Chaotic (Imperfect Perfection)
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Seeing him conjured up all of those feelings and memories that I had tried so hard to just forget about, but I now knew that was going to be impossible. There was still so much between the two of us, it was hard to deny. I swiped a lone tear away as I climbed back into Nash’s truck and slammed the door behind me. The ride home was silent until he pulled into the driveway. “Nash, I think we need to talk.”
“I think we do, Della.” His lips were pulled into a tight line and I could see his jaw ticking, a sure sign that he was upset.
“Nash, I just-”
“No, Della, I think I need to go first. I’ve been thinking about this all day and how to tell you exactly. I know it’s going to ruin anything we had because I just can’t continue this now.”
“What is it, Nash?” I asked, confused as to why it sounded like he was breaking up with me when I had been about to do the same thing. It wasn’t because I had just seen Justin…well that had to do with it partially. But over the past couple of weeks I had come to the conclusion that we were better off friends and I think that was all we really would be.
“I really care about you, Della. But…” he chewed on his bottom lip, and I raised my brows, wondering what could have Nash so knotted up that it was so hard for him just to tell me. “Mariah’s pregnant,” he rushed out, “about four months along, and I can’t just leave her all alone to deal with this. I have to be there for her, and I can’t do that while I’m with you. It just isn’t right.” He blew out a breath, squeezing his eyes shut. I reached out a hand to try to console him in some way. I really didn’t know how to.
This was life-changing news for Nash, and I couldn’t imagine how he was dealing with it. My heart swelled for him being forced back together with Mariah, someone that I just couldn’t see him being with, even if it was just to parent together, but I knew Nash all too well, he would probably be proposing to her the next day. “I don’t know what to say, Nash. Do you want to talk about it?”
He shook his head sharply. “Not really, Della. I just found out, and I think I need some time alone to think about this,” he kissed me gently on the cheek and whispering, “I’m sorry.”
“When you’re ready to talk, just know I’ll be here for you, whenever you need me.” I meant every word I said; just as a friend. I had a feeling Nash would be needing a lot of my support over the next few months.
It was funny how much life had changed in the past year. I had started my life fresh, making some of the best friends I had ever had, and falling in and out of love. Well, out of love, I wasn’t so sure about after today. Seeing Justin again had really confused the hell out of me.
I had grown up from the scared little girl though who had been forced into an abortion and then tried to take her own life because the depression had made everything so black.
For now, I would have to keep moving forward, taking whatever life decided to throw at me next. But one thing was for sure, even though I still felt these intense feelings for Justin, I needed a break from guys. A break to get to know myself better, to be with my friends and family, and to grow up even more.
Maybe after that, Justin and I would find our way back to each other or maybe someone new would come into my life and change it for the better. Love definitely was still a factor in my life and something I knew I would have in my future, but when that was I really didn’t know.
Chapter 27
Justin
My heart had stopped when I turned around and saw Della walk through the front door of Shorty’s. I hadn’t been back there since the last week of school when I had my last day, right before I started at the police academy.
For some reason, I just felt the urge to go in there, so I decided to grab a drink and catch up with Brian for a bit. Even before the door opened, I got this feeling in my chest, like a magnetic pull that just told me Della was nearby.
She looked beautiful, even more so than the last time that I had seen her. Her long legs went on for miles and were dark against the white shorts she had on. Her hair was just brushing against the bare skin on her shoulders that looked so irresistibly kissable. That heart shape mouth of hers had turned into a frown as soon as she saw me, and I hated seeing her like that. I could still see the hurt in her pale blue eyes and it made me feel like such a fucking asshole. She looked so sad, but I still saw a flick of something there that gave me a little bit of hope.
And then that douche had walked in with her, acting like she was his. No fucking way. I couldn’t even think about someone’s hands on her body, except for mine.
My life had been miserable without her, and even though I had tried time after time to get her to come back to me, she wouldn’t. A lot of time had passed since I had last seen her, so I figured there would never be an us again.
But today gave me a new hope.
Hope that I would be with Della again someday. Maybe it wouldn’t be tomorrow or even next month, but I wasn’t going to stop until I had her back, right where she belonged.
I had my shit together now, even more than we had been together. I had graduated from school and the police academy, and I would be starting my new job working for the police department next week. It was almost perfect, but it wouldn’t be complete until I had Della back. And when that happened, I was never letting her go again.
Della’s story to be continued in Book #2 of The Imperfect Perfection Series, out Fall of 2013!
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I am a stay at home mom to two crazy little boys, with another baby on the way. (Finally a girl!) I've been married to my high school sweetheart for almost six years now and he is my biggest supporter. I've always had a love for books since the time I first started reading and started swapping books with my mom when I got a little older. My love for reading turned into a love for writing and I've enjoyed every second of it.
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Book # 2 of The Imperfect Perfection series out Fall of 2013
Other books by C.A. Williams
The Journey Series
· Chasing Leah (Book One)
· Limitless (Book Two)
· One Simple Step (Book Three, Ally’s Story. Out Summer of 2013)
The Imperfect Perfection Series
· Chaotic (Book One)
· Untitled (Book Two)
Stand Alone Books
· The Crush
· Full Count