The UN Series Complete Box Set

by Shantel Tessier

  Everything is wrong!

  I get into my car and start up my car. I take a deep breath as I get a sharp pain in my stomach. I had got so caught up in everything else I forgot that I was about to start my period. I cry to myself as I reach over and start to dig through my purse for some Midol.

  “OW!” I cry out once again. Placing my hands on the steering wheel, I take a few deep breaths. I have to get home. I just need to get home. I’ll dig for them once I get home.

  I speed to my apartment as I cry. Why do I hurt so badly? My stomach hasn’t hurt this bad since back when Braxton took me to the hospital.

  No! I tell myself. That can’t be the problem. Not again! That’s not possible…

  CHAPTER SIX

  TATE

  What the fuck?

  I hear the front door slam and her car start up. I grab my cell phone off of the nightstand and throw it across my room. It hits the opposite wall and the screen shatters.

  “What the hell are you doing?” Parker questions, barging into my room still dressed in his uniform from working the night shift.

  “Stay out of it, Parker,” I snap, turning to face him.

  He places his hands in his hair and lets out a deep breath, confusion and frustration covers his face. “When are you going to learn, man? That girl loves you.”

  She might have loved me. She might have even been able to save me. But not now! She made me feel things that I shouldn’t have felt. She made me believe that maybe I was only a kid. That it wasn’t my job to save my mother. Then why did I feel like a worthless pussy when I listened to her scream? And a terrified coward when he came looking for me?

  “Please.” Her cries travel down the hall and into my room. I pull my knees up to my chest and press myself further into the wall of my darkened closet.

  “You’re such a fucking whore,” he shouts. “You think I didn’t know you were fucking him?” She cries out before he speaks again. “Where is that bastard child anyway?”

  “No. Please. Leave him alone,” she begs, and my heart pounds in my chest. He’s coming for me. To make me pay for what Mommy did.

  Trust me when I say, I hate my mother! I want nothing to do with her and she knows it. She shouldn’t have put us through that in the first place. All she needed to do was call for help and he would have been put away. I wanted to tell someone. I wanted to let Marie know, but my mother said that they would take me away from her. And as long as we had each other we would be okay. I was terrified to go home and I was terrified to leave it. There was no escaping, only hiding.

  Stupid lying bitch.

  Missy makes me truly believe that. But nothing is that simple. My mother loved that bastard and she would have never had him put away.

  That was a lie that I was telling myself. Missy would have ran anyways if she would have found out the truth. If I would have told her that I almost killed the sorry bastard. I wore his blood on my hands for hours. The blood made me feel better. Made me feel stronger. And after I washed it off, I could still smell it for days. It fed that inner demon in me. The one that finally proved I wasn’t a pussy. I went from being a coward to a man who had no limits—except for when I slept. He always visited my nightmares, reminding me that I had failed myself.

  “Tate. You need to go after her.” Parker speaks, bringing me back from my memories and thoughts.

  I turn to face him. “Drop it, Parker. I don’t need to do anything.”

  He walks right up to me with his chest bowed out and a hard look in his brown eyes. “I never pegged you to be a coward. What? Afraid she’ll see right through you and leave you?” he smirks.

  “Shut the fuck up,” I snap, fisting my hands by my side. I’m about to take my anger out on him.

  “You were right to leave her alone in the first place.” He lowers his voice before he speaks. “My brother is much better for her than you.”

  The part that hurts is that his words are true, and we both know that. I lift my arm and punch him in his jaw. The force pushes him back into the wall. And I don’t apologize for it. He knew it was coming.

  He charges me and before I can get out of the way, he bends down and throws his elbow into my stomach, knocking the breath out of me and lifts me up off the floor. We slam into my nightstand. Things fall to the ground and glass breaks.

  I hear the doorbell ring, but we ignore it as we beat the hell out of each other in the middle of my bedroom.

  I land a punch to his stomach and he bends over as he grunts. I take the moment to lift my knee making contact with his chest. He falls to the ground, panting and moaning.

  “Come on, Parker,” I taunt from up above him, taking the second to catch my breath. “I didn’t peg you for the quitting type,” I say with a smirk. The actual fight has helped my mood. I always feel better after I beat the shit out of something.

  He stands up slowly and gives me a smirk in return. “You really need to start taking anger management classes.”

  I snort. “Why, when I have you to beat on?”

  “Seriously, man.” He takes in a deep breath. “You do understand that the one woman in this world who actually wants to be with you—even all your fucked-up-ness—just ran out of this house crying.”

  I drop my hands down to my side and sigh heavily. I feel the weight of her sorrow on my shoulders. I put it there. But what am I supposed to do about it? “Running away was the smartest thing she has ever done,” I say, and he shakes his head as he walks out of my bedroom, shutting the door behind him.

  Just as I sit down on my bed my door swings open again. “What now, Parker?” I ask ready to take him once again.

  “What the fuck were you two doing in here?”

  I look up to see Slade standing there as his eyes look over the scene of my bedroom. “We were letting off some steam,” I say.

  “Parker told me that you guys got in a fight over Missy. What happened?” he asks stepping in.

  Of course the fucker did. Do they really think that I’ll cave to her if they all gang up on me?

  “Unless you want me to kick your ass, too, I would stay out of it,” I snap.

  He raises an eyebrow but doesn’t respond.

  ******

  MISSY

  I have been lying in my bed curled up on my side for three days. My stomach still hurts. I’ve taken Advil, Tylenol, Midol—nothing is really helping, though. It’s like the worse possible cramps I have ever had.

  I’ve had a few calls from Sam and then my mother has called as well. Braxton has called multiple times, too. But I have ignored them. I’m afraid I won’t be able to hide my discomfort.

  I hear a knock at the door followed by my mother’s voice entering my apartment. I instantly regret giving her a key when I met her for my birthday lunch.

  “Missy?” she calls, entering my darkened room.

  “Yes?” I whisper, not moving from my ball.

  She sits down beside me and pushes my hair away from my face. “Sweetie. What’s wrong? I’ve been trying to call you. Are you alright?” she asks with concern.

  I feel my chest tighten and the tears threaten my eyes. I’m so tired of keeping these secrets. I tried to get Tate to tell me his problems so I could help him. That’s all my mother is trying to do.

  “Mom,” I say as a knot catches in my throat.

  She leans down and wraps her arms around me. “Tell me, Missy. It’s okay,” she says as I hear her sniff as well.

  “I’ve done something horrible,” I whisper. “You’ll never forgive me.” I shake my head as the tears stream down my face.

  She pulls away and wipes the wetness from my face as she gives me a soft smile. “I already have, honey. Whatever it is. I will help you through it. I promise you.”

  I hold back the sob and nod my head. Here goes my heart. Here goes my soul. Here goes all I have left of myself.

  “Remember when I went to Vegas?” I ask, and she nods. I take in a deep breath. “I slept with Tate,” I admit softly. I expect her eyes to widen
behind her red-rimmed glasses or for her mouth to drop open, gasping in horror. But that’s not the reaction I get. She must have known Tate and I would take that step eventually. She always knew that I liked him.

  “Is that it?” she questions as she pushes some loose strands of hair behind my ear.

  I shake my head and tell her the one thing that I’ve only told one other person. “I got pregnant,” I admit and this time I get the reaction I was expecting.

  “You had a baby?” she asks in total shock.

  That’s what she would think. I did disappear for months. I could have had a baby and she would have never known. I know that would sound unbelievable to some, but I became a recluse. The events that happened after Vegas put me into a deep depression, and when I finally found my way out of it, I just kept everything to myself. I didn’t know how to explain the pain I felt. The loss of something that was never truly mine.

  My throat tightens to the point where I almost can’t breathe. And my eyes water to the point to where she is nothing but a blurry vision in front of me.

  I shake my head as I take a shaky breath. “No, Mom, I didn’t have a baby. I lost it,” I admit with shame, as I drop my eyes down to the comforter. I blink and tears spill out of my eyes and onto my comforter. I try swallowing the fear of what I just admitted to her. The fact that I kept something this big from her for so long.

  I feel her arms wrap around me again. “I’m so sorry, Missy.” Her voice cracks and I let it all out. I lay my shattered heart out to my mother, and she holds me as if I was a small child once again, remembering the day that shook my world.

  “Wanna go out tonight?” Braxton asks as I sit on the end of his bed. I’m so nervous, I’ve had stomach pains all day. I mean, we’re dating, but it’s only been for a couple of weeks. What will he expect from me? I’ve never dated anyone before.

  “That sounds great,” I say pressing a hand to my stomach. I think I will feel more comfortable out at the movies or dinner than here at his house with just the two of us.

  “Okay,” he says excitedly before he comes out of his bathroom and looks at me. “Are you okay?” he asks as his face falls.

  I take in a deep breath as the pain grows in my stomach.

  I nod. “Yeah,” I say before I stand. As soon as I stand, I bend over grabbing my stomach and let out a soft cry.

  “Whoa. What is it?” he asks worried. He grabs me and helps me to sit back on his bed.

  “My stomach,” I say as tears fill my eyes. It’s getting worse by the second.

  He kneels down at the end of the bed. “What’s wrong with it?”

  I shake my head. “I don’t know,” I say honestly. It feels like cramps. I guess it could be that time again.

  “I’m going to take you to the hospital. Maybe you have food poison” I don’t argue with him. I just want it to go away.

  We wait for what feels like forever and then they do some tests and we wait some more. When the doctor finally comes in, the pain has lessened, and I’m ready to leave this hospital.

  He sits down on a rolling chair and comes closer to me. “Your results have come back and you’re pregnant.”

  Braxton and I sit unmoving as he says the last thing I expected. Pregnant? I’m pregnant, and it belongs to Tate.

  I want to scream at myself for being so stupid. I want to hate Tate for walking away from me after that morning. But I can’t. It’s my fault. I wasn’t on birth control. I wasn’t sexually active. But he didn’t use a condom. I hadn’t even worried about getting pregnant from that one time. My first time!

  But instead of the anger, I feel giddy. I’m going to have a baby. I’ve always wanted children, just not this soon or this way. But, nonetheless, I’m going to be a parent. A single parent.

  “But your symptoms have me concerned,” the doctor adds.

  Before I can speak, Braxton asks, “Concerned about what? Her or the baby?” He reaches out, grabbing my hand.

  The doctor stands as a nurse wheels in an ultrasound machine. “It could be nothing but I would feel more comfortable if we took a look. Is that okay?”

  I nod my head, still shocked that my one night in Vegas has led me to this very moment.

  The doctor leaves the room and the nurse tells me to get undressed from the waist down before she leaves as well.

  I sit there as the silence fills the cold hospital room. I look over to Braxton as he now stands by the window looking out. “Braxton, I…” What do I say?

  He turns and walks back over to me. “You don’t have to say anything. I understand,” he says grabbing my hand once again. “Let’s take it one day at a time. Okay?”

  I nod my head and get myself ready for the doctor to return. The doctor returns and sits down and I swallow nervously when he explains due to how early the pregnancy is I have to have a vaginal ultrasound. I’ve had a yearly checkup for years and never had a problem with it but the fact that Braxton is in here is making me very uncomfortable.

  I think he can sense it ‘cause he looks down at me and gives me a soft smile. “I’ll be right outside the door,” he says.

  “I think you should be in here as well,” the doctor says as his nurse starts pressing buttons on the machine. The guy obviously thinks that Braxton is the father.

  Braxton looks from the doctor to the door a few times. His hesitation makes the doctor thinks he’s going to stay. He starts to guide my knees apart, and I think I’m about to pass out due to embarrassment. Humiliation can do that to you. I was worried about just being alone with him tonight. Here I am with my legs spread and a doctor sitting between them. At least I have that little blue sheet covering most of Braxton’s view.

  My hands are sweaty and my knees are literally shaking. I want to cover up my face but that wouldn’t help anything.

  I take in a deep breath as I feel some pressure on my stomach when he starts the procedure. His free hand then presses on my stomach as he looks over to watch the machine.

  I forget everything that is happening, the embarrassment and the nervousness, as soon as I look over to the screen and see a black and white video of a circle. I honestly can’t tell you which part is the baby and which part is just me. But I find myself smiling. I told myself that morning after Tate ran out of my hotel room screaming at me, that it would make me stronger. And it did.

  The screen goes black after the doctor finishes and I look up at him with a smile. It drops off my face and turns to concern when I see the serious look on his face.

  Then he says the words that make my world completely stop. “I’m sorry, Missy…” I don’t need to hear any more words after that. I lost our child.

  I allow my hands to cover my face as I start to cry in them.

  I don’t know how long I sit in my bed as my mom holds me. Our cries fill the room as my sobs rack my body. I’ve kept this in for so long that I need to get it all out, and I don’t know how long that will take me.

  “I’m so sorry, Mom,” I repeat as she rocks me back and forth.

  She stops suddenly and pulls back. Her red-rimmed glasses have fallen down her nose and her dark blue, bloodshot eyes look into mine. “Quit apologizing. I should be the one apologizing.” She swallows. “Please forgive me,” she asks through her tears.

  I shake my head. “I don’t understand…”

  She places her hands on my face. “I should have been there for you. I’m your mother and I should have been there to help you. Please. Please forgive me?” she cries.

  “Why don’t you hate me?” I ask looking away from her. She’s supposed to hate me. I went against how I was raised. I was brought up to marry before sex, not have a one-night stand and get pregnant. I had sex before I was married and I lost a baby that I didn’t tell her about.

  “Missy Renee Freeman,” she says, her voice getting stronger and I look back up to her. “I love you. I am your mother. I know your dad and I were strict with you and your brother but I also don’t live in a box. Things happen.” She pulls me in for another
hug and I wrap my arms around her. “I love you, Missy. I’ll always love you no matter what.”

  I nod my head as I squeeze her tighter, before pulling away.

  “Is that why you have been hiding in your apartment for two days?” she asks wiping her tear streaked face.

  I shake my head. “I’ve been having stomach pains.”

  She stops moving and stares up at me with concern. “Are you and Tate still sexually active?” she asks, and I let out a long breath.

  “It’s complicated, mother.”

  “No, it’s not. You either are or you’re not.”

  I don’t think having sex one time a few days ago counts as active. But I’m not gonna tell her about that part. “Yes. We were but not anymore,” I say softly.

  She stands from my bed and grabs her purse off the end of my bed. “Come on. Get dressed.”

  “Where are we going?” I ask getting up slowly.

  “I’m taking you to the doctor’s.”

  I stop walking and shake my head. “I can’t be pregnant mother.” We just had sex again three days ago. And he used a condom.

  “Are you on birth control?” she asks and I shake my head. I haven’t been having sex. I haven’t needed it. “Then I’m taking you to get you put on the pill and we will have the doctor look into your stomach pains,” she says matter-of-fact and I sigh.

  I’m not going to argue with her. As much as I want to say no, I also want her to be by my side. I don’t want to keep anything else from her.

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  TATE

  It’s been three days since Missy ran out of my house. And honestly, I’ve never been more full of rage or hatred in all my life. Parker has stayed clear of me and everyone else hasn’t spoken to me much. Sam called and told me that Missy had taken some personal days off. Her first thought was that I was involved. I told her I had no idea what she was talking about, thankful Parker and Slade have kept their mouths shut about the events that took place between Missy and myself.