Where The Pieces Fall : Lost Hearts (Lost Hearts Series Book 1)

by Blue Saffire

He looks as if he might protest, until I reach between us and start to stroke him. His head falls back and his mouth drops open. I lie back once again. This time when I tug at his muscled arm, he follows. My hand falls from his girth and his hand slips under my hip, as he kisses me.

  He’s extra gentle as he rocks into me this time. Back and forth, he moves as I struggle a bit to get used to his size. His fingers flex beneath my hips, almost like encouragement to get used to him.

  “You’re so tight,” Caleb groans, squeezing my flesh tighter. “Open for me, Nicole.”

  I moan and do as he says. I relax beneath him, drawing my legs back. He starts to slide in deeper and more easily, as my sex becomes increasingly wet and screeches for him. The discomfort gives way to pure pleasure and my head falls back into the pillow.

  “Caleb,” I cry out in ecstasy. “Oh, yes, yes.”

  He growls and picks up the pace. The long, slow drags of his heavy erection, turns into deep hard strokes that come faster and faster. I’m building to a sweet release, when he begins to roll and gyrate his hips.

  I can’t hold back any longer. The fingers of one hand are digging into his back and the other hand is locked into his damp locks. I’ve never in my life felt anything like this. Caleb is amazing.

  He guides my body to move with his effortlessly. I feel so small, yet, protected beneath him. I ache for more and it seems like with each stroke, Caleb is intent to give.

  “I want to feel you come on me,” he rasps. “Come on my cock, Nicole. Don’t hold back.”

  My body answers his words for me. I feel my sex clench around him and my juices gush. Caleb growls and releases me, pulling out. I yelp in surprise as he flips me onto my stomach once again. Tugging me to my shaky hands and knees, he plunges into me again from behind.

  My mind is racing. I’m not sure I want to be taken this way, knowing that this is how he has been with every girl before me. Knowing that with them, this position was to prevent a connection. No touching, no kissing, no connection, I thought I was different.

  As if he can sense my panic and discomfort, Caleb reaches beneath my jaw, cupping my face and tugging my head back. I am bent back with my breasts thrust forward, while he pounds into me from behind.

  His mouth covers mine, as he holds me into place, bent over my smaller body with his bigger one. The slapping of our hips fills the room. Only covered by the soft playing music and Caleb groans and grunts.

  “I love you so much,” he moans into my mouth, not breaking our kiss or stopping his thrusts.

  I can feel his pelvis slapping into my ass. The power of his thrusts, the plunging of his tongue into my mouth, has me tightening again. This is insane.

  Is sex like this for everyone? Why did I think this would be terrible? Wow, Larry didn’t know what he was doing.

  My screams of pleasure are absorbed into Caleb’s mouth, as his free hand takes a firm grasp of my hip, pulling my body into his. I’m super aware of how sensitive my body is. I can feel every sensation, even all the places his beard has scratched and left his sweet burns. Our moans become a unified symphony.

  The music in the background has changed a number of times by now, but I can’t tell you anything about it. Other than the fact that, Caleb has changed pace a few times with the changes. His hips are working my body over, like a sweet dance choreographed just for us.

  I feel him swell inside me, but he pulls out once again. I’m on my back, stunned, but more than welcoming his next move. He leans over me, trapping one of my peeks in his mouth.

  “Yes, please,” I plea, not knowing what for.

  A shiver rolls through me and I arch into him. In one swift motion, he scoops my right leg up and crosses it over his chest and onto his right shoulders, while he slides into me again. This time his pace is quick and jerky.

  I cling to the sheets, as his body powers into mine. We’re both dripping with sweat, but the glistening of Caleb’s abs is an amazing sight. My mouth waters, as I watch him enjoy my body.

  “Oh, God, Caleb,” I cry out.

  His jaw flexes as he grunts. He kisses my ankle, then nuzzles it with his bearded cheek. The sensation shoots a sweet tingle through me.

  His hand moves to the insides of my thighs squeezing my flesh. His eyes drop to where we’re joined together, his rock hard shaft, disappearing inside me rapidly. A look comes over his face, so determined, so focused.

  “Mine,” he bellows as he throws his head back. “Nicole.”

  My name sounds ripped from his chest, as I feel him pulsing inside of me. I release once again to my utter surprise, as I feel him release into the barrier between us. I can still feel the heat of his cum through the condom, causing a shudder to roll through to my sex.

  Caleb releases my legs and crashes beside me. He tucks an arm beneath me, pulling me to him. I snuggle into his chest, running my hand across his beating heart, as we both catch our breath. Caleb’s fingers run through my hair and I’m the most content I have been in…ever.

  I turn my head up to look at him. His eyes are closed, but a smile is on his lips. I bite my lip as I think of how to ask him what’s on my mind. His eyes open and he searches my face. A look of worry enters his eyes.

  “Are you okay,” he asks. “I mean, did I hurt you? Was I too rough?”

  “No, but can I ask you a question?” I say quietly.

  “Yeah,” he says hesitantly.

  “Well, you know I think you are amazing, right?” I start, but don’t wait for an answer. “It’s just… that was…wow. You were incredible. I felt like you were so intoned with my body and what I needed. I guess what I’m trying to say is…um…how?” I whisper the last word feeling a little ashamed for asking him.

  He just looks at me for a moment. Then, with a heavy sigh, he pushes my sweat dampened hair from my face, kissing my forehead. I watch a few emotions flicker in his eyes.

  “You know that Cameron and Thomas had a lot to do with helping me?” I nod and he continues. “I guess you remember when I told you that I watched movies a lot, to learn to read people. Cameron was the one to come up with that idea.

  “It worked well enough, so when we were fourteen Cameron decided to introduce me to a new type of movie. He said it was sex education,” Caleb snorts. “I should’ve known it was something we shouldn’t be doing, when he made me promise not to tell anyone.”

  “Wait, are you telling me that you watched porn?” I giggle.

  “Pretty much, a whole lot of it, too,” Caleb smiles at my giggle. “All kinds, but that wasn’t enough for Cameron. When we were seventeen, he thought it was time I put what I learned to the test. There was this girl we grew up with. She was a couple years older than we were.

  “She had a thing for Cameron, so he talked her into giving me my first blowjob. It didn’t go so well. I guess it was a good idea that Cameron wanted to be there for the whole thing. It wasn’t that I didn’t like it,” Caleb looks over my head and blushes.

  “She was hot and she knew what she was doing, it’s just that she was…hand on about it. Cameron picked up on it right away. He got her to get on all fours and I lost my virginity. Cameron got that I wasn’t averse to the penial to vaginal connect and stimulation, just the touching and kissing. All in all, it turned out I learned a lot from Cameron’s sex education.”

  I burst out laughing. Caleb tightened his arm around my waist. “What?” He smiles nervously at me and smooths a hand over my hair.

  I try to stifle my laughter. “Penial to vaginal connection and stimulation, that is so something Caleb. You sound like Cameron so often, I love it when the real you comes out,” I giggle. “You should sound like you more often.”

  “Cameron and I do everything together. He knows me best. Being like him is what I know,” Caleb shrugs.

  “So, you like sex,” I say, changing the subject. I already know Caleb has done what he needs to adapt.

  “Turns out, I’m quite insatiable,” Caleb shrugs. As if hearing his words, his penis starts to harden an
d poke into me.

  “I guess you are,” I laugh.

  “Ignore that,” he murmurs. “You should get some sleep.”

  “I love you,” I whisper just before my heavy lids shut and I lose consciousness.

  chapter fifteen

  Morning After

  Caleb

  I wake up to a sore jaw, slightly swollen lip, and throbbing cock, but the best part of waking up is lying across my chest. I can feel Nicole’s little puffs of air caressing my bare chest. I haven’t opened my eyes yet, because I’m afraid if I do, this will all have been a dream.

  Last night was amazing. Sex has never been that way for me. I’ve never imagined that it ever would be. For the first time, in forever, I felt like everything in my world was just as it should be. I didn’t have to hide, I didn’t have to worry, and I didn’t want to come out of my own skin.

  I love Nicole. Her giving herself to me, I have no words that can describe how that felt. Feeling her wrapped so tightly around me was unreal.

  I never want to let her go. If I could’ve had my way, I would have taken her again last night. It took everything in me to fall asleep and let her rest.

  Nicole stirs a little on my chest and makes the cutest purring noise I’ve ever heard. My cock twitches and I groan. I have to get up and out of here, before I do something I know I shouldn’t.

  I understand the physical body, anatomy is very clear to me. I know I’m above average in size. I put a hurting on Nicole tight little pussy last night. She’ll need time to recover from me before I should enter her again, no matter how bad I want back into her sweet cove.

  She was so tight, I don’t know how I lasted as long as I did. The feel of her around me was mind numbing, literally. It’s like everything grew silent to the point that her body was all I heard, all I felt, and all I could see.

  Fuck, my cock jumps, as I replay last night in my head. I want her so much. I shake my head at myself. I’ve waited three months to have her. I can wait again.

  However, I’m no saint. I gently slip from beneath her warm body and swing my legs over the edge of the bed. I run a hand through my hair and take a deep breath. I almost lost her last night.

  I was riding a high after she told me she loves me. I hadn’t seen that shit with Leslie coming. Seeing that guy put his fucking hands on Nicole, had me losing my mind.

  I haven’t felt that out of control in years. I beat that dude’s ass until his buddies tried to jump in. That was a mistake on their parts. I would have been fine on my own, but my brother and teammates were there to have my back.

  Cameron was the one to bring to my attention that Nicole was gone. He was just as worried about her safety as I was. After my brother waved me off to go after my girl, I took off.

  Now, as I sit here and think of the position I put him in, I feel like an asshole. I didn’t even text him last night to make sure he was okay. Exasperated with myself, I lift to my feet and tug on a pair of sweat pants.

  I look back at Nicole sleeping in my bed one more time, before I head out of the bedroom. I need to put some food in my belly and talk to my brother. Hopefully, that will get my mind off of wanting to fuck all day, until Nicole can’t walk straight for the rest of the week.

  If she thought last night was something, she has no idea. I’ve always wanted to try the shit I’ve seen in movies. I’ve just never been interested in trying any of it with the girls I’ve fucked.

  I plan to try as much as Nicole will allow. God, I need to refocus my thoughts. I bite my lip as images of her tight brown body float through my head.

  I go to the bathroom to relieve myself and brush my teeth before heading to the kitchen. I have thoughts of a naked Nicole dancing in my head the whole time. I swear I can smell her scent mixed in with mine.

  “That fucker sucker punched you good,” Cameron’s voice pulls me from my mental torture, when I walk out into the common area. He moves in front of me and cups my jaw, turning my face from side to side. “Oh, well, you look better than the two you beat the fuck out of.”

  I nod and press my lips. I’m not happy with myself. “Sorry I didn’t stick around to finish what I started,” I grumble.

  Cameron squeezes my shoulder and bumps his forehead to mine. “You did what was right. We had it. You needed to make sure Nicole was safe. That’s all that mattered.”

  “Yeah, but I still should’ve made sure you were alright,” I reply.

  Cameron snorts. “Which one of those pussies was supposed to make me not alright?”

  “Thanks, Cam,” I nod.

  “You’re my baby brother. I’m always here for you. Things work out last night?”

  I blush and turn for the kitchen so Cam can’t see it. “Yeah, we’re fine,” I say quickly.

  Cameron throws his head back and laughs. “You know, we should start looking for an apartment with thicker walls. From what I heard, you guys are more than alright.”

  I groan and lean my head against the refrigerator door. “I thought the music would cover it up,” I mutter.

  “Nope, not when you’re giving as good as a Perry does,” Cameron chuckles.

  “Shut up,” I breathe. I get out some eggs and bacon to start breakfast. “You want some?”

  “Yup,” Cameron says, rubbing his bare stomach. “Hey, I wanted to talk to you about that calendar idea.”

  I sigh, knowing this was coming. I wanted to go with the idea Nicole and I talked about. I also know my family will hate every minute of it.

  “What about it,” I say acting as if I’m unfazed.

  “Maybe you should do it,” Cameron says.

  I have to turn to him to look him in the face, to see if he’s teasing me as usual. His expression and straight forward. He means this. I squint and press my lips, as I try to figure my brother out.

  “Listen,” he starts again. “You may not need to just come out with it, but what if you could make the statement, without making the statement?”

  “What do you mean?”

  “The thing is, you want to show everyone that there’s nothing wrong with autism. That you guys can do whatever one else can, right?”

  “Yeah,” I nod.

  “Okay, so what if for each month, you do photos of you doing something ‘normal’,” Cameron says, making air quotes. “Then you can get some of the children from the charity to pose in the same fashion. It’ll be a big fuck you to people’s assumptions. They won’t even know they’re looking at two sides of the same coin.”

  “I like that,” Nicole’s voices floats to my ears.

  I turn to see her in my t-shirt looking sexy and glowing. I feel myself hardening just from the sight of her. She’s so fucking gorgeous.

  “You think we can pull it off,” I ask, as I think about Cameron’s suggestion.

  “Yeah, I have a few ideas already. I think it’s a great idea,” Nicole says with a smile lighting up her face.

  “Okay, let’s do it,” I nod.

  “Awesome,” Cameron says with a smile of his own.

  “You want some breakfast, Darlin’,” I say to Nicole, when she pads over and steps into my arms.

  “You’re going to cook for me too,” she purrs. “No wonder I love you.”

  My heart swells in my chest. I cup her face and bend my head to sample her lips. My hand moves to her ass of its own accord.

  “Get a room,” Cameron chuckled from behind us.

  Nicole breaks the kiss and giggles. “Where’s Kay,” she asks, peeking around me to look at Cameron.

  I feel the moment something shifts in my brother. I turn to face him and see the frown on his face. He crosses his arms over his chest and leans back into his seat.

  “We decided to give things a break last night,” Cameron mumbles.

  “Oh, wow, really,” Nicole says, then wrinkles her cute little nose.

  “Yeah, Kay and I have been together since junior high school. We’re starting to see that we may not want the same things. Or at least we don’t want the same thing
s for me,” Cameron blows out a breath.

  “I’m sorry to hear that,” Nicole says softly.

  “Was it because of me and the fight I started,” I ask, narrowing my eyes at my brother.

  “We were at each other’s throats before that,” Cam shrugs. “Don’t worry about it. I think a break will be good for us. Dude, I’m starving, can you make some breakfast already.”

  I press my lips and nod. I lean to peck Nicole on the neck and tap her on the ass, before turning to start breakfast. My heart leaps into my throat, when Nicole walks up behind me, wrapping her arms around my waist, and pressing her cheek to my bare back.

  I’m momentarily choked up by now much love I have for her. My focus goes to her being wrapped around me, instead of obsessing over whether or not I’m the cause of my brother’s break up. It’s then that I realize I don’t want what Cameron and Kay have. I want what Nicole and I have. This is what I’ve been wanting all this time.

  ~B~

  Nicole

  “Ugh,” I groan as I climb onto Caleb’s bed.

  I’m so full I could burst. That’s what I get for trying to hang with Caleb and Cameron during breakfast. I don’t know what I was thinking. I’m so full everything feels like it hurts.

  Caleb flops on the bed and laughs at me. “You full?” he chuckles. “Come here. I’ll rub your tummy.”

  He reaches for me and places me in his lap. I sigh as I place my head on his shoulder. He snakes his arm under the hem of his t-shirt, I’m wearing and places his warm palm of my stomach. Caleb kisses my temple, as he gently strokes my belly.

  “I could help you with your papers. You don’t have to go back to the dorm,” Caleb says after a long stretch of silence.

  I think I was actually drifting off to sleep. I snuggle into his arms and smile. I know just what he’s thinking. I don’t want leave either. What I really want is my food to digest, so I can pounce on him.

  “How about we take a nap,” I yawn. “When we get up, we can think about my papers that you keep making me neglect,” I tease.

  “You nap, I’ll start on your papers,” Caleb murmurs against my temple.

  “Nope, you have your own homework.”