Without A Pail

by Michelle Marra

  “Oh don’t worry Love, you won’t need them tonight.”

  Jill glanced over toward the bathroom but could only see a figure in the shadow until Jackie stepped out into the dim light of the room causing Jill’s eyes to instantly cast downward to the apparatus Jackie was wearing. A harness of some sort that looked like a pair of those girl-shorts she always wore with one exception, there was a very real looking and enormous phallus hanging from the front of them.

  “Didn’t they have a beginner’s model?” Jill nervously chewed on her lower lip as she watched Jackie strode slowly toward her.

  “You, my dear, are not a beginner.”

  “Um…maybe not, but I’ve never had anything like that.” Jill slowly backed away until she was flush against the wall and her eyes took in another sight; something dangling from Jackie’s hand. What the hell is that? Her eyes shut as she tried to swallow the dryness in her throat. Holy fuck, is that a whip? “I’m not sure…”

  “Don’t you trust me Baby?”

  “I do, but…”

  Jackie stepped forward and pressed the toy against Jill’s midsection. “Oh the things I want to do to you.”

  Jill looked down when she felt the toy slide between her legs, pushing against her clit, pulling a pleasured groan from her throat.

  “I want to take you somewhere you’ve never been. Are you ready?” Jackie said in a haunting whisper.

  Jill lifted her chin slightly and when she regained her focus, the eyes she was gazing into were wild, almost dangerous the way they were teeming with passion and desire. She nodded her head, a little unsure what Jackie had in mind…but a desire was born and she was ready to be taken.

  “Good, now move your legs apart.”

  “Right here, maybe on the bed would be better,” Jill tried to slide out from between Jackie and the wall, but to no avail when Jackie’s hands found the wall on each side of Jill’s head.

  “Shhh, I want you here. Just do what I say,” Jackie said as she moved the phallus between Jill’s legs, allowing her lover to feel it as it slid against her center.

  Jill didn’t pull her gaze away until she felt the sting to her right thigh.

  “If you don’t do what I ask, I’m gonna have to punish you.”

  Slack-jawed, Jill searched Jackie’s eyes without finding a shred of humor or a glint of a joke…but this toe-headed woman with the black leather bra and devious smile was not kidding. So before she felt the sting of the leather strap again, she moved her right leg over.

  “Good girl,” Jackie took a step back and admired the half-naked woman pressed against the wall. She looked vulnerable, innocent and almost frightened. “Don’t be afraid my dear,” Jackie slapped the flattened end of her crop gently against Jill’s neither region.

  A gasp fell from her throat and her chest began to heave. This was strangely exciting and what was to come was turning her on. Jill wondered as she looked down to see the riding crop between her legs. She watched as it was lowered and then slapped against her again. Each time the flattened part of the whip was brought up it was with more force and each time Jill let out a yelp.

  “Don’t look at it, look at me,” Jackie reached out and lifted Jill’s chin until their eyes met. “Take off your bra.”

  Jackie pushed the whip between Jill’s legs rubbing her clit and watched in delight as her eyes began to flutter. When the bra hit the floor, Jackie slapped her with the crop again. “Pinch them, both of them…hard.”

  Jill was in some type of trance, she had never experienced any type of S&M, although had recently read a lesbian fiction novel laced which ventured into the waters and she found it oddly arousing. She had seen a different ‘Jackie’ in the last few times they’ve been together romantically, but she didn’t think this was a fantasy of hers…but Jill was game to allow Jackie to introduce her to the world of domination. And now, in the midst of Jackie slapping her pussy with the riding crop and her pinching her own nipples, she felt the building of an orgasm and knew with another whack she would be slamming her head against the wall trying to keep herself upright. But just like that, the thwacks stopped and she felt the crop hit her foot when Jackie released it from her grip.

  “Look at me,” Jackie’s eyes were on her with such a dark and intense stare. She could see Jill trembling when their eyes met.

  Jill heard the command although her hearing was dulled and her eyes were tearing, almost burning. And when she looked into her lover’s eyes, she could see it again…the reflection of herself in Jackie’s soul. That look, those eyes…that smile. “Ah!”

  “Relax,” Jackie said in a low sultry tone.

  “Oh my God.” Jill’s eyes started to burn. How the fuck could she relax feeling that gargantuan thing trying to enter her. She gripped onto Jackie’s shoulders, her teeth biting into the flesh while her lover pressed the lubed up toy deeper and further into her until the band of muscles gave way and it filled every ounce of space she had.

  Jill wasn’t sure if the gasp that flew from her lips was laced with pain, pleasure or a mixture of both. But when Jackie pushed the toy completely inside her, she felt a euphoria that she had never felt before. “Oh fuck.” She whispered into her lover’s neck as she held on for dear life, there was no more functionality to her legs and she wasn’t sure how she was standing at all.

  Jackie’s movements were slow and precise…pulling out and pressing in with deep thrusts she watched Jill’s face contort in pleasure. Her head thrown back, her mouth agape and her eyes rolled back into her skull as if it was a permanent state. She knew Jill was on the edge and she wanted to amp it up and bring the love of her life to a vocal cord shattering scream. One that would live in the rafters of the lodge for decades to come.

  Jill couldn’t speak, she could barely breathe and all she could see was white flashes behind her eyelids. The pleasure she was feeling was on the edge of painful, still not quite used to the girth of their toy…but what was building was almost unbearable and when she felt Jackie quicken her thrusts she was sure a heart attack would ensue from the way her heart hammered against her ribcage.

  Then suddenly the white flashes in her eyes disappeared as she pinched them tightly shut, then an array of words filled her ears, not something she thought to say…not anything that came to mind…just words derived from a place of primal passion she never knew existed. But when the floodgates opened and she felt the burn of ecstasy deep within her she let out a scream that instantly stung her throat and with it came of deluge fluids which she felt stream down her legs.

  Heaving for breath, Jill stood motionless against the wall on very wobbly legs. Eyes still clamped shut, she placed a hand on her chest. Yes, her heart was still racing, she could feel its pulse in her temples and wondered if she was having a stroke. She didn’t realize Jackie slipped out of her when she finally opened her stinging eyes and focused in on the devious smile on lovers face. The corners of her mouth turned up into a small smile and she let out a nervous laugh, “I hope you are just gloating over your work and you don’t have any other intentions,” Jill said through labored breaths.

  “Get on the bed.”

  “Jackie…if you want to do that again, I think I’ll need another drink first.”

  Jackie shook her head as she crouched down to pick up her riding crop before whacking Jill across the thigh with it. “Get on the bed.”

  Jill sucked her bottom lip into her mouth, she thought being dominated like this was strangely exciting. As she climbed onto the mattress, she heard another command, ‘on your hands and knees’ causing her to swallow hard. “Oh God,” she said before she felt the first of many whacks to her ass. The sting of being slapped at any other time would have prompted a painful ‘ouch’, but now when she was so sexually amped up all she wanted was Jackie to go at her again with the large silicon dick hanging off her shorts.

  Then suddenly the wallops stopped. “I’m sorry I had to punish you for being a bad girl.”

  “What?” Jill’s brow knitted togethe
r in confusion. “When was I bad?” she whispered before she felt the tip of the toy behind her for a second before Jackie slid the length of it into her vagina. “Oh fuck! Oh Baby, I’m not sure I can do this…an…knee…more.” Jill’s voice trailed off and was replaced with moans, groans, grunts and voice box burning screams. Jackie wasn’t slow this time, she wasn’t gentle…not that being fucked with a goliath sized dildo was ever gentle; this time Jackie went at it…fast and hard, giving Jill a plethora of orgasms before she retracted the toy, pushed her girlfriend down, rolled her over and pushed her legs open.

  “Oh God…Jack, I can’t do this again.” Jill’s voice weak from her throat being dry and feeling cracked.

  “Oh Baby, this ride ain’t over yet.”

  Jackie pushed the member into Jill, but this time she was slow as she gently eased it through Jill’s center. Her body was soaked with sweat, her legs were wavering on the verge of collapse, but she had to look into her eyes and watch the pleasure consume her.

  Their gazes locked and suddenly the only sounds Jackie could here was Jill’s pounding heartbeat and her labored breath. She needed to kiss her, she needed to feel Jill’s tongue on hers…she wanted to relish this moment. The way their bodies melded together, writhing in sync, touching, pulling, and scratching…it was at that moment Jill felt as if they were one.

  “Oh Darling…please come with me.” Jill whispered into Jackie’s ear as she felt teeth bear into her neck.

  Jackie quickened her pace when Jill asked so sweetly to join her in ecstasy. She was on the edge of something that was about to erupt like Mount Vesuvius. Jill’s nails were tearing at the flesh of her back, digging into her scalp, tangling and pulling at her hair…and as much as she had left in her, she let it out and gave Jill every ounce of her soul. And with the harmony of the sweet sigh, Jackie raised her head to gaze into her lover’s eyes just as ecstasy took them both into orgasmic rapture.

  Jackie’s body fell limp atop of Jill, her chest heaved for breath and her muscles burned from exhaustion. Then she heard a soft whimper just before Jill wrapped her legs and arms around Jackie tightly and began to sob.

  Jill wasn’t sad, she wasn’t hurt…she was in love, for the very first time in her life…Jillian Warner was in love.

  Chapter 30

  Jill winced when the beam of light blared through the window making its way through the room darkening drapes and into her face. The pain radiated through her skull even before she opened her eyes and she silently chastised herself for drinking three more drinks. Jackie had a heavy hand with the vodka and she should have known better than to keep drinking. But their night was amazing, she had never been so sexually awakened in her life. She smiled at the memory then quickly groaned when a pain shot through her head like a lightning bolt. Forcing her burning eyes open she turned from the glare of sunshine cascading through the drapes and gingerly pushed herself from the bed. She knew if she got up too quickly the pain in her head would have intensified. Once upright, she wobbled to the bathroom and shut the door without turning the light on.

  Minutes later she reemerged in search of a beverage, something without alcohol and with seltzer to calm her nauseous belly. The room was dark and light with the sun streaming through cracks where the drapes were drawn haphazardly in a drunken stupor. She didn’t see the apparatus on the floor and when she stepped on it, she screamed and proceeded to flail, lose her balance and crash onto the floor.

  “What the hell?” she said, the words raspy from a sore throat which was overused the night before with continual screams of ecstasy. “Jack…I tripped over your dick.” Giggling as she rubbed her left hip since it took the brunt of the impact. “Jackie,” she yelled out again as she craned her neck to see if her lover was still asleep. “Are you still sleeping? Lord knows you certainly wore yourself out last night.”

  When she didn’t get a response, she pushed herself up and walked over to the empty bed. Instantly she became anxious without a clue as to why…spinning on her heel, she looked around the darkened and disheveled room in confusion wondering where Jackie went and why she didn’t wake her before leaving. After all the sexual escapades the night before should have not only bonded them for life but joined them at the hip as well, or at least Jill thought. Surrendering that much of her soul last night should have accounted for at least a ‘hey Babe, I’ll be back in a minute.’ Crossing her arms over her still naked chest she let out a huff, unsure what to do with herself at that moment she went in search of some clothing.

  She carefully donned a pair of jeans over her sensitive lady parts and pulled the sweatshirt over her head, she pulled open the drapes nearly blinding herself in the process. After her eyes adjusted to the sun and the reflection of the snow, she scanned the beautiful landscape. It was breathtaking. It looked like at least a foot of fresh snow had fallen during the night. Everything sparkled and shimmered in the white brilliance of the snow as the sun reflected off its icy flecks. Unable to pull her focus from the beauty of Mother Nature until a familiar red-headed wench spoiled Jill’s view by just her mere presence. Jill thought about the conversation she and Jackie had before a venture into the world of sadomasochism. She wanted to give Suzanne a piece of her mind and the more she thought about it, the better she liked the idea.

  Rushing into the bathroom, she threw three headache pills down her throat with a diet coke as a chaser. Donned her Uggs, coat, scarf and gloves and walked out of the room without remembering to grab a key card for when she returned. After she caught up with the red-headed viper, she would look for her MIA girlfriend. As she stood in front of the elevators, she heard a familiar voice behind her. She spun around so fast she gave herself a head rush. Jill placed a hand on her forehead trying to gather herself, once the cobwebs cleared she glared at the woman who wore the cocky smile.

  “You look a little worse for the wear,” Meredith said as she stepped into Jill’s space pulling her into an unwanted hug. “It is nice to see you.”

  Jill stepped out of the embrace and with a look of disdain she said, “Really?”

  Meredith ignored the flippant comment as she quirked an eyebrow giving Jill a once over, “Seems the whole lesbian sex thing is going well. I just saw Jackie and…”

  “Wait a minute, where did you see her?” Jill asked with her hands firmly gripping her hips.

  “About ten minutes ago, she was in the lounge on her cell when Suzanne and I were coming out of the restaurant.” Meredith narrowed her eyes, “You okay?”

  “Of course I’m okay.” Jill’s voice went up an octave. “Speaking of Suzanne, where is she? I have something I need to discuss with her.” Jill was acting erratic, but she couldn’t seem to settle down; between the pain in her head, the nausea in her stomach and the disturbing feeling of waking up alone in a strange place…she just couldn’t get herself together.

  “She’s in the room, I thought I would surprise her with…”

  “Why are you talking to me like we’re friends? In fact, why are you talking to me at all? If it weren't for Suzanne playing those fucking mind games, the love of my life wouldn’t be so afraid to…” Jill’s mouth suddenly clamped shut.

  “Afraid to what?” Meredith asked.

  “Nothing…it’s none of your business.” Jill stuffed her hands in her pockets as the words fell from her lips at warp speed.

  “Are you sure you’re okay?

  “Yes…I’m fine!”

  “Maybe the four of us could have drinks or dinner tonight.”

  “What? Dinner, why would we have dinner with the two of you?”

  “Well, we all know each other and I think maybe we could be….”

  “Be what? Friends?” Jill started to pace the floor in front of the elevators. She didn’t know why this woman was chatting her up. They really didn’t end on good terms and neither did Jackie and Suzanne for that matter. “Look Meredith, I don’t think ‘friends’ is in the cards for us. I wish you well and I hope Suzanne doesn’t do to you what she did to Jackie.”<
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  Meredith glared at the nervous woman unable to stand still, “What’s between them is not all Suzanne’s fault. She is not the devil here. I think a lot of the blame lies with Jackie. Besides, we couldn’t be happier. And now we are getting ready to move in together and share an amazing apartment over on the East side.”

  Jill stopped in her tracks and snapped her head in Meredith’s direction. Did she hear that right, was Meredith blaming Jackie for the failed relationship?

  “Don’t look at me that way, you know I’m right. If she is so in love with you then why aren’t you living together? It’s been what…almost six months?”

  Jill marched up to the woman displaying a cocky grin on her face, “Let me tell you something, Suzanne is the one to blame…she’s the one that fucked with Jackie so bad that she’s afraid to trust. That isn’t on Jackie, it’s not on me…it is all that bitch’s fault. And don’t come here gloating and throwing shit in my face. You and I are not friends and I’m so glad I never slept with you.”

  Meredith’s mouth hung open for a second before a large grin formed on her face, “Well I see we’re getting our claws out. No need to get all mean. Besides…it was you who missed out.”

  As Meredith turned to walk away the elevator door opened and Jackie walked out just as Jill yelled, “I seriously doubt that.”

  “Doubt what?”

  Jill spun herself around so quickly she nearly tripped over her own feet, “Where the hell were you?” she asked as she righted herself.

  “I was just downstairs. Joni was on the phone chewing my ear about wedding flowers and I wanted to get us some coffee and pastries. I figured you would not be feeling too good after your marathon drinking last night.”