Surviving For Tomorrow (Demented MC: Quitman Chapter Book 1)

by Vera Quinn

  “Gracie, I would never rush you after everything you have been through, but I will not let you slip through my fingers. The physical attraction I have for you is very strong, but I want to get to know the real you. Everything I have told you about Rebel and the Demented Revengers is true but to be honest, I have not lived a monk’s life either. I have fucked my share of women without any attachment to them. One night stands are all I’ve had since Selena, and there has been a lot of them. I mentioned Jade for a reason. She’s not Rebel’s girlfriend. I don’t want this to sound crude, but it is the only way to say it, Jade is Rebel’s steady piece at the clubhouse. She’s a club woman that fucks all the brothers, but she has her eye on Rebel. He’s the President, and that means power. She is a something else, and those women are ruthless. I am just warning you.” I sense no hostility coming from Brody.

  “Brody, I have no designs on Rebel. He is my friend, I hope. When he starts in trying to boss me around and how I want him, he is beyond annoying. How could that threaten this Jade? I hope Rebel will tell me all of this. I don’t want him to think we sit around and gossip behind his back. I am not going to judge him. The type of life you are talking about is not the type of life I can have my daughter around, but until I see it for myself, I will have to keep an open mind. I don’t pretend to think I understand everyone’s way of life but I can guarantee you Jade has nothing to worry about with me.”

  I am ready to put all this heavy conversation away for a while and enjoy a movie. Later when I am alone, I will try to figure it all out, but right now I just want to enjoy Brody’s company. Grown-up time around my house is hard to find. “Can we just enjoy each other’s company and watch anything but a princess movie?” That makes Brody smiles.

  “So that you know, I am interested in you when you are ready, and until then we can do the friendship thing first and just watch a movie if you agree to do it in my arms? I will give you time but a man only has so much patience and when I am through waiting if you don’t come to me, I will come get you.” He smiles at me and my heart melts.

  “I think that can be arranged, if we can watch something scary. I mean the part about watching a movie in your arms. I’ll grab a blanket and get the lights if you start the DVD player. I’ll grab us some drinks while you pick the movie.” I look at him, and he nods his head. I know I am ignoring the last part he said, and so does he, but he lets me.

  “Deal.” I leave him in my living room going through my movies.

  The rest of the night was peaceful, and I loved being in Brody’s strong arms. I felt safe and wanted. The next day shopping was easy and fun. Brody and Shelby got along beautifully. He insisted on helping with her and he even carried her through some of the mall when she was too tired to walk.

  Brody had been more hands on in one day than Kendall had ever been. The best part is when it was time to eat, Brody insisted on a place that caters to small children. Shelby laughed at the dressed up people in cartoon character outfits and loved the games. Okay, I loved the games. It was the most fun Shelby and I have had. When we finished, Brody insisted on a trip to the zoo. It was a day filled with fun and surprises. Shelby fell asleep on the way home, and Brody and I held hands and listened to the radio in a very peaceful and comfortable silence. I couldn’t stop grinning, but right before we got to my house, Brody broke the silence.

  “I had a great time today. It all felt so right. We could be great together. The three of us. Will you consider it? Going on a grown-up date with me? That’s all I’m going to say, but you two have a place in my heart. I know it is fast and you probably think I am crazy but please just think about it. I’ll be gone for the next week. I leave in the morning, so give it some thought.” I just smile at him. I don’t know what to say, so I keep it simple and to the point.

  “I’ll think about it.” That’s all I can do. It feels so good to be with Brody, but I don’t know if it is the right thing. We make to my house, and he helps me get Shelby, her car seat, and my bags into the house. When he goes to leave, he pulls me into him and gives me the softness and most tender kiss I have ever gotten. He has me dazed. “I promise; I will think about it.”

  “Good. I have to go now. I should have stayed home and prepared, but I didn’t want to change my plans with you and Shelby. Tyler, my partner, doesn’t call unless he needs help and his call last night took me by surprise. I’ll text you tomorrow night when I know more about when I’ll be back. I’d like to take you out, but I am not going to push right now.” He starts to leave but kisses me one more time and then he is gone and I am left wondering, can I trust him? Is he the nice guy he comes off as right now? I know this is left over from Kendall, but the questions are still there. I so want to trust him.

  Chapter 7

  Rebel

  I haven’t been able to get Gracie out of my head since I left on the damn run that I couldn’t put off. I can’t wait to have her here in my world today.

  I’m laying here in my bed at the clubhouse, and I cannot get this woman out of my head. I’ve battled with myself on just walking away from her, but I am too much of a selfish bastard to do that. I still won’t know if I want to keep her forever, but I know she is going to be under me until I figure it out.

  I have no doubt Brody is being the good boy scout and giving her space, but I am not that selfless. Today Gracie will step into my world, and I know she will need an adjustment period, but she will be mine for as long as I want her. She will try to run, but I won’t let her get away from me.

  She is a good woman. I haven’t had a good woman since Jilly. I can see the love she has for her beautiful little girl. She works hard, and she doesn’t want any damn handouts. Shelby has gotten to my cold heart, and she is coming out of her shell.

  The first time I saw that baby girl she was skittish of any man but now when I see her at my ma’s she has a beautiful smile and even lets me hold her, which melted my cold heart. I’ve never been a man that thought I had to make my bloodline keep existing, but something about Gracie makes me want to plant my seed inside her.

  She has done a good job with Shelby, and I want some of that goodness in my life. I can see Gracie big and round with my baby in her, and I want it. I know even if I don’t happen to be around because in my life you never know when your number might be up, she’ll make sure that it is raised right. Her and my ma together. I can’t get it out of my mind.

  Last night I had Jade suck me off so I can try to have some patience with Gracie. Afterward, I told that bitch she better stay away from Gracie. Jade knows the consequences of going against me.

  I might as well get up and get some coffee in me and recheck everything and get these club girls and prospects around here cleaning for when the ol’ ladies start bringing in the food for today. The club girls need to make themselves scarce until family day is over.

  I make my way into the kitchen and start the coffee. The site of some of the brothers with their cocks on full display used not to turn my stomach, but lately, it is getting old. I need to spend more time at my house. Hardly anyone knows about it and to tell the truth, I haven’t been there in a while. I accepted the way my life was a long time ago.

  Being President of the club comes with a lot of perks, but it also comes with a lot of drawbacks. I am burning out fast. I get a cup out of the cabinet and wait for the coffee to finish. I just have to accept it. I need some good, and if I were a better man, someone like Brody, I would walk away, but I can’t.

  I need Gracie like an addict needs his next fix. Good women are hard to come by around here, and I am getting me Gracie. I should ease her into the life of the Demented Revengers, but I can’t pretend I am something I’m not. She’s showed she could adapt. I just have to prove to her she needs me and how good we are going to be together.

  I know by now Brody has warned her about me and probably has spilled about the shit that goes on around here. If she is still ready to go when I go to pick her, Shelby, and ma up, then I know I still have a shot. Everything that
has happened in Brody’s and my past is not my fault. Brody needs to shoulder his part in it, too.

  I make my way into my office and sip on my hot coffee. My mind lost on everything happening today and back to the last talk with Gracie. That’s when I hear my office door open, and I see Jade slink in. She has that mischievous grin on her face when she is up to no good.

  This is going to be good. She comes up to me and rubs her hand up my arm and cocks her head to the side and pulls the side of her bottom lip in between her teeth. She’s trying to look sweet and innocent, but there’s no way this bitch could be either one. “Rebel you need anything before I start cleaning up this morning. Anything at all?”

  I just look at her. Jade is one hot piece, and she can’t be any older than twenty-five, but her choices in life have taken their toll. She is always willing and able to take me or any of my brothers. She has three hot and willing holes anytime, anywhere. Whether it is one brother or three and until I met Gracie, that is all I have wanted, but I have to say I am not even tempted right now. I have made a decision, and I have put her on notice, but she is testing my resolve.

  “Jade, I told you last night that if I want you, I will let you know. Don’t test me woman or you won’t like the consequences. I am giving you your warning so don’t fuck it up. Gracie is going to be mine, and you are going to keep your distance.” I can see in her eyes that she is going to be trouble. I should cut my losses now and get rid of her, but she is one of the favorite club girls.

  I have to say I have monopolized most of her time, but most of the brothers have had her at one time or another. Her eyes do not meet mine. She’s looking at the floor while she is rubbing on my shoulders. Damn it feels good, and I have to admit my cock is twitching and wanting what she is offering.

  “Rebel, you know that good girl is not going to satisfy your needs. Can you really see her coming and sucking you off any time you want? Do you think if you decide you want her ass she is going to bend over and take it? I am up for anything you want when you want, anywhere you want.”

  My half hard cock is now steel hard and wanting out of my jeans, and then I think of Gracie, and I know if I want the good I am going to have curb my appetites until I have her ready to give me what I want. I take both of Jade's hands in my hands, and by the little smile on her face I know she thinks she’s won but instead of bending her over my desk I walk her to the door and open it and push her out of it.

  “Since you are up so early get to cleaning. We’ll have a full house of family today.” That takes the smile right off her face.

  “Since I have been with you I haven’t had cleaning responsibilities. The other girls do it in case you need me.” When the hell did that happen? All the club girls are supposed to clean, cook, and help at the bar in shifts. Something else she got out of. I knew she was getting too comfortable with me.

  “That was never supposed to happen. You are nothing more to me than any other club girl, and if you don’t pull your weight, then you are out. Get to work.” She is not happy.

  “Do you think this woman will turn her head when you decide to fuck one of the club girls in front of everyone?” Jade is pushing her luck.

  “She won’t have to. If I make her mine permanently I won’t be fucking anyone but her.” Jade looks like I just hit her.

  “Why would you do that for her and not me? Why is she any better than me? You haven’t even fucked her yet.” Jade recovers easily and sounds spiteful.

  “Not your business. I never promised you anything but a good fuck, and that is exactly what you got. Don’t make me ban you, Jade.” With that, I slam the door in her face. I finish up my paperwork and then hit my shower to get ready for my day of fun with family, Gracie, and Shelby.

  Two hours later I am sitting in my ma’s kitchen drinking more coffee and eating some breakfast. I feel as nervous as some high school kid going on their first date. I have wasted enough time, and it is time to knock on Gracie’s door. I take my dishes and set them in the sink, and I look at ma. She is smiling, she knows what a wreck I have been over this. Ma always knows.

  I make my way over to Gracie’s house, and I see from her yard that Brody is not home. Must be on the hunt again. I knock softly on the door, and Gracie opens it. There she is in all her beauty.

  She has a pair of cut off shorts on that are longer than what I am used to seeing but then again she’s not a club whore. She’s got a plain t-shirt on that comes down to the top of her shorts. It is tight though and shows her tits off. Her hair is pulled up into a high ponytail, and she’s wearing a pair of chucks and not a spot of makeup on her beautiful face. Not usually my thing. I like to see lots of skin and big hair and some heels, but it totally works for her. She's gorgeous just the way she is, and when she smiles at me, she couldn’t be any more sexy.

  Then I hear what sounds like little feet running and sure enough, Shelby peeks her little head around her mom’s legs with a matching amazing smile. Gracie steps back and lets me in her house, and Shelby attaches herself to my legs. I bend down and pick her up and she rewards me with a sloppy kiss on my face. Best kiss ever.

  I blow raspberries on her belly and put her on my shoulders and turn around fast while making sure she doesn’t slide off. “Oh, you are in trouble now. Ever since you started that with her at Audie’s, it is her favorite thing, and she doesn’t want you to stop. I think it tickles her tummy.” I can see Gracie likes that Shelby and I have gotten better acquainted and she no longer shies away from me.

  “Are you about ready to go? We’re supposed to meet up with some of my brothers and their families in about an hour at the fair, and it is about a thirty- minute drive.” Gracie looks at me shyly.

  “I can take my car and bring Audie.” She is not driving. I don’t want her to have a way to run.

  “I brought my truck today so I will have plenty of room. I don’t want you worrying about anything today. I am going to help with Shelby, and I want you to relax. Do you have one of those things you push them around in or does she have a wagon? I’ve seen some of the ol’ ladies use those wagons for when the kids get sleepy. Be sure to bring sunblock too. It’s not supposed to be that hot today, but that baby skin of hers might blister.” Gracie is looking at me in surprise. “What?”

  “She does have a wagon, and that is a great idea. I’ll get a towel to put in it. I already put sunblock on her, and I have some more in her bag. Thank you, Rebel. I appreciate you looking out for Shelby.” She acts like I haven’t already told her she is going to be mine. Gracie disappears and comes back pulling a wagon behind her.

  “Gracie, I have told you I am going to take care of everything today, so no thanks are needed. Let’s get Ma and get on the road.” I take the wagon handle from her hand, and then I take Shelby off my shoulders and put her in the wagon, and we make our way outside then over to Ma’s where she is waiting with a big box of cooked food.

  “Son, can we drop these off at the clubhouse first? It’s for later at the cookout. Gracie and I cooked last night.” I look at Gracie, and she is looking all shy. My girl likes to cook but then she tries to play it off.

  “I only followed Audie’s instructions. I can cook simple stuff but that casserole is the bomb, and I would never be able to fix that by myself.” Ma is shaking her head and laughing.

  “Son, Gracie is a good girl, but she tells fibs when she says she don’t know her way around a kitchen.” Ma likes Gracie, and they get along so well. Ma is giving her approval in her way. “You’ll get the casserole down, Gracie.”

  “Ok ladies, let’s get this food and Shelby loaded up and we will make a fast stop at the clubhouse, then on to the fair.” I have been looking forward to having time with Gracie and Shelby today. I don’t usually take part in the fair and family shit, but I had already promised Ma I would go and this is the perfect opportunity to get to know Gracie better without the worry of running into Brody.

  Ma said he was called out of town again, which is good because I don’t want our t
ime interrupted by him. We get everything situated and secure enough, and we get Shelby and her car seat situated. Ma volunteers to sit with Shelby and after Gracie arguing with her a few minutes we finally get on the road.

  I reach over my console and take Gracie’s hand in mine and hold it. She looks at me questionably but doesn’t take her hand back. This isn’t me holding hands, but with Gracie, it seems right and somehow holding her hand gives me more happiness than anything else has in a long time. I feel at peace in a way, and it is a little surprising. Ma has a grin on her face and has that knowing Ma look.

  I know the ‘be careful’ conversation will be next, but if I am going to capture Gracie’s heart, I can’t afford to be careful. I have to act. Brody has his eye on her, and I know he will fight it, so I have to make sure he is too late by the time he gets his head out of his ass.

  I know I can get Gracie in bed, but I want in her heart. For the first time since Jilly, I am man enough to say I want more than just a quick fuck. I want it all and I am going to do whatever it takes, even if that means going through Brody to get it.

  I’ve been in my head going over everything I want to do today, and it isn’t long before I see the clubhouse. I drive up into the drive and park in front and honk my horn. “Sit tight, and I will get this box out and send it in with one of the prospects so we can get to the fair.” I get my phone out and shoot a text to one of the prospects and by the time I have the box of food out, Crowder, our newest prospect, is out to take it inside. He looks like he just rolled out of bed.