[Bad Blooded Rebel Series 06] - Deeper

by Mellie George

  “Jessica,” she said, smiling nervously as she sat across from us. “I’m glad you came. You look so beautiful,” she said timidly, and then her eyes turned to me. “Kris, it’s nice to see you again. I’ve heard so much about your band on the news. Congratulations.”

  Rage burned in my chest and my jaw was so tense I felt like I was going to break my teeth. Jessie squeezed my hand under the table and she looked at me, silently begging me to stay calm. All I could do was just nod at her and just keep my eyes on her. My love for Jessie was the only thing keeping me calm.

  “Look, Crystal, I’m only here because I wanted my chance to finally have my say. You tortured me for years and took something from me that I’ll never, ever be able to get back,” Jessie stated, her voice beginning to quiver.

  Crystal hung her head low and whispered, “I know. I just wanted to have the chance to tell you how sorry I am. For everything.”

  Jessie huffed out a cold laugh.

  “Well you said it. You feel better now?” she snapped at her.

  “No. Nothing will ever take this guilt away. Jessica…I didn’t know you were pregnant.”

  She’d finally addressed the elephant in the room and I had to grip Jessie’s hand tighter so I wouldn’t lose my cool.

  “That wouldn’t have mattered and you know it,” Jessie replied and my chest ached from the pain in her voice.

  Crystal looked down at the table she sighed.

  “I hate to agree with you, but you’re right. At the time it probably wouldn’t have. Jesus, I’m so sick over what I’ve done.”

  “Good. I hope you hurt every single day for the rest of your life for killing our baby and coming close to killing me because I know I will. Do you have any idea how much you truly hurt me? Doctors say that I have close to a zero chance of ever having a baby now after the damage you caused.” The tears were pouring from her eyes and all I could do was just hold her hand tightly.

  “I’m sorry Jessica. God, I’m so sorry,” she cried and when I finally looked back at her I was surprised to find actual remorse in her eyes.

  “I don’t think there are enough apologies in this world to make up for what you did to me. You abused me for my entire life, you almost beat me to death, you took my child from me…” Jessie said, and trailed off when she started to cry harder. I wrapped my arm around her and pulled her close to me. “It was a girl, did you know that? Because of your hatred for your own daughter I’ll never be able to hold mine. I will never hear her call me Mommy…I’ll never be able to hear anyone call me Mommy. How can you live with yourself after what you’ve done?” Crystal just sat in her chair and silently wept, seemingly at a loss for words. Jessie was starting to breathe rapidly and I was worried that she might start to hyperventilate.

  “Jess, baby, calm down,” I whispered to her, gently stroking her hair. “Don’t get yourself upset over her.”

  “I’m okay,” she answered and wiped her cheeks with her free hand. She turned her eyes back to Crystal, who was still crying, and glared at her. “Can I ask you a question?”

  “Of course,” Crystal said, sniffing.

  “If you hated me so much, why did you keep me? You always made it pretty clear that you wish I’d never been born because I was a burden to you. I was better off in a foster home than I ever was with you. Shit, I would have been better off dead than to live with a monster like you.” My heart ached when Jessie said that and I felt a cold shiver go down my spine as it hit me how close I came to actually losing her.

  “Jessica! Don’t you ever say that!” she gasped, shock in her voice. I rolled my eyes and audibly sighed at her sudden concern if her daughter was alive or dead. Crystal lowered her head before she looked back up to Jessie.

  “I tried, Jessica, I really did. When I found out I was pregnant with you I really tried to get clean but I was weak. I know it’s no excuse but that’s the only truth I have. I was sixteen and scared and had no idea what to do. Then I had this innocent, beautiful baby girl that needed me and I completely failed her. I was ashamed with myself at how my life had turned out so it was easier to be angry at you than to face the fact that I was a worthless mess. I put all of my anger on you and made your life anything less than as perfect as I could have and should have made it.”

  “Do you even hear how fucked up that is?” I finally snapped, causing her and Jessie to jump. “You basically just said that you screwed up in your life and took it out on the one person that never asked to be here, never asked to be a part of this nightmare. The one girl you should have given up everything for. The one you should have died to protect. You missed out on really getting to know this amazing and breathtaking woman because you were bitter over your lost youth. You are a selfish bitch and you fucking make me sick, Crystal.”

  The tears were pouring down her face but I felt no sadness for her pain. I hoped this hurt her as much as she’d hurt Jessie.

  “You’re right, Kris, about all of it. I feel nothing but unbearable pain and sickness over everything I ever did to her. I am right where I should be and deserve all of your hate and anger. I should have protected her from the evils of the world, even if that evil was me.”

  “Yes you should have…but you didn’t. Alan and Rose were the parents I never had and they tried so hard to help keep me safe. Ryder, Jude, and Beau were the brothers I never had and the best friends I could have ever imagined. And Kris,” she paused, looking at me with tears in her beautiful blue eyes, “was, is, and will always be my everything. This man took me under his wing from the time we were children and stayed by my side through everything you ever put me through. Even though I never knew what it felt like to be loved by you, I always felt treasured and safe with him and that’s all I’ll ever need.”

  My heart warmed as her words really sunk in. I’d just fallen head over heels in love with her all over again.

  “I am so happy that you have someone like him to love you that way. After everything I put you through, you deserve to be treated like a princess. It was obvious to even me that you two were destined to end up together. Listen, I know that you didn’t want to be here and the only reason you came was to finally put me in my place and that’s okay because I’ve earned it. I also know that I will probably never see you again after this and I understand completely if you don’t want anything else to do with me. I just wanted you to know that despite everything I ever did or said, that I…I love you Jessica. You’re the best thing I ever did in my life and I was too stupid to realize that. I hope that the rest of your life is beautiful because you have earned it.”

  Jessie started to cry even harder in that moment and the look on her face was very confusing. I couldn’t tell if she was livid or touched. I for one thought Crystal’s words were coming way too late but this wasn’t my mother…this wasn’t my game. It was Jessie’s and the ball was in her court.

  “Two minutes!” shouted a guard and I couldn’t have been happier that this was almost over.

  Jessie wiped her eyes and she cleared her throat.

  “You are right…this is the last time you’ll ever see me. I was nervous to come here but I’m actually glad that I did. I will never be able to forget everything you ever did to me or forgive you after what you’ve done, but I will say one thing.” Reaching out and touching Crystal’s hand, she said, “Thank you.”

  “Thank you?” Crystal asked, confused.

  “Yes, I have to thank you. Even though my life with you was pure hell, thank you for giving it to me because not only did you teach me how to survive in the worst of situations, I also learned that if I am ever able to achieve the impossible and be a mother I know what not to do for them by your example. I will be the most loving, nurturing, and grateful parent in the world and in a sick and cruel way I have you to thank for that.”

  A guard walked over and stood Crystal up. As she turned to be led back to her cell, she glanced at Jessie one last time and simply said, “Goodbye Jessica. I hope you get the chance to be the mother I never was
…the mother I should have been.” With those last words she was led out of the room and I breathed a sigh of relief knowing I’d never have to see her again.

  Once she was gone I turned back to Jessie and ran my fingers along the curve of her neck and gently massaged her. “You okay?”

  Her face was hard to read…she looked completely confused.

  “Yes, I mean no. I mean…I don’t know. That was just as weird as I thought it was going to be.”

  “How do you feel about all of it?”

  She shrugged her shoulders. “I don’t really know what I feel. I mean, I finally had my say and told her everything I’d never had the courage to say and she just sat there and let me slam her. I will never ever forgive her but she really does seem to have changed. I’ve never seen her like this before…so clear and calm and remorseful. It’s really fucking with my head right now.”

  “Well I’m sure that’s going to take time to work all of this out but you were amazing, Jess, and I’m so proud of you.”

  “Really?” she asked, her eyes looking into mine.

  “Really,” I whispered before leaning in and kissing her beautiful lips.

  “Thank you Kris.” She sighed and asked, “You ready to get out of here?”

  “Hell yes,” I answered and she smiled for the first time since getting to the jail. “Come on, let’s go home. I need to get out of this place and back to where things make sense.”

  “That sounds like a great idea.” I took her hand as she stood up and we left the jail together. Once we got out to my car I leaned into her and pinned her body against the car. “I love you so much, Jess.”

  “I love you more,” she said and kissed me. “Thank you for being with me today.”

  “I wouldn’t have been anywhere else than right by your side.”

  “I’m so lucky to have you. Come on,” she said, shoving against my chest. “Let’s get home and celebrate our last night in a real bed for a while. The buses are leaving at four-thirty.”

  “Sounds good to me,” I answered, leaning my hand down to give her ass a light tap before we both got into the car and drove home.

  Seven months later, the tour was in full swing and it showed no signs of slowing down. We were on the road with Eternal Down again so it made this tour more bearable. It was nice to share the stage with a band we knew that we got along with so well. I also didn’t have to worry about any of them messing with Jessie because they not only loved her like a sister, but they knew I’d bash their skulls in if anyone tried to fuck with her.

  This tour was much larger than anything we’d done before and the label spent big money to make sure we were comfortable. The buses were much fancier than we’d had before and instead of the five of us being in one bus, both bands got two each. Ryder, Jude, and Beau took turns alternating buses but Jessie and I were pretty well set in ours. Each one had a kitchen, two bathrooms, a living room of sorts equipped with flat screen plasma televisions with satellite and every game system that was out. They also had decent sized bunks and a master bedroom in the back of each bus, so when Jessie picked the one we’d be traveling in the guys graciously let us have the big room.

  Even though the brothers that ran our label were dicks, they certainly spared no expense and made sure that we were happy in all aspects on this tour, even if that meant more money, more booze, more girls, or even drugs if anyone wanted them. I wasn’t sure about Jagger, Logan, Cash, or Zayne, but thankfully drugs weren’t anything we had to worry about anymore.

  We were on our bus and moving onto the next city and I was kicked back on the couch playing Call Of Duty on the Xbox. Jessie had heard that we’d be driving through some storms so she went to sleep early and I was glad for that. She’d been helping Steve out and was exhausted at the end of every day so I know she was doing herself a world of good to rest her worn out body. Ryder and Jude were already passed out on the other bus and Beau had been playing the game with me but was now on the phone talking to his sister Sadie, who I could hear bitching at Beau through the phone.

  Their mother Sharon had passed away in a drunk driving accident (that she caused) about six months before and Beau had paid to have her admitted into a prestigious private school so she could finish out her education and not have to be on the road. Knowing Sadie she was probably complaining about the rules and begging to come out and just finish high school via the internet. Even though she was only seventeen, that girl was a real ball buster and was going to take the world by storm.

  I heard a clap of thunder as I was getting my ass kicked in the game and took that at my cue to call it a night. Beau had lost interest in the game as well and had given up a while ago so I was sure he wouldn’t mind. When I grabbed my cell phone to look at the time I noticed that it was half past three in the morning.

  I tapped Beau on the arm and said, “Hey man, I think I’m going to call it a night.”

  He nodded at me and said, “Yeah I will too once I get this bitchy little teenager off the phone.” I smiled as I heard loud shouting coming from his phone. “Well fuck, Sadie, you should already be in bed anyway! I know it’s got to be too early for this shit where you are too.”

  “Um, Beau, it’s six thirty in the morning in Ohio. We’re in Cali so the time zone is three hours ahead there,” I laughed.

  “Shut up, Kris. Whose side are you on anyway?” he barked at me with a smile on his face.

  “Whichever one keeps me on your sister’s good side,” I laughed. “Tell her I said hi and to keep raising hell.”

  “Oh she’ll do that, trust me. Night man,” he replied and waved as I went to the back of the bus.

  I slipped inside the room quietly so I wouldn’t wake Jess up. She always did have a hard time sleeping through the noise of a storm so I wanted to make sure she got as much sleep as she could get. I’d gotten a shower earlier so I slipped out of my clothes and climbed into bed next to my sleeping angel.

  When really looked at her lying on the bed sleeping peacefully, I sighed contently. It never failed to steal my breath to watch her sleeping but something about how she looked tonight just made my body come alive. She was sleeping in her pajamas (which was usually nothing but one of my tee shirts and a pair of sexy panties) and her hair was splayed all around her head on the pillow. Her perfect breasts were rising and falling with the rhythm of her breathing and I had to stifle a groan as my dick was suddenly painfully hard.

  I would have just let her sleep but there was no way I was going to be able to lie next to her all night and keep my hands to myself. I’d never woke her up to make love to her before but right now there was nothing else that I could think of doing.

  I gently pulled the blankets off of her and when I did I saw that the bottom of her shirt was resting above her hips and her panties were on full display...thank God for small breaks. I wanted her to wake up already feeling amazing and this just made it so much easier.

  I quickly slipped out of my boxers and moaned as my engorged cock was freed from the confinement of the material. I moved closer to her so I was half on top of her and slowly slid my fingers into her panties. I quietly groaned in my throat as my fingertips found her warm folds…the heat coming from her was scorching and I couldn’t wait to be buried inside her. I parted her lips with my fingers and slowly slid one inside her. It didn’t take long to rouse her from sleep because I’d only been touching her for just a few moments before she moaned and started rocking into my hand.

  Her eyes opened and landed on me and once she realized what I was doing, they went wide and she smiled that fucking breathtaking smile at me.

  “Sorry to wake you, baby, but I just couldn’t control myself. You looked so fucking sexy lying here and I just couldn’t wait until morning.”

  “Oh my God,” she breathed and gripped my shoulders as I continued to move my finger inside her. “F-f-feel free to wake me up like this anytime. Feels so good.”

  I slid a second finder inside her and she whimpered in pleasure. She was already so tu
rned on that I could feel her body clinging to my fingers and I could tell she was close.

  “Come for me Jess, I know you’re almost there. Let me feel you baby,” I commanded. She dug her fingernails into my skin and with those words she came hard against my hand. It never failed to get me hot as hell to feel her coming for me. Before I knew it she was pulling her shirt off and slipping out of her panties.

  “Kris, please. I want you now,” Jessie begged and reached her hand down for my cock. I inhaled sharply as she began to stroke me up and down rapidly and I knew if she kept it up I wouldn’t be able to hold on long enough.

  I brushed a lock of hair from her cheek and heart skipped a beat. I was a lucky fucking bastard to have someone this incredibly beautiful in my life that loved me as much as I loved her.

  “You’re so beautiful, Jess,” I whispered before letting her lead my dick to her entrance. She was writing beneath me and I immediately thrust myself inside her hot, wet pussy.

  She moaned loudly and I kissed her lips to silence her. I know that the back of the bus was ours and no one ever bothered us in here, but Beau was on the bus and for all I knew he was still awake. Making love with Jess was sacred to me and I didn’t want anyone hearing the noises she made when I was pleasuring her…those cries of passion were only for my ears to hear.

  “Go faster,” she pleaded, clawing at my back and urging me to move.

  I kept up my slow rhythm and softly replied, “No. I don’t want to just have sex, Jess. I want to make love to you and that’s what I’m going to do.”

  “I love you,” she whispered, rocking her hips into me and urging me on. I leaned down and covered her mouth with my own. Our tongues danced together in a beautiful rhythm as I slowly filled her over and over, thrusting my hips until she was shaking with ecstasy.

  I made love to her slowly and passionately until we were both barely holding on. When we found out release together it was powerful. Jessie and I had obviously slept together a lot in the last four years but something about making love to her that night was magical. I fell asleep with her in my arms as the storm raged on outside our windows and I was completely relaxed and happy.