by A B Turner
“I see, then let me escort you to your room,” he said politely, gingerly I took his arm and allowed him to lead me through the large doors. We didn’t speak as we slowly walked up the stairs and into the hallway, my mind seemed to be screaming at me with every step, to stop and say goodnight, but my body paid no attention as it had already started to wonder what being with this man would be like.
When we reached my room, I passed him the key, he opened the door carefully and stepped back, allowing me to go in first. I walked past him and into the dark room, now completely sure what I wanted, I half-expected him to follow me, so when he made no move, I stopped and turned back to him,
“Come in Josef,” I said quietly, reaching out to him, he took my hand, walked into the room and closed the door behind him. After quickly slipping off his jacket, he pulled me towards him, his strong arms wrapped around my body leaving me nowhere to go, our mouths locked , I felt his his tongue push deep into my mouth, forcing mine to submit. I felt one of his hands pull down the zip of my dress, as it fell to the floor, he looked down at my body, now only encased in black lace, with nothing short of hunger in his eyes. He almost lifted me on to the bed and without pausing, he deftly opened the clasp of my bra, giving his mouth full access to my waiting breasts. I gently eased myself back until he was on top of me, I felt his hand slipping down my lace panties, as he pressed harder and harder, eager to feel him inside me, I pulled off his belt, allowing me to open his fly. Wrapping my legs around his back, I plunged him into my body, he groaned with pleasure as I writhed under him, completely lost in the sheer force of his grinding passion, he pushed further and further into me, leaving me with no choice but to give in to the waves of pleasure rippling through me.
Within moments, I felt him thrust his whole body forward, over and over again, until with one last breath-taking surge, he exploded inside me. He pushed again, as if wanting to make sure there was no drop left, before he slumped down, gasping for breath, as our bodies met, it felt like our pounding hearts beating against each other.I released my legs from his back, my tense muscles aching for some respite, I looked down, his carefully-styled hair was now a tangled mass of sweaty curls, absent-mindedly I pushed my fingers through them. I could see his face resting between my breasts, I felt his hand still gripping my hip, despite the relaxed pose of the rest of his body. After several minutes, Josef stirred and looked up at me, smiling,
“That was good, you’re not like some women, who just lie still, you feel it,” he said, “I like that.”
I smiled back, he pulled himself up until our faces were almost touching, he leant forward and kissed me, there was no urgency or passion, his tongue just gently caressed my lips before sliding inside my mouth. It felt so nice, I could not stop myself slightly arching my back, knowing he would feel my breasts pressing against his chest and the warm dampness of my body against his legs, as I had hoped, he slipped his hand down my torso and I quickly felt his fingers exploring me. Unrestrained I squirmed with pleasure as he pushed inside me, I reached down and took him in my hand, there was a slight flicker of movement, so I began to massage him slowly, almost forcing him to grow once more. Although enjoying the deeply satisfying feelings his fingers were inducing, I slipped from his hands and flipped him on to his back, allowing me to take him in my mouth. Once comfortable, my tongue began long, slow strokes, finishing just at the tip, Josef sighed, still with our eyes locked, I opened my eager mouth and he slipped between my lips.
I took my time, exploring him with every part of my mouth, at first, he watched almost lazily, but as my tongue circled and enjoyed him, his expression changed. I felt his hand reach round the back of my head and push me closer to his body, he started to pulse up and down, slowly at first, but gradually quickening until my mouth was full of him. Suddenly he pulled me up until I was straddling his body, he forced himself into me and clamped his hands on my shoulders, allowing me no possible way of moving.
Faster and faster he rammed into me until he released everything he had left, his hands dropped almost immediately, his eyes stared up at me, almost blankly, as if too exhausted even to manage some kind of expression.
I slid off him and flopped on to the bed, my whole body seemed covered in him, I felt hot and wet, but, in some way, restored. Once more we lay in silence, until I noticed the room did not seem so dark anymore,
“Josef, look it’s nearly dawn, won't you get in trouble if you're found here?"
He sighed heavily, but, without speaking, he quickly dressed , pausing intermittently to try and smooth his tousled hair. I pulled a sheet around my body and followed him to the door, after once last check in the mirror, he turned to look at me,
“I’m sorry I have to go like this, but....”
“I understand, now go, before someone sees you,” I said firmly, he smiled, kissed my cheek and opened the door. After a quick look, it was clear no-one was around, so with one last look, he scampered along the hallway and disappeared down the stairs. I closed the door and wandered back into the room, as I sat down on the bed, I realised I should have regrets but there seemed no place or need for them.There had been many nights in my life like this one, so one more made no difference, we had satisfied a need in each other and that was all.
Only a couple of hours later, I was seated with Kat and Lainie in the spa, wrapped in huge bathrobes and waiting for our treatments to begin, I was still feeling the after effects of my night with Josef, but fortunately, Lainie, at least, believed my weariness was down to all the excitement of the previous day. But as we filed into our respective massage rooms, I knew Kat was deeply suspicious, thankfully, she opted to keep her thoughts to herself as she was obviously aware, it would probably be wrong to ask too many questions in front of Lainie. As I lay on the massage table, a young woman, dressed head-to-toe in white, introduced herself while she switched on some calming music, she asked me to just relax and allow her to work on me. Still tired, I was more than happy to just lie there while she smoothed oil deeply into my skin, the aroma was rich and intoxicating, so much so, I had to force myself to stay awake. As she worked, she quietly mentioned various muscles which seemed tense, with deeper movements, my whole body seemed to sigh with relief. All too soon, she announced she was finished, but I was to lie still until I felt ready to move, by now, I was so relaxed, I was a little unsure any movement was possible, so I forced myself off the bed and back outside.
Kat was flipping through a magazine and glanced up as I emerged, I looked around but there was no sign on Lainie,
“She was a bit later going in, I said we would wait..” Kat explained, answering a question, I hadn’t actually asked, “Anyway, it’ll give us time to catch up.”
“We’ve been together all the time, what’s to catch up with ?” I asked, hoping she had not guessed about the night before, but, it quickly became apparent, she knew me too well.
“Oh Carrie, come on now, we both know why you’re so tired this morning,” she began, waiting for me to confess all, but, at first, I attempted to resist,
“I’m not sure what you mean,” I replied, trying to sound vaguely horrified at the suggestion she was clearly making, but Kat just smiled.
“Have it your own way, but I could have sworn I heard you talking to a man last night.”
Despite myself, I felt my cheeks burn slightly with embarrassment, Kat pounced on my discomfort with all the agility of the average cheetah on its prey,
“I knew it,” she crowed triumphantly, “Who was he?”
I sighed, knowing there was now no point in trying to maintain my innocence,
“It was Josef, the restaurant manager, but Kat ,not a word, not even a hint to Lainie,” I insisted, Kat readily agreed and leaned in closer,
“So, what was it like?” she asked, when she saw my dismayed expression, she laughed,
“Oh come on, I’m almost married, I’m going to have to live vicariously through you now.....luckily you lead an interesting life.”
I rolled my eye
s and quickly told her as little as I could get away with, when I was finished, she sat back in some kind of admiration,
“Sounds like you had a good time, but what I don’t understand is why did you do it? I mean, he’s a good looking guy, but....” her voice trailed away momentarily, but suddenly she had some kind of revelation,
“Oh my God, it was kissing me, wasn’t it? You had sex with some random guy because of me.”
“No, I didn’t,” I protested, “Well, not entirely, I just wanted...something different.”
I knew my answer made absolutely no sense to Kat, after all, she knew nothing about Vanessa, but for some reason, my feeble explanation seemed to be enough and she turned her attention back to trying to extract some more detail about Josef. Fortunately, before she had managed to discover every last moment, Lainie appeared at the door, forcing an immediate change of topic.
“That was amazing,” she said happily, “I’m going to have to get Damon to try some of that on me.”
As soon as she realised what she had said, she hurriedly apologised to me, adding she was well aware the idea of her having any kind of sex life must be really awkward for me to hear,
“It’s just I forget sometimes, you’re my Mum.”
I told her not to worry and we proceeded to enjoy the rest of our morning, by lunch time , we had been well and truly pampered, I felt relaxed and almost sensuous, as I drifted into the restaurant with the others.
“Well,Kat, we have lunch here and then, I’m afraid, it’s back to the real world,” Lainie said as we sat down.
“I wonder how the boys are,” Kat replied, “And I wonder what tattoo Damon ended up having.”
On seeing Lainie’s horrified expression, I quickly reassured her, she was only joking,
“It’s not that I mind tattoos, it’s just one you get when your drunk probably isn’t a really good idea,” Lainie added, while studying the menu.
Suddenly Josef appeared at the table, he placed a large water jug and glasses down on the table and welcomed us to the restaurant,
“If there’s anything you require, please don’t hesitate to ask,” he said politely, Kat shot a knowing glance across the table, which I tried my best to ignore. When he had left us, I noticed Lainie looking at him,
“He’s lovely, isn’t he?” she said dreamily, “I wonder where he’s from, there’s definitely a hint of an accent there.”
Before I could stop myself, I blurted out Poland, Kat could barely contain her amusement especially when Lainie complimented me on my knowledge of foreign languages,
“Your mother has many talents,” Kat said slyly, now relishing my discomfort, Lainie shook her head,
“You know, sometimes it feels like although there are three of us, only you two are speaking the same language.”
We all laughed, but Kat obviously took this comment to heart and made no further reference to Josef or her knowledge of my sex life, for which I was very grateful. We enjoyed a leisurely lunch before reluctantly wandering to reception to collect our belongings, the limousine was already waiting for us, so the chauffeur took the bags while we thanked the staff for our stay.
“I’m glad everything was satisfactory,” Sofia said, as she passed us the complimentary goodie bags Matt had clearly purchased.
“Everything was more than satisfactory,” Kat replied, this time without even looking in my direction, as we both knew eye contact wasn’t necessary for her words to hit home. After one last thank you, Kat and Lainie started towards the large entrance doors, I quickly looked across to the restaurant, Josef was standing in the doorway, greeting guests. When our eyes met, we smiled our goodbyes, before I followed the others and he returned to his work. As I clambered into the back of the limousine, for the briefest of moments, I wondered whether he would be in someone else’s room tonight. But if he was, I concluded, it wasn't anything to do with me, we had enjoyed each other so I could leave wishing him well without regrets.
The three of us rode back home saying very little, perhaps all slightly lost in our own thoughts, when we were nearly there, Kat suddenly spoke, startling both Lainie and I,
“I just wanted to say thank you, this whole time has been amazing.”
“I think we should be thanking you, after all, we’ve had a great time as well,” Lainie said firmly.
“I have to agree,” I chipped in, “In fact, I think I might have to find some poor worm to marry, just so we can do it all again.”
Kat glanced at Lainie,
“I think our girl here might just beat you to it, Carrie.”
Lainie smiled shyly,
“I don’t know about that, maybe one day.”
“That’ll make you a mother-in-law !” Kat roared, my obvious horror at this statement caused them both to laugh hysterically.
“Not yet, Lainie, OK?” I asked, almost pleadingly, she reached across and hugged me,
“Alright Mum, I promise, not yet.”
The limousine dropped us of first, as Matt had asked me to ensure Kat arrived back at their place alone, I suspected he still had one more treat for her and wanted us out of the way. As we went inside, Damon was already there, he leapt up from the armchair when he saw us,
“I hope it’s OK, Matt let me in.”
“Of course,” I answered, I looked at Lainie and excused myself from the room, I knew she wanted a moment alone with him and I was anxious to unpack and relax, it seemed the excitement of the day was starting to catch up with me at last. After allowing a suitable amount of time for their reunion, I slowly left my room, taking care to slightly bang my door, to act as a warning of my approach. When I walked into the living room, they were sitting closely together on the sofa, it gave me a chance to really look at Damon, he had a strong, handsome face, framed with tousled ash blonde hair and the large, green eyes Lainie had talked about swimming in, which almost glowed when he looked at her.
“Can I get you two anything?” I asked.
“No thank you...er...what should I call you?” he asked.
“How about Carrie, for now ?” I suggested, he smiled, it was a friendly, genuine smile which I couldn't help but return.
“Well, Carrie, a lady called earlier, Charlotte Vale, she asked me to remind you about making an appointment,” he continued, “I said I’d pass on the message, I hope that was OK.”
Lainie turned to him and took his hands in hers,
“Damon, this is your home while you’re here, you don’t have to keep checking everything’s OK, isn’t that right Mum?”
The mention of Charlotte had temporarily thrown my concentration, but when she repeated the word ‘mum’, I was quickly back in the room,
“Lainie’s right, I would like you to feel at home here, while you’re with us, and for that reason, I think you two should have my room, after all, it is bigger and I imagine Damon would prefer not waking up with Chace Crawford grinning down at him first thing in the morning.”
Lainie smiled broadly and thanked me for the consideration, Damon looked at her incredulously,
“Chace Crawford?”
Lainie was about to comment, when I hastily warned Damon about saying anything detrimental about Chace, after all, I added, he had been the man Lainie was going to marry for at least a couple of years. He laughed especially when Lainie frowned at me for revealing this fact,
“Well that makes me feel better about my relationship with Penelope Cruz !” he joked, Lainie punched him playfully, while reminding him he was hers, and so Ms Cruz would have to find someone else.
Remembering Charlotte, I left them alone to call her from Lainie’s room, she had been anxious to hear from me as a couple of weeks had passed since my last appointment.
“I have some free time late this afternoon, would you like to come then ?” she offered, despite the fact, I was really tired, I readily accepted, as aside from wanting to have an opportunity to see her, it would give Lainie time alone with Damon.
When I returned to the living room, I announce
d the fact I would have to go out as casually as possible, I was concerned Lainie might be a little worried about my appointment, especially as she had no idea what it was for, but she seemed to accept my explanation of a vague medical issue without too much argument.
Chapter 12
So it wasn’t much later, I was out the door again, only this time alone, although the weather was drab, I opted to walk, I wanted to clear my head a little, try and organise my thoughts, before seeing Charlotte. So much had happened, meeting Vanessa, being with Kat, obviously Jay and my time with Josef, not to mention my ongoing need to try and change my job – all of this and now the prospect of becoming a mother-in-law in the not too distant future. The more I considered all these things, the more over-whelming it all seemed. Just thinking about it all made me feel tired, but also I felt more grateful than usual, Charlotte might be able to offer some guidance.
By the time I reached the house, this single thought now dominated all the others, in a way, I hated the fact I needed to be there, but until I truly understood how I was feeling, it was undeniably essential. After all, despite everything, I had not hesitated to have sex with Josef, a guy I hardly knew, which although was enjoyable, it was hardly the ‘waiting for the right person’ resolution I had made. Could it be I was just going to have to accept the ‘right person’ was never going to happen? My mind raced back to when I had been alone while Kat and Lainie had said their goodbyes to Matt and Damon, was that how it was always going to be? I shook my head, as if somehow this would stop the questions from coming, and walked purposefully to the large door, hoping the answers might be inside.
I was barely through the door, when Charlotte appeared in front of me, her hand extended towards me,
“Good afternoon, Carrie, how good to see you again?” she said smiling, “Do come through.”
As we passed the reception desk, she paused to tell Victoria, she did not wish to be disturbed and, hoped she would enjoy her evening, as it was unlikely my appointment would be over before it was time for her to finish for the day. Victoria smiled gratefully and assured Charlotte, she would leave any messages on the desktop before she left. After this friendly exchange, I followed Charlotte into her office and took my usual place in one of the two large chairs which dominated the room. As before, Charlotte paused only to retrieve her notebook, before sitting opposite me,