by A. T Brennan
Fuck!
He wasn’t supposed to have seen that. It never should have happened, but especially not in front of Logan.
He tore his eyes from mine before I could figure out what I should do and reached into the booth and pulled out a purse. Then he spun on his heel and stalked out of the bar.
“Wow, that fag’s got it bad for you, bro.”
I turned to my left and saw the entire table was staring at me. Mac, our starting short stop, smirking as he looked at me.
“Don’t call him that.”
“It’s what he is.” Mac shrugged.
“Dude, you can’t tell me that was normal. I told you he’s been cock-blocking you.”
I turned to Kevin, my fists balling in an attempt to stop myself from knocking him on the fucking floor.
“What’s it like sharing a place with him?” Jeremy, our starting third base, asked with a snicker. “Ever catch him sniffing your briefs?”
“Or watching you sleep?” Vaughn, the second baseman, pitched in.
“I’d get a lock for my door if I were you. He was looking pretty thirsty.”
I didn’t even bother trying to place the voice with which random girl had said it. I was so angry I was shaking from the effort of hiding it.
Katie hadn’t moved off my lap, and when I looked up at her she was staring down at me with a shocked expression. After a second her shock faded and she leaned down to press her lips to my ear.
“Are you two together?”
“Yes.”
I was afraid she wouldn’t hear me I’d whispered so softly.
“It’s okay. Just follow my lead.”
She pressed a kiss against the side of my neck and stood, grabbing my hand as she did.
“Well, as much as this little scene is amusing, Adam and I will be skipping the club.” She winked and tugged me to my feet. “We’ll catch y’all later.”
She led me out of the bar as our group cheered and hollered, and when we were outside she dropped her hand and gave me a kind smile.
“Thank you.”
“Why didn’t you tell me?” she asked as she started to walk, nodding for me to fall into step with her.
“I haven’t told anyone.”
“Yeah, but I was the one trying to seduce you.” She laughed and glanced at me. “If you’d told me then I wouldn’t have done that. It had to be awkward for you.”
“A little. But I’m the asshole here. I lead you on.”
“I get why you did.” She shrugged. “Your friends are dicks.”
“My friends?”
“I only hung out with them because I was interested in you.”
“So you don’t mind missing the club?”
“Not in the least.” She paused and I could see she was struggling with her next question.
“I’m not gay,” I said quietly. “I’m bi.”
“My brother is gay but his fiancé is bi. I know a little bit about what it’s like for him.”
“It’s all new for me.”
I had no idea why I was telling her all of this. For all I knew this was a ploy to get me to open up and spill my secrets so she could blab them to everyone who would listen. It just felt so good to say it out loud I couldn’t stop.
“So he’s the first guy you’ve been with?”
“Yeah.” I nodded.
“He’s hot.” She grinned teasingly and I laughed, the tension between us broken.
“He definitely is,” I agreed.
“Do you like chili cheese fries?”
“In theory.”
“In theory? What does that mean?” She laughed and looked at me.
“I’m in training. It’s not on my diet list.”
“And beer is?”
“Not exactly,” I conceded.
“Then have a cheat night. I know this awesome little diner. It’s all done up in fifties style with a jukebox that only plays fifties music, and the waitresses wear these cute poodle skirts and pink leather jackets. Their chili cheese fries are to die for.”
“You eat chili cheese fries?” I asked as I looked her up and down.
“On cheat days.” She grinned. “Come on, we can talk about that tall drink of handsome you’re seeing.”
“Sounds good. Who can say no to talking about hot guys and eating fries?”
Katie grinned and linked her arm with mine as she steered me to the left.
The last five minutes were surreal. I’d expected her to be angry and hurt that I’d lead her on, but now we were off to eat chili cheese fries and talk about Logan. It had come out of left field, but it was exactly what I’d needed.
Chapter Eleven
Logan
Pretending that I wasn’t dying inside was almost impossible.
When I’d gone back into the bar to get Avery’s purse I’d expected Adam to be sitting with his douchebag friends and having fun. I never expected him to have a hot girl sitting in his lap kissing him.
We weren’t boyfriends, I knew that. But I’d kind of figured we’d had something going on beyond just fucking on our couch. I hadn’t looked at another guy since he’d kissed me, but it seemed I was the only one thinking there was some sort of exclusivity between us.
I couldn’t stop wondering if he’d been messing around with other people this whole time. He’d said I was the only guy he’d ever been with, but what about girls?
“Logan?”
I jumped as Matt’s voice broke through my thoughts, thankfully stopping me before things could snowball too far.
“Sorry.” I looked over at him. “I’ve got to head home.”
“Are you okay?” Avery asked, concern etched on her face.
“Fine, just feeling woozy. I haven’t had a drink in a while.” I hated lying but I needed to get home.
“You need company?”
“Thanks, Matty. I’ll be fine.”
I leaned forward to give Avery a hug and a quick kiss on her cheek, then gave Matt a quick hug. I could see the worry in their eyes, but wasn’t in the mood to talk to anyone. I headed home and tried to keep my mind on anything other than what I’d seen at the bar.
I didn’t remember getting home, but I found myself laying on my bed so I assumed I’d managed to find my way through my fog. Reaching into my pocket I pulled out my phone and turned it off. I didn’t bother to look if I had any messages or missed calls. I didn’t want to talk to anyone right now.
ADAM
“He’s not answering.” I put my phone on the table and sighed.
“He’s probably in shock, and hurting,” Katie said gently as she stirred her straw in the watery remnants of her drink. “Think of how you would feel if you’d seen him with someone else.”
“I’d be destroyed.” I sighed and closed my eyes. “He wasn’t supposed to see that.”
“I’m so sorry, Adam.”
“Don’t be. You have nothing to be sorry for. That was me. All of this shit is because I’m too afraid to just be truthful with him, with everyone.”
“It’s not an easy thing, to come out. Or admit that you love someone.”
“Have you been in love?”
“A few times.” She nodded and let go of her straw.
“It’s different with him.”
“How so?”
“I’ve loved girls before, but it was always just a warm feeling. Like I really liked them and was happy with them. But with Logan...it’s like he consumes me.”
“Wow. That’s real love.”
“It’s terrifying. The thought of losing him...”
“Adam.” Katie put her hand over mine and gave it a squeeze. “You fucked up, but maybe you can still fix it. Tell him how you feel, show him. Give him the chance to see you’re serious about him. You hurt him, but maybe it’s not over yet.”
“I wouldn’t forgive me if I was him.”
“Would you forgive him if the tables were turned and he was sorry?”
“Yeah. I would.” I nodded slowly. “We haven’t defined anything. I’m the one ho
lding back. I’d forgive him.”
“Maybe he’ll be able to forgive you.”
“I hope so.”
“Come on, come with me to find a cab and then go talk to him. Beg, grovel, give him an epic blow job and maybe this will all blow over.”
I laughed and shook my head. “Do you want to hang out again?”
“Definitely.” She grinned and pulled her phone out of her purse. “Now that I know you’re not looking for someone like me, I definitely want to be friends. Put your number in.”
I put my number in her phone and when she took it back I watched her send me a quick text. Now I had her number too.
“How far do you live?” I asked as I pulled out my wallet and grabbed the bill.
“I’ve got my half.”
“After saving me tonight? Not a chance.”
She grinned and waited as I put enough cash to cover the bill and a good tip on the table.
“I don’t live too far. About twenty minutes.”
“I’ll walk you.”
“Are you sure?”
“Yeah. I could use the walk and this way I’ll know you got home safely.”
“A true gentleman.” She giggled. “What a rarity.”
“My momma raised me right.”
Katie linked her arm through mine and we headed out of the diner.
I’d never really had a girl as a friend before. My life had revolved around baseball for so long that my friends were all connected to the sport. It was nice having someone I could talk to, and getting the female perspective was always a bonus.
Our friendship might have started out in a non-traditional way, but I felt so connected to her after only a few hours of talking that I really felt like we could be best friends. God knew I needed one.
LOGAN
I heard the door to the apartment open. I’d been staring at the ceiling for the past few hours trying to get the image of Adam making out with that girl out of my head. Part of me wanted to storm out there and give him a piece of my mind, but the bigger part wanted to pretend I wasn’t home so I wouldn’t have to hear whatever he might have to say.
I stayed on my bed and listened to him walk around the apartment. It sounded like he was pacing in the main room, then he was walking toward my door.
“Logan?”
He knocked softly and I bit my lip.
“I know you’re home. I saw your jacket on the back of the couch.”
“I don’t think I want to talk to you right now.”
“Logan, please.”
After an internal battle I groaned and sat up. We needed to talk about this at some point, it might as well be now.
“What?” I opened the door and tried to fight how my body still responded to him even though I was angry.
“I’m so sorry you saw that.”
“Whatever. You don’t owe me anything.”
“I owe you everything.” He shook his head. “What you saw—”
“You mean you with your tongue shoved down some chick’s throat the day after we fucked?”
“Please, let me explain it.”
“Fine.” I crossed my arms over my chest and stared at him.
“Katie has been flirting with me for the last little while. I wasn’t trying to lead her on, but I didn’t tell her I was with someone.”
“Why not?” My breath caught when he’d said we were together, was that really how he felt?
“Because I was a coward.” He sighed and ran his hand through his hair distractedly. “Kevin was pushing me toward her and she was interested. I couldn’t tell her without it getting back to the guys.”
“That you were with someone, or with a guy?” I asked pointedly.
“Someone. They’ve been on me to get with someone ever since Hannah and I broke up. If I’d lied and said a girl then they wouldn’t have stopped until they met her.”
“And if you’d told them the truth?”
“I’m not sure how they’d react, but it wouldn’t have stayed quiet for long.”
“So you lead Katie on and kissed her. For what? To prove you still like pussy?”
“No, she kissed me. You saw the whole thing. She kissed me and I pulled away.”
“And you were where for the last few hours? Showing her just how straight you are?”
“Logan, please. I’m not straight. I know that. Katie figured out we were together and she pretended like we were leaving together to get the guys off my case. Then we went to get fries and talk.”
“As friends?”
“Yes.”
“But she’s hot.”
“Yeah, so?”
“You like girls and she’s pretty perfect for a girl.”
“I like guys too, that doesn’t mean I’m interested in every hot guy or girl out there.”
“Would you have been interested in her if we’d never hooked up?”
“I don’t know.” He shrugged. “You’re the only person I notice. The only one I want to see.”
My chest clenched at his words. Hearing them last night would have been a dream come true, but right now they kind of stung.
“So she kissed you, saved your reputation and now you have a new bestie?”
“Weird, I know.”
“So you really never felt anything with her?”
“Nothing. She’s hot, but she’s not you.”
Adam reached out and took my hand. I didn’t pull away as he guided it toward his crotch. When he pressed my hand against the smooth denim of his jeans I could feel his cock, hard and hot under my touch.
I kept my hand pressed against him as my own cock began to fill and swell, and a moment later we were both rock hard.
“Adam—”
“I fucked up, I know that.” He kept his hand over mine, forcing me to hold his dick. “It never should have happened.”
“Are you ready to come out now?”
“No, not yet.” He hung his head for a second before looking up at me with pleading eyes. “Please, give me another chance. I only want you, Logan. It’s always only been you.”
“I’m not going to be able to forget it. Seeing you with her...that really hurt me.”
“I know. And I don’t expect you to. I just want to know if there’s still a chance for us.”
“Yeah there’s still a chance.” I sighed and gripped his cock a little tighter. “But I’m fucking mad at you right now.”
“I get that.” He nodded. “But I want you to know there’s never going to be anyone else. I don’t want anyone else. I only want to be with you.”
Desire flowed through me like a dam had been opened. Liquid fire coursed through my veins, and I needed Adam like I’d never needed anyone before.
I didn’t want to be sweet and gentle. I wanted to fuck him and own him. I needed his complete submission.
“From now own, only you and me?”
“I swear.” He nodded, groaning as I stroked his dick. “I need you so fucking bad, Logan. Please.”
“I’m pissed, Adam. If you want me like this then you’ll have to deal with that.”
The thought of throwing Adam down and fucking him until his eyes rolled back in his head as he begged me to finish him sent another spill of lava flowing through my veins, and I had to bite my lip to stop from groaning.
“Hate fuck me, angry fuck me...I don’t give a shit how you do it. Just do it.” His grip on my hand tightened as his voice hitched slightly. He was really into this.
“It’s not going to be gentle and soft. I don’t want to make love to you right now, baby. I want to fuck you, and I need you to let me.” I had to make sure he knew what he was asking. It was only his second time and it was going to be different.
His eyes darkened and a flush ran over his cheeks as he nodded. “I want that, babe. I’m yours.”
I pulled my hand from his cock and wrapped it around the back of Adam’s neck, pulling him toward me so I could crash my lips against his. The kiss was hot, hard and a little messy, but he groaned and grip
ped my hips, pulling me toward him as he gave in to me.
My tongue traced over the seam of his lips and he parted them, allowing me to sweep it inside his mouth so I could taste him.
I don’t know how long we stood in my doorway. I have no idea how long I kissed him, but my cock was heavy with need when I finally pulled away from him.
“Go to the drawer, get what we’ll need.” My voice was raspy and I was panting, but then again, so we he.
Adam nodded and hurried over to my bedside table. He reached in and pulled out a small bottle of lube and a condom. When he turned back to me I could see his eyes were dark with lust and his cheeks were flushed.
“Come here.”
I met him in front of the bed and tossed our supplies down when he handed them to me. This might be a hard fuck, but that didn’t mean I didn’t want to enjoy him first.
I pulled him to me for another kiss, this time letting my hands roam over his hard body. He whimpered against my lips as I brushed my hand over his cock, and I gripped his shirt and yanked it off.
The next few seconds were a blur of reaching hands and hasty movements as we stripped each other naked. When the last piece of our clothing was on the floor I shifted our weight to send us tumbling onto the bed.
Adam was stronger and bigger than me, and could have easily kept us on our feet. The fact that he was allowing me to manhandle and maneuver him was fucking hot, and I needed more.
I broke away from the kiss and looked into his lust filled eyes.
“On your side, facing my feet.”
I couldn’t be sure, but I thought I saw a smile tug at his lips before he eagerly moved to do as I said. It took a moment to make sure we were both on the mattress, then I scooted closer to him as I grabbed the base of his shaft. We were perfectly aligned for a sideways sixty-nine.
“Suck me.”
He groaned and gripped my dick in his big, warm hand, and a moment later I felt his mouth envelope me.
“Fuck.” I shook my head and lowered my mouth so I could swirl my tongue over the head of his cock. I lapped up a bead of pre-cum with my tongue, and groaned as Adam’s unique taste flooded my senses.
“Tease me, babe.” I pulled away from his dick and looked down at him. He was sucking me like a vacuum and I wouldn’t last long if he didn’t slow down. “Don’t make me come just yet. When I do finish, it’s going to be inside you.”