Without A Pail

by Michelle Marra

  A kiss between two women which for years only held fantasy in her head as if she was watching others engage in the sweet exchange of passion. But that was not the case of late, the fantasy had taken on her participation with the faceless object of her dreams until last week when she attached every one of them to Jackie Evan’s face. And now while her resolve was weakening and her heart hammering to near explosion, Jill could only take in what was happening at this moment…seduction. It felt like an eternity waiting for Meredith to press that sweet mouth onto her own and Jill had a suspicion her seductress was purposely toying with her, not to mention that the suspense was about to drive her mad. Damn this girl knows what she’s doing. Jill was about to abandon every ‘no sex’ argument she had engaged in with herself and toss it out the window. She wanted to know and wanted Meredith to show her all the amazing mysteries…but when Jill closed her eyes it wasn’t Meredith’s face that filled her mind, it was Jackie’s. Unsure as to why there was still an attraction and a fondness for the blonde, blue-eyed girl after knowing the dirty little secret, but there was no denying it…Jill wanted her.

  Meredith’s lips gently grazed hers, soft and wet and Jill could taste the sweetness of wine, just before Meredith sank into it and now she could feel the full weight of the kiss and was utterly amazed how a closed mouth kiss could be so hot. But it was, and now she was fully present in this and her thigh was pressing hard between Meredith’s legs as her hands wildly tangled in the black locks. Jackie who, she thought when Meredith’s tongue gently pushed passed her lips and into her mouth.

  Jill couldn’t believe the how sensual and passionate this, for all intents and purposes, foreplay was. Her kiss was soft, sweet and supple. No whiskers scraping delicate skin, no rough or careless groping, and no selfish sexual agendas. Foreplay with men seemed to boil down to the dropping of pants…not that she had much experience in the department and could only base that assumption on her experience with Bill. But this was nothing similar to past experiences. This was sensual, it was passionate, and it was downright mind-blowingly hot. Jill could have gotten off right then and there but certainly didn’t want her first orgasm given to her by a woman to be through her jeans. But damn that kissing was intense.

  The kiss broke leaving Jill out of breath and wanting more as their bodies melded together in a frenzy of lust. She gasped slightly feeling Meredith’s teeth in the flesh of her neck, biting and sucking the delicate skin while she pulled Jill’s legs apart and dropped her hips between them.

  “Oh God,” Jill whispered in a breathy moan. Now she really was in danger of losing her battle to the premature orgasm as Meredith began to grind on her. She had never been dry humped by a woman before, she didn’t think it was something girls did. If she had known, she might have tried talking her girl crush from High School, Roxanne, into trying it.

  “I want you,” Meredith said in a very seductive whisper into Jill’s ear.

  Before any other thought entered her brain to talk her out of it, she nodded her head. What the hell, she figured. She was halfway gone already, it certainly wouldn’t take much to send her over the edge…but she was also hoping that all the talks, books, TV shows, movies, and everything else she had read, heard, and watched about lesbian sex going on for hours, were true. She would just take Meredith to her room and lock the door, she figured Casey and Jackie would eventually figure it out and either leave or continue their sexual escapade on her sofa.

  Then she heard the patio door slam open and the sound of loud voices carrying in through the open space.

  “Dammit,” Jill said as Meredith practically threw herself to the other end of the couch.

  “I’m sorry Case. You know how much getting back into law means to me,” Jackie’s voice was raised to an irritated tone. “I have a lot of catching-up to do since I’ve neglected my cases for the one Jeff had me working on.” She glanced over at Jill with a smirk on her face…not wanting to divulge anything about her client.

  “Jack, I was hoping to hang out tonight,” Casey eyes fluttering with a wide grin on her face.

  “Rain check, okay Babe,” Jackie gazed into the pouting face of her girlfriend and kissed her on the nose. “Come on…I’m really beat. Enjoy the rest of the evening with your friends.” It was already 10:45 p.m. and she had hoped to be out of there by 10 p.m. How long was a dinner party supposed to last anyway? She figured when couples paired off it could go well into the morning hours, but she wasn’t in the mood to be fingered against the wall out on the patio while Jill’s virgin cherry was taken by some Mediterranean chippy. This isn’t what she came to this thing for…she thought it was to make Jill feel comfortable enough around lesbians and meet someone which could lead to dating, not fucking her on the couch. What were they…a bunch of porn stars?

  “It was really nice to meet you both and it is always good to see you, Molly.” Although Molly was sound to sleep on the floor. “This was fun Babe, I’ll call you tomorrow.” She kissed Casey on the cheek and began to walk toward the door.

  Casey walked over to the sofa and threw herself down in a huff and Meredith began to laugh at the woman obviously pouting on the other sofa. “Don’t laugh at me, looks like you were interrupted too.

  “Touché.”

  Jill followed Jackie to the door, “Hey, thanks for not spilling the whole messy divorce case.”

  Jackie smiled, “You know I can’t…I am bound by attorney-client privilege.”

  “On your way to see Suzanne?” Jill said, eyeing the blonde and seeing right past a stoic façade through to her nervous demeanor.

  “That’s none of your business. What business you should keep yourself aware of is that little viper in there. She wants to violate you in every way possible and is just looking for bragging rights about it. Don’t trust her.”

  “Don’t worry about me, I’m a big girl.” Jill stared into Jackie’s disdain filled eyes. “Really…you’re judging me?”

  “No, I’m just trying to warn you and you're quite naïve to think that woman in there is anything but a predator. You hook up with her and you will regret it.”

  “Oh really,” Jill said her hands firmly placed on her hips. “And what makes you such an expert?”

  “I’m sure this will only add fuel to the fire of your antipathy of me…but I was one of those women,” Jackie stepped out into the hall, she needed to get away from Jill, Casey and everything causing her to feel so guilt-ridden.

  Jill let out a cocky laugh, “Figures.”

  “Fuck you, your fancy house and your hoity-toity attitude,” Jackie was pissed off, she didn’t need the likes of Jillian Abbott, the self-righteous, pretentious bitch judging her. She spun on her heel and stalked off toward the elevator.

  Jill let the door close behind her as she watched Jackie storm away, she too was pissed off. “How dare she think I’m a snob…I’m nothing of the sort.” Jill mumbled through gritted teeth. “You know what, you are an imprudent little girl and your mother should have done a better job of raising you,” she yelled loud enough for Jackie to hear.

  The comment stung and Jackie visibly winced, but she didn’t turn around to give it any merit and certainly not to let Ms. Fancy Pants know it got under her skin. She did, however, extend her middle finger out from her right-hand plenty visible for Jill to see it as she walked onto the elevator. When the elevator door closed, Jackie allowed the tears to fall.

  “Bitch!” Jill yelled out in her anger. “Can’t believe I was ever interested in that judgmental hypocrite.”

  She took a deep breath and opened the door seeing Molly wagging her tail. “Hey girl!” She patted the dog’s head. Her night certainly had taken many turns from what she had originally planned, she certainly didn’t plan nor anticipate the groping session on the couch although she did enjoy it. However, needless to say, her libido was back in check and with it came to her senses. She picked up a bottle of water and rejoined her guests who were now out on the patio. Now with Jackie not here to occupy Casey, she was
sure Meredith would behave herself for the rest of the evening and eventually leave with Casey hopefully sooner rather than later since now her resolve had returned and the ‘no sex’ rule was back on the table.

  “What kept you so long?” Meredith asked as she gestured for Jill to come closer.

  “Oh just some shop talk. I wanted her legal opinion on a business matter.” Wanting to keep her distance and change the subject, Jill approached Casey seeing the hurt look on her face. “Are you okay?”

  Casey shrugged her shoulders. It was obvious that whatever went on while they were alone on the patio was more than just a disagreement about Jackie’s work. However, she was sure Casey was still in the dark about Suzanne…something she wished she didn’t know and keeping it from her friend wasn’t sitting well. But if she disclosed the information about Suzanne she would have to tell the whole story and she didn’t want any part of her divorce drama public.

  “Is everything okay with you and Jackie?” Jill asked as she placed her hand on Casey’s forearm as a gesture of concern.

  “I don’t know, she’s just been acting really weird for the past few days. I’ve hardly seen or talked to her basically since she went back into law and started working on some top-secret case.

  “Just give her time to adjust to being a lawyer again…she’ll figure out her schedule soon and it will stop being so all-consuming.” Meredith smiled as she sipped from her wine glass.

  “She’s right Casey, don’t read anything more into it.” Jill couldn’t believe she just said that blatantly covering for the cheating a-hole. But she felt she owed Jackie for her discovery of the Power of Attorney and what it will mean to her in the long run. She would just have to work on Jackie’s sense of decency and make a choice; although if she chose Casey it still wouldn’t be right to keep the truth from her. It was a no-win situation because anyway it played out she still knew something that should be disclosed to her friend and her keeping the secret was betraying the friendship almost as much as Jackie was with cheating on her.

  “Thanks,” Casey said as she tried to smile. “I’m ready to go. Thank you so much for a great party Jill. I did have a good time.”

  Jill stepped in and hugged her friend, “Well this was all your idea ya know.” She giggled as she stepped away.

  “Yeah, I know. It was fun though, wasn’t it? You still think you’re a lesbian?” Casey’s smile was wide this time as she smacked Jill on the arm.

  “Funny. Yes, I definitely want to continue exploring my curiosity…although I think it’s well passed that.” She smiled as her gaze fell upon the dark-haired woman with the cocky look on her face. “I hope we can do this again soon Meredith.”

  Meredith was somewhat disappointed, she was hoping to continue where they left off and was taken aback when Jill gave her her walking papers so to speak. “I certainly hope we can as well,” She said as she walked back into the living room with the other women. “Looks like we wore someone out.”

  Jill looked over at her fur-baby stretched out on the sofa sound asleep. We certainly did, I should take her out for a quick walk but I don’t want to disturb her. I think she’ll be alright for the night, but I’m sure she’ll have me up at the crack of dawn.

  Casey walked out the door. “I’ll hold the elevator for you,” She said leaving Jill and Meredith alone for a moment.

  What was she going to say to this woman who practically removed any remnant of rationale she had, turning her into a pool of turned on jelly. Even standing there now, this close to the woman whose hands were strong and gentle, whose lips were soft and inviting and whose eyes held something she could only describe as pure desire. It would be so easy to say ‘stay.’ Just thinking it made her lower belly tingle…but the magic of this particular evening was over. “So, it was um…really nice to meet you,” she finally said, trying to pull her gaze away from the temptress staring her down.

  “Humph…it certainly was very nice to meet you.” Meredith wasn’t going to ask to stay. If Jill was going to send her on her way, then that’s the way it will be, but there was no doubt in her head Jill would be back for her and soon. However, she was going to leave her with one last taste of Meredith Bertakis lips…while gently touching the side of Jill’s face and pushing some strands of hair behind her ear, she wrapped her arm around the small of Jill’s back, slowly pulling her close before capturing her mouth in one last kiss.

  With lips sliding together, tongues intertwined and hands roaming freely. Jill’s resolve was about to be shattered again and all she could think was, stay, stay, stay…take me! A part of Jill so wanted to allow Meredith to unleash what’s been hiding in her for thirty years. But the kiss ended and with it came a knowing smile that it was, in fact, Jill who would be eating her heart out this evening.

  Meredith touched her neck and smiled slyly, “Do call me soon.”

  And with that, she turned and walked down the corridor and into the waiting elevator without looking back.

  “Oh my God,” Jill said as she walked back into her condo too keyed up for anything other than her silicone vagina. It was time to get aquatinted with the female anatomy since she assumed it wouldn’t be long before there was a naked woman in her bed.

  She gave Molly a rawhide to chew on in her own bed so she could have her own for the night while experimenting with the new toy.

  Chapter 16

  Jackie sat in her car, actually Joni’s car, for at least thirty minutes after arriving at The Carlyle arguing with herself whether to go or stay. The justifications on each end of the argument were sound enough which made her even more confused. There was also the aspect of the night’s events hanging over her, especially with that stuck-up bitch Jill for laying judgment like she knew anything about Jackie’s life.

  “How dare she call me imprudent…and my mother did a fine job of raising me,” Jackie grumbled as she recalled her exchange and how Jill was standing there like she was the keeper of all things prudent, with the big purple mark on her neck. Jackie thought about pointing out the big hickie, after all, people in glass houses and all that, but figured it would be a waste of time and walked away.

  Then her thoughts took her to Casey and the argument on the patio. Her head just wasn’t in it and after Casey wouldn’t take no for an answer and practically shoved her hand down Jackie’s pants ignoring the firm protests, Jackie snapped, “dammit, I said no!” She had too much on her mind to go there…but Casey wouldn’t let up, so she pushed her away. The hurt and embarrassed look on Casey’s face made her feel like an even bigger asshole. If Suzanne weren’t a factor, she would have enjoyed the daring outdoor sex, but she couldn’t let Casey touch her with the guilt she was feeling about what happened earlier with Suzanne and the fact that that stuck-up bitch was in her thoughts. She knew what was going on inside between Meredith and Jill and she didn’t like it one bit, although she didn’t understand why she cared. The woman irritated the shit out of her.

  “Fuck!” Jackie slammed the steering wheel of the car. She knew it would be best to go home, to stay away from both women until she had herself figured out and made up her mind as to what she wanted. But the fact was, she already knew what she wanted and as much as she hated herself for being willing to venture down that road again…she had to give her another chance. How many opportunities does someone get with a second chance at love? Jackie asked herself, unsure whether she was talking herself into believing Suzanne really loved her or that she still loved Suzanne. Either way, she was going to do this, she was going to take a leap of faith in Suzanne Brooks again.

  “Fuck it…the heart wants what the heart wants, right?” Jackie stepped out of the car and handed the keys to the valet. “I’ll be staying the night,” she said as she walked past him, picked up the room key from the concierge and proceeded to the elevator.

  As she stepped onto the elevator, tears welled up in her eyes. “I’m sorry Casey,” she said aloud as she cleared her throat trying to bite back the tears. “I’ll tell her tomorrow…
I can’t keep doing this to her.”

  Jackie slid the room key into the slot on the door and the green light flickered with a click to indicate the door was unlocked. It was after 11:30 p.m., not exactly late, but later than Jackie said she be there and wasn’t sure if Suzanne was still awake; so she eased the door open quietly unsure what she would find. It was dark and quiet inside, so she figured Suzanne had gotten tired of waiting and fell asleep. But Suzanne did say come, no matter what the time was, so slowly she stepped through the threshold softly closing the door behind her. As she turned around, a figure stood not more than six inches away causing a shriek from her throat.

  “Holy shit! Dammit, Suzanne you scared the shit out of me,” Jackie held her hand to her chest trying to recover, her heart now pounding hard and fast. “Why were you sneaking up on me?”

  “I was hoping you’d come.” Suzanne’s voice low and breathy as she reached for Jackie, tangling her hands into the blonde locks and pulling her close with force. Ignoring the whimper, Suzanne’s dark eyes captured Jackie’s blue eyes holding them with such a laser focus Jackie couldn’t look away if she tried.

  “I thought about you all day and what you did to me this afternoon.”

  Suzanne’s body connected with Jackie’s as she moved her slowly back until the resistance of the door hindered any further movement.