“This changes nothing, Travler, except for showing me how truly strong you really are. You didn’t end it all, you fought through it. Daily you’ve fought to be the man you are. The man I love and am honored and thankful that has chosen me. So very thankful that you’re the man who’s the father of my child. Because if anyone can show him strength and bravery it’s you.”
“Goodbye, brother” Travler says as he whisks me up from the living room and takes me to the bedroom. Once we make it he lays me on the bed and then is beside me. We face each other and we talk for the rest of the afternoon and into the evening. We talk about our fears, joys, love and future. A future that suddenly feels so bright. One I’d never change for anything in this world. How can anyone be as brave and loving as my man. He’s lived in the pits of hell and risen his way out.
We fall asleep, an exhausted sleep and sleep all night. All night that’s nightmare free and for the first time in a long time I think and believe my man’s going to be alright. He has his family behind him. Both by blood and by bond. We are his family, we were chosen by him. How lucky we all are to have him.
The next few weeks are rough ones on my man. He faces his club and tells them it all. I’m present in the clubhouse when he goes into the meeting he requested to fill his brothers in on that which has been his life. I hear crashes and cursing coming from the room. I’m not worried however, because it’s all on his behalf. His brothers are feeling his pain and if I know them, Tumbler and Travler’s parents better start running for their life if they still have the privilege of walking this earth. The Rage Ryders are coming for them, and it won’t be pretty. I hope my man gets the closure he needs to completely move past this. Admitting it to me and his brothers is his first step. It can only get better for him from here on out. From my mouth to god’s ears. Anyone would know about it after all it would be him.
Chapter 25
Travler
Sitting back watching my brothers destroy the meeting room on my behalf is freaking me the fuck out. Needless to say, they didn’t take the news of my childhood trauma well is an understatement. Chairs are flying, fist are contacting with surfaces and walls and the curse words being thrown out left and right are enough to make a sailor blush. I’m both horrified and honored at the actions of my brothers right now. It’s been decided without any votes that if my parents are still living they won’t be for much longer. I knew the news would be hard for them to hear, but the results of what’s happening right now is beyond what I imagined would truly happen.
My brothers are some pissed off mother fuckers right now and they were beyond supportive as my eyes lost the battle and leaked some tears onto my cheeks. I was almost ashamed and feeling like a pussy until I noticed I wasn’t the only one shedding some tears. Tumbler and Kid are the worst for me to see. They are blaming themselves for leaving that summer and not noticing that I had gone through something so horrific while they were away.
Every time I tell them no part of this is their fault they ask then how can it be mine. It has me thinking of the way I’ve had in put into perspective in my head all of these years. I have blamed myself for it all. If I had been a better son, better kid. Thinking I had to have done something for it to happen to me. I mean nothing ever, not even once happened to my brother other than watching the beatings my mom would receive or the drug and alcohol abuse that had become part of our everyday living. It became nothing to dodge this flying object or hide during one of his tirades. Most of them directed towards our mom, but every once in a while, we we’re the object of his fury. These were every day occurrences, not once a week nor were we lucky enough that it was only once a month. Every motherfucking day it was a game of dive and duck. In all honesty, I would take his hands over the drugs and molestation I lived through for those two summer months. I would’ve taken his fist every day, every hour than have in my head what resides there.
I would fight a battle on a battlefield, go to war, take on drug lords and psycho brothers every single day than live with the images I have in my mind. Brought out of my thoughts by a flying object barely missing my face I look at what lands on the floor at my feet and see someone’s fucking boot. Fucking boot! I look over and see that Tic has obviously run out of things to toss in his anger that he’s resulted into removing his boots to go along with all the other objects that lay scattered and broken throughout the room.
“Stop!” I scream to the room. Everyone stops and looks at me. “Whereas I appreciate, and love every single one of you for feeling what you are for me. We need furniture and seriously Tic, death by boot is not the way I would prefer to leave this earth I’ve been saddled with living on.” Everyone cracks up and the tension has left the room momentarily.
“Fine,” Tic says “no more flying boots. Gotta keep that face of yours beautiful after all.” That really gets a room filled with laughter.
“Hardee har-har mother fucker. It would take a lot more than a boot to take away my pretty face. Stupid fucker.” Just like that the tension is gone and we’re back to business.
“If your parents are still living they’re going to ground. No one fucks with my family and lives to speak the tale of it. That is death by torture, therefore neither you or Tumbler will be present for this.” We both go to dispute this claim and are halted before words even leave our mouths.
“Final word from your Vice President, don’t fuck with me on this, boys. You will get first shot, take out what you will then you will be escorted from the room. This is all the give I’m willing to give, I will not have your parent’s death on your conscience or in your heads for the rest of your lives. Even though they’re disgusting human beings if you can call them that, they’re still your parents regardless. I won’t have regret or self-discrimination for you boys. I’m sorry that this pisses you off, but it is what it is. Things are going to go much differently around here with me and Wasp in charge so get over it and move on. We have nothing but your best in our hearts.”
“Fine.”
“Whatever,” was mumbled from both Tumbler and myself.
“Let’s wrap this up.” Wasp states “don’t know about any of you assholes but I could really use a hard-stiff drink right about now.”
“Hell yes’ were heard throughout the room.”
“Meeting adjourned. We will meet again in a few days. Watch your phones for time and date. Let’s go get a drink and I really wanna hold my Ol’ lady.”
Ryder speaks up, “Travler, I’d like to talk to you alone for a few if that’s alright with ya?”
“You know it is.”
Tumbler jumps up ready to have my back. “Want me to stay with you?” He asks me.
“Na man, everything is cool. Let Kaci know I’ll be out in a few for me.”
“You know it,” he says as he gives me a hug. Not a man hug but a brother hug.
“Chill Tumbler, I’m not gonna fight Travler. I just need to clear the air between us. He’s still my brother and one of my best friends so stop panicking.”
“Not panicking brother, but I’ll never leave him alone again to face anything. Including you.” Tumbler says as he walks out the door.
“First off I want to say I will make sure they pay for you. If it has to be me personally I will make sure they suffer ten-fold compared to what you did at their hands. Secondly, the issue with you and Kaci. Forgiven. I now completely understand reasoning why you two decided what you did. Man, you’ve gotta understand though, she’s my baby sister and it’s my job to protect her at all cost.”
“I get it, man, I do. Just so you know it’s not just your job alone, anymore. I won’t, no I can’t have anything or anyone hurting her, including you. If we’re both on the same page with things, then it’s done. No hard feelings.” I put my hand out there for him to shake. Which he does but ends up pulling me into a bear hug.
“You’re my brother man, always.” He says to me. Damn, I think I’m channeling Kaci’s fucking hormones today. Emotions are foreign to me.
“T
hanks man, same here.” We end our conversation there and walk out of the meeting room. Kaci is eyeing me to make sure everything is okay so I give her the biggest smile I have to offer and give her a wink. She smiles at me and I know instantly that everything is alright in my world. For once.
Chapter 26
Kaci
I feel light as a feather. It’s been six weeks since the club found about Travler and they are searching for his parents. His mother unfortunately is already deceased but his father is still out there somewhere. If anyone can find him though it’s the boys. On to better thoughts today, we have a gender scan and I’m both excited and nervous. I really want a little boy but I’ll love my child my bean regardless of what the sex turns out to be. I just really feel if we do have daughters or daughter she’d need the protection of an older brother just like Kassi and I had.
Things with Ryder have become better. Sadie and he hang out at the house with us. We’ve all grown closer if that’s even possible. My brothers become my best friend and I tell him everything. He’s been spending a lot more time with Travler and I’ve watched as their bond that was already there has strengthen beyond words. They have almost a secret code that none of us are privy too. But I’m loving every second of it. I’d always wanted this with my family. To have a man who got along with my brother and who are best of friends. I hear banging on the door and the front door fly open.
“Alright baby sister, let’s go find out what we’re having.”
“We’re?” Travler says. “Funny, I don’t remember you in the bed while I was fucking your sister.”
“Shut Up Travler!” I scream at him. As my brother looks ready to take him on.
“Dude, that’s my sister. Shut the fuck up about being in the same bed as her when my niece or nephew was conceived. I prefer to believe she had herself some immaculate conception bullshit.” He says with a completely serious face. I can’t help it I die laughing my ass off like that’s the funniest shit I’ve ever heard in my lifetime. Which in turn has everyone else laughing along with me. We’re all losing steam on our laughter when my alarm goes off alerting me it’s time to leave.
“Showtime,” I yelp out in excitement.
“Let’s do this,” Sadie hollers.
“Guess Kassi isn’t gonna make it, she hasn’t returned my phone calls in the last week and didn’t answer my text when I asked her if she wanted to come with us. I was hoping it’d be all of us together. Hope she’s alright.”
“We’ll stop and check on her on our way home sis if she hasn’t contacted you before we left the doctor’s office.”
“Or shown up” my man puts his two cents in. “She may just come to the appointment without calling us and letting us know. Let’s take it step by step.”
“Sounds like a plan” my brother shouts.
An hour later I’ve had my regular check up with my doctor and we’re all being carted into the ultrasound room. Having my brother with us during this exciting moment makes this so much sweeter. If only Kassi were here with us. Not sure what’s going on with her but I’m gonna show my pregnant ass up at her door and shove my size seven shoe up her ass for worrying me like this. I’m currently getting gel put on my swollen belly and am being given instructions on how it’s going to feel. The main one that worries me is that I may feel like I need to pee. Apparently, extremly pee as if I don’t suffer that enough on a daily basis now I’ll have someone putting pressure on my bladder times two. My baby and the tech.
The excitement is building and I’m overwhelmed with the knowledge that in a few short moments we’ll all know if we’re going to be bringing a boy or girl into the family. He pulls his wand out and I reach out grabbing Travler’s hand as my brother and Sky come up by my head to grab their place so we can all see the t.v screen for our viewing. First thing to grab my attention once the machine starts up is the sound of my beans heartbeat. It’s strong, fast and has a rhythm I could listen to every minute of every day until the day bean is born.
Swoosh, swoosh, swoosh.
“Alright, we’re going to take some measurements of baby’s limbs and stomach. Check out and make sure everything is forming correctly still then we’ll have fun chasing this little one to find out gender. “Sounds great doc,” Travler speaks up.
“Wow, listen to that heartbeat sis. Strong baby, takes after our side of the family.” He says snickering at Travler. As if he’s somehow insulted him. Travler takes it in stride.
“Don’t care who our bean takes after as long as he’s healthy.”
“He, huh?” I tease. Knowing he’s finally on the same page as I am bringing a smile to my face. He’s never gender profiled the baby that I can remember. Suddenly there’s a knock on the door. A very impatient knock that has me on edge.
“Yes,” the doctor answers and when the door swings open I’m flabbergasted. Not only is my sister there but so is Malibu, Tumbler, Kid, Riley, Sadie, and Fern. A huge smile swamps my face.
“Oh, look honey,” I say, “the brigade has showed up.”
“Don’t mind if we crash the party do ‘ya?” Tumbler asks. “After all that isn’t only Ryder’s niece or nephew we’re seeing today.” He has a very seriously look upon his face daring anyone to kick him out of the room. I have a feeling if we say they have to leave Tumbler would take it upon hiself to remove Ryder as well.
“Absolutely not, doc meet the rest of us.” I say and my doctor has a huge smile on his face.
“Welcome family, take a seat and let’s get this show on the road, shall we?” Doc asks.
“Yes” everyone says simultaneously, Travler and I included.
We watch as the doc does his measurements explaining every one of them as he goes along. Our baby is healthy and on schedule where he or she should be. I watch as the doctor takes a slip of paper and writes something on it handing it over to Travler. Travler takes the paper looking a little confused until he opens it and the brightens smile I’ve seen on his face takes over.
“It’s a boy!” My man screams.
Chapter 27
Travler
After we leave the doctor’s office we all decide to take this little party of our celebration to the clubhouse to share the news with those who didn’t make it. Excitement bubbling up inside of me. A son, I’m having a son. My past is wiped out and I’m cleansed from the news of my boy. Nothing else matters but him, Kaci and my extended family. They are my future. They are my life. They are my everything. Nothing can take this euphoric feeling away from me.
Kaci and I are talking baby names in the car. We don’t’ want anything old fashioned or traditional. That’s not us, not who we are and we want our child made from us to honor who we are. We come up with a name that has me giddy like a teenage girl who’s just landed her school crush.
Cash Harley Montgomery will be coming home with us in three short months. I will be holding my son in three short months. I can’t wait to share his name with everyone. We’ve decided to announce that shortly after the announces that he’s-well a he. We pull up to the clubhouse and everyone is outside waiting for our arrival. Tumbler took it upon himself to summon everyone as soon as the decision was made that that’s where we we’re heading. I saw it in my brother’s eyes. He’s ecstatic at becoming an uncle. Talks of football training among other things we’re discussed between the uncles as we we’re walking to our vehicles in the parking lot. Kaci’s smile was so contagious we we’re all smiling along with her and joining her in her excitement.
Tic helps my woman out of the car and I see his hand go to her belly with a smile on his face. They’ve just recently learned that Kori is pregnant and these days the club brothers are all things baby related. Kid expecting his shortly, Kaci and I in just a few short months after and now Tic and Kori will be joining us all six months down the line. Our family suffered a great loss this year, but in return I feel that King’s making sure we’re all okay by blessing us with the future. I just know he’s had a helping hand up there watching us and still pro
tecting us. One thing he’s always been excited about is the future of our club. He wanted to watch it grow and flourish. My biggest regret on his behalf is that he won’t be here teaching our kids everything he’s taught all of us. Loyalty, love and respect. ‘Don’t worry, King. We’ll do you proud. I will make it my mission to make these kids know the lessons you instilled in me.’ I think to myself not wanting to voice it out loud and take a chance of upsetting anyone on this day. After all, it’s a day of celebration.
We make it into the main room and everyone takes a seat looking at Kaci and I in anticipation. Kaci gives me a look letting me know she wants me to be the one to announce both of our news’. So, I decide I’ll let them know his gender with his name.
“Alright quiet down everyone if you’d like to know what our newest member is going to be.” Well if I’d known I could shut a room up that quick with this bunch I might’ve tried something like this a long time ago.
“In three short months, we will be introducing everyone to Cash Harley Montgomery. I will be bringing my son home.” Roars abrupt the quietness that was the clubhouse and suddenly drinks and congratulations are being handed out. Kaci is being passed around the room, every brother here making sure they get in on giving the mother of our soon to be member a hug and kiss. I watch some of these fuckers closely. I already have issues with other men touching her, but some of these crazy fuckers can be overly friendly if you know what I mean.
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