Beautiful Goodbye

by Chandin Whitten

  I giggled, "Not my fault your dick is like the Hulk."

  "Did you just name my dick the fucking Hulk?" Larkin swore with the biggest shit eating grin on his perfect face.

  "Sure did. Now are you going to show me what the Hulk can do or are you going to..."

  Before I could finish, he was pulling out and slamming back into me causing me to cry out. Trying to cover my mouth as he continued his pursuit, I closed my eyes and felt his piercing every time he filled me up. Whoever invented those piercings, I owed a huge thank you and maybe a kiss? I already liked sex, but those two little balls were a game changer. Not able to keep my hands off him anymore, I reached up grabbing his shoulders and pulled him to me. Larkin's mouth found mine just as another orgasm ripped through me. This time Larkin joined me, feeling his cock pulse inside me sent goose bumps down my body. He had no idea what he was doing to me, I sure as hell didn't want to let him go. Yet.

  Larkin lifted himself off me and grabbed his boxers, slipping them back on before climbing into bed next to me. "Fucking awesome," he declared.

  Rolling my body so I was facing him I smiled. "Not too bad."

  Larkin glanced down at my face then laughed, "You know you’re addicted."

  "To that piercing thingy, hell yes. That thing is like magic."

  "That piercing thingy as you call it is an apadravya. Painful as fuck to get but watching your face is worth it."

  "No pain no gain, right?" I teased.

  "Right, but it’s not like I need that piercing to have you screaming," Larkin bragged.

  I raised one eyebrow and pursed my lips, "Eh, guess we will have to try it sometime and see."

  Larkin was out of my bed and had his boxers off before I could say 'penis piercing'. "What are you doing?" I questioned.

  "Trying it out." Larkin was pulling the bar out and set it on my nightstand before crawling back over me.

  "Isn't there like a waiting time for you guys before you can go again?"

  Larkin shook his head and smirked. "Maybe for those unlucky dicks but when you're around I’m flying half-mast anyway. Just seeing you gets me hard."

  "Oh." I was shocked.

  Larkin grabbed my legs and pulled them apart then ran his hand over my core. He dropped his head and pulled one of my nipples into his mouth as he slipped two fingers into me. Arching my back off the bed, I slid my hand down to find his erection, sitting and waiting between my legs. I grabbed him and rubbed my hand up and down, slow at first then speeding up. Keeping with the tempo of his fingers sliding in and out of me.

  Larkin withdrew his hand and I let go of him, running my hand up along his tight stomach until I was cupping his face. We were looking deep into each other’s eyes, saying what we couldn't with words. I could see so many emotions cross his eyes. I closed my eyes and brought my legs up to rest on his hips and said, "Just fuck me until I forget."

  Larkin nodded then proceeded to thrust into me over and over. He used his thumb to rub my clit and roll it between his fingers. He was pushing me closer and closer to falling off the edge, then he stopped. "Not yet, baby."

  "What the hell? You can't do that," I whined. I'm sure I sounded like some four year old who just had her candy taken away, but I don't fucking care. I wanted it hard and fast.

  "Relax and enjoy it," Larkin growled. After taking it slow and easy for a few minutes he was picking up his pace and once again he was back to pounding into me, exactly what I wanted.

  "I'm going to come Larkin. Oh damn. Holy fuck, I'm so close."

  "Come, now," Larkin hissed through gritted teeth. As I dug my teeth into his shoulder I heard him groan then he ground out, "Fuck me, Jenna. Fuck!"

  One thing I knew for sure, sex with Larkin Nayler would. Never. Get. Old. Ever.

  After taking a few minutes to catch our breath and come back down to earth Larkin leaned up and asked, "So is the piercing needed?"

  I quirked my eyebrows. "Needed? No, you have serious sex skills. Wanted? Fuck yes, that little thing does something to me that I've never felt before."

  Larkin snorted, "Your wish is my command princess."

  After putting his piercing back on he slid into bed and pulled me flush to him. I snuggled into his side and let out a sigh. For the first time in years I felt content. Happy and content. Waiting for something to fuck everything up. It was coming, just a matter of where and when. And I hate waiting.

  CHAPTER 13

  When classes started the following week, I was so stressed from trying to have a functioning relationship that I almost missed my first class and ended up on the wrong side of campus. I felt like a moronic freshman all over again. Thankfully, I left early knowing campus would be packed, and since I had my car, I made it just in time, just as Professor Lynton walked in and took over the room.

  The first day of classes were the worst, just a shit load of paperwork to fill out and a lot of time to think. Sitting in Data Communications, I realized Larkin and I really don't know anything about each other. I know he loves football and tattoos, he's not a fan of tomatoes, and he sleeps naked most of the time, which I find to be very inconvenient in the chance of a fire. Oh and he has his penis pierced. That sums up my knowledge of Larkin Nayler. If we are going to try this relationship thing, I really do need to know more about him. I don't even know when his birthday is for Christ’s sake.

  After two long and boring classes all I wanted to do was go home and relax. But it was Trent's birthday, and everyone had planned on going to dinner at Champs. When I got home, Gage was still in class, or maybe he had football, who knows. I decided to take a bubble bath, it was only three in the afternoon, and we weren't meeting until seven thirty, so I had plenty of time.

  Pulling my hair into a messy bun on top of my head, I stripped my clothes. Once the water and bubbles were perfect, I slowly sunk down into my little piece of heaven and let out a contented sigh of pleasure. Closing my eyes, I shut my brain off and for the first time in weeks, I was relaxed, well as relaxed as I could be. Of course, that didn't last long before my brain was in over drive and all my thoughts were racing around. Maybe I could love. Maybe I could have a healthy relationship. I was slowly figuring out myself and how to be happy. Ah who the hell was I kidding, I had nothing figured out. I was still stuck and saw no escape anytime soon.

  When the water started to get cold I pushed myself up, grabbing a towel to wrap around me before turning on the shower. Dropping my towel, I took a quick shower and dried off. Shrugging into my robe, I walked into my closet to find something sexy, I wanted to get under Larkin's skin...tease him a little at dinner. Champs wasn't a fancy restaurant, more like jeans and t-shirts, but I'm a girl, and I love getting all prettied up even if it is to go to a sports bar-type place. I dug out a pair of dark teal skinny jeans and thumbed through my shirts until I found a light grey scoop neck, three quarter sleeved shirt with ruffles along the neckline. After getting dressed, I ran a brush through my hair, leaving it hang in long waves down my back. I kept my makeup simple with a light pink eye shadow and clear lip gloss. I put in simple diamond stud earrings and went back to my closet to find my grey Steve Madden wedges.

  By the time I was ready and walking into the living room, Gage was sitting at the bar eating a pre-dinner snack. I swear that boy ate all day.

  Walking up behind Gage, I wrapped my arms around his neck and rested my chin on his shoulder and asked, "Ready to go?" Gage nodded his head, shrugged my arms off him hopping off the barstool and going into the kitchen. Gage had been acting really weird the past few weeks, and it was starting to piss me off. He was hot then cold towards me. I understand he was worried about me but I was a big girl and could handle myself. "What's been up your ass lately?" I asked him.

  Dropping his plate in the sink, Gage grabbed the edge of the counter so tight his knuckles were turning white. "You don't get it, do you?"

  I scrunched my face up in confusion. "Get what?"

  Gage lowered his head and took a few deep breaths before bringing his bright b
lue eyes to meet mine. He opened his mouth then closed it, just standing there staring at me. Finally, he let go of the sink and ran his hands through his hair. "Nothing, it’s not a big deal. Let's go so we’re not late."

  Reaching for my hand I pulled away. Narrowing my eyes, I challenged, "Bullshit. You have something up your ass and I don't like it."

  Gage's eyes narrowed as he took two long strides and was standing right in front of me, towering over me. "Fine you want to know what my God damn fucking problem is? You and Larkin! I don't know what the fuck you are expecting me to do but I will not just sit back and watch you go down the same destructive path. Not when I'm standing right in front of you. I fucking love you Jenna and Larkin is going to destroy you."

  I took a few steps back as tears were burning the backs of my eyes. I put my hands on my hips and squared myself up to him. If he thought I was going to relent and walk away from Larkin before I even tried, he was seriously whacked in the head. This was the first time I felt something. I was confused as hell and scared shitless, but for the first time, I wanted to see if I could be happy again. "Are you kidding me right now, just last week you were telling me to trust him and let go of my past. Now that I'm trying to do that you're pissed. Make up your damn mind because I have too much other shit to worry about besides your mood swings. This is me trying to let go of my past and put a little faith into having a good life and you're trying to hold me back. I love you but damn. Go get laid or something and leave me the fuck alone!"

  I twirled around, grabbing my purse and stormed out. Gage whispered something as I slammed the door, but I was too heated to even care. I practically ran to my car hoping I could leave before he came out and tried riding with me. I needed some space before facing everyone at dinner, just a little me time.

  Pulling into the parking lot I looked around for my friends. Finding their cars I parked next to them and pulled down my visor. Looking my face over in the mirror, I could see the unshed tears just sitting, waiting to spill over. I grabbed a napkin from my glove box to dab away the wetness before applying a layer of lip gloss and reaching for my door. Just as I was opening my door it swung open, "Hey, baby," Larkin whispered into my ear as I climbed out.

  "Hey, yourself." I dipped my head trying to hide my face from him. I really was in no mood to answer his questions. Taking a few deep breaths to calm my nerves, I raised my head and wrapped my arms around his large, tight body.

  Larkin placed his thumb under my chin, pulling my face up to look at him. Looking into his warm brown eyes all my Gage induced worries melted away. I knew I shouldn't be opening myself up to this, but there was something different with Larkin. Maybe I was finally letting go of my past and trusting someone else with my heart. I heard tires squealing and a large dark blue truck whipping in beside my car, and reality came crashing down.

  Groaning, I rolled my eyes and placed myself in front of Larkin as Gage jumped from his truck, slamming the door and stomping towards me. I could see the hurt and anger all over his face, this was not good. Gage and I have never fought as much as we have the past few months. I'm not sure where my Gage went, but this new one sucked.

  "The fuck, Jenna?" Gage shouted.

  Crossing my arms, I raised one eyebrow before Larkin was grabbing my shoulder and pulling me back. "You got a problem, Tucker?"

  Our other friends had seen the commotion and were making their way over. The girls were at my side while the guys fixed themselves between Larkin and Gage. Did they really think those two were going to fight?

  I threw my hands up in frustration. "Y'all can't be serious right now? We came here for Trent's damn birthday and I will not let Gage's bipolar mood swings ruin it. Gage, either suck it the fuck up, put your big boy boxers on and celebrate one of your best friends birthdays, or go the hell away."

  Everyone who had been eyeing Gage and Larkin turned their eyes to me. Tyler's eyes darted between Gage and I then Larkin and Gage before he stepped back and said, "I say fuck it, let ‘em go at it. This has been building up for weeks. Maybe if they beat the shit outta each other they will move on and stop this pissing contest."

  What the hell was Tyler talking about? This has been going on for weeks, what has been going on for weeks? Damn these men! I glared at Gage then Larkin. "School just started and I really don't have the time to sit and stroke ya'll's damn ego's to make sure everyone is happy. What about me, what about making me happy!"

  Gage huffed, "Seems like you have plenty of time to stroke his ego, babe. Remember we live in the same damn apartment."

  Before Gage's mouth was closed Larkin was leaping towards him. Jinx and Trent grabbed Larkin by his arms, pulling him back. Lashing around Larkin shook the two guys off and shot daggers at Gage with his dark eyes. "When the fuck you going to get it, Jenna is mine. You had her your whole damn life but she picked me. I win so back the fuck off."

  I jerked back like someone had slapped me. "Shut the hell up, both of you. First off, Gage," I ranted, "What I do is my own damn business. If it bothers you that damn much go find some girl and fuck her. You knew exactly what you were getting when you asked me to live with you, you knew the kinda girl I am."

  I stopped to take a breath and Gage broke in, "A slut? I never knew you were a slut. If I knew that I sure as fuck wouldn't have asked you to move in with me."

  My cheeks heated as anger tore through me. Reaching my hand back I slapped Gage across his face and screamed, "Fuck you Gage Tucker! I don't need your God damn approval to have sex with my boyfriend. Yes, my mother fucking boyfriend. If that makes me a slut then so be it. You have no right to call me names, look at your track record. You out number me any day. Just because you have a penis doesn't make it ok for you to parade around screwing anything that opens its legs."

  Gage was holding his cheek, and I swear I saw tears in his eyes. "Fine, you want me out of your life, Jenna. You got it." Gage didn't wait for a response. He just turned and stalked back to his truck.

  Everyone was silently watching Gage as he started the engine and drove away. Gage actually left me, he had never left me. For the first time ever the one person I could always count on, the one person I knew would always be there...wasn't. And it hurt.

  Fighting my tears back, I swallowed hard and turned to face Larkin. "And for you, I am not yours, I am nobody’s. I'm not some damn trophy you win and place on your shelf. You didn't win shit. Both you and Gage mean a lot to me but if this is what it’s going to come down to, picking you or him...well fuck you both. I pick myself. I have worked too damn hard to get to where I’m at just to let you or Gage ruin it. I have been through enough and I sure as hell ain’t going through it again."

  Larkin lowered his head and grabbed my hands. "I don't want you to have to choose between Gage and me, because I know I wouldn't win. Jenna, having a girlfriend is so fucking new to me and I'm afraid I'm going to fuck everything up and lose you."

  I shook my head and looked at our hands. "Too late Larkin, I think you just did." I dropped his hands and looked one last time into his dark eyes before turning and getting back into my car. I didn't look at anyone as I backed out and sped away.

  So much for Trent having a happy birthday.

  I wasn't sure where to go. I was afraid if I went home Gage would be there. If I went to Sadie's everyone else would be there. Pulling into a parking lot, I shut my car off and laid my head back on the headrest. Closing my eyes I blocked out everything Gage and Larkin, so that left me with...well nothing. My life had become so consumed with the two of them I couldn't even think of one damn thing that didn't have to do with one of them. Stupid boys!

  After sitting in the parking lot for who knows how long I gathered my courage and drove home. Wincing when I pulled in and saw Gage's truck I knew I had no other choice. I had to face him. I wanted my Gage back.

  Taking step after step, I slowly moved towards our front door and pulled my key out. Unlocking the door, I wasn't sure what I would find behind the door, but what I did see was not what I expect
ed. On the couch was Gage with a girl kneeling in front of him, his dick in her mouth and beside Gage was another girl whom he was kissing. Obviously, they were all drunk because it was all slobber and gurgling with the occasional gagging. I was disgusted.

  Slamming the door I walked into the kitchen and flipped the light on. My stomach was starting to remind me I never had dinner. I opened the pantry and looked around, after finding a bag of tortilla chips, I slammed that door closed before opening the refrigerator to get the salsa and a bottle of water. Gage never once acknowledged me, keeping his face stuck in the brunettes.

  I know Gage is no virgin. He was the man whore of our high school, but I had never seen him like this. I had only seen him kissing a few girls but this, this was border line porno shit. Finally, having seen enough I threw my water bottle at them, hitting Gage's thigh. Slut number one yelped like a puppy, detaching her face and slut number two flinched before jerking back. Gage groaned in frustration and tried to focus his eyes on me.

  Finally getting his blood shot gaze fixed on me he snarled, "The fuck?"

  "What the hell do you think you’re doing?" I paused grabbing slut number ones shirt and scrunching my nose at it. Bringing my eyes back to the triple nasties I continued my rant, "That is my God damn couch so get your sluts off it and take your dirty porn to your room. Weren't you just the one bitching at me for having sex with my boyfriend, in my own damn room and now you’re on my fucking couch getting syphilis or God knows what from those two. Grow up or get out, Gage. I'm not playing games."

  "Fine. I'm done protecting you, I've done it long enough. Time for you to grow up and be a big girl. So what you got raped, not like you’re the only girl that's ever happened to. I'll be back tomorrow to get my shit, don't be here," Gage slurred.