Never Say Goodbye

by T. Renee Fike

  We hang out and talk for a bit and then she leaves and I wait for Levi to get here.

  He gets to my door around 8 p.m. and before he can even get through the door, I’m pulling him in and stripping him.

  “Liv,” he says with a laugh, “why the rush?”

  “Because, I’m horny and I want you now,” I say, as I’m pulling his pants down.

  “Who am I to argue with that?” he says through another laugh, and then his lips smash onto mine.

  We probably look like two sex-crazed kids, but I can’t help it. Sex with him is amazing, and it keeps my mind from wandering.

  Levi lifts me up and I wrap my legs around his waist as he’s pulling my top and bra off. Our kisses are frantic, like we can’t get enough.

  I tug on his hair to pull his head back so I can get access to his neck. I kiss, lick, and suck on his neck, causing sounds to come out of him.

  He plops me down on the bed and rips my pants off my body then tosses them to the floor. Next comes my underwear, he pulls them down my body only to follow the same path my jeans took, straight to my bedroom floor.

  I can see his erection already waiting and ready for me. I slide my hand down to caress his straining erection, causing his eyes to fall into a half lidded sexy slant.

  He reaches over to pull a condom from the pocket of his jeans, which are on the floor, ripping it open with his teeth and glides it on his erection with a one handed expertise of a true pro.

  “Wait,” I say, changing positions, so that I am on all fours with my back to him, “I want to do it a different way,” I tell him.

  “However you want to do it is fine with me princess,” he says positioning himself at my entrance.

  He takes a hold of my hips before he slams into me from behind. I let out a cry, but it’s not of pain.

  I grip the sheets tight and start to move with him so that our thrusts drive him inside me even deeper.

  He slows it down a bit, and pulls me up towards him so my back is to his front, but he still continues his thrusts.

  I move my hair to the side so I can wrap my arm around his neck while he grabs my breasts and starts to knead them and twists and pulls on my taut, straining nipples.

  He has me making noises I didn’t even know I could make.

  As he continues to move inside of me, one of his hands leaves my breast and slides down to my sacred spot. He starts moving my fingers around my wet folds hitting my most sensitive spot.

  He continues to push and pull my body in so many directions, I can feel myself building. I’m trying to move in rhythm with him, but he’s making it really hard.

  “Liv, don’t move,” he says as he picks up the pace of his thrusts and his fingers.

  I do as he says and before I know it, I’m crying out his name in pure ecstasy.

  Once I come down from my high, he flips me over and thrusts inside of me again. I find the strength to start moving and lock my legs behind his back so he has no choice but to get closer to me. I can feel him go deeper and deeper inside of me with each thrust.

  I pull him as close to me as I can, grabbing his ass, and letting him continue to fuck me. It’s not long until he’s calling out my name.

  Sex with Levi is amazing.

  Shortly after sex, I pass out with Levi beside me.

  The next morning I wake feeling pinned down. When I realize it’s only Levi, I relax a bit. He looks all sexy and peaceful, it makes me want to jump him again.

  I head south under the covers and see he’s already partially hard. Gotta love morning wood. I start to stroke him a few times before taking the tip of him into my mouth, earning a moan from a sleepy Levi.

  I grip the base of his cock as I start to lick up and down the vein that runs from the base all the way up his hardening erection. I use my other hand to massage his balls.

  Once he’s good and wet from my mouth, I take the head in and out of my mouth teasing him slightly. I bite down softly, causing him to buck up a little.

  I take his length into my mouth allowing him to go down my throat as far as possible. The moans coming from him, tell me he’s enjoying his morning wake-up call.

  I continue my bobbing up and down on him until I feel him hit the back of my throat. I continue my assault on his erection until I have every last drop he has.

  I make my way up beside him and start to stroke him, wanting him to get hard again so we can have sex.

  “Not yet Liv” he says as I’m rubbing him. He grabs my hand and moves it up telling me to straddle him. I do as he says.

  He maneuvers himself below me so I’m practically sitting on his face. He has a hold of my thighs so I can’t move them and his tongue dives right into my throbbing wet core. “Holy shit” I say as I grab a hold of the headboard. He continues to lick my wet core and my body is going crazy.

  “Liv, I want you to move, I want you to fuck my face,” he says in all seriousness.

  Holy shit, how hot is that? Just when I thought I couldn’t get any wetter. I slowly start to move and I feel his tongue fucking me and oh my, it feels spectacular.

  “Oh God Levi, oh yeah right there, don’t stop, please don’t stop” and he doesn’t, he continues to lick my core until I cry out his name. He doesn’t stop tongue fucking me until my body finally stops shuddering.

  Levi reaches over to my desk and pulls out a condom rolls it over his over his erection then positions himself at my entrance be he thrusts inside me.

  He starts moving faster building me up again. I move with him allowing him to thoroughly fuck me. He continues to thrust inside of me until we are panting, covered in sweat, and screaming out in pleasure.

  This last week of finals has sucked. Who likes tests anyway? I leave tomorrow to head home for the summer now that school is officially over for summer break.

  I successfully stuck to my plan of school, dorm, or seeing Levi, and that’s exactly how it went.

  Levi and I ended our friends with benefits because there’s no point with me being gone. We are still friends which is good because he’s fun.

  “Do you seriously have to leave tomorrow?” Brynn says in a whiny voice.

  “Yes, you’ve known this B. Nathan is here for summer classes to make-up for whatever reason he missed part of the semester. I can’t risk running into him and it not ending well,” I tell her like she doesn’t already know this information.

  “Ugh, I know, it just sucks,” she says sadly.

  “Brynn, you’ll be home next week, and we’re coming back at the end of July,” I remind her.

  “I know I know, that doesn’t mean I have to like it,” she says with a pouty face.

  “It will be fine.”

  “Oh, things will be fine by the time we move back in July. I am going to have a few words with Nathan, you just wait,” she says determined.

  “NO BRYNN. You promised you wouldn’t say a word, so just let it go,” I say harshly.

  “But Liv, he needs to know you didn’t ignore him or abandon him. Maybe then he wouldn’t be such a dick,” she says looking serious.

  “No, he made his choice. He could have talked to me, but he chose not to. Please Brynn, just let it alone.”

  “Fine, but damn it, I would love to give him a piece of my mind,” she says bitterly.

  “I know B, I know,” I say through a laugh. I can just imagine Brynn bitching him out, not letting him get a word in edgewise.

  I continue to pack up my things, I have about an eight hour drive tomorrow by myself.

  Brynn stays the night and we hang out. Talking and laughing about the good ol’ days along with fun things that happened during our first year of college.

  I can’t believe we are sophomores now. How crazy is that?

  Morning comes way too early; I get up and get dressed. Brynn helps me load the car. Before leaving, I promised Sophie I would stop over at the sorority house and say goodbye to the girls.

  After everything is stuffed into the car, which is the majority of my things, but
some of Brynn’s too, we head over to the sorority house.

  We barely make it out of the car before some of the sisters are running through the grass to give goodbye hugs and drive safely comments.

  After I say my goodbyes, we get back into the car so I can take Brynn to Chad’s. She has a few things now, but will get the rest of her things from the dorm with Chad’s help.

  At Chad’s house, I already informed Brynn that I won’t be helping her to carry her things in, because Nathan lives here too and well, that would just be awkward.

  So instead, I unload a few of her things and set them on the sidewalk when out walks Chad to help her. Such a good boyfriend.

  I say goodbye to Chad, who has been distant from me since our conversation at the bar. I can’t say I blame him, Brynn’s ready to punch Nathan. I get it, Chad grew up with Nathan once he moved to Michigan. I grew up with Brynn when she moved into Nathan’s old house. It’s crazy how our new best friends found each other, but I couldn’t be happier for Brynn. She deserves it.

  I give my best friend a hug, “See you in a week,” I tell her with a smile.

  “Yep, one week, don’t make any plans,” she says looking all serious.

  I start to laugh, “I wouldn’t dream of it,” I tell her.

  We hug one more time and then I get into the car to head home. I can’t help but look back towards the house, and I’m surprised when I see Nathan standing at the doorway, watching me drive away.

  The drive home is a long and boring one, especially when you’re doing it by yourself. I jam out to my iPod and talked on the phone through the Bluetooth. Brynn calls three different times, claiming she was worried about me. I love my best friend; she is truly one person I can always count on.

  Finally, I get home and it’s a little after 6 p.m. I honk the horn and my parents come out to greet me with hugs. They help me lug my crap inside, to my bedroom.

  Once I’m settled, I sit down and have a great time catching my parents up to speed with how my first year at college was, well since Christmas anyway.

  My parents already know a lot considering I talk to them on the phone a good bit, but it’s still nice that they want to know what’s going on with me.

  I don’t tell them about Nathan, because I don’t want to deal with that yet.

  The next few days go by quickly and it’s already Wednesday night. I’m going to a party thrown by one of my high school classmates.

  I get to the party around 9:30 p.m. and it seems that the majority of my graduating class is here. I say hello’s and sit with Kaylee to catch up. She tells me all about college at Florida and I tell her all about UNC.

  Many people ask me where Brynn is, and I keep telling them she’s still at college. I get we used to go to parties together, but hell, it’s like I never did anything without her, or that we were glued at the hips.

  Don’t get me wrong, I love my best friend, but these people are making me wish I never came out tonight.

  When I decide it’s time to go, I say my goodbyes and start to walk to my car.

  “Hey,” Ryan says, calling behind me.

  “What Ryan?” I ask annoyed. I knew I would run in to him eventually, I just hoped it wouldn’t be so soon.

  “Can we talk?”

  “There’s really nothing for us to talk about,” I tell him truthfully.

  “Liv, please just hear me out, okay?” he says pleading.

  “Fine, what do you want?” I say looking at him.

  “I’m sorry I was a scared jackass, and didn’t tell you the truth as to what was going on,” he says looking directly at me.

  “You’re sorry for cheating on me and not telling me?” I ask clarifying what he just said.

  “Shit, Liv, I’m sorry. Yes, I was wrong; I should never have cheated on you. You tried to give me an out and I didn’t take it and I should have. Maybe then we could have tried to make us work,” he says looking solemn.

  “You should have talked to me, lying gets you nowhere. Unfortunately Ryan, you did cheat and you lied, and because of that, I’ll never date you again,” I state honestly.

  “Babe, if you could give me one more chance. I will prove to you how much you mean to me. I swear it. Liv, I love you so much baby,” he says as he steps closer, looking like he wants to kiss me.

  I take a step back, “Ryan, I can’t give you another chance. You ruined us, I’m sorry, but I need to go,” I say and start walking towards the car.

  Ryan doesn’t follow me and I’m able to get into my car and head home in peace.

  I don’t miss Ryan or even think about him, which tells me that maybe I didn’t really love him like I thought I did.

  Thankfully, the weekend gets here, and Brynn’s back.

  I keep my promise. I don’t plan on anything except for hanging out with my best friend. And that’s exactly what we do. We unload all her stuff from her parent’s car and get her situated. Then she tells me about her last week with Chad and how she can’t wait for us to move into the sorority house in July.

  I tell her about my run in with Ryan and how I handled it. She makes me laugh, she wants to beat the shit out of Ryan and punch Nathan in the jaw. She does tell me how she almost told Nathan off, but didn’t out of respect for her relationship with Chad.

  I told her to let it go, and hopefully now she will. The last thing she needs is to ruin her relationship because she’s angry at my childhood best friend.

  It’s time we all move forward with our lives. The past is the past for a reason, whether we know the reason or not.

  Chapter Seventeen

  Summer is flying by. Between hanging out with high school friends, Brynn, and my parents, it’s time to pack up and get ready to head back to North Carolina, into the sorority house.

  The only thing that got annoying was Brynn constantly complaining and bitching about how much she missed Chad. I get it, I do, but come on, they talk numerous times a day, text all day long, and even use Skype.

  We say our “I love you’s” and goodbyes to our parents and head back to college. I can’t believe almost two months has gone by already.

  “Can I just say I hate this fucking car ride,” Brynn complains from the passenger seat.

  “I know, but at least you have me with you,” I tell her happily.

  “Thank God for that. I don’t know how you did this trip all by yourself, I would have gone nuts,” she says, while changing the station on the radio.

  “It was boring, but it could have been worse,” I tell her truthfully.

  We sing along to the silly songs that play on the radio and the iPod. The long trip feels much shorter when Brynn’s along. Thanks goodness for that.

  Thankfully, we get to the sorority house a little before 5:00 p.m. Some of the girls already living at the house come to help us unload the car.

  Sophie shows us which room is ours, which happens to be right across the hall from her and Megan. I couldn’t be happier with that information.

  Once we are all unpacked, Brynn rushes out of the house and heads to Chad’s. I knew it wouldn’t take long.

  I hang out with Sophie and she talks me into going to The Cave with her tonight.

  We get to The Cave around 10:00 p.m. I’m surprised by how crowded it is.

  “Damn, is it always this busy?” I ask Sophie.

  She starts to laugh, “No, I’m guessing a lot of people decided to move back to school early.”

  “I don’t think it was this packed the first time I came here with you,” I tell her while I look around. The majority of the people look to be college age. It just seems crazy that so many people would be back already.

  School doesn’t start for another five to six weeks.

  “Some people can only take so much of the parental units Liv, so they head back to school. Usually ones that live off campus, or in frat or sorority houses,” she tells me.

  “That makes sense, being home isn’t that much fun,” I tell her with a smile and follow her to the bar.

&n
bsp; We order our drinks, grab a table and decide to people watch.

  After about an hour, Sophie spots Caden, her pierced and tattooed man but just stares at him.

  “Earth to Sophie,” I say with a laugh, “Are you with him now?” I say nodding in the direction Caden.

  “No,” she says with a pout.

  “Why not?”

  “He doesn’t want a relationship, some bullshit about not wanting to be tied down,” she says, still staring in his direction.

  “Oh, I’m sorry Soph,” I tell her sadly. She’s been seeing the same guy for quite some time, so I know she really likes him.

  “It’s no big deal,” she says with a shrug.

  “Soph, this is me you are talking to. You’ve been interested in him since you first laid eyes on him.”

  “That’s just it, I’ve liked him for such a long time now, and I know he likes me, he tells me all the time, but he won’t pursue anything more,” she says looking defeated.

  “Then why don’t you make yourself less available and see what happens?”

  “Huh, I never thought of that, I wonder if it would work,” she says thinking.

  “It can’t hurt. Maybe if he sees you with someone else, he may make an effort in wanting something more with you,” I say hopeful.

  “Either way, it will be a good thing. If he comes back wanting more with me good, if not, seeing someone else can help me move on,” she says with a smile.

  “I’m so smart,” I say laughing. Sophie joins in, our laughter carrying over for others to hear.

  Another hour passes with a few more drinks and a lot of dancing, we sit to cool down. I take the time to check out the people in the club. I did say I’m a people watcher.

  Unfortunately, I shouldn’t have looked around the club because that’s when I spot Nathan laughing and having a good time with a bunch of people. I quickly turn back to Sophie acting like I know what she just said.

  “Seriously Liv, you didn’t hear a word did you? Where did you go?” she asks looking suspicious.

  “Oh sorry, just got lost in thought,” I lie.

  “Care to share?” she asks.

  “It wasn’t anything worth repeating. You ready to head out?” I ask, hoping she’s ready.