New Love
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He hugged her, “Should I go wake them up?”
Jose walked up, “What’s going on?”
“They’re both asleep,” Alex pointed at camp.
“Good, that boy ain’t slept in two weeks,” Jose said. “I never saw anything like it man. He goes to class, goes to practice, he may close his eyes for twenty, thirty minutes tops. It’s crazy.”
“Good,” Phoebe sneered.
“You were with her that night, right?” he asked. “Why didn’t you girls go in and kick her ass?”
“Why hers?” Phoebe gaffed.
“I walked in right after you all did, and it wasn’t him. He’s been telling her to back off since day one. He loves Tessa, thinks the sun revolves around that girl.”
“Easy for you to say you’re a man, she isn’t like that. He was her first, and she thought her always. He’s hurt her over and over,” Phoebe said, “Do you know how that makes her feel?” she shoved Jose. “She would have waited until she was married Jose, she’s not like the whores you assholes play with,” she shoved him again.
“Phoebe, that’s enough” Alex pulled her back.
“Alex, it’s cool, I know she loves her. I’m with you all. I’m waiting too, Southern Baptist born and raised. If I thought he didn’t love her I would kick his ass. Your girl Tessa is cool.”
Tessa heard everything that was said and realized as comfortable as she was she could not put herself through this again. She quietly looked at the clock; she had slept for two hours. She wanted to stay so that he could sleep but knew if she did, if she so much as kissed that boy again it would be over. She stood up, and he jumped.
“Baby, don’t go, please don’t go,” his eyes were glassy.
“Lucas,” she said quietly, “I have something in the Jeep for you, wait here please.”
She got up and walked outside past everyone.
Lucas couldn’t sit still; he walked out and stood by the pond. She took a deep breath and handed him a manila envelope. He opened it, inside was the ring, the bracelet, the earrings and the necklace he had given her at the end of hockey season last year.
“I don’t want this Tessa, those are yours. Don’t do this to me, I promise you I’ll be better.” He sealed the envelope and tried to hand it back to her, and she stepped back.
“Lucas, we’re not going to ever—work. I deserve better than this. I shouldn’t have to worry about what or who you may be doing,” she said quietly looking down.
“I won’t accept that,” he tried to give it to her again and she refused. He took her hand and held the envelope in it.
“Please Lucas, don’t.”
“No Tessa, NO!” he yelled and she jumped. “Look at me Tessa, I LOVE YOU, after a year I LOVE you even more, everyday! I never stopped and I never will.” She looked down, “WHY! Why didn’t you come in my room that night, huh?” he tears started falling down his face “WHY! If it were one of your friends-- you would’ve stopped them, but you just couldn’t wait for me to fuck up!” She didn’t answer; he grabbed her and shook her, “Answer me Tessa.”
Tessa started to shake as she tried to stifle her emotions.
“I was asleep; you and I had been at it for three days, three perfect days. I certainly didn’t need that, are you listening to me Tessa!” he asked and grabbed his hair, “FUCK!”
She took a deep breath, “You don’t get it Lucas I saw your face! I saw you enjoying it, I saw you grabbing her hair LUCAS!” she yelled and pulled his hand out of her hair, “You expected me to stop you? Seriously! I’m not stupid, stop talking to me like I am!”
“Fine Tessa you don’t want this FINE,” he waded up the envelope and threw it in the pond, “I don’t fucking want it either! Jose, would you please get me the fuck out of here,” Lucas screamed. He grabbed her, “I’m sorry, I FUCKED up. This isn’t over! I’m not going to just stop loving you! When you can forgive me, call me because I can’t even talk to you, you changed your FUCKING number! I’m losing it Tessa… I hope you enjoy the show,” he walked away.
Jose walked by, “Tessa you okay?” he asked as tears started flowing down her cheek. “I got him, okay?” she shook her head yes, and Jose hugged her.
Jose got in the car, and Lucas sat in the passenger seat with his head buried in his hands. Tessa knew he was crying, and it tore her apart. The pain she felt now would someday heal.
Enough was enough. They pulled up the driveway and out of sight.
Tessa fell to her knees and sobbed.
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Songs that inspire
New Love Playlist
Fade Into You by Mazzy Star
Wonderwall by Oasis
Everlong by the Foo Fighters
Zombie by the Cranberries
Interstae Love Song by Stone Temple Pilots
It’s your love by Faith Hill and Tim McGraw
I Touch myself
Thank You by Led Zeppelin
Close My Eyes Forever Lita Ford and Ozzie Osbourne
Eternal Flame the Bangles
Shimmer by Fuel
Don’t Go Breaking My Heart by Elton John
Daniel by Elton John
Crocodile Rock by Elton John
Whatever by Godsmack
Jane Says by Jane’s Addiction
It’s All Been Done by Bare-naked Ladies
One Week by Bare-naked Ladies
Zombie by the Cranberries
Acknowledgments
To all of you who enjoy reading my stories: thank you. I love that you fall in love with these characters when reading about them, just as much as I fall when writing them.
To RTTP for the cover work and photos. I am so grateful for all you have done for the Love Series, from finding our Lucas and Tessa (R&A) to the photo shoot, and many hours on the phone. You’re amazing in everything you do and I know this is just one of your many many talents.
To Ellie N. for not only reading and editing my very rough drafts but for taking the time to understand my vision for them and embracing it. Thank you for being not only my friend and cheerleader but for pushing me and my work harder than I could have began to imagine. You’re truly amazing.
To R and A, thank you, thank you, thank you!
To all of you on Facebook, Twitter, and Goodreads: thank you for reaching out to me… you inspire me, make me smile and laugh, and want to do better. I <3 U!
To my new virtual friends the ones who reach out to me, discuss OUR book boyfriends, ask me “WHY???!!!” and make me proud of my dirty little mind, and to those who offer help and show their support: You are more valuable and precious to me than I can explain in words. Because of you and my rocking support team at home, this all moves to the next level very soon. I want to acknowledge you all and will as soon as I step off of this cliff and dive into this full time, allowing myself the ability to do so.
To those who take the time to review my books and those who are setting up book tours, thank you thank you, thank you. Kari and Cara, Stephanie H, and Debra. This is very new for me and I am extremely excited!
To my girls at home, my family, my loves, thank you for believing, pushing, and calming me always.
To my little girl….not long now!
Other titles By MJ Fields
Love Series
Blue Love book 1
Sad Love book 3
True Love book 4
Wrapped Series
Wrapped in Silk Book 1
Wrapped in Armor Book 2
Wrapped Always and Forever Book 3
Burning Souls
Stained
Coming soon: Forged
Men of Steel
Men of Steel Novella
Jase
Jase and Carly Summer Lovin
Coming soon: Cyrus
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Table of Contents
Copyright
Dedication
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Acknowledgments
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