Forever

by Wanda Boyd

  - It was important to you that forgiveness, right?

  - I will not deny, it was yes.

  Knowing that Antonio did not blame me for the death of our daughter, she took a load off my chest.

  - I'm glad. - It makes a fondness in my hair. - Maybe so you can smile for real and be happy.

  - Smiling truth?

  - Your eyes do not light up when you smile. It's like if you were not happy.

  He knew I had problems, I was broken and while I did not remember everything, would not be happy. I was missing a piece on me and did not know if one day could complete.

  - I think as the memories are coming back, I will improve.

  - Who knows. - He smiles and approaches. - Can I kiss you? - Question and I agree.

  The first touch of his lips on mine is tender, kiss Edgar is good, but it was not explosive, not turned my world upside down, did not take my air.

  His hands down my body, and this time, he pulls my shirt.

  -Let's go to the room? - Question and I agree.

  I agree because I needed to touch my life. I'm in love with Antonio, he is my husband, but was playing his life, and I had to play my.

  I walk in the room, shot the pants and lay in bed, he removes his shirt and joins me in bed, kissing my skin. The bra is taken off, and he goes through my body kissing my breasts, my belly and pulls her panties, until completely naked. He returns to kiss my belly and I see his eyes analyzing me and I find it strange.

  - What's it?

  - Where is the scar?

  - What scar?

  - In your chart says an emergency cesarean was necessary, you do not have any scar - and speaks back to look at my body.

  - Are you sure?

  - I, Ceci. I know what I read and what I'm seeing. You should have a scar right here. - He touches my skin and back to look at me. - There's nothing.

  - Edgar ...

  - Look, Ceci, I do not understand anything. But I advise you to see a gynecologist and ask him to examine you. You should have a scar and have nothing.

  I get out of bed and grab my robe to cover myself. I had lost the little mood than I was and now, with what he said, could not do anything else.

  - I'm a doctor - talk quietly trying to assimilate everything.

  - You missed the weather, is not it? - Asks with a sigh and agree. - I'd better go.

  - Excuse.

  - Do not ask, dear. I imagine you must be crazy with what I said. If you want, then I indicate a gynecologist.

  - Thanks.

  Edgar accompany to the door and it gives me a peck.

  - See you tomorrow at the rodeo. I will cheer for you.

  *

  According the next day and stare at the ceiling. I had dreamed all night with Antonio, and it only got worse that I felt for him. Because the little I've loved, growing every day. I remembered the man he was affectionate companion and the way he treated me.

  I put in a backpack, an outfit to change me in rodeo and grab the hat Mari bought it for me. I wear jeans that marks my hip, put a xadrezada blue shirt over a white tank top and wedge my boots.

  - Holy shit, you're hot - Mari speaks so leave the room.

  - Thanks. Let's go? I scheduled to meet with Alana.

  - Come on, I'm ready.

  When we arrived at the local rodeo, Mari park the truck and go inside the park. Seeking to Alana and meeting near a mini farmyard, looking colt that helped birth.

  - Alana?

  - Ceci. - She hugs me.

  - What are you doing with him?

  - He will compete as more beautiful Dodge colt - Alana answers and listen to a thick laugh. - The Toti think he will not win.

  - Not that I think you will not win. It is he seems kind of creepy, I do not know. - He shrugs.

  - He's beautiful, do not talk like my colt - speak and he looks at me with a raised eyebrow.

  - Your?

  - He is the son of Thunder, so is mine.

  - He is the son of Storm and since it is also the Ceci, then Valente is it too - Alana comments and look at her.

  - The Storm is mine? - I ask and she agrees. - You are trying to get rich at my expense? - I ask for Antonio, crossing his arms and see his eyes shine.

  - No, because I think he will not win. - He laughs.

  - And if he wins?

  - If he wins, I give you half the money.

  - Half? He is mine.

  - Okay, if he wins, I give you sixty percent.

  - You are robbing me.

  - If he wins, he takes you to dinner in the poshest restaurant in town - Alana says.

  - This, then the rest is mine. - He winks at me.

  - How much is the premium? - I ask for Alana.

  - R $ 5,000.00.

  - A dinner will not give it, nor come. - Claim and he smiles.

  - Okay, blackmailer. I paid for dinner, buy a chocomenta ice cream pot for you and a new boot.

  - Now, yes, we're getting a deal - speak and he smiles.

  - Ceci, was already forgetting, I enrolled in the competition for rodeo princess and you to the queen.

  - What? - Antônio and I asked at the same time.

  - I signed in for princess and queen of the rodeo - speaks slowly, as if I were stupid.

  - Alana, I do not know if I want to participate.

  - Ceci, you won three years in a row, I'm sure you can win again.

  - You did not think to ask first if she wanted to? - Antônio question before Alana can answer Cybele arrives and gives him a kiss, and look away.

  - You know, I will participate. Who has been the queen does not lose the majesty, is not it?

  - That. - She claps and hugs me. - Come, let's look at the horses.

  Step morning strolling through the park with Alana, since Mari met Diogo and disappeared soon after. Paro in a tent and buy a fried polenta with barbecue and Alana does the same, sat at a table to eat and soon her family joins us, including Antonio and Cybele.

  I see them talking so intimately and I can not avoid jealousy. I was reminded of a time before a rodeo, where we both sat down to eat and talk, we laugh. I missed to look like him.

  - Only yourself, Antonio. - Cybele speaks laughing and attracts my attention.

  - I'm just telling the truth. - He raises his arms and laughing, looking at her.

  - I know you're wanting is to deceive me, that is.

  - All right, Ceci? - Fatima question, and look at her.

  - Yes, it is. - I give a weak smile. She looks at the Antonio laughing and looks back at me.

  - There's still time, honey.

  - I do not know what she is talking about. - Levanto the table and go to the fence where the Thunder is, hug your neck and feel the tears flow.

  I wanted Anthony to be happy, but it was too much to ask him to be happy with me?

  Chapter 36 - Ignatius

  I'll kill Alana! No longer just me being invaded by thousands of memories of me and Cecilia together in rodeo parties, in past years, now she wants to make parts of these memories in my part of this.

  View Ceci playing as rodeo queen is something I would never imagine that would again become part of my reality. This is too much torture!

  I go to the bathroom and play water on my face and on my neck. The heat is already absurd and see Ceci dressed in clothes and glued all stylish, only increases the temperature further.

  Focus Ignatius! Focus on your new life and Cybele.

  Cybele ...

  She is a woman notices thousand. If I had known before Ceci, I probably would be four for her. Not that I do not like it or do not feel physical attraction. I feel, really.

  But the fireworks did not explode, not like the magnificent fireworks that we see in the year turned, not to explode when I'm Cecilia. But perhaps, with time, she and I find the perfect form fitting. Who knows ... but I will not give up. I need to be with someone who loves me and respects me, and I need to return this feeling. I have respect for Cybele and quite like it. Love will come in time, I'm almo
st sure of it. Almost!

  When I come out of the bathroom and see Ceci stroking the Thunder, my heart goes out to her mouth and my knees tremble.

  Suddenly, my eyes are closed and a voice whispers in my ear:

  - What if we play a little? Let's say that if you lose, I take you to dinner and spent the night eating junk as consolation. But if you win, I do not take you to dinner. - She even closer to my ear and whispers. - I'll take you to my house and let you choose what you want to do. What about?

  I look at her and I'm speechless. I and Cybele have got to third base, but never forced anything because did not want to be disrespectful. But now that I know it's ready, a fear seizes me. I can not explain why, though. I begin to talk to myself and say I'm being an idiot. Never before I was afraid of having sex with a woman, why would I be now?

  - You did not like my proposal? - She asks fearfully.

  - More than liked, "Cibela". I thought he need not answer, is already explicit my satisfaction with this agreement - I say, trying to convince her.

  She laughed at my nickname and says:

  - I'll get some pine nuts and let you concentrate.

  - OK! Meet me in the stands, because the attractions will already start and I watch with my family and with my friends.

  She agrees and gives a quick kiss on my lips before leaving. When I look ahead, I see Cecilia watching me. She looks away and goes to the other direction, embarrassed.

  I follow in my eyes and I see when Alana approaches running and screaming something that I can not understand. She pulls Cecilia's hand and the two run toward a tent, later identify as the concentration of competing at the Rodeo Princess.

  not even swallow right this story princess, but I know I have no choice but to accept the decision of Alana. I do not know how Cecilia can support these ideas of Alana. Against Luzi, my father, my mother, Diogo and the canoe and me with them.

  You speak, cowboy! Prepared to face the monsters horns? - The Canoe jokes.

  - Hey, look how he speaks of the bulls. More respect, please. I do not want to hurt their feelings. - Reciprocate the game.

  Suddenly, the rodeo announcer's voice explodes the speakers and we can see it entering the arena.

  - Good evening, ladies, gentlemen, cowboys and cowgirls! That night we will have many must-see attractions! Today we have the proof of the adult female drum and teen, we have several musical attractions such as José Henrique and Floriano; Kaike and Kauan. We will have the long-awaited proof of cowboy pawn and of course, we will start tonight with the choice of our beautiful representatives. The queen and rodeo princess will be elected to embellish our lives. So let's start with these beauties. In a little back to present these beauties. - The grandstand was in an uproar. They were clapping and boot soles beats to say enough, the ground tremble due to such excitement.

  In five minutes, the catwalk of representatives queen and princess was assembled. They were lights and more lights mounted in order to enhance the beauty of each girl, and the announcer reappears at the sound of Shania Twain with "Man! I Feel like a woman. "

  - I want to know if you're excited! Where a round of applause for these warriors who are in the dressing room?

  We all applauded, especially our row. Mari and Cybele had already joined us, so we formed a great crowd by girls.

  - Still do not believe Cecilia will play as rodeo queen and not told me anything - Mari grumbles.

  - Calm down, Mari! The Alana signed a secret. She only learned just now - I say.

  - But that her sister has a screw less the same, right? - She laughs, but soon apologizes, remembering that my father and my mother were listening to the conversation.

  - Let's start with the election of our beautiful princess. Are eighteen initial competitors. The vote will be split between the vote of the jury and the audience. The first show will be unique, with all parading together. Nine will be classified, and these nine will make individual presentations. The three most voted will be awarded, but only one will be the princess of the rodeo. Then release the sound, DJ!

  The lights dim and the spotlights illuminate the walkway. At the sound of "Pure Emotion" by Chitãozinho and Xororó the candidates appear one by one, dressed in western attire and waving. The Alana was the penultimate, and we all nodded and laughed a lot to see her there, all proud of herself. That my sister is a figure even.

  Noticing his happiness falls my record that we have to help her because I do not want to see her disappointed.

  - Guys, if Alana is classified, have to root for her and make enough noise for her to win. OK?

  - Hey, I thought you were against Alana playing as Rodeo Princess - says a grumpy Canoa, and only then noticed that he was boll weevil.

  - Yes, I really am. But since it is already there, competing, I do not want to see her disappointed. Then everyone cheering for her, okay? - He mutters something, but pretend I do not hear. My parents are beaming, cheering for her feet. Alana is with a short jeans with brown belt and a red plaid shirt tied at the waist, showing the belly. If she is already dressed so at this stage, nor do I think of the clothes that will use it is classified.

  The candidates line up and the song ends. The announcer back and announces the notes. It's three places and Alana has not yet been called. I find myself biting my nails, so nervous. Damn it! These women only make me pass nervous. The jury also calls the candidate number seventeen, and Alana jumps for joy.

  In this, the front row, which was still a bit empty, is filled by some men. They begin to point to the candidates and talk rude things, and I and the boys looked at each other, waiting for the moment when our patience explode. Classified turn to get ready and the guys change the subject.

  - The Alana is very well made up. Was it to Cecilia that maquiou? - My mother asks anyone specific, and I notice the Cybele move uncomfortably. I give a kiss on her neck and a popcorn theft of her purse. She laughs and pats my hand.

  - We return to the presentation of candidates classified. Let's start with this Princess Bonita. Sarah!

  One by one, the classified will be performing. When you start the song "Free, Lightweight and Loose" Roger and Robson, Alana is announced. It comes with a brown suede skirt and a top of the same fabric, full of franjinhas. Besides all be very short skirt has a slit that shows almost the womb of my sister. My blood already boiling, and Alana all loose, parading with faces and mouths, not improve my mood.

  "I'll kiss on the mouth, want to date.

  Out to party without having time to get back.

  Free, light and Loose, to be able to fly.

  What you spent is best to let go "

  Alana walks all full of themselves, confident the extreme. My mother and the girls scream until they lose the voice. I end up giving in and cry too, but there is no animosity in my voice. Cry for duty and to fulfill my word, once asked for all scream. I look to my side and I see canoe arms crossed, his face red like a pepper. This scene is so funny that I end up laughing.

  "So Linda, you screwed up, changed my life

  I was wrong shot, a stray bullet.

  It was his hobby, your enjoyment.

  I'm tired, I will change my plans, I will forget you.

  Staying suffering here has nothing to do,

  No more crying, tired of loneliness "

  Then the announcer asks Alana as she sees herself in ten years, and she replies:

  - As Queen of the three drums, rodeo queen and the man I love congratulating me for my achievements with a passionate kiss.

  When the chorus of the song resumes, Alana kisses the palm and blows to the audience, playing hair aside and makes his way back. The audience will swoon, including the guys in the front row, beginning to call her several obscene names.

  No time or flashing before the canoe to play on the guy who was in his freight. He literally threw himself to the front row and punched two guys in less than a minute. I did not think twice before going to help you. My father and Diogo also left for the fight, but there was really no n
eed. Only the canoe had knocked out almost all of them.

  - Next time, will call hot your mother, your aunt, or anyone in your family, you asshole.

  The older guys stood with his hand on chin, probably feeling the pain of the punch and irritadinho, he began to cause the canoe.

  - The little brother're ofendidinho, okay? The hot your little sister will turn my dinner and you will not even notice, you asshole.

  - You have my age, asshole! She's only fifteen.

  - For me no problem. It already gives a good broth.

  When he says that I start to look for a police officer to file charges, but then I hear a scream and see the falling man.

  The canoe kicked the guy out of the stands. Impressive! At first I laugh, but then I feel bad, because it may have been something serious with the guy.

  - Dude, are you crazy? - Diogo question, but the canoe does not respond. He is still out of you.

  I go down as soon as possible to check the man, but before I ever get close to see him standing up. Canoe appears next to me and I say:

  - You acted like a teenager! You think everything is solved in the beating?

  - You heard the things they said about it?

  seriously I look at him and say:

  - In one thing you're right. This guy was your age. If I get any old grown man near my princess, I cut the guy's cock out!

  Then I turn around and leave you there, reflecting on his actions.

  - You should not have spoken to him like son - my mother says, and only then realized I was paying attention at all.

  - Oh, was yes! He acted like a primate. Violence does not solve anything.

  - But that's not why you argued with him. It was for another reason. You know, I am also not blind much less dumb. He's a decent guy, son. The fate writes, we should not erase.

  - But mother, he is twice her age.

  - Do not exaggerate! It is not as older as well. He's younger than you. And, frankly, men take much longer to mature than women.

  - So, you are consenting to the romance between his daughter fifteen years and my best friend twenty-five?

  - I did not say that. But also do not want to threaten and inhibit act, when the time comes. And believe me, son. The time will come, whether you like it or not.