HANDSOME BUT DAMNED - Attraction

by Anisa Gjikdhima

  Then Clair, proposed shopping first and then the monuments, but no one seemed to agree, including Logan.

  Spending shopping hours with Clair is hard for me, much less for them, so they left us at a mall saying they would do things from males, but Erik didn’t agree doing the day program for everyone, I love this man and I would spend whole days admiring him.

  Even though we are on vacation, I was absorbed all day by my usual thoughts, my fear of losing Erik, I'm too happy at this time and I'm afraid that everything could end all of a sudden. Erik noticed my mood and asked me what it was happening, and having no more secrets with him, I told that I thought about us and the fear of losing him forever . I know I'm paranoid, but I can’t do anything, I'm done in this manner.

  But he immediately assured me that he loved me more than anything else in the world and that he would never leave me, so he took my face with his hands ,we looked with love in our eyes and kissing, but embarrassed, suddenly Jason interrupted us saying that we had to go to dinner, and Erik replied with annoyance.

  We were in Madrid since three days, we have visited many places like the Crystal Palace, I was fascinated with it, it seemed to be in a greenhouse.

  In front of the palace, there was a small lake with ducks and water turtles.

  Yesterday afternoon, Erik made me visit Roseleda, a garden with all kinds of roses and invaded by their scent I felt a sense of peace. I will remember this trip forever, but if everything had gone well, today I have a big problem: Serena, our tour guide, was disgusting ,she just did sweet eyes to my boyfriend, he seemed indifferent but she doesn’t lose sight of it even for a moment, we are on vacation, I have to relax and not be pissed off, but it seems my presence was indifferent and this annoys me.

  Clair, surely didn’t notice anything as Martin was busy with his advice, at some point Serena whispered something in Erik's ear, and I couldn’t avoid intervening. Clair, immediately coming to me. The guide looked disgusted to me, but the time had come to have some fun.

  «You ended up having fun with my boyfriend,» I yelled.

  «No, I'm going to continue, You looked at him, he could have better,» she told me.

  «Stunts, I suggest you finish it, stay away from him otherwise I will fire you.»

  Clair, ordered her to disappear immediately, so she finally fled with her tail in her legs.

  When we want, Clair and I, we're real shit, so I thanked her for helping me and I came back from Erik, who didn’t understand what happened.

  In fact, he asked me where the guide was and I replied that she had more important things to do.

  He asked me if I had threatened her, and I replied,

  «What is mine is not touched,» using the same words he had told about Stefan's story.

  «Did I ever tell you that you are a devil dressed as an angel?» He said smiling, and I replied

  «I've had a great master.»

  So, we continued our tour without the guide and even though we lost a couple of times, we managed to find the places we had to visit.

  Even though we are on vacation, I was absorbed all day by my usual thoughts, my fear of losing Erik, I'm too happy at this time and I'm afraid that everything could end all of a sudden. Erik noticed my mood and asked me what I had, and having no more secrets with him, I told that I thought about us and the fear of losing him forever.

  But he immediately assured me that he loved me more than anything else in the world and that he would never leave me, so he took my face with his hands ,we looked with love in our eyes and kissing, but embarrassed, suddenly Jason interrupted us saying that we had to go to dinner, and Erik replied with annoyance.

  We were in Madrid since three days, we have visited many places like the Crystal Palace, I will remember this trip forever, but if everything had gone well, today I have a big problem: Serena, our tour guide, was disgusting ,she just did sweet eyes to my boyfriend, he seemed indifferent but she doesn’t lose sight of it even for a moment, we are on vacation, I have to relax and not be pissed off, but it seems my presence was indifferent and this annoys me.

  Clair, surely didn’t notice anything as Martin was busy with his advice, at some point Serena whispered something in Erik's ear, and I couldn’t avoid intervening. Clair, immediately coming to me, so I started telling her in all colors, and after have been threatened with her, Clair and I, looked into her eyes and, scared, she ran away.

  Meanwhile Erik, having not realized what had happened, asked why the guide had run away, and I told him that I had simply told her that my own did not touch, as he said about Stefan's story.

  So we continued our tour without the guide and even though we lost a couple of times, we managed to find the places we had to visit.

  Chapter 39

  Tonight we will go dancing, it was Jason and Lucas idea, but I was craving, too. Clair and Logan will not come with us because they will have to stay with Martin, this is the parents life!

  I will wear a red dress, a little short, but I really like it, Clair chose it for me, she says it makes me «justice,» maybe it's a bit too sexy but I don’t care.

  But when Erik saw my dress, he didn’t seem happy at all, but I told him I would wear it anyway.

  Lucas and Jason, on the other hand, appreciated my dress, but he told them to stay silent and mind their own business.

  Erik remained silent all the way and didn’t look at me, this thing gave me a lot of annoyance, maybe it was better not to make him angry, even if we're on vacation, we always have to be on edge with him.

  For many hours, Erik totally ignored me, so I decided to talk only to Jason and Lucas, they told me not to challenge him always because it was worse, so I came to him trying to calm the situation, but he kept saying I was a no good girl, all this for a stupid dress!

  I asked him if wanted to dance with me, but nothing to do, he was unmovable. I started to enjoy dancing with Lucas, who told me to understand, was jealous and it was normal. For the two brothers I looked like an easy girl dressed like this, just the same DNA.

  I came back from Erik, dragging him out of the disco, we had to clear this bad situation, absolutely. He looked at me disappointed, apologized ,I told him that my purpose was not to be provocative and vulgar.

  Finally, after moments of absolute silence and icy eyes, he spoke to me saying that to be forgiven, I should have done anything for him. Now with this promise I was really in trouble!

  After this kind of «death sentence», we finally got fun with our friends.

  Chapter 40

  I would describe Italy as a dream place.

  We are here for two days, we visited Florence, within the Uffizi Museum, I found an exceptional artistic heritage, especially of the Renaissance.

  I admired: Botticelli, Giotto, Michelangelo, Raffaello and many other works, Erik loves much art and it was great to discover this other side of him.

  After Florence, we visited Rome: the Colosseum, the Pantheon and the Sistine Chapel, finally the Tivoli fountains, a very romantic place where I walked in hand with the man I love, I felt a real princess. In mid-avenue, we found ourselves in a beautiful and large balcony where I admired the Dragon's fountain, Erik caught me amazed by this charm, unlike him, I've never been out of New York.

  Our travel continued to an island: Sicily.

  Jason had Italian origins and knows many archaeological sites and fantastic beaches, we were very fortunate to have him as a guide.

  Suddenly, I heard a voice whispering to me that it was the time to revenge, Erik asked Jason to take us to a place, everyone knew where we were going, except me. II asked Clair if he could tell me something but she was also an accomplice to that plot.

  Erik asked me to put a bandage, we were in the mountains, Clair last time, but nothing, she avoided my gaze.

  After putting the bandage, I felt various laughter.

  Suddenly the car stopped and everyone was silent. Erik helped me down and I only felt the sun warming my skin and fresh air.

  Clair's voi
ce reminding me of my goodwill, seemed worried, seemed to die.

  The band slipped down, around me mountains, a bridge and my friends.

  Then, I asked what I should do and Erik, pointing my finger to a small structure on the bridge I did not notice.

  Close to it there was a man who looked at me smiling and finally saw something already seen on TV: Bungee jumping.

  It could not be true, Erik knows that I suffer from dizziness, he can’t do this to me.

  I told him I would never do it, but he looked at me seriously saying that I had to do it for us, we had to overcome this fear together.

  But where was the protective Erik finished?

  And if I died of heart attack?

  He replied that it would not have happened, having to endure him.

  I continued to refuse, but he looked disappointed. As I went back to the car, a strange sensation attacked me, I could not move and think of his words, so I asked him if he would do such a thing for me, of course he did.

  So I braved myself and told him I would throw in the vacuum to show him all my love.

  He encouraged me, telling that everything would be all right. I didn’t Erik dragged me into the void, my eyes stick to his, I did not breathe, I want to scream but I can’t.

  Few seconds seemed eternal.

  Fear replaced the adrenaline, it even sounded fun to rock upside down, we started bouncing as long as the rope stopped.

  We also kissed us head down, but as soon as we came back, I swore I would never do it again.

  Erik said to me,

  «I love you,» for a year I was waiting for these words!

  After this crazy experience, we enjoyed the holiday in tranquility.

  Clair, had taken pictures of the fateful day with my terrified face.

  At one point Erik said he had a surprise for me, a boat took us to the Egadi Islands, it seemed we were just us two, the atmosphere was magical, but as usual Clair interrupted us.

  The water was crystal clear and arrived on the beach ,we walked barefoot on the sand watching the starry sky. Paradise exists.

  Everyone came out of the boat except Erik, that waiting for me to go to a secret place.

  I got on the boat and headed for a smaller island. Then I saw a cave, Erik shut off the engine and asked if I wanted to have a romantic bath with him and although we did not have the costume, the good one was just that. Bathing two alone. We went to the cave and as we entered, he grabbed my ankle, as he always won, after trapping me, we swam inside the cave to reach a wider space, closed our eyes and I let go of him.

  He told me to look up, and as soon as I looked up I saw the starry sky.

  It was days that Erik dreamed of bringing me there, he likes to surprise me, started to kiss me gently under the water and when we got to the surface I whispered,

  «I love you to go mad.»

  My heart beat hard because his words are true. I love you Erik!

  Chapter 41

  Welcome to Paris, the city of love. Clair and I were very happy to stay here. As a first step, we visited the Louvre Museum, the Notre Dame cathedral, the Sacred Heart Basilica and walked around the city parks and to the Champs Elysees at the request of my friend.

  We've been in so many shops and seeing men with zombie faces has been a lot of fun. Not to mention the hotel where we stayed: "the Ritz", just fantastic.

  Erik has organized everything in the smallest detail.

  During these holidays, we have always lived together and found out many things about him, for example, that he is more orderly than me, but I had no doubts. I realized that without him I couldn’t live, he’s perfect in his imperfection.

  Clair and I, we decided to spend an afternoon together, leaving Martin with men, it will do us well, she had a desperate need and this was the perfect opportunity.

  While a Martini was racing, her eyes were studying me, I realized there was something that made her feel bad, in fact, just as I sat next to her caressing her hair, she began to cry.

  She missed the time we spent together, her words hit me a lot, she was like a sister for me, but I told her that even if matrimonial life was that, nothing and no one would separate us, then told me that when Erik and I would be married I didn’t have to leave, what a nonsense! Then, she smiled at me, holding her head on my shoulder, and asked if I would like to marry Erik, of course I would have liked it but who knows if Erik wanted it too, she is already so serious that she was seriously engaged in a relationship.

  While drinking Martini, I felt a sense of nausea, and I told Clair that I had to go to vomit, I was never bad for a drinker, and I had drunk a little, to think I had the stomach’s upset for several days.

  Causes could be much like flu, something I had eaten or alcohol.

  I came back from Clair, and while I was sitting I felt obsessed, she looked like I was a ghost, at one point she exclaimed,

  «oh my God, you're pregnant!».

  It was impossible because I took contraceptive pill, but she as a true doctor said that we had to immediately buy a test, this idea made me shiver and even if I love children, I didn’t feel ready yet, then thinking of saying it to Erik.

  After buying the test, we went back to the hotel and we closed in the bathroom, for the first time I did a test, in Paris! What a nonsense!

  The wait was snappy, my hands were sweating, finally the minutes passed, I took the test in my safe hand that it was negative.

  Suddenly my heart stopped, I was really pregnant, I kept looking at the test hoping to change something but nothing.

  Clair was very happy, she had understood everything from Martini, she was also nauseous when she was pregnant.

  As she leaps from happiness, I was thinking of how my future was crumbling in a matter of seconds, I was in panic, Erik would think that I did it with purpose to tie him to me, I'm sure he will leave me.

  She asked me to calm down and told me to tell Erik tonight after spending the evening with his friends alone, quietly.

  When we arrived from the boys, I tried to pretend nothing, but I couldn’t, in my head just one word: pregnant!

  As Clair smiled as stupid, I was getting more and more alert to the news I had to report to Erik who, meantime, he suggested going to the Eiffel Tower, maybe I could tell him there, so he let me down.

  But, I'll follow Clair's advice and tell him when we return to the hotel.

  The idea of losing again Erik was wandering and I didn’t say a word on the way, I just thought of that damn test and the idea of having bungee jumping not knowing how to be pregnant.

  At one point, as I looked down, an illuminated script attracted my attention, I pointed to Clair, and wrote,

  «Do you want to marry me?».

  What romance, a marriage proposal in Paris, whoever will be the recipient , she must be very lucky. My friend started crying, caressing my arm, I asked her why she was crying, but she didn’t answer me shifting her eyes to something behind me . Funny , I turned, and I saw Erik on my knees, exclaiming, oh my God, that writing was for me! In his hand, a red velvet box, I was dreaming ,it seemed to be in a romantic movie, where I was the protagonist.

  He told me

  «I love you, do you want to spend all your life with me ? Do you want to marry me?».

  He opened the box and inside it, there was a white gold link, just as it liked me, so he took his hand

  to raise it and even though my heart was knocking hard, I had to tell him I was pregnant, I couldn’t wait any longer.

  Everybody, looked me terrified, surely they expected another end, I trembled like a leaf, he asked me what was happening, I was not sure that he won’t take it well, I may be mistaken…

  The story goes on with «Handsome but damned!» - PASSION.

  If you want to stay up to date, you will find the various socials in the plot.

  Acknowledgments:

  I would like to thank all the people who believed in me.

  This is the first story I have written.

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  I feel very fortunate, because during this journey, I have had the support of many people. Anna Russo, a special friend, she listens to me, advises me, she’s always present with her explosive charge.

  My dear, thank you for being, it means a lot to me.

  Sam, who came into my life like a lightning, bringing laughter and hope.

  Ida, who believed in me from the first moment, encouraging me to continue.

  Girls, you are part of me and this will never change.

  Thanks to blogs, groups and various social support.

  Special thanks to the man of my life.

  You made me know a new way of living and without your continued support and encouragement, I would not have realized my dream, thank you for believing in me.

  Finally, thank you, my dear reader, that you will read.

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