HANDSOME BUT DAMNED - Attraction

by Anisa Gjikdhima

  I see him going back and forth with the look lost. I approach with caution, I don't know what to do since he just barged into my house in the middle of the night.

  «I've always known what I want in life, I always had women who wanted ... But then you came along ... and all my balance went to hell. You and the way you do. So diverse, intelligent and strong. And beautiful, of course».

  I interrupt him by placing a finger on his mouth.

  «Why are you telling me all this, Erik?» I ask.

  «Why ? Damn it, because you like me really... Your continued cause to then escape is driving me crazy, and I don't understand why?».

  I like him. And who would've thought? Surely it is a dream, it is not possible. Yes, ok the attraction but as I understand that there is something else, something more important. My heart does a somersault from joy, his words I got hit. But I still go with feet of lead, I would not jump to conclusions.

  «Tell me something, your silence is killing me»

  «I'm afraid to feel bad, it's just why I escape» confess looking down.

  «I could never make you sick». He caresses my face and without realizing his lips are on mine. I want him, I want him from the first moment

  «You don't make me regret» whisper to be detached from our long kiss. He smiles at me kissing me again, this time a short yet passionate kiss.

  «I think I'd better be going, although I wouldn't», says grimacing somewhat funny.

  «You don't go, you remain to sleep with me.»

  No more hiding, I really want to be with me. But perhaps it is better to clarify the concept of «to sleep». You know, given the subject.

  «To sleep, Erik, don't do anything.»

  He put your hands up in surrender, sometimes has such childish behavior.

  «What a shame. We would enjoy, in so many ways» Mumbles.

  I take him by the hand leading him into my room. I hope I didn't leave things lying around, I'll admit I'm not very tidy. Crossing the threshold runs around the room looking at some pictures hanging, most depict my parents.

  «You look like your mother», he observes looking at a close up of her, a photo taken by my dad that made her even more special.

  As I was pointing to where to undress, he did it spontaneously and remained in a boxer. I couldn’t do anything but admire his body, it looks like a Greek sculpture, flat belly, carved abdominals, and powerful arms and legs. He is really my forbidden dream.

  He slipped under the blankets as if nothing was, it seems to me that all this was normal and without asking anything, he embraced me and his legs intermingled with mine. My skin attached to him! I feel protected in his arms.

  «Goodnight» I tell turning slightly towards him.

  «Good night, baby» he whispers leaning his lips on mine. Other than falling asleep in the arms of Morpheus, Erik ones are even better. I close my eyes enjoying every sensation, and strangely enough my mind is free from any concern.

  ***

  I woke up feeling a hot body leaning against the mine. I didn't dream, he has stayed with me. It was so long that I haven't slept so well. Our bodies were entwined all night, his arms clutching me as fear to run away.

  Curious, I look at the clock, curious: It was 10:00 am. The 10:00am?

  «Oh, shit! ». I jump out of bed like crazy, it's late.

  «Erik, wake up! We are late». I scream trying what to put.

  Laughter catches my eye. Why are you laughing?

  «Quiet, your boss knows where you are.»

  «Don't remind me. The fact remains that we are late. And you, Mister, you got a date between half-hour» answers.

  «I know, that's why I told Sharon that today you and I wouldn't be in the Office.»

  Leaning on the edge of the bed and stretched.

  «And because your boss is very good, would like more attention.»

  But as it is funny!

  The humor getting to kiss him but he grabs me myself, jumped on the bed; is upon me.

  «Good morning, baby.»

  «Good morning to you too.» It's so nice even in the early morning.

  «What do you want to do today?»

  Leave small kisses on my neck.

  «Hmm ... Let's see ... We could go back to your beach. »

  I'm not very concentrated, his kisses move every cell in my body.

  «Or we could stay here» propose surprising as well myself.

  «If we stay, I want every centimeter of your body» he whispers in his ear. I knew this moment would come but not so soon. But I wish with all my heart, as I've never wanted anyone.

  Just wait, I want him.

  «I want you now» his hands caress me

  «Wait» block his hands that was making its way under the tank.

  «What is that? » asked puzzled. Who knows what will! Virgin at 20 years, how embarrassing. I never thought about what it would be like to say, let alone him.

  «Behold ... You should know that this would be my first time. »

  I'm acting like a teenage novice.

  «Why?». He seems intrigued.

  «Simply expected the right man» I answer with the blank stare, I feel so embarrassed.

  «You think I'm the right one?« she asks.

  «I don't know, but I'm tired of waiting » I sincere answer.

  «I'd like to be the first » He whispers continue with other kisses on the neck and then down on her shoulder.

  I can't hardly wait, I don't want to think about anything, just us two. I want him and I want it now.

  His hands brush against my whole body.

  «You must relax .»he whispers in his ear with a husky voice. Easily said but not done. Takes floor clothes, kissing me the warm skin, discovering to his fiery gaze that turns me on. Looking at my naked body, the twinkle in his eyes a spark of admiration.

  «You're beautiful. » he says hanging his head on my breast. Licks with my tongue her nipples that instantly become turgid. Feel the excitement coursing through my veins, my hot juices moisten my sex. Wrap your arms around my neck to Erik, looking for a fiery kiss as he approaches a hand to my most intimate. I stifled a groan, our hearts beat strong in my chest.

  Slowly slides down and kisses me, the navel, I tremble in anticipation. But Erik smiles at me staring at me with eyes veiled by pleasure, continuing her journey.

  Blows with one hand while I stimulate my clitoris. Easygoing, it adds up. The sensual language, soft, he drives me crazy with desire. I've never felt nothing like this.

  «Mmh, you are ready for me» notifies me huskily.

  Fixed the condom I penetrates slowly, he waiting for me to get used to his manhood. Pleasure and pain are mixed together.

  But is greater than the pleasure, that I turn the senses, making me go crazy.

  While he starts to move inside me, I wrap my legs around his hips to facilitate access. Our sighs blend together, veiled bodies with sweat, lips pasted into a long kiss. Increase your pace gradually and I feel approaching a pleasure, a sensual warmth overbearing, resulting in an intense orgasm, leaving me breathless.

  Erik, holding me tight, accelerates the push up to meet me, emptying himself inside me. We hugged for a long time, panting.

  Erik kisses me softly.

  «It was magnificent», he admits, staring at me with desire.

  «For me» I answer still stunned. «It was my first time and I couldn't get any better than that», I think. Then, He jump back over me and he imprisoned me with his arms.

  «You can't get rid of me so easily, baby».

  I burst out laughing.

  «Really? This is worth seeing, you know!»

  After spending our day in bed, surrounded by pleasure and pampering, we mutually agreed that it's time to eat. We order a pizza, too hungry to wait and cook. Like two hungry wolves the devour in minutes, neither of us cares to look perfect in the eyes of the other. Spending time with him is beautiful. Goes beyond physical attraction. Erik amazes me more and more, out of his public life looks like another
: is sweet, witty and very hands on, just like me.

  Our evening ends up back in bed doing what we left off. We don't want to waste time, or maybe I just don't want to lose. We again hugged each other to sleep together. We are all so natural, no one would say that we know each other. I think to try a strong feeling for him, although I still don't know exactly what. I don't want to get too many questions and, for the first time in my life, I want to enjoy the moment.

  The next day back to work, not as a couple but as head and Assistant; He's just fine. I don't care about the opinion of others but I do not want to give way to all employees of gossip.

  Chapter 10

  The days went on quietly, Erik is very professional at work, but out of his office, my Erik comes back, sweet and thoughtful, but always a little moody but over.

  «Good morning, sweetness.»

  A guy breaks into my Office. Quite a guy, brown hair, brown eyes, an athletic body.

  Not bad at all. Let's focus. I decide to put in their place my hormones, I have Erik, the better.

  «Hello, can I help you? » I ask politely.

  «In the meantime you can call me by name. I'm Jason, a friend of Erik. You know when he comes into the Office? »

  Sure, it could not be otherwise. The boy, Jason, or rather keep looking at me in a strange way, I swear he is having thoughts little chaste. I take the agenda by giving a quick look; not that I needed, I know in my mind all the commitments of Erik.

  «It will be here in 10 minutes» inform him; on this I'm not mistaken, is always on time.

  «While I wait for "Mr. Perfection" I can wait here, Miss » The guy is cut and very pleasant.

  «I'm Elisa» I say extending my hand to me.

  «It's a real pleasure to meet you Elisa» he is flirting with me; he 's so brazen that he doesn't try to hide it in the slightest. he just look like a Davey, maybe because he remember me Erik.

  Types as they move in groups, I imagine them doing achievements around New York.

  «Would you like a coffee?»

  Better be nice, especially since he is Erik's friend. I'm really trying to please even with his friends?

  I'm just a mess.

  While waiting we kill the time talking about this and that, until Jason decides to ask me a question that

  I don't know answer: «do you have a boyfriend, my sweet Elisa?».

  Good question.

  I have a boyfriend?

  Well, I don't know.

  «Something» I say looking out the window. I'd love to know what we are, because we have told only "I like you".

  «It's a lucky guy» He mumbles.

  I decide to change the subject and ask him to tell me a bit about him and Erik. At the beginning he looks a little puzzled, sure, because an Assistant should affect the private life of the boss?

  «We know each other from almost always, we are the three Musketeers. Me, him and Logan». Even that name. Is that the same Logan mentioned Clair? No, impossible.

  «Logan, huh? And tell me, this Logan what kind is it?» I ask.

  «He is an accountant, you can understand what a bore. I can't understand how he can be our friend. No, come on, I was joking. Is a type ok, a bit different from me and Erik but he's all right. But why do you care? » he sitting on my desk by tapping your fingers on the floor and looks at me in a funny way. Never seen a guy like that, he's cute and funny.

  «Simple curiosity, a my friend comes up with some Logan».

  «I don't think. The three of us are not the types to girlfriends or something. We have fun with no commitments. » Here are the words that I never wanted to hear: "fun with no commitments ". If they are made so if Erik has done so, who am I to be able to change his way of life? Who? Jason distracts me from my thoughts to me telling a joke, I must admit that we can do.

  «You're always so funny? » I wonder jiggling the belly with laughter, I haven't stopped for a second to laugh.

  «I'm the jester of the group if you weren't I would be dead. You talk all the time about breasts and asses. » I guess their talk, definitely spend time to boast of their conquests.

  «What's going on here?» the voice of Erik echoed in the room. Seems very angry, I hope not to be the cause.

  «Hey, man, you didn't say that your assistant was so nice » Not now, Jason, Erik seems to be fuming with rage. I see him tighten his jaw while moving his gaze from me to her friend.

  «Come on» he ordered him by throwing a look glacial. it's official, he is angry with me. What have I done? That has bothered the fact that Jason was in my Office? Or was the comment of guy to annoy him? I'm sure I'll find out soon.

  «Somebody had a great awakening» Jason mumbles making me a wink.

  «You shut up» Erik warms him

  I look up at the sky, they look like children from how they behave. Who would have thought? Erik Truston acting like a kid, amazing.

  «See you soon, beautiful damsel. » At these words, Erik drags him by the arm out of my Office.

  Return to my job I undertake throughout the morning and think about them doesn't help me at all. Erik didn't show up all the time, strange. I take my belongings and I leave the Office hoping to crossing, but to no avail. Feel the phone vibrate; for a moment I hope it's him instead is Clara:

  "Darling, I'm home. Tomorrow night we're dating? I have to tell you a lot of things."

  "Ok, dear, I must tell you a lot of things."

  I decide to send a message to Erik, his silence is strange:

  "Hey, you okay? Would you like to come over for dinner?".

  I just want to see him, today I missed you so much. Don't spend a lot of that reply:

  "I can't, I'm busy. We feel ".

  We feel? What are we, acquaintances? I don't know how many times I reread the message. Why is it so cold? Maybe he seeing Jason he recalled the fun that goes back to being alone with someone, when you can have a thousand? He is just a fucking lunatic. But I'm not going to pitying or looking for him, seeing how I responded. To do as he wishes, let him make me sick.

  It's Saturday night and I'm heading out with Claire. It's not that I really want, I feel awful. My evil has a name: Erik.

  From today, you are no longer made to feel, and I'm miserable. I do not understand why are you doing this, didn't do anything. If you do not feel it means that he doesn't care about me, maybe that's the point.

  And if I was wrong?

  Perhaps his only purpose was to get me into bed and, now that he got what he wanted, he's gone. Just the idea makes me tears. But I must not cry, not for him. Why am I so bad?

  I have to cough up my share combative and not be so weak. But all of this is his fault, I let myself go and show how I am really and this is the result. I have to compliment me alone, there are waterfall like an idiot; I knew it was a "womanizer", and yet I didn't want to risk.

  What I thought, he changed for me?

  I'm a delusional. And now I have to pull on a mask and pretend nothing happened. I have to get in the damn club and have fun. And if he were here? I do, I ignore? Simply, I have to stop thinking about him, I have to pretend it doesn't exist, that nothing of what happened is important.

  I see Claire while waiting at the entrance and I smile falsely. But who am I kidding? We will soon figure out that something is wrong.

  «Wow, how we're sexy! » she exclaims pointing my Black Lace dress. Maybe I put it on purpose, in case there was too. Revenue in the local we settle at our table and we start to talk of this and that. I ask you to tell me about his new flame. While telling me about this

  Logan will light up your eyes, you just made. I've never seen her like this.

  «I want to know him » he must be a nice guy; definitely not one of Erik's friends from his description seems completely different.

  «Soon I present to you, I promise. Now enough about me. Tell me what's going on.» Here's the deal.

  What's going on? I take a deep breath and shoot gust:

  «Erik and I spent time together but this already knew.
Then on Monday we made love, as well as all week; has always been sweet and helpful, until yesterday. He didn't hear and I don't understand why »

  I sip a cocktail and, cultured from embarrassment, I look around. I imagine already his comments, I will say of cooked and raw vegetables.

  «That is bastard!» she yells.

  I thought the worse, I would expect a lot of negative comments.

  I turn to look at him but I notice that he is not looking at me. Curious look in the same direction. I've never done this, my heart misses a beat. Erik. He is sitting at his usual table in the company of other men, among whom I recognize Jason. My attention is drawn to the presence of two girls. One of the two sitting next to Erik. She smiles a cat died and she caresses his hand. In that scene the anger makes its way into my heart. If I could, I would go there to do about him. But I cant, basically I'm nobody to Erik, this is the truth. This confirms that I was right: even though I never wanted, I was only one of his pastimes. I'm disgusted by this.

  «I want to dance» I say watching Clara, she seems perplexed by my behavior but, without uttering a Word, follow me. On my way to track my eyes back on Erik, seems to have noticed me, staring at me. "Don't worry, I'll make you yell" I think to myself. I look at it in a cold, as if I cared about what I saw. OK, time to take revenge. Just play ball and be taken. I don't want to give him the satisfaction of seeing me sick for him, even though inside I'm burning with rage and pain. On the track we play like never before, I have to clear the mind, should I avoid thinking about him.

  A guy approaches Claire to dance but she refuses.

  «Dance with me» I say. The expression of Claire for a moment seems confusing but puts little to understand what I do and smiles. Well, my dear, "Moorthy" liar, enjoy the show. Since he took a moment to replace me, why shouldn't I do it? This guy doesn't give a damn. I just want to dance together, just to show me by Erik. I grab the unknown by placing his hands on her shoulders, moving her hips provocatively and mold me a fake smile. In passing I look to Erik, who seem petrified by what he sees; well, it was just what I wanted, at least you know what it feels like. I know my behavior is not the best right now but it's the only thing that came to my mind. I'm so into him that I haven't even looked at the face of the guy I'm dancing, but I don't care. Finished this dance everything will return to normal.