HANDSOME BUT DAMNED - Attraction

by Anisa Gjikdhima

  Chapter 11

  A hand grabs dragging me away from the runway. When I turn I see Erik very angry.

  «What would you like? » I ask almost screaming.

  «What do you think you're doing? » he snarls approaching his body to mine.

  «I enjoy the evening as you do» sarcastic answer. he Continues to drag me up to take me out of the club.

  «Why are you doing this? » he question. I don't think I'm kidding, he's damn serious, his eyes burn with anger.

  «Why? You ask me why? » I'm in a rage.

  «Yesterday you walked out of my Office without of seeing goodbye, I ask you to come to dinner with me and answer me so cold. You don't hear anymore and then I find you here to get all cocky with a silicone blonde. And you dare to ask me what it takes?»

  That's it, I got rid. In fact, not yet.

  «Listen, Erik, I'm not dumb. You got what you wanted and you turned out for who you are, now please leave me alone. I'm not your toy».

  Without waiting for an answer I go to my car, I do not turn back, they're too hurt pride.

  I ride off like lightning towards home, now I just need three things: shower, ice cream and my bed. I don't want to see or hear anyone all weekend, I need to be alone with my sorrow.

  And I don't want anyone to see me like this.

  My phone rings, there are several messages: Clara and then Erik. I decide to turn off the phone, I don't want to hear anyone.

  I'm driving so fast that I'm ashamed of myself but I can't wait to get home and lock myself up in my shell. He promised he wouldn't ever made you feel bad, he had promised, and I like an idiot I didn't believe him.

  Why am I so bad? Why?

  I've never tried a pain so strong.

  Unless...No, it can't be. And if it were so? I don't think that's possible, not in such a short time. But then what do I know, I was never successful. I think about everything from the first time I saw him, all the things that have happened in such a short time. I remember his words, to his promise. Oh my God! I don't like only ... I fell in love! Shit. I fell in love with the wrong person for me. I'm fucked.

  ***

  The alarm sounds for 10 minutes. I really don't want to get up but I have to: it's Monday and I have to introduce myself to the Office. I collect all the forces that were and I get up. When you step in front of the mirror, I stop to watch the reflection: I look like a zombie.

  I have dark circles and red eyes. I slept yammering, I ate ice cream and watched film mushy chili that made me cry even more.

  But what's wrong with me?

  I don't look like myself, this is not me.

  Since I knew him, I lost my balance. Cursed Erik! Just the idea of seeing him today gives me the willies. Strength and courage, we must move on. I try to give me up, I don't want to pull up my long hair.

  I decide to let them loose and wearing a blood red dress.

  Arrival at the Office with 10 minutes early hoping not to see it, I am already sitting at his desk. Damn.

  I head to my Office hoping to pass unnoticed. When I sit on your office phone sounds made me jump, I'm sure he's a jerk.

  «Office of Mr. Truston» I say.

  «In my Office now» he order.

  Good start, breath deeply and I headed towards him. I'm going to play dumb, I just hope to hold out long enough.

  « Good morning, Mr. Truston. What he needed? » I ask.

  «I have to go to London for a deal tomorrow».

  Well, at least he's out for a few days. I really need to stop seeing; more I see him the more I remember the mistake I made. I remain silent to listen nodding.

  «You come with me» he pronounce rising.

  «No, thanks» I respond instinctively.

  «You must to come, I need my assistant.»

  You the jacket system not averting his eyes from mine. I cross my arms in protest but do not speak.

  «We leave tomorrow morning at 8:00. Pick you up to the 7:00.»

  Without I answer him, I head into my Office banging inadvertently the door. I'm furious. He acts like nothing happened. For he will be like but for me it's a different story. I try to avoid it.

  And what is he doing?

  I want to bring to London with him.

  I don't want to spend the days in her presence and pretend nothing happened. I would so get that face slap. Damn! Risk of having a nervous breakdown, I need to talk to Clara. Already, Clara. I forgot to turn off the phone. The back on and lead different warnings messages.

  "Where are you?"

  "Because your phone is turned off?"

  I'll have to give her an explanation, I know. I will call you when I finish work. While I browse the messages, I find one of Erik:

  "It's not like that. I've never played with you."

  Yes, of course. I turn to look at him through the window, his eyes are fixed on mine. But what does he do? Spends his time spying on me? I try to pretend nothing happened and I focus on the job, although I find it difficult.

  I spend the morning watching the clock every two seconds, I can't wait to get out of here. Just time to go grab the bag and go out as fast as you can without looking at it. I wonder why he remained in the Office all the time. Is strange.

  On the way to my home I call Claire to five times but she doesn't respond to any call. Surely you will be offended because I left without warn her and did not respond to his messages. But when I tell her everything will understand, at least I hope. So many things have happened in the last couple of weeks ... I would like to put things back as before. I wish I wasn't fall in love with him, I would not feel bad. I wonder how it is possible to fall so easily. I want my life back, I want to delete Erik Truston off the face of the Earth. In my thoughts now there is only him, and that's not good.

  Ring the doorbell. Are the 7:00, surely it is Erik. I really don't want to travel with him but I can't refuse, it's work.

  «Good morning» he says when I open the door. Nothing has changed, he's damn good as ever. He wearing a pair of tight black jeans and a t-shirt, it marking his muscles. Calm, this is no time to drool, remember what he did.

  «Good morning» I spares going out. Got in the car remain in religious silence to the airport. We take a side street leading directly to the slopes. I thought we did all the steps as mere mortals. I keep forgetting that he's Mr. "I can have it all"».

  As it turns out, we stop next to a jet that I assume is his.

  «How we'll away? » I ask.

  «The time needed» he responds.

  OK, I guess I'm not the only one who did not want to talk. I get on the jet puffing but when my eyes get up they see ... Claire?

  «Claire!» I exclaimed, I'm going to her.

  «What are you doing here?»

  I'm surprised to see you. This doesn't make sense. What's going on?

  Chapter 12

  «Surprise!» screams coming meeting. I am really confused. What are you doing here? Do not understand anything. I look at Erik and he gives me a smile.

  «What's up, Erik? Why my best friend is on your jet? »I ask.

  «I wanted to spend time with you, and then I found out that Claire is attending with my friend Logan; so I thought ... »

  Hangs other people already seated, Jason, motioning to recognize each other I presume be Logan.

  «Elisa, he's Logan, my boyfriend.» Wow! It have changed things! Claire has never had a boyfriend, she always said they were all of pastimes. Something she tells me that this time it's all different, she's different. I look at the auburn-haired young man. It's not bad. Who am I kidding? It's a great piece of guy.

  «It's a pleasure to meet you, Elisa. Claire told me a lot about you, and not the only one. True, Erik? » Even sympathetic, already I like.

  «The pleasure is mine. If you'll excuse me, I should talk to Erik a matter». I grab his arm dragging down the cockpit and I open a door at random and then discover that it is a room ... Now I have to explain all this. It seems

  «Now you tell me what's goi
ng on. » Point the finger on his chest looking at him in a threatening manner.

  «I thought you'd be pleased. » Of course, maggots in his mind works like this.

  «You have no idea how I feel? Not everything around you, Erik, you can't do that. Becomes cold suddenly and without reason, then this. Why?».

  My application must have made you uncomfortable, you pass your hand through hair with a sigh, «because I want to be with you. »

  Not falling for that. Not after what I've seen.

  «Are you kidding me? You turned out for who you are. You got what you wanted, then you become cold and I saw you Saturday night and party with Barbie.»

  Just the thought of him with another one he makes me cringe.

  «Do you really think what you said about me?»

  Why am I asking this question?

  Maybe I'm too angry to reason. He's the only person who I know how to make me nervous. I would jump on him and fill it with slaps.

  «By thy his deeds I would say so.»

  His eyes look at me in disbelief. Did I hurt your pride? I just told the truth. What did he expect? I must leave now. More him around me and and plus I'm sick. It shouldn't be like that. I run out of the room in a rage, I can't stand it anymore. I've known him recently but I seem to know him forever.

  «Stop right there!» he screams attracting the attention of all those present. Here he is the man I knew, the only thing he can do is give orders. Support hands on waist and I look sullen.

  «If no what? I don't allow anybody to run me. You know what, Erik? Fuck you!» I said raising his middle finger. Who does he think he is? My behavior will not be the best but I've seen more.

  «First: don't you dare ever again to leave in the middle of a speech; Second: you watch your language; and third: you change your attitude with me» growls approaching paces.

  «I'm scared. Listen to Mr. "I know-it-all and I can do whatever I want," leave me alone. I want you out of my life.» he remains thrilled by my words, and I hear someone chuckle. I'm not done with him.

  «A psychologist you would solve many problems» I slur.

  This could avoid. Maybe I overreacted a bit.

  «Oh, oh, you're in trouble! »Jasonexclaims. I don't understand what you mean. Erik snaps in fury taking me in his arms like a sack of potatoes; cried a scream in terror.

  «You put me down, now!» I cry banging your hands on his back; It didn't seem to bother him. Takes me to the room, she throws me on the bed like a feather, leaves in a hurry and I keys. Are you kidding me? He has really locked? Around the handle, nothing to do.

  «You can't keep me here against my will!» I scream banging my fists on the door.

  «Yes, I can » he replies across.

  I feel moving the jet, it is about to leave. I've never gotten on a plane. Panic, I can't breathe. I have to reassure myself, do regular long breaths and try to think of something beautiful, I have to make it. Suddenly the door bursts open revealing the figure of Erik.

  «Now you can exit» he informs me. Of course, so it's easy to get things right.

  «You are a dead man, as soon as I get off I'm going to pay, » I say leaving the room in a rage.

  I sit on a chair near the window to look out. We're high, man. The upside is that there is a great view. From this perspective the buildings appear small.

  «Hey, honey? » Claire reminds me.

  «Traitor, I'm going to pay» fumbling between her teeth.

  «You Trust me, it's for your own good.» But what is it? Erik opens his mouth and everyone does what he wants?

  «You're supposed to be my friend instead of into the game. » I am very disappointed in you, I would have never expected.

  «What if I told you that I was wrong? The night that you ran away from the club I saw Logan, was there with some friends, and among them was Erik. He seemed shocked, she kept drinking and did not speak. I asked Logan what had happened. After having explained everything, I realized that he cares a lot about you. All too. Would you like to laugh? Master has never been jealous of any woman. When he saw you and Jason that I laughed at your Office, became jealous and got scared of this strange feeling unknown to him,» she says raising her eyes to heaven. That's why it was so cold, she was afraid of what she felt for me. But it is nevertheless not a justification.

  «And the blonde in the club?» I ask softly.

  «My dear, he's not her fault if women jump on him. If I looked a little more, you'll also see how the refused».

  Now everything is clear, if that is the truth. I will not forgive so easily, first must prove at least some of the pain that I felt.

  «I want revenge. you Call me Jason» I'm ordering.

  «Elisa, don't be stupid. »

  «Quiet, I just want you to suffer a little bit» I try to reassure her. I wastes no time and goes on a mission. Now it will be fun. But I will also tell Jason about my plan, you never know, better to avoid misunderstandings.

  «Jason, I need to ask you a big favor. I want to turn to your friend's asshole. Would you take a joke? »

  «What were you thinking?» he question frowning.

  «You just have to pretend that we flirt and stuff like that».

  My proposal does it bend over with laughter.

  «It will be fun. You're so cool, let me tell you.» he caresses my face while we laugh with gusto. I am convinced that Erik's watching us, but better to check. I was right, in his eyes I can read the anger. Yes, you have to suffer.

  «You know you will pay when he finds out that you've teased?» Jason asks .

  «Yes, Yes, fine» I say distracted. That revenge begins.

  I spent the entire flight to laugh and joke with everybody but him. I ignored his presence. Although part of me wants to hug him and kiss him to make peace, the other side wants revenge. But I don't want to pull her still for long. I think that's enough.

  «You think you're ignoring me all the time? » asked frustrated. «Hmm, the idea was that» I shrug.

  «You're acting like a girl» he mumbles. I can't believe my ears. The ox which gives the horned donkey.

  «You speak? Becomes cold suddenly and disappear without any explanation. Yes, exemplary behavior.»

  «Ok, I was wrong; It's just ... I mean, since I met you I tried new sensations and I was afraid» confesses.

  «And tell me, Erik, now what's changed?»

  «I realized that you are important. » His words fill me with joy but I won't kid myself.

  «Do you think they take me to a beautiful place make me change my mind, Mr. Truston?» I wonder crossing our looks.

  «I'm not sure, it is difficult to understand what you want.»

  «I'll explain it right away. I'm not interested in your money, I don't care what you do. I am interested in small things, made from the heart. That day at my house I told you I was afraid to be happy, for fear of losing people I care about. You promised you'd never been sick and I believed you. This is the result of your promises.»

  You look down as if he had received a slap in the face.

  «I will do whatever it takes to make you change your mind» he approaches with a kiss. I rest stops with the breathing down his throat. As I want to jump into his arms! I have to resist this temptation and continue with my plan, he must fully understand what harm does feel ignored and abandoned. And if you try something for me it won't take him long to understand it.

  Arrived in London after a trip that seemed infinite, we're not in the hotel but in a House just a little way out of town. I haven't talked to Erik, I'm still mad; I avoided even Clara, her behavior is unusual, and then he spent the whole time stuck in Logan

  «Here we are! » Erik exclaims getting out of the car. I follow in silence though I would ask questions. The House is very cozy with a fireplace at the Center: a huge salon, two sofas and a large bookcase on the wall; to the left is the kitchen, also very spacious; upstairs three bedrooms a study and two bathrooms. Jason sling in the first room,

  Claire and Logan take the second. One mome
nt, there was only one room. I should sleep with him? Don't talk about it, I refuse categorically.

  «You don't think of sleeping with me? » I ask.

  «And where would I sleep?» he questions in faux innocent tone.

  I bet he did it on purpose, no exceptions ever. It's like we're all pawns in his hands. I enter room snorting. Engagement time fixing my things, I'm actually just trying to avoid it.

  «If you don't mind I would like to take a rest» I say. He approaches with a kiss on the forehead and I leave without protest.

  After an hour's sleep I descend downstairs finding just Jason. Strange.

  «Hey, where is everybody» I ask looking around. «I went for a ride. Instead Erik is in his study »

  I did not want to leave, I need to get me some ideas.

  «How about a game of cards? » I question. He nods slightly although he doesn't seem very convincing.

  «I think you're wrong with Erik».

  He also puts him now?

  «You say? » I reply ironic

  «I've known him so much, and trust me when I tell you that he never did any of it for a girl. Apart from ... I said, even if you're smart, you seem a little hard of understanding. If he only wanted to go to bed, we wouldn't be here right now; We are trying every effort to let you know how much he likes you.»

  I'm aware of that, I knew from the moment I got on the jet. He cares about me but I'm scared. Then what did he mean by that phrase? Aside from who? I'm curious but I think it's time to ask questions. I will look into it further.

  «I will talk to him, now we can play cards? » I want to entertain myself and free your mind.

  We bet: who he lost, would have to pay to drink. I tried with all my might to win but I don't know to play poker well.