Silk

by Heidi McLaughlin

  “Have you told, Lucky, yet?”

  “No, not yet, and I don’t know how to.”

  “How did this happen? I thought you were on birth control?”

  “I am, but sometimes I forget to take it. You know I have a hectic schedule.”

  “Yeah, and it’s about to get busier,” I said.

  Giselle reached across the table and took my hand. “Listen, Lily, I’m thinking about getting an abortion, and I need your support.”

  “You know how I feel about that, Giselle.”

  “I know, and that’s why I’m begging you.”

  “There’s always adoption. Do you know how many couples can’t have children?”

  Suddenly, this conversation hit home as tears started to form in my eyes. “Listen, I’m not getting into this discussion with the two of you right now. I’m about to say something, and I don’t want you to ask any questions; we’ll discuss it further at my apartment, over dinner, one night. Mary isn’t my biological mother.”

  Giselle and Gretchen looked at me as shock took over their faces. I held up my finger and said, “If my biological mother decided to have an abortion, I wouldn’t be sitting here with the both of you.”

  Gretchen picked up her phone off the table. “Ok, everyone look at their schedules right now because we’re setting up a dinner night over at Lily’s.”

  As I laughed, Giselle took a sip of her water and looked at me. “Lily, I promise I’m going to tell Lucky tonight, and the two of us will make our decision together.”

  “I’m here for you, Giselle. Don’t get me wrong; I will always be here for you, no matter what you decide.”

  “We’re here for you, Lily, and you can’t keep something like that from us,” Gretchen said.

  “I know, and I’ll tell you everything. Let’s have dinner at my place next Tuesday, and we’ll do Chinese take-out; no guys, just us girls.”

  ***

  As I opened the door to Luke’s apartment, I saw him lying on the couch watching TV. I threw my purse on the table, walked over to where he was, and lay down next to him, snuggling into his chest.

  “How was lunch, babe?”

  “A clusterfuck,” I mumbled.

  “Watch your mouth,” he said as he kissed me on the top of my head.

  “Sorry, but wait until I tell you something.”

  “Did something happen?”

  I propped myself up and kissed him. He smiled as he nipped at my bottom lip.

  “Giselle is pregnant, and Lucky’s the baby’s daddy.”

  Luke’s eyes widened and his mouth dropped open. “Are you serious?”

  “Yes. I wouldn’t make something like that up.”

  Luke pushed himself up into a sitting position as I laid my head across his lap.

  “Does Lucky know?”

  “She’s telling him tonight, and she wants to have an abortion. I told both of them about Mary not being my biological mother, and we’re having dinner at my place Tuesday night so I can tell them the whole story. I couldn’t stop thinking about it, because what if my birth mother had an abortion?”

  Luke ran his fingers through my hair. “I don’t want to think about that. I’m sorry lunch was such—”

  “A clusterfuck?” I said, knowing he’d tell me to watch my mouth.

  As he looked down at me, he tapped me on the mouth with his fingers. “Watch your mouth, babe.”

  Just as I grabbed Luke’s fingers and stuck them in my mouth, Sam and Gretchen walked through the door. I sat up and looked over at her.

  “Long time no see, Gretch.”

  “Ugh, what a clusterfuck of a day!” she exclaimed as she fell into the recliner.

  I stared at Luke. “Aren’t you going to tell her to watch her mouth?”

  “No. Why would I tell her that?”

  “You tell me that all the time!”

  “That’s because you’re my girl, and I don’t want you talking like that.” He smiled as he kissed me on the nose.

  “Wait a minute!” I exclaimed. “I wasn’t your girl when you were telling me that in my bathroom while you were fixing my shower.”

  “Well, I sort of liked you.”

  “Sort of?” I asked.

  “Babe, drop it.”

  I rolled my eyes and sighed as I got up, and Luke slapped me on the ass. Sam laughed, and Gretchen followed me to the kitchen to grab a beer.

  “What do you think Giselle’s going to do?” I asked her.

  “I honestly don’t know. You know Lucky is totally not her type, and our parents will die when they find out.”

  “Well, let’s hope they make the right decision,” I said as I walked over to Luke and handed him a beer.

  33

  Luke

  “Congratulations, Luke. You are now the owner of this bar!” Bernie smiled as he handed me the keys.

  “Thanks, Bernie,” I said as I shook his hand.

  “This was my legacy, and my passion for many years, son, and now it’s your turn. Do whatever you need to and make this bar your legacy.”

  “I will, Bernie. Enjoy the retired life,” I said as I hugged him.

  “I will, Luke. You two take care.” Bernie smiled as he tipped his hat and walked out the door.

  As I picked up Lily and swung her around, I kissed her. “I can’t believe it, babe. I can’t believe this is all mine!”

  “I’m so happy for you,” she said as I put her down.

  The door to the bar opened and my mom, dad, Maddie, and Charley walked in.

  “Uncle Luke!” Charley exclaimed as she ran over to me.

  I picked her up and kissed her on the cheek. “Welcome to Luke’s Bar and Grille, peanut.”

  “Yay!” she exclaimed.

  I put her down as my mom and dad walked over and hugged me.

  “We’re so proud of you, Luke.”

  “Damn proud, son,” my dad said.

  “Congratulations, manager.” I smiled as I threw the extra set of keys at Maddie.

  I stood there and looked around the bar. My life was exactly where I always wanted it to be. I was the owner of a bar, and I had a woman that I was madly in love with standing by my side. As I was in deep thought, Lily looped her arm around my neck.

  “What are you thinking about?” she asked.

  “Just how lucky I am to be able to share my dream and this moment with you.”

  She leaned into me and softly kissed my lips. “I’m the lucky one.” She smiled.

  As we were having our little moment, Candi burst through the doors of the bar. “Hey, boss.” She smiled as she hugged me. “You have no idea how happy I am that you bought this joint.”

  Candi was one of the best bartenders I knew. She was forty-two years old, and she had never been married. Maddie had always been jealous of her long, curly black hair, and the two of them worked together for years. Both being single, they were constantly getting hit on by the customers. Candi used to be a prostitute. She stumbled into the bar one night after being beat up by her pimp. She was only twenty-two years old at the time. When Bernie saw her, he took her to the hospital. After she was released, they had a long talk, and Bernie brought her back to the bar, taught her how to make drinks, and gave her a job. That was twenty years ago, and she told us every day how Bernie saved her life and gave her a second chance.

  I decided to have a celebration party with family and friends tonight. I put up a sign on the door, saying that the bar was closed for tonight only and would re-open tomorrow. Lily walked over to me and gave me a kiss goodbye. Chris, the principal of the school, had called her in for a meeting. As I looked over at the stage, I chuckled when I saw Charley up there, pretending she was holding a microphone, and singing her little heart out. My mom and dad left just as Sam came walking in.

  “Dude, congratulations!” he said as we fist-bumped. “I never thought I’d see this day.”

  “Me either, Sam. You and Gretchen are coming tonight, right?”

  “Of course we are, and depending
on how Giselle is feeling, her and Lucky will be here.”

  “Oh yeah, that’s right,” I said as I looked at Sam. “Today’s the day of her appointment at the clinic. Lily wanted to be there with her, but Giselle told her that Lucky was taking her.”

  “It sucks that they got themselves into this situation in the first place,” Sam said as I handed him a beer.

  “Uncle Sammy!” Charley shrieked. “Did you hear me singing?”

  “I sure did, and I think you’re going to be the next Taylor Swift.”

  Charley’s eyes widened as she smiled. “Do you really think so?”

  “Yes, I do. In fact, I’m going to call up American Idol and tell them I have a nine-year-old celebrity sitting next to me.”

  I chuckled as I poured Charley a coke. “Here, peanut. Take this and go sit over at the table.”

  “Thanks for the beer, man. I’m going to head home, get changed, and then wait for Gretchen to finish her photo shoot. I’ll see you later,” Sam said as we did our handshake.

  ***

  As I was sitting in my office, going over some paperwork, Lily walked in, and I immediately knew something was wrong.

  “Hey, babe. What’s wrong?” I asked as I got up from my chair and wrapped my arms around her.

  “The teacher that I’m subbing for is coming back to work on Monday. Her husband passed away sooner than they thought, and she said she needs to come back to teaching to take her mind off of it.”

  “Aw, babe, I’m sorry,” I said as I held her tight.

  “I mean, I can understand her needing to come back, and I’m sorry her husband passed away, but I’m going to miss my students.” She started to cry.

  “I know you will. I know how much they mean to you,” I said as I kissed her head.

  My heart broke for her. She loved her job and her students. I wanted to take away her sadness, but I didn’t know what to do for her. “You can work here at the bar.”

  She broke our embrace and looked at me. “Thank you, but no. As much as I love you, I don’t want to work for you. Anyway, Chris said that one of the teachers will be retiring at the end of the year, and when they move some other teachers around, there will be a position available, and she said it’s mine. I’ll just focus on photography for a while.”

  “That’s my girl.” I smiled.

  I tilted my head as I looked at her and gently wiped away her tears. I brought her face closer to mine as I softly brushed her lips. “You know, in order to make this place perfect, we have to have sex here.”

  “Is that so?” She smiled as she bit her bottom lip.

  “I think my office is the perfect place to start, Miss Gilmore,” I said as I slowly undid the buttons on her shirt, then pushed it off her shoulders.

  “I agree, Mr. Matthews,” she smirked as her fingers grabbed the bottom of my t-shirt and she lifted it up over my head.

  34

  Lily

  Luke and I left the bar and headed back to my apartment to change, and get ready for the party. The whole staff was going to be there along with all of Luke’s family and friends. It was going to be a great night, and I wasn’t going to ruin it for me or Luke. As much as I loved my students, maybe it was best that I focused on what I’d always wanted to do—photography. Walking into my apartment, and Luke following behind, I set my purse on the counter and grabbed a bottle of water from the refrigerator. As I turned around, Luke put his hands on my hips and looked at me.

  “Are you alright?”

  “I’m fine, Luke.” I smiled.

  “I’m going to run next door and grab some fresh clothes. I’ll be right back,” he said as he kissed me on the forehead and walked out the door.

  I couldn’t stop thinking about Giselle and what she must be going through right now. She told me and Gretchen that she didn’t want us to go with her to the clinic because it was something her and Lucky needed to do alone. She told me that she’d call me when she had the chance. As I was heading to my bedroom to change my clothes, Luke opened the door and walked in.

  “That was quick,” I said as he followed me into the bedroom.

  “I’m a guy. Give me a pair of jeans and a t-shirt, and I’m happy. We’re not like you women who spend hours deciding what you’re going to wear, how you’re going to do your makeup, and how you’re going to style your hair.”

  “I don’t do that!” I exclaimed as I took a dress from my closet, looked at it, and then put it back. “Ok, guilty as charged.” I smiled.

  Walking over to my dresser, I looked at Luke as he was getting dressed. “I’m worried about Giselle. Have you heard from Lucky?”

  “No, not yet,” he replied, slipping his dark gray t-shirt over his head.

  “What are your feelings about all this?”

  Luke sat on the edge of the bed and watched me as I ran a brush through my hair. “I don’t know what to think. I’m not happy about the decision they made, but it’s their life, and they have to live with it. Who knows? Maybe fatherhood will change Lucky.”

  “Their relationship is weird. They’re more friends with benefits than anything else,” I said as I twisted my hair up in a clip.

  “Some people prefer their relationships that way; it’s way less complicated.”

  “Are you saying our relationship is complicated?”

  “Yes, our relationship is very complicated because I can’t just have sex with you and leave. You plague my thoughts and my dreams when you’re not around. So, I would say that complicates things because when you’re not with me, I feel like life has stopped until you’re by my side again.”

  His words were like poetry to me, and they reached deep down to the very core of my soul. What he had just said made tears spring into my eyes. I couldn’t say a word, because if I opened my mouth, I would lose it and cry like a blubbering idiot.

  As Luke stood up from the edge of the bed and wrapped his arms around me, he asked me if I was ok. I took in a deep breath and nodded my head.

  “I’m sorry, babe. I said too much, and if you respond, you’re going to cry, right?”

  Once again, I nodded my head and closed my eyes.

  “I love you, Lily.”

  “I love you, Luke.”

  “I hate seeing you sad. Don’t worry about this teaching thing; everything will work out, and I’ll be by your side every step of the way.”

  The one thing I could always count on Luke for was the fact that he always made me feel better and, suddenly, losing my job as Charley’s teacher didn’t seem so bad anymore.

  ***

  Luke and Maddie were behind the bar, setting up the glasses, while Candi and I were making sure the tables were set up.

  “How many people are you expecting, Luke?” Candi shouted across the bar.

  “About fifty or so.”

  “Who’s watching Charley tonight?” I asked Maddie.

  “She’s spending the night at her girlfriend’s house.”

  Maddie walked over to me and gave me a hug. “I’m really sorry to hear that Charley’s going to have a new teacher on Monday. I haven’t told her yet; she’s going to be devastated.”

  “Thanks,” I said as I looked down. “I’m really going to miss those kids, but I’ll still see Charley every day, and she’s more than welcome to come over whenever she wants. Just send her down.”

  Maddie laughed as she placed her hand on my shoulder. “That’s sweet of you, Lily, but I’ll give you a call first in case you and my brother are busy.”

  “Ah, that’s a good idea.” I winked.

  As I looked over Maddie’s shoulder, I saw Tom and Annie walk into the bar.

  “Your mom and dad are here,” I said to her.

  “Great, keep them occupied for me.” She smiled as she walked the opposite way.

  Following behind them was another couple who walked over to Luke and hugged him. Luke looked over to where I was standing, and he motioned for me to come over to him.

  “Lily, I would like you to meet my Aunt Rose an
d Uncle Matt.”

  “My, aren’t you a sight for sore eyes,” Aunt Rose said as she hugged me. “We’ve heard so much about you from Annie and Tom that we feel like we already know you.”

  “It’s great to meet both of you.” I smiled.

  Rose was Annie’s younger sister, and Matt was her husband. She was a cake decorator and owned a bakery in San Francisco, and he was a retired accountant who did the books for Rose’s bakery. As we were talking, Gretchen and Sam walked in.

  “Hey, bro.” He smiled as he and Luke shook hands.

  “Hi, Sam,” I said as he gave me a hug.

  “Have you heard from Giselle yet?” I asked Gretchen with concern.

  “I texted her and she said she’s fine—she’s…”

  Before Gretchen could finish her sentence, Giselle and Lucky walked through the door. I put my hand on Luke’s shoulder, and he turned around. The four of us stood there and stared at them.

  “We’re having a baby!” She smiled as she threw her hands in the air.

  We stood there, unable to say anything, then Luke spoke the first words.

  “Awesome.” He smiled as he hugged Giselle and high-fived Lucky.

  Sam followed behind Luke and did the same as I looked at her and smiled. Gretchen, Giselle, and I walked over and sat down at a table.

  “I couldn’t do it. I was lying down on the table with my feet in the stirrups. Lucky was holding my hand, and the doctor walked in and asked me if I was ready. I told him I was and then he went to check me, and I yelled, ‘stop.’ I looked at Lucky, told him that I couldn’t do it, and he said ‘please don’t.’ So, I sat up, got dressed, and the two of us went out to lunch and talked about what we’re going to do.”

  “And what are you going to do?” Gretchen asked as she grabbed Giselle’s hand.

  “Lucky and I are going to raise the baby together as friends, with some occasional sex thrown in.” She smiled.

  “Is he moving in?”

  “No, we’re not moving in together. We’re both going to keep our separate places fully furnished with all the things the baby needs.”

  I leaned over and looped my arm around her neck. “If that’s what the two of you want, then I’m happy for you. I can’t tell you how glad I am that you didn’t go through with it.”