Without A Pail

by Michelle Marra

  “You seriously don’t remember, do you?” Jackie watched with a smirk while Jill’s face contorted in confusion.

  Jill, now with a cocktail in her hand joined her guest on the sofa, “Remember what?” Jill regarded the woman with the pursed-up lips and cocky smile sitting to her left. Oh shit…those eyes. The memories came rushing back to her; the park, the girl in the motorcycle helmet and the unwanted advances just last evening. “Oh my God.” Jill placed her drink on the end table and covered her face with both hands as she shook her head rapidly from side to side as if that was going to erase her bad behavior.

  Jill looked over at her guest with complete embarrassment, “No wonder you wanted nothing to do with me the last night.”

  Jackie let out a cocky grunt thinking, you’ve got to be kidding me. “What you’re pissed off because I didn’t let you seduce me? I have a girlfriend.”

  “No, I’m not pissed off. I won’t deny that I was very attracted to you. But this is all new to me and I’m really not sure how to go about all this, so I’m sorry about coming on a little too strong.”

  “A little! It was way more than a little.” Jackie’s voice rose with the anger which was beginning to surface.

  “Look, I’m sorry. I don’t know what else I can say, that’s why I sent the flowers. I was hoping…”

  “Hoping for what? A date, a hookup…someone to break in the ‘lesbo virgin’.” Jackie air quoted lesbo virgin for emphasis.

  “Hey, shouldn’t have been a stretch for you since you’re such a player.”

  “I have a girlfriend.”

  “Ha…yes you do, but Casey wasn’t the one you were all over at the restaurant last night.” Jill was furious. “I don’t know why I was ever interested in you.”

  Jackie squared her shoulders and smirked at the woman whose face seemed to be turning a few shades of red. “I don’t know either…I’m certainly not interested in you.”

  Jill’s face fell, she couldn’t believe Jackie was so openly cruel and she wondered if this was the trademark of all lesbians. “You know what…you’re a fucking asshole.”

  “Fuck you!” Jackie yelled as she stood up. “I’m outta here.”

  “Go, by all means. I’m sure your other girlfriend is waiting for you.”

  Jackie spun around, she was ready to give this woman a taste of her own lecturing medicine. Jackie was furious. She was ready to spit fire and unleash the bitch in her that had been formed by the constant critical force of lesbian bitches she had the misfortune of fucking. But just as she went to open her mouth, the door opened and in walked Casey with a tall dark-haired woman which she figured was Meredith and the reason they were all there…to help the newbie lesbo get her feet wet. “Keep your mouth shut about Suzanne,” She whispered over her shoulder.

  “Hey Case,” Jackie smirked as she approached her girlfriend, whispering ‘hi’ as she walked past Meredith before grabbing Casey and pulling her into a passionate kiss which she hoped would burn Jill’s ass.

  After rolling her eyes out of her head; Jill stood up and extended her hand, “Hi, you must be Meredith. It is so nice to meet you. Casey has told me a lot of good things about you.”

  Meanwhile, Casey beginning to feel uncomfortable with Jackie’s overzealous display of affection tried her best to push Jackie’s tongue from her mouth and hands from her ass. “Well, I’m so glad you’re happy to see me.” Casey smiled as she sheepishly looked at the other two women seeing the uncomfortable looks on their faces. She shook her head and turned her attention back to Jackie, “Sorry I’m late, we got hung up. I thought I would get here before you. How did your meeting go?”

  Jackie’s insides began to quiver at the recent memory of Suzanne. “Oh, my meeting finished sooner than expected.” Her voice was a little too shaky and she hoped Casey wouldn’t pick up on it. But when she heard Jill spit out her drink with a cocky laugh she could have throttled her right then and there.

  “You alright?” Casey asked as she stepped closer to her boss.

  “Yeah…sure, just went down the wrong pipe.” Her face lit up with amusement when she saw the death stare coming from Jackie.

  Chapter 15

  “Wow, everything smells amazing,” Meredith said as she winked at her hostess. “Please tell me you didn’t toil in the kitchen all day just for us.”

  Jill’s face warmed slightly, she hadn’t toiled in the kitchen…in fact she couldn’t remember the last time she cooked anything other than heating up leftover Chinese food in the microwave. However, there was a time when everything she served came out of her kitchen and made from her own hands. She enjoyed planning the menus and wowing her guests with her incredible cooking skills. But that seemed like a lifetime ago…gone were the days of her swanky house parties.

  After James had died she lost her drive and basically her will to live. Friends she had by the plenty seemed to be absent from her life during those dark days. She not only lost her beloved son, she lost everything.

  Jill shook the dank memories from her head and smiled at Meredith, “Oh no, I’m sorry to say that this spread is all catered. This party was kind of impromptu so I really didn’t have time to prepare a menu or a feast.”

  Jill’s eyes took her to the blonde standing off to the side stuffing a piece of pizza in her mouth and smiled when their eyes connected.

  “But I certainly know my way around a kitchen and can wow anyone with my cooking.”

  “Just cooking?” Meredith said as she stepped close to Jill popping a stuffed mushroom in her mouth.”

  Jill swallowed hard, Meredith was definitely invading her personal space. “Um, I have other skills,” she said as she stepped away and giggled nervously.

  Jackie watched the exchange between Jill and Meredith while she gulped down her beer. Casey was standing next to her talking about something, she wasn’t sure what since her focus was directed at Jill twisting her hair and biting her lip. She was a big fat flirt and it was making Jackie nauseous. Then she focused on Meredith, tall, lanky with a head full of long dark hair. She was seemingly attractive, but Jackie could see what was underneath that charming exterior. Meredith reminded her of Suzanne and how her first chance meeting with the redhead and the over the top southern charms turning her into a timid school girl.

  “Hey,” Jackie said as she snagged a langostino from a tray. As she approached the couple she could see by the look on Meredith’s face that the interruption was not welcomed causing her to inwardly smile.

  “Sorry to interrupt,” Jackie said while displaying her signature smile, “Can you tell me what this delicious looking thing is?” She knew what it was, she just needed to upset Meredith’s apple cart. Jackie didn’t like the woman, she could see a predatory look in her eyes and she didn’t like it one bit.

  Jill’s face lit up when she saw Jackie and her gorgeous smile approaching her and she gestured her to the buffet table. “These are langostinos…petite, very petite lobster tails. They are essentially shrimp with a little more flair.”

  Jackie could see Meredith’s face in her peripheral vision looking none too happy. She didn’t know why she wanted to through a wrench in the works, but she just didn’t trust that woman and knew her only objective was to deflower the lesbo virgin and the thought of that made her insides burn with jealousy.

  As Jackie popped the tiny crustacean into her mouth she let out a moan of appreciation, “Wow, this is fabulous.”

  “They are quite good,” Jill said while her gaze fixed on Jackie’s mouth. But when she saw the blonde smile, her eyes found those blue orbs again and again she could feel the weakening in her legs. She hated that she was attracted to this blue-eyed chippy, especially knowing what she now knows.

  “Why don’t we try some of this,” Casey said as she pulled Jackie by her arm. “What the hell are you doing?”

  “Nothing, was just getting some particulars on these delicious bites,” Jackie said while throwing another tiny lobster in her mouth.

  “Looked like yo
u were flirting with her,” Casey whispered as her eyes trailed to the couple of the hour reunited in conversation.

  “Really Case…don't be ridiculous.”

  “Well, can you back off? I brought Meredith here for a reason, it was to break in the newbie…not you.”

  Jackie’s focused left the annoyed look on her girlfriend’s face and found Jill back to twirling her hair and biting her lip, she couldn’t understand why it bothered her considering the disdain they had for each other…just that it did.

  The four of them sat on the sofas with Molly lying as close to her master as she could, her large black and tan head rested on her bare feet. Jill decided to change her clothes since all her guests were dressed casual, she felt a little overdressed and with the obvious scoping coming from Meredith was making her more nervous than she had anticipated. Yes, she wanted to have the woman panting but in reality, she wasn’t ready for any kind of encounters this evening, particularly a sexual one. And the look on Meredith’s face whenever their eyes met sent a very loud and clear message. It was one she didn’t think she was ready for, after all, she had just met this woman and while she wanted to get her feet wet…she wasn’t ready to do a cannonball into the deep end. However, just being in the room with these three lesbians had her sexually charged enough and her only interest in sex tonight would be with the new toy she bought online.

  It was a silicon replica of a woman’s vaginal area. Since her experience with women was nonexistent and her memories of oral sex on her were a bleak and faded memory, she had to do something to practice. Not only was the model of the vagina quite lifelike in every way imaginable, but she also purchased a book titled; How to Pleasure Your Woman. She started reading the book two nights ago, which could be why she was so hot-to-trot in the restaurant the previous evening, but she couldn’t yet bring herself to touch the ‘real feel’ of the faux pussy. However now being so charged and stimulated by just the thought of these women and their sexual escapades. I’ll bet each one of them has licked a woman before, Jill thought as she squirmed a little in her seat.

  Jill sat quietly watching the three of them interact, talking about everything and nothing…she wasn’t sure since she really wasn’t paying attention. Her mind went back to the porn video she mistakenly watched entitled The Lesbian Dinner Party. Naïve in her thoughts when she clicked the link thinking it was some type of a home décor show, similar to what she had watched on the Cooking Network. And now into her second martini and feeling very warm and adventurous, she thought the lesbian licking orgy wasn’t such a bad idea after all. These women all know I’m a newbie…maybe they are thinking the same thing…maybe they all want their shot at fucking the lesbian-virgin.

  Jill could barely contain herself and before she made a fool of herself again, she pushed the filth from her head and began to participate in their conversation. She couldn’t believe at forty-five years old that her libido was all of a sudden in high gear.

  “Meredith?” Jill interrupted, “How do you know Casey?” She was sitting directly across from her and Jackie, Casey was sitting to her right. When all eyes fell upon her, she began to fill a bit self-conscious, especially the crystal blue ones which felt like they were searing holes through her skull.

  Meredith smiled as she adjusted herself on the sofa, “I’ve known Casey since college. We were in the same dorm room for two years.” Meredith smiled when she spotted Jill’s jaw unhinge. “I can see the question in your eyes and the answer is yes…we were an item.”

  Jill looked over at Casey suddenly sitting quietly next to her, “You’re setting me up with your ex?”

  “Jill, don’t worry. Casey and I are great friends and haven’t been a thing in a decade.”

  Jill’s attention fell back on the lanky dark-haired beauty sitting across from her. “What happened? If you don’t mind me asking?”

  Meredith leaned back into the cushion and gestured over to Casey. Jill wasn’t the only one intrigued, Jackie was quite curious as well and wondered if Casey had this great romance which ended friendly, why wouldn’t she have said anything? Jackie had come clean about the entire Suzanne ordeal and would have mentioned if they were still friends and seeing each other from time to time. But then the reasoning voice in her head clamped down when realizing she was a bit of a hypocrite for not telling her girlfriend that her ex was back town, not to mention having had several text conversations and sex on two occasions. Now Jackie was feeling flush as guilt began to twist her stomach into a knot and hoped Casey wouldn’t notice how fidgety she was all of a sudden. Even though they proclaimed the relationship between the two of them was just casual, it was still exclusive. And with this thought in her head, Jackie became more and more unsettled in her seat. Casual or not, you are cheating on your girlfriend. Jackie’s conscience was screaming at her so loudly she believed someone else would hear it and after catching the knowing glance of Jill, she shrank down into her seat with an image of a huge scarlet ‘A’ flashing on her forehead. Jackie tried her best to concentrate on what Casey was saying in her explanation of the end of her college romance, but barely heard a word.

  “Um, it’s really simple. Meredith was accepted to Brown for her MBA, but instead decided to go to Stanford for a degree in Finance. There wasn’t a way for me to follow her and California is far away as you know…so, we just figured it was the best thing to do and broke up.”

  “We had a short fling when I came back into town…but the magic was gone and we decided to only be friends and have been ever since.” Meredith took a long sip from her wine glass.

  Jackie watched as Casey’s eyes glazed over as if her mind took her on a trip to memory lane. “Are you okay over there?”

  Casey regained her focus then smiled at the concerned look on her lover’s face. “I’m fine. Why don’t we go get some fresh air and let these two chat.”

  “Sounds good, lead the way,” Jackie looked Jill in the face as she stood from the sofa, “Don’t do anything I wouldn’t do.”

  “Asshole,” Jill said under her breath as Jackie and Casey left the room. Then with a nervous smile she regarded the woman staring far too intently. “Um, can I refill your glass?” Jill stood up realizing that she was alone in a room with a lesbian who seemed very interested in more than talking.

  “I’m okay for now. So this is your coming out party…Casey tells me you were married and now you think you may be gay.”

  Jill quirked an eyebrow, “Well that is certainly a shortened version of it.” She returned to the sofa with a fresh martini and took a long sip from the glass. When she returned her attention back to her guest the look of desire and want in Meredith’s facial expression caused her to blush and divert her eyes. “This was all Casey’s idea. She thought I needed some type of ‘coming out’ party and I guess thought I needed a little help finding my way. But in all reality what I would like to do is explore these desires and feelings I have and think I’ve always had.”

  Jill’s throat went instantly dry as she watched Meredith change seats and sat dangerously close to her. It took every ounce of strength not to see the woman in her peripheral vision leaning closer and when she felt Meredith’s hand on her upper thigh every ounce of breath left her body and she felt faint.

  “Have you ever kissed a woman?” Meredith whispered softly into Jill’s ear.

  Jill’s voice failed her and all she could manage to say was with a dry squeak, “No.”

  “I would like to be the one to kiss you first. Would that be okay?” Not waiting for an answer, Meredith pushed Jill’s dark chestnut hair behind her ear as she placed soft kisses to her ear, jaw, and neck. “I would like to show you the amazing mysteries of pleasuring a woman.”

  Jill’s heartbeat quickened at the rate of a sparrow’s as her throat tightened creating a juxtaposed feeling of excitement and fear which was beginning to make her nauseous. She tried to clear the dust from her dry throat, “Um…what about Casey and Jackie.”

  Jill could feel Meredith’s face dra
w up into a grin against her shoulder where she pulled the neck opening of the shirt aside to kiss the soft flesh at the base of Jill’s neck. “Don’t worry about them, if I know Casey, I’m sure one of them is being fucked up against a wall out there.”

  Jill’s eyes widened. Really? Is this what all lesbian dinner parties turn into? One big make-out party. Until she imagined Jackie’s hand in Casey pants and the thought pissed her off and made her jealous…wishing she was the one pressed against the wall while the blue-eyed hottie gave her a new appreciation for getting to third base.

  Then Meredith drew her knees up onto the couch for a better angle, “You are so beautiful," she said while pushing Jill’s hair behind her ear. “There’s no reason to be nervous. I’ll be gentle.”

  The statement made Jill’s loins begin to burn with desire.

  “Can I kiss you now?”

  Jill swallowed hard and she slowly turned her head, her guts were twisted up in such a way it was making her head spin…but her brain screamed Oh my God, she is going to kiss me! And when Meredith began to lower her head and lick her lips, Jill closed her eyes and waited for the soft lips to caress hers. She wanted this kiss…to feel the passion, the desire to take over in the heat of this kiss, and the excitement mixed with pure desire was causing the wetness to gather between her legs. It was at that moment Jill didn’t care where this kiss took her and would deal with the consequences of it later. Right now all she wanted was the sweet release of orgasm by anyone else’s hand but her own and if Meredith wanted to seduce her tonight, there was just enough booze coursing through her veins to let it happen.

  Meredith gently pushed Jill into the sofa while simultaneously gathering the hostess’ legs as she eased herself onto the clearly anxious woman.

  Jill was amazed that this woman seemed to be taking it upon herself to be the one to initiate her into the ‘lesbian club’ and was taken aback by her brash assumption that it was okay…although Jill hadn’t yet objected especially when she felt the pressure between her legs from Meredith's thigh grinding into her with just enough force to send her into orbit. It was all happening so fast and Jill wondered was this the lesbian way. But the look of unadulterated desire in this woman’s dark almost black eyes was like a beacon she could not look away from and when the full weight of Meredith’s body crashed down upon her she could barely handle the anticipation of what was to come next…that kiss.