They kept chatting for a while. Ethan was still lying in bed. It almost felt like she was next to him. Kali was still in her nightie on the couch. They were inseparable, it was hard to get off the phone but Ethan knew he had to pick up Christian soon and get to college. Kali said she had to get going also, to get things sorted out and head into town. She mentioned that Jason was at work which made things a lot easier, as she could be by herself. To reassure Ethan at the end she said.
“If he was really special like you, it wouldn’t matter because you’re the one for me and I know that. I need you like my own hot, sweet twin. But he is nothing like you. He frustrates me with his mundane ways. You have made me realize who I am, who you are, and the magic that life has. You’re gorgeous, Ethan gorgeous!”
She said the final part in a tone that was so sweet with purity that he recognized so well, but only ever from her.
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Ethan got up, got ready and headed out to college. He picked up Christian on the way through. It seemed a bit different for Ethan to turn up and not have Kali there at college. He always had that excitement of seeing her and today he couldn’t help but notice the difference with not having her around.
They met up with Carl and they all headed to their lecture together. Just outside the lecture door was Amelia, she was with her friend Karan that Carl had been spending time with lately after talking to her at the college party. She saw them coming and shyly said hi. Ethan was feeling more reserved today but was still able to remain social and chat away to Amelia. Ethan noticed that his energy was just a little down, he was always so aware, but he noticed it today. Again it was like going within and finding out why, was always the tool to understand, release it, and then the change could happen. Ethan could remember a time when he was not working or studying and he had become more lethargic than normal. He worked in a call centre briefly and that made him more lethargic and he would come to the office all bright and bubbly and by the end of the day sometimes people would wonder what had happened to him, as he became low in energy levels and it showed with his personality. It used to embarrass him a little as everyone was expecting joy and fun and he had nothing to give. Today had that similar feel, where he just wasn’t feeling the spark. Get inside and ignite it and just be true to how you feel, you don’t have to be upbeat all the time, he said to himself.
Amelia was chatting away to Karan, Carl and Christian, while Ethan was pretty quiet now. After the initial conversation with them, he just edged towards the side of the group. Amelia wanted to talk to him. She moved over towards him.
“Hey’a,” she said.
“Hey, Amelia.”
“You seem a little quiet so I thought I’d come over and make sure you’re okay.”
“Thanks that’s nice of you. I’m okay, just a little so so.”
She looked at Ethan with her strong eyes. He decided it was okay for him to be quiet and just stay with his truth. Amelia did most of the talking. She seemed to lift Ethan up. Her energy was light and it brought him up. It was a nice surprise for Ethan to find someone who elevated his energy when he was feeling a bit low, it was a nice surprise.
Ethan headed into the lecture room with Carl and Christian. They went up the stairs and headed towards the middle where there was a gap with no one sitting. They all shuffled across the aisle to the open space. Ethan sat down with about three empty seats next to him and then there was Lenard at the end.
Carl was on his right and Christian on his left. Ethan always liked to be in the middle, Carl and Christian were used to it and knew his odd arrangements that he needed sometimes. Ethan pulled himself forward and looked over at Lenard.
“Good to see you’re out of jail, Lenard.”
“Did you hear about that?”
“Everyone did, it’s made you quite popular.”
Lenard smiled, because it had. He had spent time in a prison cell and a few girls that would usually not talk to him had been asking him about it.
“It wouldn’t surprise me if you had something to do with it,” Lenard said half joking but also with a sense of intuition. Very intuitive and Ethan just smiled and gave a little laugh and thanked him for the help he had given him last time he was around.
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Back in Seattle, Kali had been wandering around town doing a few errands. She bumped into a close friend and they had lunch together and she told her about her new life. Since she was in the midst of it all she decided not say too much and kept the finer details private. Kali liked to talk and share but she was also very private. She was well aware that saying too much could come back to bite later. It was usually her sister Amy that she would share everything with, because she trusted her fully and Amy fully understood her.
She arrived home hoping Jason would be still at the bank. It was 8pm and he was usually still working at this time, climbing up the corporate ladder so he could retire at 45. She kept saying to herself, don’t be hard on yourself, because every time she thought of Jason she found herself thinking, why? Why did I date him for so long, why did I settle? But she didn’t really know all this back then. She didn’t know what love could be like. She had no idea how intoxicating it could be and how it should be, and with Ethan it was not just about that, it was a deep love that had opened her up and showed her the world, and not a human one. He had opened her heart and her heart had opened her life, and that door had opened up places she didn’t know existed. Within all that though she felt some guilt with the transition here with Jason. It was not in her character to be like this, but what had happened was deeply magical and she simply had to go with that flow. She just wanted out of this contract with Jason that she had agreed to, agreed upon from the past, without really knowing the full picture. The ripples of that time, back then and who she was now was sending an energy that would void their contract. She just wanted to be away from that old life.
As Kali opened the door she could immediately sense someone was there. The energy didn’t seem clear. It was like Jason had just walked through and left that stale air behind him and sure enough he came walking into the lounge. She couldn’t help but quickly think of Ethan. When Ethan walked in he made an entrance with his spirit, which his body imitated, and so he had a presence that was felt and displayed. It was quirky, brilliantly different. Jason walked in like he had just left a bank meeting, composed, solid and calm.
They said hi and Jason offered her a drink. She said yes to a red, and he looked calm and he had a quiet moment of feeling like he had just made a good tactical move, she was having a drink with him. He poured the wine and had one for himself and took a seat.
“I really want to sort this out, Kali,” then more direct than normal added, “what do I need to do to make you stay?”
“Jason, we have been through this, I can’t stay. I don’t want to hurt you, but this is about closure. I can’t be here.”
Jason looked at her, uncertain what to do. She was so direct and fast. He gave a sigh, and for a moment his heart emerged where he was not in his head anymore but looked sad and honest to how he was truly feeling. But she knew it wouldn’t last. He would take a breather with his heart and then he would return back to his normal state of being in his head and hiding his emotions. Kali realized she didn’t want to talk about them tonight. If he wanted to be honest and talk openly, she would be open to that, but this continued pursuit of her was becoming upsetting. It just prolonged the angst of their separation. She didn’t like it and she just wanted to be close to Ethan. Then Kali got her immediate wish.
“I’ll leave you to it. Good night,” he said and went to his room.
So fucken formal, she thought.
Kali got into her nightie and jumped into bed. She was sleeping on the couch. She had the light dimmed down with the phone next to her and she called Ethan.
Ethan had just jumped into bed and had the lights off with a candle alight. He had the cordless phone with him. The phone rang and he picked it up. She was whispering, trying not to be heard fr
om Jason in his bedroom.
“I have to whisper because I’m in the lounge in bed and he’s in the next room.”
“Hey, beautiful angel.”
“You have to do all the talking, otherwise he’ll hear me.”
“Sure how have you been?”
“I’m good, I miss you, but you just talk and I’ll listen, angel,” she said in her whisper.
“Okay, I can do that, I can just talk. I can talk your pants off. Well, I kinda like just talking, just talking to you and hearing my voice. It’s like writing into a dairy..you know there is no reply... but then I hear your breath, your laugh and I remember your beauty that touched me always now. You’re gorgeous and you’re hot, deliciously hot actually. I don’t mind your whispering voice, sounds really cute but also a bit weird, I won’t say creepy, but it could be anyone!”
“It’s me!” she said in a loud whisper.
“You could be anybody, you could be the cop, the bird, Lenard or Christian. You could even be your mom just whispering. How do I know!? Now I’ve not met your mom but it could be happening now, that would be strange, you would be like……listen to this mom, it’s a boy I like. I really don’t want to make your mom horny.” Kali giggled, trying not to make a noise. “Anyway I was just joking about thinking it was Christian or the cop, I would slam down the phone immediately if they called and whispered to me.”
Ethan rolled over on his bed and put the phone on his other ear, “that’s better.”
“What is?”
“Shhh, you nearly spoke...I was just switching ears and I also rolled over. So Angel darling, we both need to sleep tonight so we can meet up. We will meet up I can feel it, tonight, we just need to remember. With you being away, I get the feeling it makes it easier to meet, because it’s more of a need, our souls are connected and we miss each other because of the distance, so it’s important that we see each other and we can do that in the ether”
“Okay,” she said in a quiet soft voice, slightly above a whisper, “I need to see you. I love you.”
“I love you.”
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Ethan blew out his candle, he looked outside his balcony door window and he could see the rocks outside, he could see the edge where the cliff and the rocks met the water. It was all telling him something, something about his contract, the Crystal Bella. What was it saying? He could feel it. It was something about a death, or a transition. He could find out the date if he chose. He laughed, life was deep, he felt deep. He felt like the ocean tonight, he could sense it and feel its wave of energy. Then he felt a large presence come towards him. It was huge, she felt big. Who are you? The spirit was huge in its power and energy and Ethan realized just how big and evolved one can get to. The power was immense when he felt her energy. He was able to see and sense her and the vast size of her strength and wisdom. She was showing herself. Ethan remembered looking outside to the sea when he felt her and he suddenly knew who it was. It was Sedna, a Goddess of the ocean. She had come in and showed her beauty to Ethan and he got to feel how big she was. It gave him humility and he felt loved as she wrapped her energy around him and he fell asleep.
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Ethan was now in the ether. He could see Kali sitting down in a garden. He came in flying from above and glided to her in a position that would be impossible to hold in the human world. He turned up unexpected and she couldn’t help but be surprised and excited by his dramatic entrance. He asked Kali to come with him. He held her closely and took her into the air and they flew through the forest at fast speeds. It felt amazing to fly especially within the purity of the ether, it just made the feeling of flying more immense. They were flying at great speeds, often going from tree to tree, always heading higher. They went incredibly high, where the world below gave a new sparkle from seeing it from such a height and under a different perspective and angle. They looked down from above into the forest and Ethan communicated without words and asked her to look into the rock pool below. They looked in and saw an old life appear before them. It was a few hundred years ago and they saw themselves living in a beautiful place in nature. Halo was with them and another beautiful child. Halo was a child they looked after once and the young girl was their gorgeous daughter in that life. Ethan remembers her well now, the love he had for her and how much she meant to him. He knows he will see her again, his little angel he used to call her. The love for her was overwhelming in that life.
Ethan kept travelling, flying through the forest. He came to a tree so high up in the air and he stood on the branch, high above the ground.
“I’m taking you through a portal,” he said.
Kali looked nervous, she gave a slight, heavy breath. Going through a portal is like going through a human death, (not as painful as most humans would think; the human death) there is that unknown quantity that you have to go through. It feels intense at the time of going through it, but you need to accept and allow it to happen and enter.
Ethan grabbed Kali’s hand. She had to trust him, he was leading the way. He found the portal, it was right next them on the branch they were standing on. Kali couldn’t see it but was aware it was close, hidden in the ether somewhere. Ethan knew where it was. It was right by the branch hidden from sight but available in his vision of seeing so much now, everything was highlighted. He loved being here and showing off his powers to the one he loved more than anything.
As soon as they entered it became intense again. It felt like a human death but without the mind panicking and there was no pain. But it was a transition and you had to have no fear and be pure within to get through. You had to surrender also, be untouched, just pure while it was so intense all around. After about four seconds they came through it and they were in another dimension. It was sacred and beautiful and the energy had lifted. They floated around, they had been here before, but the memory had faded and now it returned in a spark infusion where it blasted the senses. But Ethan wanted more and headed straight into the next portal. Kali looked at him with eyes that looked slightly alarmed.
“You have to trust,” he said.
They went through again with the four seconds of intensity. The portal was full of light and it was intense but they got through and another world was opened to them. This world was open and vast and they could see the fields below them as they flew through the open air. It was such an open feeling, the rivers were wide and they formed so elegantly against the landscape. A Moa bird was just beneath them, flying also. It had wings but they were light, transparent, more like the energy of wings but they were lightly formed in their visuals. She had two chicks flying with her and as Ethan looked at the beauty below him, as they flew through the sky, he felt a connection, a past he had with them once. He had seen them before in this ether but also in the human world 300 or so years ago in one of his past lives. They were in a forest and they had both shared the same water in a pool by the river. They had both sipped the same water that day, shared the same spot. That day he just felt love when he saw them, she was huge and majestic with the cutest chicks. The chicks were almost like, ‘who is he mom?’ When he saw the Moa that day he had been in awe of their beauty. They faced each other under the dense bush, the river flowing and the rock pool on the side.
It was an epiphany for him back then as when he looked into the Moa’s eyes the beauty he saw reminded him of God. What was behind those eyes? he wondered. Freedom was the answer, and behind that was peace. Behind peace was joy, behind joy was the feeling of love and behind love was God, and the feeling behind that? It took a while for Ethan to know. He looked deeply into the eyes of the Moa, feeling love, knowing his immortal self, her chicks stood also in awe of their surroundings and the answer came to Ethan, the feeling behind God was eternal life time love.
The Moa in all her beauty gave Ethan his moment of an epiphany all those years ago by a rock pool in the land of Aotearoa. They responded with the same energy that day and were gentle and friendly. They were not usually friendly around humans but that day was differ
ent as they could sense Ethan was special and kind and responded with the same energy. Animals have a soul and Ethan loved it when he was able to connect with an animal he knew from before. They never really die.
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