THE DEAL: Novel

by Bvlgari, M. F.

  After thinking for a little bit, thought he shouldn’t have an alcohol problem, because if he had, when they were on the island he would be drunk on a daily basis, but whenever they were drinking together he never exceeded 2 glasses.

  She got up slowly not to wake him up, took the clothes to the bathroom, showered, dressed and left for work, on the way she took breakfast, the first days or weeks of adaptation would be difficult for both, she knew it. She even went to the kitchen in the morning to see what was there, she didn’t know if he had the habit of taking breakfast at home or not. There were so many new things at once. She didn’t know if it was the stress of having to move in with him, but she felt her stomach grappling. The working day passed without any major incident and it was time to return home. Just in case Carolina passed in the supermarket to buy something to make for dinner.

  When she arrived at her new home, JP wasn’t there and she didn’t know anything about him. Carolina didn’t want to be meddling in his life and he didn’t call or sent any message, she didn’t know whether to make dinner for him as well or not. She decides to make dinner for two, ending up eating alone and leaves a dish prepared in the fridge just in case his wish to dine later. Deciding after inspecting closer the kitchen, she found out it was an excellent kitchen it had everything and all brand new, if that kitchen was hers she would do great snacks and cakes if this kitchen was her, but it’s not. She will be here only temporary so she will use the kitchen only for the necessary.

  As it is still early, she went to her apartment and meets the boys just to check on them and give them a kiss.

  When Carolina arrives home, about 10 minutes after the door bell buzzed someone was at the door, she didn’t know what she was supposed to do, after all it was for JP for sure and he was not there. She decides to go down and let the person know that. When she was going down the stairs she sees a too skinny boned girl, with too short dress, with blond long hair, fake eye lashes and nails, blue eyes, she looked like young model looking like a Barbie doll. Carolina decides to open the door.

  “Hi, can I help you?”

  “I need to talk with JP, is he in?!”

  “No, he isn’t. Would you like to leave a message?”

  “Please let him know that I was here. No. No. I’ll go in and wait for him inside, I need to talk to him, he is been ignoring my calls and messages and I need to talk with him”

  “What? I’m sorry, but you can’t come inside because he isn’t here”

  “Why not?!”

  Carolina rolled her eyes, already tired of the fake Barbie doll.

  “Look you can’t because he is not in and I can’t let anyone in without his authorization”

  She said hoping the Barbie doll would give up.

  “What are you saying? Do you know who I am?!”

  Carolina couldn’t stand her anymore and said:

  “Why? Did you forget who you are?!”

  “I’m his girlfriend! Look here cleaning lady let me in okay I’ll give you £50 if you let me in and wait for him inside”

  “Does he know that you are hopping around announcing that you are his girlfriend?!”

  “Well we had dinner with friends a few weeks ago and I assumed he was interested to see me again, he said he would call me, but he never did, every man would die to date me!”

  Carolina understood her perfectly, she had been there before and she knew the way JP acted with women but she couldn’t feel sorry for this girl or angry.

  “Well I have some news for you and if he was really interested in you, I’m sure he would have contacted you by now. Goodbye”

  Upset and in real disbelieve she closes the door in the Barbie dolls nose, still while the Barbie doll tries to assimilate Carolina’s last sentence and trying to discuss the subject further, Carolina didn’t allowed her to continue.

  How is it possible that he dates women like that? And worse he allows them to come at his house at anytime? That was outrageous.

  Carolina was already in bed reading, or at least trying too and was about to switch the lights off when JP arrives. He knocks on the door, she gives permission for him to enter, he asks if everything’s okay, she says yes and says he has dinner in the fridge if he is hungry. She told him about the Barbie doll episode, at first he was very serious and when she finished he came to her and give her a goodnight kiss, assuring her that now that he was a married man he wouldn’t look to those type of woman anymore. She didn’t need to worry about them anymore. She looks at him suspiciously, but he didn’t give anything up. JP says he has dined already, had a tiring day and goes up to his room to sleep. Bows out, closes the door behind him and walks away.

  Bizarre Carolina thinks, not a word if he can spend the night here, not a sexual joke, nor an attempt to have sex. What is wrong with him? Maybe he found someone new to play with and isn’t interested anymore.

  Perhaps he found a new bunny to play with.

  Better yet, he will leave me alone and it will make my life easier.

  Thought Carolina, trying to convince herself that this way was much better, turning off the light and went to sleep. During the night she wakes up, feeling him slipping into the bed with her, she pretends to be asleep, he raises a bit of Duvet, enters the bed and reaches up toward her, put his arm over her, and stays like that, he doesn’t move, he doesn’t try anything.

  But what is happening now?!

  She wonders. It costs her to fall asleep again because she does not know what to think.

  Why does he will lie with me and falls asleep hugged to me? Now he doesn’t try to have sex anymore, what could it possibly be happening?

  He falls asleep moments after he puts his arms over her, she feels his breathing enter in a new state, but she can’t fall asleep at all, during the night she hear him mumbling something and tries to understand what he is saying:

  “...I do...I love you...only you my love...love me too...please forget...divorce...I...love...you...Carolina”

  Carolina couldn’t believe what she was hearing, he was dreaming with her! He was dreaming with her and was saying that he was in love for her! She couldn’t believe it!

  Hope was renewed in Carolina’s mind, and she could only fall asleep it was already morning when she wakes up he is still holding her. Rather than sneak out again as she had done the day before, she turns slowly to him to admire him while he stills asleep. A handsome man, he is so perfect with all he’s imperfections to her eyes, she can’t resist and touches his cheek, stroking gently his three days beard, thinking:

  You said you loved me while you sleep, you made me so happy.

  He wakes up without moving, open his eyes looking at her smiling.

  "Good morning my dear"

  "Good morning to you too, why are here in my bed?"

  He tells her that he couldn’t sleep in his bed, but when he comes down to her bedroom and lies next to her, just lying down beside her he falls asleep immediately. She smiled at him enjoying and teasing him replied:

  "So now I'm also sleeping a pill to you?! I have to get up to go to work."

  He smiled at her and says:

  "You know, if we were married for real, you didn’t have to work anymore, I earn more than enough for us."

  "Yeah, but it's not. And even if it was real, I like to work and earn my money"

  She said without wanting to continue the conversation that was having a course that could lead to a discussion that she was determined not to have. Leaving the bedroom to prepare for work, she went to the kitchen took quickly breakfast when she returned to her bedroom, he was gone. She spent all morning indisposed again, but didn’t care much, thought she could be because of the stress and all the changes that was happening in her life. The weekend was near, Carolina was willing to go to her house to see how things were going on with her sons, she missed them already very much although they talk every day, it was not easy to leave them just by themselves, she knew they are young adults but they will be always her children and she can’t hel
p it to protect and help them the best way she can. She loved to talk to them and she felt the need to catch up. She had planned to spend the weekend with them, Saturday she will fix up the apartment for the week, leaving food ready for the boys when they returned from the university, although they knew how to cook and taking care of them and if they hadn’t time or weren’t in the mood to cook they could always order in.

  She knows that the maid goes there every day in the morning to keep the house in order, but she liked to put things in her own way. Carolina knew she didn’t need to, but the mother instinct spoke louder and she wanted to see with her own eyes that everything was under control. Bottom line she needed to be away from JP for a while and be with her mind occupied. Saturday night, when Carolina was preparing for dinner with the boys, she receives a message from JP asking:

  "Where are you?"

  She replies

  "I'm home having dinner with my sons, why?"

  "Home?! I thought home was here and you aren’t here. I was thinking going out for dinner with you, I forgot you have more two men in your life. Sorry. Maybe we could go out all together sometime soon :-)"

  She replies:

  "They are the only men in my life"

  After dinner she returns to JP's house, he is in the living room with friends. She didn’t want to bother him with his visits, and goes directly to her bedroom. After all it’s his house, are his friends, it’s his life, she didn’t want to intrude in his life. JP noticed that she arrived at home, as she didn’t go up to the living room and he goes down to her bedroom. JP asks if everything’s okay with her. He realized that she looks a little bit pallid looking a bit ill, but she responds that everything is fine. He asks her to join him in the living room with his friends, his friends are asking for his wife and he would like to introduce her.

  "But JP, we are not a real couple"

  She protests.

  "My friends want to meet my wife, and that's what’s we are gonna give them tonight."

  He demands in an authoritative voice.

  "Are you expecting me to pretend to me your wife and that we are a happy couple just back from honeymoon?!"

  She asks inquiring him.

  "Yes I am, come with me"

  He grabs her by the hand and pulls her gently to get out of bed and go with him. In the room were three friends of JP, they should all be roughly the same age as JP, they all look good and were very friendly. When they saw Carolina they gave her a special welcome, somewhat exaggerated she found it was at least, but they put her immediately at ease. JP’s friends were very friendly and like to jokingly confess some JP habits. Carolina didn’t want to feed hopes, but didn’t want to imply that she was there just because they were living together just to get the divorce. One of JP’s friends, Rafael invited JP and Carolina to go to a party at his house the following weekend. Carolina said she would talk first with JP to know if they were available, but JP interrupted while they were talking and confirmed with his friend that they would be at his party at the same time passing his arm behind her back holding her giving her a kiss on the forehead.

  JP’s friends stayed another hour with animated conversation and drinking wine, and then they went for a night out. When they said goodbye at the door, they wished good luck to the couple, congratulate them for the marriage and saying that they seemed made for each other. They closed the door behind them, Carolina was preparing to go to her room, but JP held her hand, asking her:

  "Come sleep with me in my room."

  She looks at him, amazed at his request or maybe not, she takes a deep breath remember his words while he was dreaming last night, but it was just a dream, nothing more than that, thought that he was coming back to it, looks down to the floor and back again to him, answered:

  "I'd rather stay in my room, let's not mix things up, we don’t need to go back to make the same mistakes from the past. If you've forgotten I'm here only because we are forced to live together in order to obtain the divorce."

  While talking to him tried to let go of his hand when she finally succeeded, she went to her room. But he doesn’t give up and goes after her:

  "I think I've gotten used to having you around and like to sleep hugging you.

  The truth is I like to have you around, and I think I could get used having you around on a daily basis.

  If you don’t want to go up and sleep in my room let me stay here with you. After all we are still married we can sleep together"

  Carolina knew it, sooner or later he would give her some kind of trouble, and who would suffer as always would be her. She replied firmly:

  "Sorry, but I prefer to be here alone."

  He leaves and she closes the door behind him and looking the door. That night none of them could sleep. Early in the morning unable to sleep Carolina decides to start reading to be distracted when she heard a light knock on the door.

  "Caroline let me in, I can’t sleep"

  She gets up, opens the door and asks:

  "What do you want from me?"

  "I want to sleep next to you, I need to feel the warmth of your body, I want to fall asleep smelling your hair. Please let me in."

  Begging her and leaning against the doorjamb waiting for an answer, waiting to feel her skin.

  He will never cross the line until she wants him again.

  Carolina almost felt sorry for him, it seemed like he genuinely needed her, or was he just trying again to get close to her to get lucky. For how long would she able to deny him. She let him in, he seemed genuinely needing her, because she never saw him like that, lately she notice that he was different with her, but she was not sure if something had really changed or if it’s part of a plan. But knowing a little bit of JP he is very direct and honest with her, so he not into games with her.

  She stayed in silence without uttering a word because she rather stays in silence then dare to say something that could regret later. They lay on the bed and she picks up the book to continue reading, he comes near her, making her heart shoot with his touch, with the warmth of his body, and its unique and delicious smell. Carolina tries to focus on the book, but with their bodies touching against each other getting spooned and his arm over her body, was difficult to read anything at all. He lifts his head to see which book she is reading, but says nothing. Since none seemed interested in sleep, she turns slightly to him and asks:

  "Do you like to read? Who are your favourite writers?"

  He says

  "I love to read and I love to read your body, walking my hands through your skin, smell your wonderful scent that intoxicates me that makes me coming back for more, taste your sweet and delicious essence"

  She turns to him, leans on her elbow to get higher pushing him with her hand on his chest forcing him to turn around and get to look at the ceiling, asking him:

  "Have you been drinking?!"

  "Just a little bit, I couldn’t fall asleep"

  He says with an innocent smile to apologize for being caught. He tried to hold her to hide his face in her hair like a child who has just been caught doing a prank. Carolina closes her eyes to feel the embrace, his face in her hair, felt his breath on her neck, his beard rubbing her neck. She enjoys the moment.

  She misses him so much, she feels that he needs her genuinely and she needs him to, maybe they could have another chance. She wanted him so badly.

  Then she does something she tried to avoid at all costs to happen, she takes the initiative and seeks with her lips his lips, kissing each other gently touching lips with lips unhurriedly savouring every second, it circumvents the lips with lips with their tongues, he seeks with his tongue hers. Both lying, kissing and hugging each other without saying a word, wishing time stand still forever like this.

  She moves away a bit stopping kissing him, looking at him, touching his face and his beard covering his face with her fingers of her right hand as he leaned on his elbow with his head in his other hand.

  "Are you sure you want me? I am not appealing to you? Are yo
u kissing me because you want to, right? "

  He needs to know.

  Carolina goes with her hand over his face and kisses him again.

  "I desire you, as always wanted you. But you never wanted me the same way I wanted you. I still don’t know if we are getting there, because every time I think we move one step forward we go two steps back again"

  He looks at her with his intense blue eyes that penetrate her soul, involving her gently bringing her against his body, kissing her and rolling at the same time her body to get on top of her. She feels immediately his erection starting to rise against her, and she is ready for him.

  He leans and says at her ear:

  “I want to make love to you. Do you want me the way I want you?!”

  “I do”

  Going with his head back, looking in her eyes, she leans against him meeting his lips and giving him a sweet and long kiss. She undresses him, he undresses her, throwing the clothes out of bed, falling anywhere in the room. They are both naked, he on top of her, keeping contact eyes on eyes, caressing her face and her hair with his fingers, moving slowly on top of her with his body opening her legs with his legs. Unaided and without any resistance, he finds his way in with his hardiness going with just one stroke the whole way, always kissing her and caressing her body. Carolina felt his weight, his smell, his kisses all over her body, she felt him filling her again and again in a coordinate rhythm. It doesn’t take long until she starts to fell a sense of pleasure invading her entire body.

  His hands firmly gripped the bed whenever he entered into her with his full length making her moaning about to explode, stopping inside her to extend pleasure and the need she felt to get an orgasm, forcing her to embrace him with her arms and hands his back, stick her fingernails in his skin, frustrated because she couldn’t get a release. She raises her legs and crosses them over his legs, trapping him and pulling him to her whenever he gets inside her changing her hands from his back to his hips to get well with the aid of the legs and hands trying to force him to stay deep inside her to give her an orgasm. He knew she couldn’t hold much more and so couldn’t he, he was so full of desire for her.