Secret Life

by David M. Jacobs

  She doesn’t focus…

  No.

  So you hold the baby the way you want to?

  Yes, just holding her. I felt like I should hold her close to me. This may sound strange, but I felt like I needed to protect her. I felt very, I wanted to take care of her. I was kind of afraid for her.

  Maternal?

  A little bit. I mean, I didn’t really, I sort of felt… I can’t really explain it, I mean, I felt that way toward her. I don’t know if I just felt that way toward her, or if I felt that way toward all these little babies. But I felt worried because she felt so delicate.

  I guess you’re saying concerned and protective?

  Yes, I felt really protective. Then I felt kind of silly because everyone was kind of standing around there watching me with this baby.

  You mean the two who brought you in, and…?

  The nurse. One of the other two told me to feed her, and I told them that I can’t do that. And I think that they encouraged me to try, or something. I remember this happening from before too. It’s still as stupid as it was then for me to be doing this…. But I just tried for a few seconds. They didn’t force me to or anything.

  Did the baby have a sucking mechanism?

  I think it did. I mean, I think it tried to.

  Some babies, normal, healthy babies, have a very strong sucking mechanism, there’s no mistaking it.

  Right. I felt that this baby knew what it was supposed to do, but it wasn’t, it wasn’t as strong an instinct…

  You didn’t sense the baby was used to this?

  No. No, I didn’t. I felt like I didn’t want to give her to them.

  Did you put the baby up to one breast, or both breasts, or…

  Just one. Just my left.

  You sort of don’t want to give the baby up?

  No. I’m sort of worried for her a little bit.

  Sure.

  But then they took her. They said I had to give her to the nurse. I think that I asked them if I could see her again.

  What do they say?

  I don’t think that they gave me an answer at all.

  You mean they just took the baby and put it back and that was the end of it?

  I think so, yeah. And then I said something like, “I want to see her again,” and I don’t think they answered me. I feel like maybe I will, but I don’t know if they’ll let me. I mean, they didn’t say yes or no, they didn’t say anything. I think that they said “It’s time to go.”

  Do you see them put the baby back…?

  Yeah. I feel really bad leaving her there….

  (Barbara Archer, 21, 1988)

  Karen Morgan’s experiences with babies have been quite complex. For example, she was asked to play with a baby. This play period might be in a large room where Karen will see several other naked women engaging in the same activity. The women hold the babies up in the air, tickle them, and make baby sounds to amuse them. The babies do not respond. They do not laugh or smile, and they do not make sounds in return. Sometimes Karen and the other women might be told to “wash” the baby. A baby lies in its holder, and the woman must take a “sponge” and wipe the baby with it. Once again, the object might be to touch the baby as opposed to actually cleaning it.

  Frequently the offspring that the aliens tell the woman to hold is a child who appears to be between two and ten years old, or even older. Like the babies, the child is light in weight and listless. He has a larger than usual head, large eyes with small whites, a small nose, a small mouth with thin lips, small ears, and thin hair. His body is unusually long and skinny. He is semiresponsive and appears to be sickly by human standards. His eyes might have a hypnotic quality to them. These offspring are usually dressed in white “smocks” or loose-fitting gowns, but some wear a black, skin-tight garb. They are silent and not very active, although they are sometimes curious about the human.

  Sometimes the aliens will bring out one small child for the abductee to see. At first, the child hides behind the alien as if it were shy. Sometimes the child is preoccupied with something. One woman observed a toddler dressed in skin-tight black garb intently manipulating a large toy block. After a short time the offspring interacts with the abductee. The child will sometimes touch the human and quite often stare into her eyes. Both men and women report that when they see the small child they have an instant rapport with it; they “know” that in some way the child is profoundly connected to them.

  On other occasions, the abductee will be required to physically interact with six or seven offspring as each child waits its turn to come up to her and be hugged. Or the abductee will play with the children, which entails much touching and holding. The Beings observe the abductee closely while she is holding or hugging the children.

  When Janet Demerest was nine years old, she had an experience with a child that included staring procedures and touching. An alien led her through what she perceived to be a large warehouselike room over to where a woman abductee and a young, odd-looking girl were waiting on a “cot.”

  And then the man told me to play with the little girl.

  Now can you describe the little girl?…

  She doesn’t look real, she looks like the man who brought me there.

  Does she have small eyes, or medium eyes, or big eyes?

  I don’t know.

  What color is her skin?

  She looks like a shadow, like the man, sort of grayish black…. She’s thin, but you can’t see her bones.

  Does she have long arms, or short arms, or medium arms?

  They look like they’re thin, and that makes them look long.

  Can you describe her hands and fingers?

  Her fingers are long and thin.

  Are they tapered at the end—or something else?

  They look the same size all the way, just thin.

  … Can you see normal-looking genitals?

  No.

  Can you see anything down there?

  No.

  Now she’s sitting there next to this woman.

  I can’t see any bones in her.

  You mean you don’t see a big bone structure?

  Right.

  Does she have knees? Can you see her knees?

  No.

  How about feet, toes?

  Yeah, I can see her feet.

  Does she have ankles, you know that little bone that sticks out at your ankle there?

  No, everything’s straight.

  What about toes, does she have toes on her feet?

  Yes, they’re long.

  How old do you think she might be, if you were to make a guess?

  Eight.

  Now, as you sort of look back up toward her head, can you tell if she has a nose?

  A little nose.

  And a mouth?

  Yes.

  How about lips?

  No.

  Can you describe her chin?

  I don’t think she has one.

  Now, when you look at the girl’s hair, is the girl’s hair just sort of groomed, or is it styled in any way?

  I don’t think she has any.

  Now, how do you know she’s a girl?

  The man told me.

  Now, the man wants you to play with her, and so what’s the first thing that you do then?

  We take a couple of steps and then we sit down… on the floor.… I sat down cross-legged. I think she did too. We were sitting. And then the man and the woman were watching us. But I don’t think we did anything, we just sat there.

  Do you communicate with her?

  I think I asked her what she wanted to play.

  And what does she say?

  I don’t think she wanted to play.

  Does she reply to you?

  She might have said, “I don’t know.”… I started to say that I would think of a game. I think she said to “just sit there.”

  Now what is she doing while you’re sitting there?

  She’s just sitting there…. She’s looking right at me.
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  Is she looking at your body, or at your head and face, or eyes?

  At first she’s looking at my eyes, and I can’t take my eyes off of her. She can move her eyes around and look at different things.

  But your eyes are sort of riveted on her?

  Right.

  So basically you sit there and you face each other.

  Right. I think that she’s looking at me because she has to. But that’s because I’m looking at her because I have to.

  Why do you think that might be the case?

  I don’t know, but it seems very important, and I can’t move my eyes away… . She doesn’t have any ears….

  So now you’re sitting there with her, cross-legged, and what happens then, after you are through sort of observing each other?

  I think we hug each other and I leave.

  Do you stand up to do that or are you still sitting down?

  We stand up.

  Does she say something to you then? Communicate with you?

  “It’s time to go.” I think she said, “It’s time to go now. Say ‘goodbye.’”

  Do you hug each other then?

  Mm-hmm.

  Now when you put your arms around her, can you feel her bone structure when you do that?

  She’s solid. I put my arms around her shoulders, and she puts her arms around my back.

  Does she sort of hold you, you sort of hold her for a while, or is this a very quick thing?

  It’s quick….

  And what does she do when she pulls away?

  Nothing. She stands back, and I walk toward the man….

  (Janet Demerest, 9, 1964)

  Andrew Garcia, who was an alcohol rehabilitation counselor, was referred to me by another abductee. We examined an abduction incident that happened to him just a few months before our hypnotic regression. After several Mindscan preparations in which he was told that he was about to be shown something, he was presented with a five-year-old girl.

  There’s some little girl… she looks like, I call her Maria.

  Have you seen her before, do you think, or is Maria somebody you know?

  It’s not her, it’s not Maria.

  Who is Maria then?

  I thought it was my niece, but her eyes were different, so she wasn’t Maria, but I called her Maria.

  Does she respond?

  I look into her eyes and they are so peaceful, so unspoiled.

  When you look into her eyes where is she?

  She’s like right next to me, coming right up to me….

  How close does she get to you?

  Close, very close, and she looks right into my eyes and I’m calling her name and I’m so happy to see her. I’m really happy to see her.

  Does she communicate with you at all?

  No. I don’t get the sense that she is, but I get the sense that she is receiving everything that I’m saying in my head.

  The communication is one-way then?

  Uh-huh. As if all these emotions and thoughts are coming through.

  What kind of emotions?

  Excitement, anticipation, and love. I want to hold her. She comes closer. Her eyes are so watery.

  Do you see any whites in her eyes?

  No, they just seem watery, black as marble.

  Does she have any hair?

  She appeared to have some when I first saw her, she had this black hair, but when she came closer I was transfixed on her eyes.

  Okay.

  I can’t seem to focus on other things.

  Is she still coming closer?

  Yes. She’s like at my face.

  I see.

  I’m drawn into her….

  Does she touch you at all?

  Yes, she does.

  How does that happen?

  Very lightly, very careful, not like someone walking up and touching you.

  Where does she touch you?

  On my cheek, like a little poke. Did you ever watch a kid that wants to touch something and just pokes it?

  Right.

  There’s a sense of joining, yeah, and it’s not long.

  What’s happening now?

  She’s like pulling back. I’m like screaming in my head.

  Screaming for her?

  Not to leave. I’m like upset, I’m calling her. I’m very upset.

  Does she respond to that?

  They don’t understand why I’m upset. No sense of compassion, or no real understanding of the separation. I’m very upset, crying. The one [Taller Being] comes up to me, the one at my side, he stares at me.

  Does he communicate to you at that time?

  Yes. I have a sense of calming down. “This is how it has to be.” I asked him if she will be back. He says, “Yes, another time.”

  (Andrew Garcia, 34, 1989)

  Once in a while an older child is brought out. This Being appears to be an adolescent. Here again the central purpose of this encounter is for the abductee to hug the child. The aliens once asked Karen Morgan to embrace an adolescent female. When she refused, the aliens put the girl next to her, placed Karen’s arms around her, and the adolescent embraced Karen. When Karen attempted to put her arms down, the aliens immediately wrapped her arms around the teenager again, and held them there with their hands. The girl offspring remained motionless, hugging Karen, for a long time. Then when she was finished, Karen’s arms were let go and the adolescent, now a little more active than before, turned to Karen and silently said, “Thank you.”

  Abductees almost never encounter adult offspring in a controlled physical contact situation as with the younger ones, but some abductees have reported that they have seen what might be adolescent and adult offspring helping the aliens in their procedures, especially sperm collection. But the purpose of the production of offspring remains one of the great mysteries of abduction research.

  Chapter 6

  Sexual Activity and Other Irregular Procedures

  “YOU MUST NOW BREED.”

  Some of the more sensational material in abduction accounts, including a variety of specifically sexual activities, comes out of the abductee’s ancillary experiences. These specialized procedures performed by aliens may recur many times to an individual abductee although other abductees may never experience them. The reasons for their existence remain obscure. Yet their compatibility with the overall structure of abductions strongly suggests that they are an integral part of the abduction experience and not just anomalies.