”
“Auri, that account has one hundred thousand dollars in it and in a matter of months you have managed to almost wipe it out.”
“Does that mean we are broke?” Laughing for the first time since we started talking, he made me worried.
“I would never go broke. That money that is in that account is legal money. I have a storage unit with almost ten million dollars in it. We are set, but it is hard to clean money and put it in a bank. I was in the process of buying property and I needed that account for collateral. Now I have to figure out a way to put sixty back in without drawing attention. You fucked me over without even thinking. If you would have asked me, I would have given you the money.” I didn’t give a fuck about nothing else he said. All I heard was how much money we had. Just thinking about it made my shakes harder.
“I’m sorry, but if you had told me ahead of time I would have known.”
“You’re right, I should have told you about everything and I’m sorry. I have to leave because I need to figure out how I’m going to do this. Will you be good until I come back?” Just what I wanted to hear.
“Yes, baby I’ll be fine. My body still hurts.”
“Just so you know, that gym shit is dead. Not only could you have gotten killed, you are losing too much weight. You don’t need to lose any more baby girl.”
“Okay.” After giving me a kiss, he was out the door. Knowing Deleon and how much he forgets shit, I waited ten more minutes and then I headed into the room to grab my package. My shakes were full force now and I needed a hit bad. Taking in the first line, I thought it would satisfy my high and stop the pain and shakes, but it did neither. Knowing it was the heroin, I was going to need more than a regular hit of coke. Practically burying my face in the key, I snorted as much as my body would allow. No matter how much I put in me, I still had the shakes and felt dope sick. Leaning forward to take another hit, I felt light headed and then I saw black.
CHAPTER 30- DELEON
Walking in the bank, the first thing I was going to do was remove Auri from the account. If she needed money, I would give it to her or leave her a stash in the house. I couldn’t allow her to fuck up what I was trying to do with my legal money. Sitting down to talk to my banker, I asked him what was my options and what I could do.
“You could put your house up as collateral.”
“I’m not doing that. Is it a way we can explain that my girl paid off her parent’s hospital bills?”
“Yeah we could if that were true.” Looking confused, I sat up in my chair.
“What do you mean if it was true?”
“Well, usually in those cases a person writes a check, or pull out the full amount requested. Your girlfriend has been in the bank every single day since you put her on the account.” Turning his screen to face me, he showed me each transaction. “Each amount was different, but all over a thousand dollars.” Not wanting to jump to conclusions, I told my banker I would return. Jumping back in my whip, I headed to Auri’s parents house. I was going to get to the bottom of this shit today. Ringing the bell, her father answered looking confused as to why I was here alone.
“Hey Greg, I need to talk to you if you don’t mind.”
“Come in son.” Walking in his den. I sat down. I’m guessing he could tell I had the weight of the world on my shoulders and offered me a drink. Throwing it back, I got straight to the point.
“Sir, your daughter took a substantial amount of money from my account and she told me she used it to pay off your medical bills. All I want to know is if it’s true.” Sighing, I could tell he was about to say something to me I didn’t want to hear.
“Son, I have not seen my daughter in months. The only reason I wasn’t worried is because you were in the picture and you seemed to genuinely have her best interest at heart.”
“I do, but I’m afraid that some how some way she has slipped back into her old life. Thank you for your time, I will figure it out.” Once I got back in my truck, I flew home to let Auri know of my suspicions. If she was back using, I was done. Hoping for the best, I prayed she had a great excuse. My mind knew the truth, but my heart wasn’t ready to let go. The long drive home, gave me time to think and I realized the signs been there. The weight loss and all the shit coming up missing. I didn’t stop losing shit until I put her on my account. Walking in the door, my heart broke because I couldn’t believe she would do this. The house was quiet and I wondered if she caught an Uber back to the city. Seeing the light on in the backyard, I knew she was on the patio. The same patio I found the baggie. The closer I got, the more pissed I became.
“Auri. We need to talk.” When I opened the door, the sight before me not only broke my shit into a million pieces, but it scared the fuck out of me. Her face was buried in a key of coke. Shaking her, I knew she was out of it. Checking for a pulse, I didn’t feel shit and I immediately dialed 911. After explaining the situation, I hung up and waited for them to arrive. I held her until they got there, hoping it was not too late.
Everything from that point was a blur, so many emotions were running through me. I was scared, but I wanted to beat her ass at the same time. The doctors rushed her to the back and all I could do was sit and wait for some kind of news. Sitting there for hours, I was becoming restless. About to get up, I noticed someone was handing me a cup of coffee. It was Hannah.
“Thank you.” Sitting down beside me, I didn’t even know what to say to her.
“She’s going to be okay.” Nodding my head was all I could think to do.
“Why are you being nice to me, did you spit in my shit?” Shaking her head, she stood up to leave.
“Just because you are an asshole don’t mean I have to be one. Someone you love is fighting for their life and I love you so I decided to be there for you.” Grabbing her by the hand, I pulled her back down to sit with me.
“I’m sorry. My mind just all over the place. I can’t believe she went back to that shit.”
“I learned in my profession that most addicts go back. That’s why if you choose to be in their lives, you have to be in it for the long haul. Anything could trigger them to go back. You didn’t do anything wrong. She has to be willing.” Listening to everything she said, I knew she was right. Auri had to want this for herself, but I wasn’t sure I was willing to let her drag me down with her. She was robbing me blind, how could she say she love me? The doctor emerged from the back and Hannah stood up to give me some privacy.
“Please stay.” She sat back down and the doctor started speaking.
“They are going to be okay.”
“They?” I was lost.
“Yes, her and the baby. I’m sorry, I assumed you knew. She is six months pregnant with a baby girl.” All I could do was cry, I wasn’t sure if it was from the excitement I was going to be a father, or from hurt that she was pumping that poison into our baby. No matter how I felt, I knew that I would have to help Auri, for our baby’s sake. Forgetting that Hannah was sitting there, I turned to her and she had tears in her eyes.
“I’m…” She cut me off.
“You’re sorry, I know.” Standing up, she walked off. I noticed her go into the restroom and I don’t know why, but I followed behind her. Thank God, it was one of those single bathrooms and I could lock the door. My intentions were to just talk to her and apologize again, but seeing her crying like that, I pulled her to me. She looked up at me with so much hurt in her eyes, I kissed her to try and take the hurt away. Thinking she would pull away, she kissed me with everything she had to give. Once my dick got hard, I stopped thinking and pulled her shirt over her head. Releasing her breasts from her bra, I started sucking on her nipples. When she started massaging my dick through my pants, I couldn’t take the shit no more. Letting him go free, she dropped to her knees and started sucking the tip. Leaning against the
wall, my knees started buckling. It was like she was trying to convince me to stay through the head she was giving me. Knowing we couldn’t be in here long, I should have stopped and walked out. Instead I pulled her up and snatched her scrubs down. Turning her around, I slid my dick in and both of us shuddered. Grabbing her breasts for support, I started slamming my shit inside her. Losing my mind from the wetness, I felt my dick swelling up and my veins popping. Not wanting to be selfish, I held it in until I felt her body shaking. Gripping her tighter, my speed increased and I knew it was time for me to pull out. Letting my nut shoot on her ass, I was tempted to slide back in her. The sight alone had my dick hard again.
“I’m not good enough to give a baby, but she is?” Just like that my dick went soft. Grabbing a paper towel, I wet it and wiped my dick off.
“Look I know we have a past, but the fact that my girl in there fighting for her life and I’m in here fucking you is foul. I’m damn sure not about to complicate the situation by bringing two babies into this world.”
“So, you just used me to get your nut off?” Getting aggravated, I was ready to leave.
“No, you were what I needed at the moment. At any time, you could have said no, but you didn’t. Again, I’m sorry. I promise I’m not trying to hurt you.” Seeing that she was about to cry again, I got the fuck out of there. I needed to go check on Auri and my baby. How could I just cheat on her like that? Feeling like shit, I walked in her room and laid in her bed. Rubbing my hand against her stomach, I was pissed at Auri, but I was glad she was okay. We were going to be parents. If nothing else would help get Auri clean, this should. We had another long journey ahead of us, but this was one I had no choice but to take. My child was involved and I needed to make sure she was good. I couldn’t wait to tell my mom she was going to be a grandma, but I would leave out how I found out. This was a time for celebration, not judgments.
CHAPTER 31- SOSA
I been blowing Auri phone up, but the shit kept going to voicemail. Knowing her, she should need some more drugs by now. The heroin should have her sick and the coke should be gone, but her ass hasn’t been around in a couple of days. Trying to see if I could bump into her, I been hanging around her parent’s house. To fuck with her father and I’m kind of hoping she would answer the door, I went on the porch and rung the bell. Her mother came to the door looking shocked. Her scary ass started screaming for her husband like he was going to do something.
“Greg. Greg where are you? Please hurry up and get to the door.” Laughing at the fact she didn’t even try to hide how scared she was, I turned my attention to the father when he rounded the corner.
“What are you doing in my house?” He must have grown some balls. It’s okay though, I’m about to shrink them bitches back to marbles.
“Where is Auri?”
“I don’t know, and if I did I wouldn’t tell your ass. Now please leave my house, before…” Cutting him off, I got pissed.
“Before what? For some reason, you seem to have forgotten what I said to you. Maybe I need to show you and then you will know to stop playing with me.” Pulling my gun out my waste, I pointed it at his head. The wife screamed in horror.
“Tell your wife to pull my dick out.” Looking at me with pure hate in his eyes, he did what I asked.
“Cynthia, do what he asks.”
“Greg have you lost your damn mind?”
“Do you want to die? Then do it.” He screamed so loud, she jumped. Taking her weak hands to my jogging pants, she pulled it out. Letting it go, she wiped her hands on her apron like my shit was dirty.
“Tell her to massage my shit.” Looking over at her husband, he didn’t even have to repeat it, she knew what she had to do. Wrapping her hand around it, she started slowly jacking me off.
“Tell her to put it in her mouth.” Her husband was now crying tears as realization hit him that he fucked up. Nodding towards his wife, she got down on her knees and slowly leaned towards my dick. Grabbing it towards her mouth, I snatched it from her.
“You lucky I don’t like head from old bitches. Get the fuck up. If you see Auri, tell her I said call me. If you don’t, I’ll be back and I’m going to forget that your pussy got dust in it and bring some life back to it.” Putting my dick away, I walked out the door and down the stairs. Where the fuck was Auri ass at. Driving back to the trap, I saw D sitting in his car waiting on me. What the fuck his ass wants? When he got out I could tell he was pissed. I walked on the porch and sat down in the chair.
“What’s up cuz?” Sitting on the railing, he looked at me in disgust.
“Did you give Auri drugs?” Smiling, he must have found the key she had. I was not going to make this easy on him, it wasn’t part of the plan.
“I haven’t seen Auri. Let me guess, she done left your ass and sucking the next dick available?” He clenched his jaws and I laughed at how easy he got pissed over her.
“She overdosed on a key of coke, where in the fuck would she have gotten that from?”
“Nigga I don’t know, I just got the fucking connect. It’s been a drought, but you already know that shit.” Looking towards the back yard, he zoned out for a minute.
“When she gets well enough, I’m going to bring her ass back where she wants to be.” He turned and walked off the porch. That was entirely too easy, and I was curious as to what made him change his mind. Walking to the rail, I looked over in the backyard. Fuck, I forgot her Lexus was parked back there. I didn’t give a fuck though, that’s his bitch not mine. At least not yet.
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I been sitting here wondering how I was going to allow my plan to come together when Delow came busting through the door.
“They found her.” Confused, I stopped what I was doing.
“Found who? Auri?”
“Naw nigga. Jess body washed up on the beach and they called the cops. The shit all over the news. Where the fuck you been?
“Obviously, not watching the news mother fucker. I don’t give a fuck about her or her body. She chose to shoot that shit in her not me.”
“You don’t give a fuck about nobody, but yourself. I’m starting to see how fucked up you really are.” Pausing, as if he was thinking. “What did you say happened to her again? The news said it was heroin mixed with poison.” Laughing at his attempt to put some shit together, I responded.
“Nigga if I was going to kill a bitch, I would put a bullet in her head. She hadn’t done shit to me, what the fuck did I kill her for?” Looking relieved, he sat down and started crying. I couldn’t figure out what the fuck he was crying for, he already knew she was dead.
“She was pregnant with my baby. The news said the mother and fetus.” Now understanding why he was so upset, I fake pretended to care.
“Damn nigga, that’s so fucked up. I’m sorry to hear that. You would have been a great dad.”
“Thank you bruh, this shit is hard. I just don’t understand why she would do that shit.”
“Me either. From my understanding, Auri back using too. If she is, I’m putting her back on my team.” Looking at me like I had lost my mind, Delow stood up.
“You are a fucked up mother fucker. Lose my number before I fuck around and give your ass a dirt nap.” He walked out and I shrugged my shoulders. Everybody ain’t gone understand how I move and I don’t give a fuck. It’s a bigger picture here and mother fuckers gone see it whether they want to or not. Fuck anybody who ain’t rocking with me, I’m a movement by myself.
CHAPTER 32- AURI
When I opened my eyes, I realized I was in the hospital again. Knowing I had fucked up, I looked around the room to see if Deleon was here. When I didn’t see him, I started crying. How could I fuck this shit up like this? Hearing voices, I thought it was him, but it was my parents.
“Hey sweetie, how are you feeling?” My dad was being nice about this. Usually he would be going off.
“I’m fine dad. Where is Deleon?” My parents exchanged a look and then my father spoke again.
“He
was here in the beginning, but he went to see your ex to find out if he was giving you drugs and he saw your car. He knows you were back messing with that boy. He said he is done. We tried talking to him, but he doesn’t want to hear it.”
“I understand.”
“Baby did you know you were pregnant?” My hands went to my stomach involuntarily.
“Pregnant? Oh my God.” Crying even harder now, I felt like shit pumping all of those drugs into my body. Not to mention, I don’t even know who the daddy is.
“Deleon was even willing to stay behind you relapsing for the baby’s sake, until he found out about you messing with the other guy. Baby I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but it’s something else.” Not knowing if I could take much more, I braced myself for the next news.
“What is it.”
“They found Jess’s body in the lake. She overdosed and the drugs was mixed with poison.” Not being able to control it, I started screaming. The nurse ran in the room to make sure I was ok. My father told her everything was fine and she left back out. After all that my father said to me, nothing compared to how I felt when Deleon walked in the room. Holding my head down, I couldn’t even look at him.
“Can you guys give us a minute, it won’t take long.” He asked my parents to leave the room. I was so nervous and I would have preferred my parents to stay. As mad as he was looking he might beat my ass. He didn’t sit on my bed like he normally does and the love I normally see in his eyes were gone. “Did you know you were pregnant?”
“No, I just found out.”
“How the fuck didn’t you realize you hadn’t had a menstruation for six damn months?” Six months? If I was six months then the baby was definitely his. Relieved, at least I didn’t have that drama added on.
“I was too consumed in the drugs.” Dropping my head, I tried to hold back the tears that threatened to fall.
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