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Venera

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by Jay Rogoff


  You’d laugh too. And such laughter! a music

  ringing down centuries, preserved in books

  like wedding roses, like a butterfly,

  a dry, sly rustle snickering, a goy

  in synagogue, the unbelieving smirk

  of Ravenna churches, those shocked mosaics.

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  The angel gestures toward the ram. The son’s

  bound body torques up from the pyre, his eyes

  nudging the angel’s hand. The servants discuss

  the happy ram, the donkey thoughtfully listens,

  and a lizard, crawled from under the bronze

  gleam of a stone, reflects. Even the father’s

  old cloak, flinging a threadbare corner, swears

  that on a nearby cliff the ram sits and suns,

  an obvious solution, overlooked

  only by the old man, his forearm cocked,

  knife mindless as a compass needle, his bent

  body scything away from the quadruped

  and toward the bleating boy, two souls prepared

  for the bleak relief of disappointment.

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  And now the boy’s become an animal.

  Hear how he squeals! But you’d squeal too, arms bound

  behind your back, your trussed joints swiftly browned

  over the laughing flame heating the marble

  altar to a shimmer. Your father’s arms cradle

  your dark head—inhaling, you almost swooned

  beneath the caress of his hardened hand,

  slithering awake as from a tonsil-

  lectomy. Damn his passion for instructions!—

  rigid as a falling campanile,

  his stern robe descending in tiers. Your shrieks

  fly to his ear, buzzing their sweet corrections.

  He’s deaf as bronze. Sometimes it takes an angel,

  someone to grab an arm; whatever works.

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  Funny how it all happens in time’s nick,

  ticked on a fallen watch. We should have guessed

  the kid’s gizzard had to escape unsliced:

  in a frieze on the altar hot as love’s nook,

  our superpatriarch redeems the tyke.

  My hero, cries mama. Hands unclutch her breast

  to take the erect bouquet. We are blessed,

  and our grapevines hang weary with good luck.

  Bronze seduces us to believe permanent

  say, those absurd shoes that carried our first

  steps, bookends for mother’s family bible

  through which our hero’s boy lugs his bronzed moment

  when, like cider laughing from an apple,

  the spirit from his body could have burst.

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  How much richer, my life before the angel.

  One time we hiked, and he knelt on the mountain;

  I hadn’t known a man might kill his son,

  and I tried to laugh. Flames lapped like the spaniel

  mother swore we couldn’t afford. The tickle

  of his bronze blade, excited in the sun,

  stropped on my neck! If only he’d not seen

  the ram. Years later, that rank smell of rough wool

  made me weep for that knife, those wings, the tears

  of joy my father misinterpreted.

  Blindly I blessed my son, my heel, who thought

  he’d snookered me. Ha! Selling soup to Stupid!

  Soup! So light, dark, it all boils down to bless,

  curse. What angel ever dealt with that?

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  The story ends happily. All survive

  save the ignorant ram, white as a Hindu’s

  widow, scratching himself, oblivious.

  The servants stop in midgossip. They knife

  thorns from soles, and wonder if the stream’s safe

  to drink. The lizard flicks his tongue and crawls

  back under his rock. The angel hustles

  home, bolting his door. How can people live?

  The father brings the son home to the wife

  and over mutton stew they share a laugh.

  The old man, passing on his old belief,

  dies leaving the son to confound his own

  twin sons, hopelessly blessing the wrong one,

  life bumbling on in comparative relief.

  2)

  Venera

  How sholde any cherye

  Be withoute stoon?

  And how sholde any dove

  Be withoute boon?

  How sholde any brere

  Be withoute rinde?

  How sholde I love my lemman

  Withoute longinge?

  The Reader

  So many distractions!—the angels crooning

  next door, the organ throbbing down the hall,

  out on the Sheep Meadow where she likes to stroll

  crowds demonstrating at the fountain, chiming

  like crystal. She’s tuned out the singing, the groaning

  virginal, the shouting colors of the parade,

  and the jeweled gravity of her brocade

  hangs on her like air. What can she be reading?

  She happens to turn, happens as she turns

  the page an old hand chances to have written,

  her index finger marking what must happen.

  Lips parted—chanting or astonished—she

  happens to read the one book whose one story

  chances inevitably to be hers.

  The Mother

  Not my mother, certainly, not any-

  body’s mother, yet despite the down-

  cast glance, her face glows—that serene playground

  look you see on young moms in the city:

  engrossed in bestseller lust, but if some bully

  tries to nail her lamb, her clear, alert skin

  will hum brave as an apple, and struck blind

  by love the little thug will slink away.

  Such wide-set knees could magnetize a lover

  marking beneath her gown a field of power.

  Enthroned as on a birth chair, she delivers

  us with one push into the universe,

  rays of light loosed from her loose-shaken hair—

  oh my, my children’s, everybody’s mother.

  The Whore

  Behold the painted woman on her throne,

  my madonna of the patient thighs

  whose book, transfiguring her loneliness,

  tells tales of angels breathing on the phone,

  falling to weightless knees with a heavenly groan.

  If only they wore flesh for underclothes,

  those off-key choirboy-toys. Sighing seductress,

  bone-sick apotheosis of the bone,

  if I could prime under your oily glazes

  till your book smacked the floor, I’d wring a cry

  from your high throat. Throw off your diadem.

  Apprentice me beneath your jeweled hem

  to labor in profound, unpainted places

  I can’t get free. But I would pay, and pay.

  The Light

  The gold light’s created in the east trees,

  abrupt against trunks, lovely in the limbs

  looming like X-ray bones. In these rooms

  new light makes everything antique—the brass

  bed, oak dresser, last night’s whisky—suffuses

  the rediscovered world like gilt combs

  combing gold hair, winnowing from my dreams

  streaks of sheer light whose falling mess of rays

  eliminates the need for clothes. White light

  at day’s height batters us from far above

  the trees, wanting nothing to do with skin’s

  effusions or healthy glow, but like night

  indifferent to the colors of my love,

  the gold light that dances around her bones.

  The Window

  On one side of the window lives t
he world,

  on the other the word. Her articulate

  heat permeates the gloom, kindling my sight

  till it flames like a movie frame stalled

  in the projector. Alas, my poor world, charred

  past repair! Let it fall to her maidish fate,

  yes, she does windows, millennia of soot

  redeemed on long hair, just a smidge of nard;

  then with her lips she’ll seal the brittle glass,

  annealed by syllables that radiate

  their glow through layers translucent as her skin.

  If ink on paper glittered like her glazes,

  I’d wrestle down opaque words to create

  a stained world as transparent as our own.

  The Daughter

  I fall in love too easily with daughters

  who’ve got this thing for Daddy. Subtle Barbara

  sprawls meditative as a saint—her tower

  in mid-erection, Papa’s hundred workers

  grunting—reading her book. Astride the tractor’s

  fender, my first wife chattered to her somber

  father. The haying kept her happier

  than wading at the Cape, quaint towns in Flanders,

  the altar’s sworn embrace, the nuptial bed.

  Cut out the squawking. Here’s one more beauty hung

  up on Pop, hovering like a hawk over

  his princess, talons out for any lover

  who flashes like a falcon on her string,

  homing to that heart kept chaste for Dad.

  The Door

  Either a door is swinging or it’s still;

  it’s open or it’s shut. I can imbibe

  aromas, I can hear an angel sob—

  me, moaning in poor prayer as I kneel

  holding my breath, beholding through the keyhole

  no Degas glimpse of her astride the tub

  but full-spread thighs beneath her velvet robe.

  Haven’t I given you my naked soul?

  Open to me my perfect one, my dove.

  The ushers have removed the last drunk guest.

  Feel your heart buck against mine as we clutch—

  Hey! Open up! Clocks are striking, let’s thrust

  the bolt aside, our fingers dripping flavor.

  I stand ready, hand trembling on the latch.

  The Vessel

  It’s hard to conceive. I’m conducting research:

  the leading candidates are cosmic rays,

  some word raking hell through the universe,

  a magic seed, or, in the joke a drunk French

  priest once told me, “C’était le pigeon, Joseph.”

  Picture it in a flask, like the old Pyrex

  stomach where Rolaids used to neutralize

  our belly’s sins. It’s not the clearest image,

  this cockeyed gnostic gynecology.

  Still, her carriage in that heavy crown and dress,

  the oceanic patience in her face,

  and the calm finger that holds off for later

  her book’s climax, which she knows she’ll get to,

  confide her love can bear the world and me.

  The Virgin

  Her back turned on his primal nakedness,

  her downcast eyes defy the gaze of the naked

  woman, a fallen version of herself naked.

  She reads aloud to gilt her loneliness,

  rose rising in her face, the syllables

  clothed in her clear soprano as the body

  with muscle, bone, and sphincter clothes a void,

  in garments rich and pure as nakedness.

  The midnight velvet of her gown redeems

  her own untouchable, her own un-

  imaginable nakedness—bare arms,

  breasts, belly, maidenhood in a golden grove.

  Forever in her cloth of honor’s weave

  a gold horse kneels, bearing its golden horn.

  The Sister

  In the Park marching, voices ringing, at stake

  all vulnerable virtue, “No more!” they shout,

  “No more martyred sisters! Take back the night!”

  By day the tower rises and the lock-

  smith labors. Some of the best will starve stuck

  in penthouse keeps, some stumble in the street

  where a knife at the throat cuts off debate.

  Don’t be oblivious. Put down that book.

  And when the dance floor heats up, don’t react;

  keep cool, a phoenix—no smiles, no eye contact:

  that de la Renta suit conceals a slasher.

  “Hey, sister,” whistles the construction worker.

  “Is it a good book?” whispers the junk-bond broker.

  How shall the world be saved, beloved sister?

  The Field

  But into what shall we beat our plowshares?

  The grain strains skyward with the best of us,

  but my love keeps its vigil in the furrows

  where zygotes sprout in passion, where the source

  suckles the jailbreaking seed, drunk with tears,

  until, against the air, it joins the lace

  lining the field’s lips, only to shoot like rice

  back earthward, raining on us in the mire’s

  embrace. So all aspiration recycles.

  Love straitens us to drag us in the ditch,

  one of the universe’s dirty jokes

  you wouldn’t tell at the drunkenest party.

  But it’s our joke, our love that’s rude and dirty,

  and when my lady suffers an itch, I scratch.

  The Ark

  She’s so well-built, so trim, that any wind blows

  her gently. Despite the warped world, she weathers

  the wickedness of pimps and undertakers,

  steering by her constellated virtues

  her living cargo through the roughest seas

  to port, where she must fend off smirks of sailors

  and smart remarks of salesmen; and she batters

  them back simply by averting her gaze.

  In the warm hold, hidden, the animals

  smolder, steam wafting from their hides and nostrils,

  spring coiling round them, long cooped up, kept chaste,

  a rumbling as in the guts of the earth—

  can she keep these beasts clean, mad with their fast,

  this keen desire desiring to give birth?

  The Queen

  Smell the lilies and the columbine,

  intoxicating rose, seductive lily

  of the valley, come smell! Can’t they die?

  Must they suffer the hothouse of her crown,

  the stars of her triumphant constellation,

  these fresh-cut flowers trumpeting the sky,

  woven into jewels, pearls, filigree,

  the spoil of oysters and the bloodstained mine?

  Well, she’s a queen, our lady must exploit

  her naked subjects to keep lushly dressed—

  fair tribute to the fair. I swear by the First

  Amendment to stand erect. The cheapest

  whore is as worthy of rank worship. Yet

  smell those flowers, the perfume at her throat!

  The Handmaid

  After traveling all day you’ll arrive

  half-dead, an inn where upstairs you’ll discover

  a bed so made you’d choose to sleep forever

  or immortalize the shredding ache of love

  as though such verging on climax were life.

  You’ll ask, “Who is the angel of this chamber?”

  and hearing water poured into a laver

  turn and be taken by her. How to save

  her from these rooms, the dusty uniform

  in which she curtsies now, how to transform

  her—jewels! robes!—what words of veneration?

  A kiss might lure her into bed, where you

  might barter some cheap ring. S
uch dreams, my hero,

  such velvet longings. Such imagination.

  The Soul

  Flesh creates language, launching empty air

  through her svelte throat’s muscular double reed,

  tongue and teeth drumming it to crescendo

  up over her lips’ sensuous sculpture.

  Her word shrinks my world to a sheer idea.

  And flesh makes paint: bones and muscles grind

  earth; a dollop of oil, some sweat, and I stand

  in my round world with a flat paramour

  wrecking my perspective, offering me

  a book, a blessing, a piece of fruit, salvation,

  as if the flesh I paint could make me spirit.

  Clothes make men. The dance drives ecstasy.

  No fire to her beauty without ignition,

  no life without the bed, the people in it.

  The House

  The house is packed, stacked. Bodies assemble

  to watch a ballerina in a hush

  of music—make it Suzanne Farrell—push

  sex skyward into an ethereal

  realm. Here in the fourth balcony hearts tremble

  at such elevation, her arabesque

  rippling up through the dark while ushers blush

  at the elongate angle of her ankle.

  The Gothic architecture of her body

  obliterates all sense of ours, its lame

  excuses melting with its aches. My lady

  is built like that, propped up by knees and elbows;

  the shelter of her hair, her hearth call, “Dance.”

  Enter, and be danced to another home.

  The Earth

  Deep in a black hole see my bluest lady,

  blue luminosity fixed like a jewel,

  tilt 23° from vertical

  the axis of her head, her upper body

  and mind bent like a divining rod toward me,

  allowing me latitude from pole to pole.

  I hope no more than to play her footstool;

  the curtains of her robe descending round me

  bring night lit by aromas of the sea,

  the harbors of a sunken continent

  of her desire rotating hourly by our

  jeweled movement. Why turn to lighter day?

  Stay to rain on this mutable planet

 

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