Secret Life

by David M. Jacobs

  One month later Karen once again was shown the display room during an abduction. This time she was more apprehensive about the message that was imparted to her.

  Your attention is directed upward, you can’t help but look up, and then there’s a message that comes through the PA system.… And I think, “They’re showing us something about the world,” and the message, even at the time, is… see, I’m as awake as I’ve ever been in this room, and the message even at the time isn’t clear. There are words being broadcast like, “Look at this, here’s a picture of…” and then you can’t put your finger on what they’re saying. It’s a female voice doing the narration. But, David, the message is that this is the way, all of these beautiful things that they keep showing us, this is the way the world will be. It’s just like Big Brother. There’s no difference.

  This is the way our world will be?

  Yes. This is the way the world will be…. I’m really depressed by this. It’s one thing to have eggs taken out of you and feel like a lab rat; it’s another thing to think that they might be really up to something that involves the world.

  (Karen Morgan, 38, 1987)

  Information Transfer

  After an abduction, an abductee may have the distinct and frustrating feeling that the aliens have injected some sort of special “knowledge” into her. She usually cannot recognize or recover the knowledge, but she thinks she could if she knew how. To date no specialized information has been recovered from an abductee, but a few have displayed isolated factual knowledge about scientific topics that they have never studied, and others have shown inexplicable interest in physics or astronomy. This might be related to alien testing procedures or to the fact that for most of her life, before undergoing hypnotic regression sessions, the abductee unconsciously “knew” that she was being abducted.

  A corollary to this comes in a puzzling situation when an abductee reports that some sort of headgear is placed on her while an alien wearing headgear stands nearby. A wire is run from her headgear to the alien’s headgear. She is then required either to remember something or emotionally feel something. Envisioning might be used in this endeavor. The abductee feels that the mental processes going on in her mind are being transferred to the alien. In some cases, the abductee will be attached to several other Beings either at once or one after the other.

  Sexual Activity

  Sexual episodes, despite how lurid and unbelievable they might appear, seem to be an important, albeit confusing, part of the abduction experience. Alien involvement in human sexual activity represents one of the few direct interventions into a person’s life. There are indications that the aliens think sexual intercourse and orgasm promote conception. Evidence also exists that the aliens can intervene in normal sexual activity.

  From time to time an abductee will report a sexual experience with someone that seemed in some way related to her abductions. She might be making love to her partner and realize that they are being watched by aliens in the room, yet be unable to stop. In other situations, abductees might feel compelled to masturbate seconds before an abduction takes place. They are certain that their actions are directly related to the impending abduction.

  Far more commonly reported is alien control of sexual activity between two humans aboard their craft. The aliens bring the abductee into a room, and there on a table is another human of the opposite sex. Abductees report that the other person seems “out of it.” The aliens make it clear that they want the abductee to have intercourse with the other person, so the abductee either duly climbs up on top of the other person and intercourse ensues or she lies on the table and intercourse is performed on her. If an orgasm is created, the Beings often stare into the abductee’s eyes during it. It must be emphasized that this is not a sexual fantasy situation, and most men and women feel that it is an uncontrollable and traumatic, event. One man tearfully said that he felt like he was raping a woman when he was forced into having intercourse with her.

  In July 1988 a young woman was brought over to a man in his thirties who was lying on a table near her. The man’s eyes were closed, and he appeared to be unconscious. The aliens wanted her to get on top of him and in some way become sexually excited. She resisted this but could do little about it. The woman recalled the incident without the aid of hypnosis.

  It seems like I climb up [on him].

  Does he move or anything? Does he respond?

  He doesn’t do anything, it doesn’t seem like…

  Does he respond genitally?

  He doesn’t seem to, really. He doesn’t. I don’t do anything, after I get there. Then it’s like they don’t even know what’s going on, what to tell me to do or something.

  So you’re lying there.

  Well, I sit up. I kind of straddle him….

  What happens next?

  It seems like the one on the left side comes around, comes near me, like around to the front. And then, I don’t know if he tells me to kiss him or something. It seems strange, I didn’t think they would know that word, or whatever. I don’t really want to.… Then I think I could fool them because they don’t really know what they’re talking about.

  Do you kiss him… ?

  I try to trick them…. I just thought that maybe I could trick him by some way, by doing another thing and saying I was kissing him. I put my hand on his chest one time, and I said, “There, that’s it.”

  How did they respond to that?

  Well, they didn’t seem to mind.

  You mean they accepted it?

  Yeah, because I acted like it was a big deal. But I wasn’t sure…. But they didn’t seem to want to force me to do things…. It wasn’t like before when they were forcing me to look at him. It seemed like they told me they wanted me to touch his penis, but I didn’t want to…. Like I was supposed to scoot down below, you know? Down low on the table. I didn’t want to, but it didn’t seem like I had to.

  So you could resist it more?

  Yes. And I was saying, well, that’s not what we would do. We don’t do that.

  You tried to deflect it?

  Yes.

  How did they respond to that?

  They didn’t seem as bad as before, they wouldn’t force me. They weren’t controlling my body so much, so I didn’t have to go down to the bottom of the table or anything like that…. I just said that I didn’t like him, that nothing could happen because I didn’t like him. I didn’t like this guy….

  Do they argue with you? Do they try to urge you to?

  They don’t argue back, but I was trying to come up with all sorts of excuses to them. I said, “He’s just lying there.” I was just coming up with stupid things… if they’re just lying there, and there’s people watching you, I don’t know, it just seemed really… sad.

  It is sad, of course it is.

  It was just really bad. And I was just getting exhausted again, too. I just remember being tired during it, and I just kind of was hanging my head down.

  So you don’t scoot down there?

  Mm-mmm.

  What happens next, then?…

  Maybe he gets an erection, but he doesn’t have any other signs, and I’m just sitting on top of the guy, I don’t even know how he could breathe, I’m just sitting on his stomach. But he’s not really excited…. It seems like I know that he does have an erection at some point…. There’s no other part of his body that responds, so it’s not even like an erection, do you know what I mean?

  Now, after he does have an erection, what happens then?

  Now they want me to have intercourse with him. It’s really bad. I tell them I don’t want to. It’s just starting to seem like something really terrible that they’re doing. It just seems really immoral. I just think it’s really bad…. I just feel like it’s really bad….

  Do you find yourself doing this?

  Yes. It’s totally mechanical, it’s really bad. I don’t think I have feelings or anything.

  Does he have a normal ejaculation… ?

 
Yes, I guess he does.

  After he ejaculates, what happens directly after that, within a few seconds?

  I have the black feeling [Mindscan?]. It seems like I get kind of stimulated for the first time…. I wasn’t before, but then I feel, I don’t know. It’s not like he just kind of winds down. I don’t remember much.

  You mean, he just stays erect?

  It’s so weird because it’s not like any normal pattern that I’ve ever been through. It’s like they’re lying there. I get a little worried because I think, “God, I could get pregnant by this guy.” I remember thinking that.

  Where are you in your cycle… ?

  Right in the middle.

  (1988)

  A fifteen-year-old girl had the traumatic experience of being forced into intercourse with an older man. The aliens attached headgear to her and began Mindscan procedures.

  Two things happen next. One is they bring somebody over to look at me.

  You mean, another one of them?

  First. And then they do things to me.

  Who is it that comes over first?

  It’s another one of them, but he’s bigger.

  He’s bigger?

  He’s bigger. He’s dark, and he’s bigger. He’s much more powerful than they are. He’s much more powerful. The word that comes into my mind… is that he’s much more advanced than they are. It’s like he’s the senior one…. I was extremely frightened…. He’s looking in my eyes and I can’t see. I can’t see. I can’t see anything because he’s in my eyes. How can he be in my eyes? He’s in my eyes. This is making me crazy. I can’t stand this. How can he be in my eyes?

  You mean, he’s staring into your eyes?

  He’s in my eyes. He’s flooding my eyes. He’s completely penetrating me, every bit of me is in my eyes. He’s in my eyes… I can’t do anything about it…. He’s spreading into my brain. He’s spreading into my brain… totally, he is invading me. He’s in my brain. Oh, God. He’s in my mind. He’s everywhere. He’s absolutely everywhere. I can’t stand it. I can’t stand it. I can’t stand it.

  Does this go on for a long time, or for a short time?

  It feels like a horribly long time.

  How does he withdraw? Does he do it gradually, or does he just break away?

  He finds a place that he wants to be for a while and then it’s not so complete. It’s not so black. I can see a little bit. I can see sort of a shadowy gray. And he’s making me feel things. He’s making me feel things. He’s making me feel things in my body that I don’t feel. He’s making me feel feelings, sexual feelings. He’s making me feel things. It must be that he’s making me feel them because I don’t feel them. And he’s in my brain. I wouldn’t feel them. He’s making me feel them. He’s making me feel things…. And he’s there. He’s everywhere. He’s in my brain, and he’s everywhere in my body too somehow. That’s very confusing. But it’s not so black. But my body is changing. My body is getting tense in a different way. He’s making my body do things and then they take the thing off my head. Somebody takes the thing off my head. That’s good, because it was uncomfortable and heavy. I didn’t like that. And I can see more now. And he’s still there, but it’s not everywhere. But my body is, I have funny feelings. I’m not used to these feelings. I don’t understand, between my legs. I don’t understand why this is feeling this way. And he tells me, oh no. Oh no.

  What is it?

  Oh no. Oh no. Oh God, no, no, no, no. No… oh God, no.

  What’s happening?

  There’s, he’s standing there looking in my eyes, and the others are standing around, and there’s a man standing at the foot of the table.

  A regular man?

  Yes. There’s a man standing at the foot of the table, and his eyes are sort of cloudy, and he’s erect, and he’s just standing there, and I’m afraid.

  Is this an older guy, or a younger guy?

  It’s an older man. It’s a grown-up man, and I’m afraid. I’m so afraid. I’m afraid of what’s going to happen. I’m so afraid.

  [I comforted her and reminded her that this happened many years ago, that she was frightened at the time, but need not be frightened now.]

  Was this guy small, thin… ?

  He’s sort of a big guy. He’s got a little bit of a paunch.

  Does he have a full head of hair, is he bald?

  Middle-aged guy. He’s got receding hair. He’s dark, and…

  Is he sort of out of it, or is he… ?

  He’s absolutely out of it. His mouth is hanging slack, and his hands are loose at his side, kind of like an ape. And his eyes are glazed over, cloudy, unfocused.

  So he doesn’t make eye contact with you?

  He doesn’t make eye contact with anybody.

  Okay.

  And the guy who’s looking in my eyes is still looking at me, but he kind of moves aside so I can see this guy. And then he comes back, and he’s making my body respond sexually. I mean, I didn’t know what it was at that time, what a sexual response was. I knew it was very strange. It had pleasurable parts to it, but it wasn’t a pleasurable situation, obviously.

  Of course not.

  And the guy… the inevitable followed.

  Do they say anything to you while this is going on?

  No.

  Do they explain to you what’s about to happen?

  I have the idea that I’ve just ovulated, or I’m about to ovulate or something. And that’s connected. I don’t want this to happen. But it does….

  Now, does this guy just stand at the end of the table and do his business, or does he climb on top of you?

  Climbs on top of me. Oh, before he moves away, the guy who was looking in my eyes sort of zaps me. There’s a sort of jolt of power or something, and all of a sudden I’m really sexually excited. Overwhelmingly sexually excited. And this guy climbs on top of me, and he’s moving and it… doesn’t make any sense, but it feels like he starts to climax and doesn’t finish, or he gets to the point of coming, but what’s the point of that? What’s the point of that?… They just pull him off, and they stick something up where he was, a metal thing it feels like. And then they’re moving very fast. Oh, I know from other times what’s about to happen.

  (1959)

  She described how the Beings apparently took an egg from her at this point and they then walked the man away.

  Sometimes the aliens display a great interest in promoting human sexual activity, especially for young girls. From time to time a woman will report that when she was going through puberty, the aliens examined her and said something to the effect of, “You are now ‘ripe.’ You must now breed. Go and breed!” When one woman was thirteen, the aliens told her this, and then, as if to show her how it is done, they brought in a teenage boy who seemed to be “out of it” and put him on top of her so that intercourse could be accomplished. Afterward, she felt pain and noticed blood on her legs. Her hymen had been ruptured. This was done at least one other time to her when she was a teenager. Both times the aliens couched the event in terms advising “breeding.” Obviously, these embarrassing and distressing moments can have a disastrous effect on the abductee’s sexual development and subsequent social life.

  A final variation on sexual activity is an alleged sexual encounter between an abductee and an alien or a hybrid. Sexual imagery is often an important part of this event. In an envisioning procedure, the abductee is made to believe that either her husband or loved one is with her. Abductees sometimes say that the face of the husband, for instance, tends to “phase” in and out of the face of the alien. Intercourse takes place without much preliminary stimulation. The insertion of the “penis” is quick, and the penis does not feel normal; it is usually very thin and very short. The normal thrusting movement does not take place, but the woman feels a sudden “pulse.” Then it is all over. We have no clear evidence that the aliens have genitals, but hybrids sometimes do. Therefore, actual intercourse may not be taking place with an alien. Three possibilities come to mind. Either
the abductee is having intercourse with an offspring who does have genitals, or the aliens are inserting something inside the woman to make her think that intercourse is taking place, or the entire affair is a part of envisioning and no physical event is occurring.