“Stop eyeing your brothers, you crazy asshole. We all know she’s taken and is yours. No one wants to disrespect you or your girl brother. We’re just excited for you both. Enjoy this son.” Wasp says to me. Giving me the stink eye to not agree. Hell, to the no, no way in hell will I go against my President. At least not to his face, I do have the desire to see my son born after all.
As the day wears on I see my woman wearing down. She’s exhausted but she’d never say anything to me. She loves this club and my brothers as much as I do. She’s fucking perfect.
“Let’s head home and get you in bed, baby.” I say going up behind her and placing my hands on her rounded stomach. I never get tired of putting my hands there where my son rest.
“Yes, please” she says to me looking up at me with her beautiful smile. It momentarily makes me weak in the knees. I’m holding my future in my arms after all. It still hits me like a ton of bricks every time I get one of her smiles, laughs and joy.
Chapter 28
Kaci
As the weeks progress we’ve welcomed Riley and Kid’s beautiful twins into the family, my stomach is growing daily and my son is moving around a lot more. I can tell he’s getting more uncomfortable inside of me with less room to move around than is needed for him. I am getting more uncomfortable along with him. I’ve even gotten stuck trying to get my ass up off the couch and bed. That’s not fun when you’re stuck and need to pee so bad your bladder hurts. I have everyone on speed dial for when that happens. Levi and Carson have been constant companions as the guys have been busy with rebuilding the club. There’s even talks of expanding the Rage Ryders and starting up another charter. Still in Texas and not too terribly far away. They still want to interact with each other but want to build numbers. Seems like a good idea to me, uncle Jed and our other companion charters are busy with their own issues and building their clubs. They can’t always be at our beck and call when we need assistance so I’ve taken it upon myself to help with research of where the best locations would be to build at.
We’re looking into several rural cities close to us but far enough away to make a difference. We need to be close but not to close according to the guys who’ve given me the job to find locations which they’ll be checking out when the time comes. I’m sad about this happening. Not that I’m not excited for them with the decision to expand, it’s just that means someone in our family will be leaving or left behind. I’ve spent so many years away from them all that it seems like this is going to be the story of my life. My dad’s taken up residence with uncle Jed and his club and has contacted Ryder several times but neither Kassi or I’ve heard from him. I really want to call him and tell him what a pussy I feel he’s being.
Momma is in her own world taking care of King’s wife and running back and forth with her husband. She’s stopped by a few times and claims my father is excited about becoming a grandfather but is upset that both Kassi and I’ve hooked up with club members. I don’t have any words that are appropriate for her when she visits. Let’s face it her words piss me and my man off. My son will have a father and mother active in the club life. I won’t give up the club, they’ve all welcomed me and love me with open arms. Something I’ve never truly had with my mother and dad. I have no issues voicing these thoughts with her as well. It upsets her, since King’s death they’ve pushed our club out of their lives. Like I told mom if they can’t accept the club they can’t accept me and I’d prefer they stay where they are and out of our lives. Needless to say, the last time she stopped by will probably be her last. Not like it’s any hardship on me, but I feel bad for Ryder. He’s been placed in between Kassi, myself and our parents. He doesn’t deserve it because he’s dealing with his own issues with dad right now.
I can’t even imagine being in his position. His father, well I guess our father, the now ex VP has been banned from the club due to his abandonment. When he and I spoke on this, he told me he was disappointed, pissed and sad but would never abandon us or his brothers. I know it’s hard for him, he’s always had dad but for me it’s just another day in life. Mom might as well as slapped him in the face ‘cause she’s given him hell for not standing up for dad. What exactly she expected him to do is beyond my intellect. Sometimes I wish parents we’re as smart as their kids. Not that my son will have that issue, he’s coming from two very smart people. What? I’m serious here.
Riley and Kid are having a little baby shower/welcome to the family get together tonight and I’m super excited to get myself some cuddle time with those precious little ones. They are the perfect combination of their parents and are such good babies. I swear they never cry, not even when they need a diaper change or are hungry. They just let out little whimpers of despair and that’s about it. My luck I’m gonna end up with the grouchiest son ever. Seriously, have you met his father. I love my man but damn he can get grouchy when he wants or needs something and it doesn’t come quick enough for him.
Men, big or little, they’re all the same. But I wouldn’t change a thing about the men in my life. Getting ready for the party I can’t help but admire and look at my baby bump in the mirror. So, lost in my thoughts of what he’s doing in there I get startled when Travler comes up behind me and wraps his arms around me. His hands immediately going to my rounded belly he caresses his son lovingly.
“We need to finish getting ready, babe. We should’ve been out the door ten minutes ago.”
“I know Trav, I know. But everyone can excuse the pregnant lady being late. It takes a lot to get out of the house these days. I have to pee every five minutes ‘ya know?”
“I know babe, I know and I’m sorry. If I could take every discomfort away from you I would. There’s a reason men don’t have babies, and I’m fuckin’ thankful personally. I couldn’t deal with all the shit you women have to go through. It’d drive me fuckin’ insane to have to pee with every five steps I take. Having issues shitting and carrying around a life inside of you that depends on ‘ya for everything. God knew what he was doing when he made women responsible for bringing new life into the world.”
“Aww babe, does some peeing and the bowling ball in my belly intimidate the big bad biker?”
“Intimidate me, what the fuck babe? I was givin’ women a compliment. Don’t turn this shit into a debate woman…getcha self all gorgeoused up and let’s hit the road.” He says to me as he exits the room. I make it till he’s out of the room before I lose my shit. Laughing so hard I have to hold my belly with my right hand and use my left one on top of the dresser holding myself up. I would fall over from the weight if I don’t because for some reason that’s got me laughing my ass off. Men, of course they could do it if they’d learn not to be big babies when they come down with the common cold. Twenty minutes later and a few ‘come on babe’s’ I’m ready to walk out the door. I’m ready to relax and have a good time with everyone. Enjoying good conversation with family and friends sounds like a perfect afternoon to me.
After hefting myself up in the truck with a little help from Travler we’re finally on our way. My man’s happy and I can finally see his demons leaving him. He’s lighter and laughs a lot. It’s a sight to behold. My life is perfect and complete. My baby nestled protectively in my belly and there is finally peace in our world.
Wish I’d known not to speak too soon. You bring some bad woo-woo into your life when you compliment how well it’s going.
Chapter 29
Travler
Watching my woman hold Kid’s babies is a sight to behold. It gives me a glimpse into my very near future. A future that I now look forward too. I’ve stopped existing for today and have started living for tomorrow. Nobody knows the hell I’ve put myself through every minute of every single day. We’re all having a blast when suddenly there’s screaming from the front yard putting the men on instant alert. I recognize that voice, it’s fucking Malibu but what he’s screaming makes no sense to me. Something about…he’s screaming about Fern and Kassi. Suddenly, I’m chasing a very pregnant K
aci as she run’s as fast as her pregnant body can move making me extremely nervous she’s going to fall or stumble to the ground. She doesn’t have the best gravity here of late. Fuck!
“Ferns dead! Kassi’s hurt and on her way to the hospital. Help me! I’m going to go kill every one of those mother fuckers” Malibu is screaming at the top of his lungs. He’s screaming so loud and with such fury I’m waiting for him to bust his vocal cords and see blood dripping from his mouth. I’ve never heard such fury and fear coming from one person before. Nothing like this, he’s lost and fucked up.
“Stay here, babe!” I try
“Fuck off, Travler!” she screams at me. Hey, I had to try. I don’t know what’s happened to her sister or how it will affect her or the baby.
“Stay right by me, babe. If something happens to you I will kill anyone who gets in my way”
“Fine, but move it!” she all but screams at me.
I grab her hand and hold her steady as we continue toward the front yard. Malibu is covered from head to toe in blood.
“I had to call the cops, I had to. Fern was already dead when I got there and Kassi was holding on, just barely.”
“What’ What Happened?” Came from Kaci and Ryder simultaneously.
Wasp steps up “Malibu let’s get you cleaned up and we’ll all head to the hospital together. We need you to tell us exactly what happened. Prospects! Get the women and children to the clubhouse and don’t leave under any circumstances.”
“Yes, sir.” comes from Levi.
“No problem.” comes from Carson. Damn good prospects. Kyle is out of town with family issues and will pick up his prospecting upon his return. He was given temporary leave which I doubt will last for much longer now that we have yet another threat. Fuck my life.
“Umm…No!” comes from Kaci. “I either go with ya’ll or I go on my own. But that’s my sister Wasp, please don’t do this.” Wasp looks at me for confirmation. I shake my head yes to him. I know my woman and that’s her sister. She will make her way there with or without us regardless of what we say and her damn women will help her accomplish her feat.
“You know,” Wasp says, “I’m not going to sit back and let the ladies tell us what’s up and what they’re going to do and not do.” Kaci goes to interrupt but he holds his hand up with a warning glare. “But right now, due to the circumstances I’m going to okay this as long as you keep as calm as possible, stay where we tell you to and agree to have a companion wherever you go. You go nowhere alone and if I think for one minute your overexerting yourself be prepared to not say one word in backtalk but be prepared to leave as soon as the words come out of my mouth. I’m not playing on this so you say yes to me right now, or my way goes. Now, what’s it gonna be little momma?”
“Fine. But don’t keep me from my sister. Please. I would go mad not knowing what’s up with her.” Kaci huffs and puffs putting her arms protectively around herself. Seeing her like this has the hair on the back of my neck standing up. I’m her protector, how do I keep her protected from this? Something so out of my control.
A few of the guys help Malibu get cleaned up and he’s borrowed some clothes form Ryder and as quickly as possible we’re on our way to the hospital. I’m holding Kaci’s hand trying to keep her grounded and mentally with me as much as she possibly can. Doesn’t take us long to make it to the hospital where we’re told by an extremely obnoxious hospital clerk that we have to wait in the emergency room waiting area. Ryders hackles are risen and he’s ready for a fight. He is pissed that no one will give us any information and we haven’t found a private and secure enough location to talk with Malibu and get specifics of what’s going on. Don’t think Ryder’s going to be patient for much longer though. He’s more pissed than I’ve ever witnessed him being and Ryder is not one someone wants to mess with when he’s in this kind of mood. I can tell you from experience I’ve seen him go postal and whip out a bar completely and he walked away without one scratch.
“Let’s find the chapel and go in there and talk. Kaci you’re going to come with us. You deserve to hear what’s goin’ on with your sister. But do not speak or give opinions. Anything I deem is un necessary for you to hear you won’t. Anything said does not get spread around girlie. I’m trusting you.”
“Yes, sir.” I’m surprised she’s being so accommodating, but he’s giving her the only in she’s going to get.
An hour later we find ourselves in the hospital conference room with the doctor who just spent some time saving Kassi’s life. He’s explaining to us the trauma that Kassi underwent. It’s bad—extremely bad. She’s lucky to have survived. Eleven stab wounds, three to her chest, one to each shoulder, one to her belly and the other five were sporadically given throughout her legs, arms and back. She lost her spleen and had some internal bleeding due to her chest wounds. One was very close to her heart but missed leaving damage to the muscles surrounding the organ.
Malibu is in shock and has barely uttered a word once we got him cleaned up so we’re still in the dark on the situation and what the fuck happened to Fern. All we know is she suffered the worst. She not only lost her life in this tragedy but she also was brutally raped and bled out as they perpetrators then turned their wrath on one of our own. Kassi was apparently bound and forced to watch said rape. Her burns on her arms and legs show that she at one point was bound to a chair or something compared to it. She woke briefly as they were cutting her clothing off from her and became hysterical to the point they had to knock her out to even check her out completely.
According to this doctor she still isn’t out of the woods and the next forty-eight hours are imperative to her recovery. They are keeping her in a drug induced coma to keep her from feeling the pain so her body can do what it’s meant to and heal itself from her injuries. We’ve called Sniper and he pretty much told us to take care of it. Uncle Jed took the phone from him and you could hear the anger rolling out of his mouth as he asked questions her own father didn’t. All in all, we promised to keep him informed and he is putting out feelers on his end.
Fern was disowned by her family when she started dating Malibu, a filthy biker as her family called him. When they were called, and informed of her death they told the hospital they no longer had a daughter by that name and let the filthy bikers take care of all the arrangements. I really want to take care of the arrangements alright, I want to rearrange their faces. How dare they just cut her lose like that. She was a good girl who loved her man and apparently loved her woman as well. Makes me fucking sick that there are bastards out there like that allowed the honor and privilege of having children.
You can’t help who you fall in love with, her parents should’ve supported and loved her and accepted her life decisions instead of putting a black mark on her and disowning her as if she never existed in their world. Kaci has paced the waiting room, paced the conference room, asked questions and all but begged Malibu to talk to her. He’s unresponsive which is freaking me the fuck out. My poor brother is torn between the death of Fern and wanting to seek those out responsible and staying behind for Kassi. He’s talked to me about the two of his ladies and he is deeply in love with both of them and would never choose between them. Looks like his choices have been unwilfully taken away from him. He may not be speaking verbally, but his eyes are telling his story which has us all on high alert. Ready to move at a moment’s notice.
I can’t and won’t leave Kaci, but whatever other way I can be there for him and do for him I will. Rather its calling in markers or researching and putting feelers out our way I will do it. For him and for my girl. These mother fuckers already signed their death warrants when they took Fern’s life, they better hope that their suffering is lessened and that Kassi survives this. If not all bets are off and anyone in our way will pay with blood shed. Whether they’re involved or not, best just stay out of the way and let us do what needs to be done.
Chapter 30
Malibu
How do I tell them what I don’t know? How
do I tell them I have no clue what happened or why it happened? These were my girls, my responsibility, my reason for living and loving and now one of them is gone forever and the other one is fighting for her life and may or may not make it. And if she does make it and live, will she ever be the same? I should be grateful that I still have her, that one of my reasons for existing is still alive. Then how come I feel like I’ve lost everything, like nothing matters? Can I still love her the same? Can I give her what she wants and deserves? I’m ashamed to say I’m not sure if I even want to anymore. I’m not sure if I can be with her and not miss my Fern. She was the woman who taught me to love, trust and thing of a future. Kassi, don’t get me wrong I do love her, but Fern was our rock, I only brought Kassi in because it’s what my girl wanted more than anything. I just don’t know if without Fern if I can give Kassi what she needs and deserves. The thing that sucks is that I know Kassi is deeply in love with me.
She not only tells me all the time but she’s shown me every minute of every single day. I’ve never doubted her loyalty to me or Fern. Can I end this with her without permanantllly damaging her in some way? Would the others be able to forgive me if I threw us away after what she’s been through? I’m so motherfucking lost right now. I can’t breathe. I can’t think. I don’t want to live without her!
Just then a code blue sounds off and I hear and see all the nurses and doctors here on the ICU room take off running and heading right for Kassi’s room and my world stops spinning and all I know is my world goes black and I see and feel nothing. And I let the nothing take me because right now I need the nothingness to swallow me whole. As I’m in my nothingness black state I see my Fern.
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