Give Me Another Chance: The Raven Brothers Book 3
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Her eyes raked over my body, and my dick, already thickening, was now at full tilt. “I want to touch you and love you until you come so hard you see stars.”
I ran my fingers through her hair as I gripped her head. “Well, if you insist.”
I rolled us so I was on my back. We quickly got naked, and it was all I could do to keep from rolling her back under me and fucking her like there was no tomorrow. But instead, I gave her free rein over my body, and holy hell, she didn’t disappoint.
She kissed my breath away. She sucked on my nipples, which I’d never thought were particularly sensitive, and yet, she had my dick pulsing with need. Then her mouth was on my cock, sucking, licking, and I thought I was in heaven. When she started massaging my balls, I knew I was about to spill my load.
“Beth,” I gasped trying to push her away. “I’m going to come.”
“That’s the point,” she said.
“I want to be inside you.” I reached over to the bedside table and pulled out a condom, handing to her.
“Someday I want to do this again without one of these,” she said as she tore it open.
“You’ll need to go on the pill or want another child.”
Her eyes lifted to mine and in them I saw love and awe and gratitude.
“You know, when I’d realized I’d forgotten to use a condom the first time, I panicked,” I said, playing with a strand of her hair. “Then I wished to hell you were pregnant because I thought for sure that would mean we’d be together.”
Her hand rubbed over my heart. “I wanted you to know.”
I took her hand and kissed it. “I know. Our parents fucked things up for us, but now it’s up to us, right? No one… not my dad, not Ben… can stop this, right?”
“Right. It’s a done deal. Inevitable.”
I smiled. “Now, try not to make me come when you put the condom on me.”
“I’ll try.”
I gritted my teeth as she rolled it on, and then I switch our positions, pulling her underneath me. I hooked my hand under her knee, and lifted it, opening her to me.
“Tell me again, Beth,” I said as I pressed my tip to her entrance.
Her fingers ran through my hair. “I love you, Ash.”
“Fuck yeah!” I pressed in, filling her one long slow thrust that had us both gasping. When I was inside her as far as I could go, I gazed down on her. “I love you too.”
Her smile was so beautiful that I wished I had a camera to save the image for posterity. I kissed her, wanting to complete the circuit of our bodies. Then I started to move slowly to take us up little by little. I watched her face, loving the pleasure that crossed it each time I pushed in and hit her clit.
“Ash,” she said on a gasp.
“You like this?”
“Yes.” Her hands gripped my back. “It’s like the first time. Remember?”
“I’ve never forgotten.” I withdrew and pressed in again.
“We made Hannah that night. Our love made her.”
Emotion swelled, making my chest feel full. “She’s a miracle.”
“Someday, we’ll make another baby,” she said as I ground my hips against hers. The idea of planting my seed in her made my cock swell even more.
“Someday, sweetheart.” I kissed her again, and then I levered up on my hands as need took over and I picked up the pace. Each time I thrust in, the friction grew, and her body tightened. “Come on me, Beth. Take me over with you.”
“I want this to last forever,” her fingers dug into my backside as she pulled me deeper with each thrust.
I wasn’t sure if she meant this moment or us in general, but either way, I was in agreement.
“Oh God, Ash… I’m coming.”
Her body squeezed my cock making me gasp as the hot flash of heat that spiked. “Me too, baby… ah… right there.” It felt like a bomb detonated in my dick as my orgasm blasted through me.
“I love you, I love you, I love you,” Beth chanted as our bodies danced in pleasure. Her words wrapped around me, like a soothing balm to my soul. I believed her.
32
Beth – Tuesday
When I woke the next morning, my heart dropped. It had been a dream. I was in an empty bed. But when I looked around the room, I realized I was in Ash’s bedroom, not the guest one I started my night in. Then I heard the shower running.
I got out of bed, and crept to Hannah’s room to check on her. She was out like a light. It was just five-thirty so we had between a half hour to forty-five minutes before she’d be getting up.
I went back to Ash’s room, locking the door and then grabbing a condom out of his side drawer. I made a mental note to make a doctor’s appointment to go on the pill.
I went into the bathroom and for a minute, just watching the sexy man in the shower. Water sluiced down his skin. His back was firm, his ass taut, and I wanted to lick every inch of him.
I stepped into the shower behind him.
“Oh… hey, hi.” He turned to look at me.
For a moment I wondered if perhaps he was having next morning regrets. But then he smiled. “Can’t get enough of me, huh?”
“Never,” I said, running my hands down his chest, and then over his dick which was already getting hard. “Tell me this is because of me. Or were you jerking off your morning woody in the shower.”
“That’s all you honey.” He grinned.
“I want it inside me.”
Heat flashed wild in his eyes. “As you wish.” He took the condom and rolled it on. He kissed me hard, and I could taste his feral desire. He wanted me. And good God, I wanted him so bad, I was going to come just from the need.
His fingers slid through my pussy lips. “I want to fuck you from behind.”
I gasped. “Whatever you want to do to me.”
“Ah fuck… that kind of talk makes me want to come.”
I turned around, pressing my hands on the tiles. “Come in me, Ash.”
His hands stroked over my shoulders, down my arms and my hips. Then he kissed the area where my neck met my shoulder. “I’m going to come so hard in you.”
He tilted my hips back, and his cock rubbed my entrance.
“Now, Ash. Don’t tease me.”
Thankfully he heard my plea and he thrust in, hard and fast. I cried out as pleasure ricocheted through my body.
“Yes, oh yes, Ash.”
“You like that?” He withdrew and thrust again.
“Yes.”
“You like it when I fuck you, Beth?”
“I love it.” I widened my stance, wanting him to go deeper. I wanted him so deep inside me that he was a part of me.
“How about when I make love to you? You like that too?”
“Yes. I like it all, Ash. All of it. All of you.”
His hands came around me, tweaking my breasts. “Someday I want to fuck your tits. I want to come all over them.”
“Oh God.” The image of that scenario made me so hot. I was sure my skin would burn up.
“Would you like that?”
“Yes.”
He withdrew and thrust again. One hand slid down to my pussy, and he rubbed my clit, eliciting a moan from me that echoed through the bathroom.
“Someday I’m going to plant my seed in you again, Beth. And I’ll be there for every moment of that child growing inside you and the birth… all of it.”
“Yes, Ash. I want that. I want that so bad.” It wasn’t marriage proposal, but it was a commitment. He saw us as a long-term deal. As a family. It was more than I deserved. I was going to savor every second of it.
“Fuck, I’m going to come… thinking about impregnating you makes me so hard.”
“Come in me, Ash.” To be honest, I’d have been completely okay if he’d whipped the condom off and made good on his seed planting right now. Instead he gripped my hips and began to thoroughly fuck me. His hips slapped against mine. Each thrust shot me higher and higher until finally, my body exploded with pleasure. I cried out his name
, as bliss radiated to every cell in my body.
“Yes!” he yelled out, and then he thrust and ground his hips against me as his own release overtook him.
When he finished, he leaned forward to kissed my neck. “We’re going to make it this time Beth.”
I turned and wrapped my arms around him, starting to cry as emotions overwhelmed me. “You won’t regret it. I’ll make you so happy.”
“You already make me happy,” he said holding me close. Those words were as meaningful to me as when he said he loved me.
Twenty minutes later, he was in the kitchen making pancakes as I helped Hannah get dressed. “Where’s Daddy?”
“He’s making pancakes.”
“I love pancakes.”
“I know. I think that’s why he’s making them. He wants you to be happy.”
Hannah put her hands on my cheek. “I am happy. Are you happy, Mommy?”
“I’m so happy, Hannah-Banana.”
I led her to the kitchen. Ash was at the stove wearing a large chef’s hat.
“Daddy. What’s on your head?”
“Oh hey, cutie patootie.” He squatted down. “This is what chef’s wear. I stole it from my brother, Kade. Shh, don’t tell him.”
She laughed. “Can I try it?”
“Sure.” She put it on, but it came down over her face.
“We’ll have to resize it,” I said.
He reached out, pulled me to him and gave me a kiss.
Hannah giggled. “That’s silly.”
“What is?” Ash asked.
“Kissing Mommy.”
“Really?” His brows narrowed in thought. “Mommies and Daddies don’t kiss?”
Hannah’s brows narrowed just the same ways Ash’s had. “I guess they do.”
He looked at me. “Can we tell her about the new living arrangement?”
“Yes. Of course.” I was desperate for that. It would make it real.
“Listen Hannah, how would you feel about living here all the time?”
I’d expected her to be elated, but she cut a glance at me. “Could Mommy come too?”
“Yes. All three of us. As a family.”
“Yay!” Hannah jumped up and down. “I’d love that.” She wrapped one arm around my leg and the other around Ash’s.
“I think that’s a yes.” He said, leaning over to kiss me before reaching down to pick up Hannah and give her a hug.
Up until that moment, the happiest I’d ever been was six years ago when I was with Ash. For a long time, I thought that was the happiest I’d ever be. I’d peaked at eighteen, and nothing in my life would quite compare to the perfection of that summer.
Giving birth to and raising of Hannah brought me a great deal of happiness, but there had also been a bittersweetness to it because Ash hadn’t been there.
But now, I was so filled with bliss, I wasn’t sure how it could be contained in my heart.
“I’ve never been so happy,” I said, wanting him to know what I was feeling. I wanted to make good on my promise to make sure he always knew how much I loved him.
His smile was so beautiful it took my breath away. “Me neither. How about you? Have you ever been so happy?” he asked Hannah.
“I liked the zoo.”
I laughed.
“I did too. Did you know that the Mermaid Parade is coming next weekend?” Ash said.
Hannah’s eyes nearly bugged out of her head. “With real mermaids?”
“I don’t know,” Ash said. “We’ll need to go find out.”
“Can we, Mommy?”
“Honey you don’t need my permission to do something with your Daddy.”
“She’ll come too,” Ash said. “We’re a family.”
After breakfast, Hannah colored while I helped Ash with the dishes.
“Did I tell you I quit my job?”
“Yes. I hope that wasn’t because of me,” I said.
“I did it in protest of all my dad did to hurt us,” he said putting the just washed pan on the counter.
I picked it up to dry it. “Are you having second thoughts?”
“Not so much. If this deal with your company goes through, I’ll need to be involved especially if Ben won’t be. Not that you couldn’t do it, but—”
“I don’t want to do it.” I looked down, hoping he didn’t think I was expecting to live off him like some gold digger. “I never wanted to go into the family business. I did it because my dad wanted me too.”
Ash stopped washing to look at me. “What did you want to do?”
I laughed. “I don’t know. I can’t remember.”
He reached out and took my hand. “What do you want to do now?”
“Love you and be Hannah’s mom.”
“I can only pay you in sex,” he joked.
“I can live with that. It’s not that I don’t want to work, Ash. I’m not asking for a free ride here.”
“Right now, Hannah needs you. That seems like a full-time job.”
“She goes to school in the fall, which will give me more time.”
“So why not spend the summer figuring out what you want? If you want to go back to school, I’ll pay—”
“That’s not what I’m asking.”
“I know. But it’s what I’m offering. Your happiness is important to me, Beth.”
“You’re the most amazing man in the world, do you know that?”
He grinned. “I was pretty good last night.” Then he kissed my head. “There’s no rush to figure this out. I might need some guidance around Ben, but other than that, you can spend your time with Hannah and figuring out your passion.”
“I know my passion,” I said, waggling my brows. “I just don’t know what I want to do as a career or what my purpose is.”
“You’ll figure it out. I’ll be curious to discover what it is. In the meantime, I should probably go to work to ensure my father doesn’t fuck up this deal—”
“Daddy, that’s a bad word.”
“Ah hell—”
“That is too.”
I laughed. “You’ll figure it out.”
He laughed too and then sobered slightly. “You’re okay with us buying McAdams Enterprises, aren’t you?”
“I’m fine with it. But if it doesn’t work out, I’m okay with that too. Mostly I’d like it for Ben. He’s put so much of himself into it and I hate that it’s completely breaking him.”
“Let me carry that burden with you, Beth.”
I wrapped my arms around his waist and pulled him to me, resting my head on his chest. “All the best things in my life have come when I’m with you.”
33
Beth – The following Saturday
It only took a couple of days to feel like Ash and I had always been together. We settled into a routine easily, spending as much time together as we could with Hannah, settling into being a family.
We had dinner with Hunter and his fiancé Grace, who was a lovely woman, and who Ash credited for helping Hunter deal with his PTSD. They were so sweet with Hannah and I was glad for her to have more family. The next night, we had dinner with Chase and his young wife, Sara, who was very pregnant. She picked my brain about childbirth and being a mom. Later, Kade, who I remembered as being a spoiled brat, and his father came over. I was nervous about seeing Mr. Raven again since he’d caused Ash and me so much pain. He was gracious and surprisingly sweet to Hannah, but that didn’t completely erase my resentment.
By Friday, a crew had come in to turn Hannah’s room into a zoo. Because he had the space, Ash gave her a second room for playing that had her mermaid theme. She was ecstatic and adored Ash. My heart broke open with love every time I saw them together.
Ben grumbled about Ash and me being together but kept his word about not speaking bad about Ash, especially in front of Hannah.
“I don’t want the fucking house,” he’d said when I told him that Ash had given it to us. “Not like that.”
“You’re a pigheaded jerk,” I said. “He�
��s being a better friend than you ever were.”
“I never slept with—”
“Oh, for heaven’s sake, Ben. We love each other. We have a beautiful daughter. It’s time to let it go.”
He was even less thrilled about the idea of the Raven family buying our business. He reluctantly accepted the Raven’s purchase of McAdams Enterprises but was right that our dad would have hated it. Ash’s father wasn’t too excited about it either, and Ash was still having some difficulty with his father over the purchase. Clearly our fathers had a complicated relationship that made both Ash I wonder why they were so invested in keeping us apart.
Fortunately, his brothers were supporting him, and I was sure it wouldn’t be long before the company was absorbed by Raven Industries. It wouldn’t be saved the way Ben had wanted, but at least it would be saved. Many people would keep their jobs. We’d be able to do more for Morgan and her mother as well.
The next weekend we’d be going to Niagara Falls to attend Hunter’s wedding. Hannah was thrilled to go to see a huge waterfall. I was grateful that we were accepted into the family, especially considering all that had happened between Ash and me.
It was Saturday and Ash loaded us up in his car and drove us out to Coney Island for the Mermaid Parade. Hannah was beside herself with excitement.
“I hope she doesn’t explode,” I said looking at her vibrate with anticipation in the backseat.
He reached over and took my hand, bringing it to his lips. “As long as my girls are happy, that’s all that matters.”
He was the biggest romantic. I still kicked myself at my stupidity for nearly losing him.
The parade was filled with mermaids and other sea creatures. We had Nathan’s hotdogs for lunch and perused the boardwalk. It was the type of day a family spent together. My family growing up hadn’t. My father was absent most of my life. But Ash was insistent that we were going to be different from our parents. He was attentive to me and Hannah. I just hoped that he felt the same love and attention from Hannah and me as we felt him shower on us.
After lunch, Ash loaded us all in the car again and we made the two-hour drive out to the Hamptons.
“What is this house, daddy?” Hannah said from the backseat as we pulled into his family’s large beach home.